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After seeing the end of journey of being as an assistant teacher, I’ve all want to share my blessings that takes me from every chapter has moving within me. This is the part 2 of The tale of assistant teacher.

 

Love life has moved twice as I’ve reached the mountains. But the roadblock at the end of the road told me to move on. Why was it happened me between being having as an assistant teacher? Was I even told to be a better assistant teacher? Or was it somebody who doesn’t like too much of being noisy adult? I was always talking and talking to myself in a minutes or in an hour. Telling you the truth honestly, some of the lessons I’ve been going through proved my excellence in my journey. I wasn’t noisy as anymore before. I was waiting for someone listening my side of my story. But was it someone who can lean to?

 

I’ve covered my eyes as I was waiting for my side. I’ve also covered my ears so I won’t listen to the story. When did I stop talking raging nonsense? I’ve full of passion, full of energy and full of hope. All my positive sides wanted telling you I was able telling the truth.

 

Honestly I wasn’t perfect human as God says in the bible, ‘there is no perfect human in the world.‘ True. But I hope it would allow somebody to tell the truth. All the angels were sending from heaven telling me if I would continue be a humble person. But I didn’t know which one I was suppose to do.

 

Let me tell you my whole story from the beginning I went through the start of my story:

 

“The school orientation came over on 10th of June, 2013. And every parent was there to hear from the stories of two teachers, one from preschool who came to teach the preschoolers and one from special education who came to teach special education kids how to handle on their own in the future. And it was a surprise that my bosses told me that they coped with my problems. I did telling them that I’ve had being having with Down syndrome. But they didn’t know with the word of mosaic Down syndrome, trisomy 21. It was a sudden blessing from heaven that I sent here for a mission. And it was all started to be humble from the good beginnings that begun.

 

I told them that mosaic has two copies of chromosomes is normal and one copy of chromosome has extra set. Which it is why it formed mosaic Down syndrome. Even Dr. Jerome Lejeune discovered before. But holding right there from my chromosome, my knowledge that I learned. I also hope to bring a message to all special parents who helped their special child to grow like I was standing. My two bosses were taking their jobs as school administrator, principal and also being part as an occupational therapist. Then I started to know when will I begin from my job.

 

The start of classes went by as the school started on 17th of June, every child has own their behavior. Their behavior that my boss told me being part of growing up have to nurturing their talent. Which was it how it handle the special kids? From ADHD, autism, cerebral palsy and even Down syndrome, the four cases I saw from different special kids in the classroom. I’ve learned new things that I discovered. But my world shook at the back of my mind what needs to learn must have extra careful. To set aside, the nutrition month was coming, the month of July. And there was an interns. And an interns from MCU were optometrist graduates. They were here to practice their lives. And so my life henceforth held on.

 

New things I discovered that those of who having had troubles with extra care must know how to overcome. And new discovery must learn how to cope with the problems in the future. And I learned each of trials or problems may come must confront of all details. And I fell in love looking one intern who was my one of my type. But I didn’t mind to fall in love. Because it gave me a new inspiration. And a new inspiration came to build my character. Those things in life were about to unfold the new secrets of love life.

 

So the nutrition month came finally over. I’ve enjoyed the feeling of being youth again. My boss turned good friend of mine. He was able to know my feelings and my inner strength. I’ve must confronted all the details that my mom didn’t know. The negative came from my mom’s aura. But my positive aura came bigger and bigger. And so to tell you my story, before the vacation nulled me thinking right now, the month of August also came. It swept my thoughts at the back of my head that the livelihood project I was working on failed to my own hands. But I learned the lessons that I must strived back with my own hands. And my boss was right that I’ve had to move on. But the typhoon swept all the problems came in. As we started to rebuild new school ground, we relocated new higher facility and bigger spaces to fill in. But the problem came in.

 

As the month of September 2013 came in, we handled our first language of the month (buwan ng wika) supposed to held last month of August. If the typhoon didn’t persisting to trouble with us, then the language of the month didn’t have to occur. The event was successful. Some kid won in the competition and some kid won the hearts in the audience. It really captivated the hearts of many students participated in the event. It was a brilliant idea. But the fact 13th of September came in, I felt I didn’t want to leave the kids alone with someone they really wanted to keep with. I never said that I won’t come back. But I promised that I would go back. As you promised one word, you kept it from your actions. If it failed, you were a failure. But failure sometimes took granted to rebuild the trust.

 

I went to Toronto attending my sister’s wedding with my family. And it was my first time in my life I felt I didn’t sleep the whole trip. I was scared of a whole trip might falling down like a turbulence in the movie. So I felt right from my shoes and my feet. I felt scared. But God alone never leaves us. He kept me awake instead and enjoyed watching movies. I also played some of tetris game. But the fact I’ve enjoyed, I’ve finished 6 movies in my first trip going to Toronto. My sister’s wedding was beautiful. She was dressed like a beautiful princess. And my new brother came to welcome to our new family, my sister’s husband. So I was happy to meet new family. When will I have my own family? When it will stop that my mom would nagging me all the time? But hey, I was blessed to have with them on my life. Then on the way back to the Philippines, I’ve also finished 7 movies and played a little game of tetris.

 

On the way back to the Philippines after the storm finished before we came in the territory of Philippines, I was happy to see the students again. I was happy and turned to be a responsible adult. And being part as a special adult, a lot of things turned good and bad news came in. The bad news was when the preschool teacher left us without a notice. But I continued to communicate with her until now. And the good news that I became a full-time assistant teacher in the school being also part in the morning classes with the preschool kids. The kids were happy to see me again.

 

When the September was over, the October came surprisingly knocking to my new blessing – attending a children’s party who someone in DSAPI praised me as well. Her daughter turned one year old. And I met new parents again who also have special child with Down syndrome. I felt blessing to them. Meeting new parents and a special child felt the same way I was raised by own special parents. Then one special education teacher came over at the start of the month of November, a friend of special education teacher who came from one school they attended the same school. It gave me something that knocked to my senses.

 

After hearing the truth when my boss was asking me that I’ve had a crush to the special education teacher, it was then pushing to my limitations that I must forget my ex-girlfriend. Having going back with my ex-girlfriend was already hard to push on because she was engaging to married someone else. So the December’s Christmas party came over. The Christmas party was success event. And from at the back of my mind played a lot of imaginations before the 2014 came over. The new life succeeded to me that I’ve had a new job – being as an assistant teacher on my fourth job in my resume. And I was happy that I’ve had regular job already, my first one.

 

2014 came over at the start of January. It was then I realized that something intuition came again for me. I didn’t mind noticing it. But I was afraid to sense it again. But I forgot how to praise myself having with a regular job. Then the troubles came on the month of February 2014. After my parents heard that I’ve had getting a salary from my regular job, the intuition was right. It was my mistake but new lessons that I learned. I stopped from being what it took from my job. I was afraid to let it go and wanted continuing my mission with the students wanting to see me happy again.

 

The month of March came in, my emotions came and ate my pride. I didn’t know what happened to me. It started to crumble like a rock falling from the mountain or something it never did happening to my life. It was then my intuitions came over. As I sensed it, the ESP or Extra Sensory Projection (sixth sense) has learned throughout my predictions. Before the retreat was going to start soon, I’ve stopped working with them on my final day on 24th of March. From my conscience, I didn’t want to leave them alone but to prosper with my blessings on them. My mom talked about negative things again. She always wanted to have bringing negative things all the time. It was then that I’ve repelled her negatives into positive notes.

 

The time I’ve stopped working with my load provider before, my mom scrutinized and if the load business crumbled, where will I get the money always spending to sell the cellphone loads of them. I’ve to repelling them. So I thought my positive notes came true. This was the basic truth. Being having with positive life must learn the conscience the truth of positive notes. After I went through all the problems, no negative thoughts would allow entering at the back of my head. It was then I never hesitated. I stopped hesitating. And I didn’t want believing the negative thoughts.”

 

This was the tale of assistant teacher part 2. It covered the whole story from Assistant’s desk to Assistant’s corner: Going back around. The additions to the story I’ve added have come to seal the words that I brought it up. Lesson number one is never treat negative thoughts at the back of your head. Lesson number two allows you to remember your good deeds, positive mind and fills your hopes and answers. What will you do if you’ve encounter the same fate that I’ve? Don’t treat the negative. Allow positive flowing to your energy chakra.

 

The second part of conclusion was brought to the end. “Don’t be afraid of your future is awaiting for you, but allow them to come over for you to experience and endure the problems. Let the future handle you and the prosper won’t hurt you but you learn the blessings come knocking to your heart. Remember this as you guide your life alone in the way of beautiful life.

 

Conclusion article post:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/04/08/assistants-corner-the-tale-of-assistant-teacher/

 

Previous Assistant’s corner article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/31/assistants-corner-going-back-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/26/assistants-corner-when-it-comes-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/23/assistants-corner-the-beginning-of-new-life/

 

Previous Assistant’s desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/10/assistants-desk-new-life-has-blossom/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/01/11/assistants-desk-friends-forever/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/25/assistants-desk-last-christmas-party/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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What is it taking to have a new life? Is it possible to tell a new life? How about turning back and redo all the things I’ve been asking? It was not usually that have been passed already to me. So I really gather how to put these things straight. When my life started working before, I was feeling guilty, loveless, anger and frustrated. New things have been passed throughout my life. But nevertheless I felt nothing. It felt my shameful from the beginning.

 

That was the time when I’ve had with my first experience to have a girlfriend. But it flew away from me like a piece of paper written down full of I LOVE YOU, SWEETHEART or something that bothered me from the beginning. The paper I threw it out from my pocket and trashed it already inside the garbage bin. New life has created. And new evidence has turned out good. Good beginnings created new humble beginnings. From where I stood when I was holding from my two hands, I felt from my feet that was shivering from my bones. I thought it was already too late. But it never felt me that wasn’t good. It always crossed me inside of my head.

 

The first girlfriend I’ve had experiencing with, I gave up and have to obey my the rules and regulations. And I’ve returned to single hood again. To think that I was supposed to satisfy my life back then, it was crucial at that moment. And that moment stole my life to have a meaningful way. But those kind of words never dealt me the same way. And I will tell you what I’ve been doing from the start I am doing.

 

This is about my story. And the story has greater possibilities in life:

 

“In the third week of May, 20th day of May, I was invited to see Nick Vujicic in SM Mall of Asia music hall when DSAPI held the invitations for those who just came and saw the event. It was real when disabilities were united as one. But from where I heard from Nick’s voice, my head tilted and said, ‘you must confirm all the greatness of your life, don’t be afraid of who you are. Get out from the shadow and start again from when you are born.‘ And yes, I proved all the possibilities in life was dreaming positive and drew out from my aura that I would do it. And so the next day came, 21st day of May, I went somewhere to have walk-in to apply. It was humid. And I felt something the sun coming inside of my body. So I went instead the classroom instead the office where I went in Cainta Greenpark Village for the first time.

 

When the glimpse of young man married in his early of his 30’s got a chance seeing me in a nice outfit, I came upon seeing two female teachers and one who had became an assistant to them. And upon he said to me, ‘return the day when we call you.‘ When he said that, I wasn’t confirming that I was applied for any positions. Then the next two days, I went to SM Megamall when the job fair held for various jobs that you want to seek. And so I applied two call center positions for tech support and one position in Manila Bulletin for being as a writer or a graphic artist. The next moment I feel was my intuitions. It would became easy for me if that walk-in apply would be best for me. But it never crossed to my mind. And I said and asked myself, ‘what if I never want this life before, I could redo this before having to look for a job.‘ But it was my instincts.

 

Five days later, a humid morning although I was playing an old facebook application game called Farm Town. It was 10:30 in the morning. The sun barely wanted to touch my skin and my head spilled from one moment, it was already the time when someone called from my cellphone. And when it rang, I suddenly picked up and answered and said, ‘who is this in the line please?‘ It was a sudden pressure from my chills to my bones. It was something I felt the past week. It was my intuitions again. And so the call said that I’ve had to go to my appointment interview around 1 in the afternoon. I set up a time. I didn’t get bath in time yet. I was smelling like you don’t want to smell me for. So after the game I finished, I hurriedly got a bath, dressed up quickly in my neat and tidy clothes and left the house around 12 past in the afternoon.

 

When I came around 12:45 in the afternoon in the office, I felt nervousness. The air conditioner felt nothing for me because I came from scorching sun that wants to melt me away. One looking good looking guy with eyeglasses dressing up like a professional came to me and said, ‘are you here looking to apply?‘ And then I’ve answered, ‘yes.‘ For the moment he gazed from the clothes I was wearing, he came off the place I supposed to have interviewing me. And as I thought, I’ve had the feeling that I wasn’t able to get a job right away. My intuitions got me wrong. But when he came back and said, ‘come around and take a look inside the classroom.‘ I got off from my chair sitting with nervousness written in my face. And I came off going with him to the classroom across from another building we would go.

 

As I started walking inside the classroom, he started talking to me again and said, ‘well, we need you to have it here. What position do you want?‘ He asked me again with a quick question. Did I get a job right away? I was obviously hinting the answer saying no I can’t have a job right away. But the intuitions said it was yes. It got me a job. And I’ve started to say my answer and said, ‘anything you could me offer me a position, I can do it properly and learn how to do it.‘ I’ve answered my smart thoughts clearly at the back of my head. And he was amazed from ideas and said, ‘that would be great. The teacher needs you to have an assistant in the afternoon, you can be a sped assistant teacher.‘ To think out of my mind, I was quickly noticing it that they were welcoming me.”

 

It finally paved way another chapter of my life, a new job, a new career and a best move to conquer my loneliness after I broke up with my girlfriend some few days ago. It was then I realized the faithful day chosen me to have a new job. And this was the tale of assistant teacher who never got wrong from his intuitions. His intuitions always served it right and it proved yes all the time.

 

The conclusion was already over. This Assistant’s corner: The tale of assistant teacher was the last page of this series. Although it got me a fourth job in my resume, it added a wonderful career that set good examples, courage and perseverance looking for a good job. The fifth job is coming on the month of May. This has something that sets me a good life with a new beginning again.

 

New beginning creates a path of courage, perseverance, honest and positivity life I always have. Setting a good life means a lot to me. Setting a goal is something that I always want to have new chapter. And it always have the meaningful way. From Assistant’s desk to Assistant’s corner, this has simultaneously written in different months that was started on August 2013 and it ended this month of April 2014. From cover to cover, it has 17 different pages and different filled in blank pages. I thought I would never come up with this series, but it did with a positive life.

 

Looking for a brighter future comes with full of integrity. Full of integrity comes my passion. And passion creates new vision of beginnings. And beginning is always has the same knowledge written in one word – positive.

 

Previous Assistant’s corner article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/31/assistants-corner-going-back-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/26/assistants-corner-when-it-comes-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/23/assistants-corner-the-beginning-of-new-life/

 

Previous Assistant’s desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/10/assistants-desk-new-life-has-blossom/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/01/11/assistants-desk-friends-forever/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/25/assistants-desk-last-christmas-party/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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Anxiety means in dictionary: 1a. painful or apprehensive uneasiness of mind usually over an impending or anticipated ill, b. fearful concern or interest, c. a cause of anxiety. 2. An abnormal and overwhelming sense of apprehension and fear often marked by physiological signs (as sweating, tension, and increased pulse), by doubt concerning the reality and nature of the threat, and by self-doubt about one’s capacity to cope with it.

 

It’s doubting me whenever I have an anxiety. But somehow, overruling by what you are concerning is yourself. I may be not a perfect human, but God sees me as a gifted child through intercession and guiding me as well. But the most concern sometimes whenever you see your special child is different from other children. You see the child is not going friendly, perhaps it needs more attention to your child.

 

When I was still working in the school as an assistant teacher, I saw some other children mostly with case-in-condition. One was guiding very well with the teacher. And I, on my part, also guided but assisted in the same way the teacher doing to their students. The social anxiety like our student in the school is different. It doesn’t want to part way with her mother. Thus, regardless to say, it needs more training at home and it lacks a follow-up doing assignments also at home. Or nevertheless, the teacher and I have to cooperate the needs of attention among of the students we are handling.

 

Today, I am going to tackling some anxiety quotes if I have to profound the details needed in the classroom setting or at home when you have problems with your special child with special needs. It may be have your special child with Down syndrome, autism or ADHD. Some of our students in school has both difficulty learning cases having with Down syndrome and autism.

 

Part XII

The social anxiety doesn’t depend in situation between the special child and the special parent. But it needs more comprehensive details. Thus says the Lord, “those who have troubles with special child doesn’t concern to me anymore. Guiding them, taking care of them and understanding may have a role understanding between the special child and the special parent.

 

I don’t have much troubles being something in my issues. But the anxiety attacks me is myself. I don’t go out whenever I have emotion troubles with myself. To continuing life with conditions, it verifies me that I have to continue what my vision tells me to do. And my mission tells me that I have to help other special parents who need attention from their special child.

 

Here on my four quote poems that will express your day and it might clear your situation is:

 

Quote #1:

It depends what I have in situation. I doubt too much of myself. And I fear no less in my emotions. But I fear with my anxiety.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

You clearly misunderstand of your situation. But yet at the end of the day, you cleared your mind that you can’t be that way all the time. You must stand to your negative outcomes to your door. Clear your emotions. Without it, you can enjoy your happy life with your special child. I may be don’t have experiences in my part of my life. But I understand now how the anxiety from the special parent and the special child needed to say.

 

Quote #2:

Nobody wants to stay on your way. Nobody wants to help your special child. And nobody wants to understand how behavior your child has with anxiety.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

Coming from a middle-class family I was, I didn’t see how much different from my four siblings. My dear two elder sisters were working in other country. My sister had working with her culinary status. But my brother with ADHD needs to know what anxiety tells him about. I may be don’t know how to explain this. The way I understand what the anxiety is something I must learn from the dictionary meaning. I can overcome what your anxiety tells you about. The more you express yourself is sometimes freeing you from your doubts and fears.

 

Quote #3:

It never lasts an opportunity with your anxiety if you come in your work anything to do in your life. You lose consciousness yourself and yet you find yourself in different situation. Don’t hesitate to ask yourself and let God answer your troubles.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

It came from my last previous work. But to insist with my anxiety, I learned that I won’t never do that again. It was my lessons that I’ve to learn. Well, everything set to every detail of work. Honestly, I’ve really enjoyed working with my bosses and the teachers who have been part through my life. With them, I would’ve known to love my work so well. It was so amazing that God permitted me to work with these good positive nature on my side. Why would you be to like this job? Being as an assistant teacher proved well that I can do it better to my new jobs in the future.

 

Quote #4:

The more anxiety you have is the more troubles you will have in the future. Nevertheless, don’t come out the door unless you clear your anxiety inside at the back of your head.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

Yes, it may sounds intriguing at the back of your mind. But to tell you honestly, it recalled back to my memories in the past. It was reminiscing me back to my old college days. I was purely getting out of luck. Out of my anxiety, I would’ve never knew that I loved the girl I really like before. But in the end, it hurt me really bad for me. It was an instant. Suddenly with the frightening to my heart, I already closed my anxiety and then left them alone at the door. Leaving them is one step. And you’ll learn something new in the future.

 

The next Living in my own shoes being as Down syndrome: Enveloping new fear will tackle more issues  of rejections and other fears you have, and I tell you what to do in the upcoming articles. Don’t forget to bookmark the article you are always reading.

 

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As life went on to another stage, another scenario and another life book chapters, I was looking forward to a brighter days. But I will tell you how I am lucky where I am going to the right path today. Soon but not so sooner, it will take time to me leading my new future. Probably I am not looking for a work in entertainment industry but staying good working here in the school as an assistant teacher. Well probably, it might knock my doors if I can go to entertainment industry or maybe I will go modeling career instead. But I am assuming that I still have a work in school.

 

Seven months that I was working as an assistant teacher already. It was meant for me to follow my own dreams whether I shall not breaking my promises as a dancer, as an artist, as a photographer and as a writer too. I may sound an ambitious person, but I am as well as an optimistic and limitless person who have dreams to follow on my own.

 

Let me a recap in the past three years already from 2011. I was beginning to accept my condition having with my disability. July 15, 2011 was the beginning to open my eyes I was able to hear some networkers (who were working in multi-level marketing companies such as 1Bro, VMobile, Forever Living, UNO, etc.) calling themselves as an abnormal. But their term to call themselves as an abnormal, they were referring to become successful and rich people. It was against all odds when I lasted working with UNO days from June to October 2011. Then after a few months later, I also joined to another networking company the defunct VMobile for selling their load products indicating that they were still recruiting some people to add their money to go rich. What can you do if you are selling those load products? But mine was different.

 

After I went back to my old provider in July 2012, the D-Loads. VMobile gave me an another lesson never to go back to the networking days. Because I heard some millionaire in VMobile referring to some mongee as ngongo (ngongo means as in english as an inappropriate term for speaking verbally to Down syndrome and other disabilities as well). He was a selfless person who was using a word deriving from as a shortcut from mongoloid. Ouch!

 

The time I was already subsiding my life going back to reality. I’ve attended my first seminar of Early Intervention Seminar in August 2012 who was then the wife of a president of DSAPI introduced to some new parents in the seminar as well. I was shocked when new parents was amazed from I became today as a high-functional intellectual disability person. To tell the truth, all of these blessings kept coming in for me, I was always to accept what was right from wrong. Whenever it was wrong, I’ve never made to accept it. Rather I’ve accepted the right blessings coming for me.

 

Hence, the new membership identification card was made during the Christmas party 2012. I became a member of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI. My angels told me that I have to fixed my life today. And so also, I made a new historical date to my name that I’ve decided to becoming a special adult advocate for Down syndrome. But before the Christmas party, I was also invited by an UST student president who I talked my first short inspirational speech in their school. To become a new special advocate, I was aware that this was the track helping myself in a brighter future.

 

Last February 2012 was my first Happy Walk to attend the event and was also my birthday. But my second Happy Walk 2013 was even getting to know in a community better and better. Some new parents had to meet me. And I was amazed someone finally recognized my talent in writing an article here in my studio as well. I became also as an aspirant to many parents who have had their special child with Down syndrome just like me. I was working alone independently without a knowledge my parents knew about me. But at the end of the day, I told them honestly where I was going to this place.

 

Last year was a huge blessings from me. When I’ve applied in many applications from NBI clearance, passport, police clearance, my first PWD identification card and a medical certificate. And I didn’t know along the way that this was my girlfriend proved me that I have to push myself having to get a work ahead. Even if I did, then it probably both of us have had to decide to go back in any ways of living to work. My ex-girlfriend right now don’t have work. But I didn’t know myself either that I became a regular to the school where I was working as an assistant teacher.

 

The next thing it is approved for this year of 2014, I will becoming to sign a contract for having another year extension to my work hopefully as a productivity person as well. And to this day very moment, last two days I have had a tryout in bowling of Special Olympics hoping I will compete someday in Special Olympics. But I am determining to have my way of my path to success growth of my life.

 

That was my part accepting my condition having with mosaic Down syndrome. It doesn’t take me who I am, but I am happy for what I am today. Having part of this society makes me challenging. What challenges are telling me today, they are for my future, present and the past. What past is already past? I’ve been in denial stage before. And now I’m ready for my blessings to come moving forward for me.

 

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Page Seven

From bitterness to brightness, better life without a relationship

 

From bitterness to brightness

 

I’ve been in denial stage before. But now I overcome my bitterness days that is becoming to brightness today.

 

What is bitterness days you’ve?

 

I have bitterness days before. It was complicated. And I couldn’t tell what I should start from the beginning. It has something that I can’t change for what I am today.

 

Tell me about yourself in your present times. What is your work? What do you do the most for 2014?

 

I am working as an assistant teacher. And I almost love my work because I am committed to work with my bosses. My children are my life. They are the ones who bring me happiness the most of my centered life today. And for 2014, I want to do something bigger opportunities ahead of me. And I wish something bigger opportunities would come and I will grab it.

 

Better life without a relationship

 

If you can imagine yourself having with someone you really want to love for, it is something you can exchange back with your decision and what leaves you behind.

 

What is your better life without a relationship?

 

I have better life today. Now because I don’t have a girlfriend. But I am committed to my work as an assistant teacher and helping out the school needs even I don’t have a girlfriend today.

 

Would you have a girlfriend today?

 

No, I would not dare to excuse myself to have a girlfriend today.

 

Tell me about yourself what happened between you and your girlfriend. And what do you need the girls to know about you?

 

I have my girlfriend before. My first girlfriend. And I thought it was only a fling to me. My girlfriend and I’ve had similarities. But over some things, we could argue about only her. She couldn’t change herself much when the times needed. To overreact those small things, she would rather rule out what is good and what is bad. To tell you the truth honestly, I almost didn’t tell her that I still love her until today. But she has a boyfriend already. She can exchange me totally from anybody else. We were in the same age. But somehow, I almost lost count how many times I fell for her. And the girls have to know what is all about me. They have to know about me personally inside and out. I don’t care what their looks are as long they have beautiful soul inside and out. And the only thing I like from the girls are being simple, be open-minded, always speak out from her emotions, carries her emotion to open-minded and has not to be a liar. I could tell a girl if she is lying to me. Because I have intentionally feel something strange from a girl.

 

If you are ready to commit have a girlfriend today, would you marry her? Explain and why.

 

Yes, I would marry her. I am right condition to marry her even both parties from her side and my side would say yes. Then we would continue marrying to a fruitful life of relationship.

 

Have you dating someone else?

 

No.

 

One last question. If there is some you really love yourself, you really decide what you love the most. But the regret is that you don’t achieve that first, because you almost wreck your limitations. But you already fall in love. Would you still regretting the matter even if you fall in love to somebody else? And why?

 

Maybe if I am regretting the matters because I already have to decide what leaves me the most. I would rather not to give my love life for something I am falling for. But in return, my relationship with her would do something to exchange to a better team. Better team means that I should build my relationship level with her, build my own family and live the utmost life we have. And I almost not to decide because the regrets would not matter to me anymore. Because she is all that it is important to me now.

 

How sweet you are. This man with Down syndrome is still single. And I hope you find some girl out there exclaiming how gentle and how sweet words you will explain. In this article of Fruitful of Happiness, I’m your host for the day and have a nice wonderful day to all of you and see you in a next article.

 

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Long before Rico Yan came in entertainment world, I didn’t know who I was today. Despite my disability being having with Down syndrome was not a hindrance to me anymore. But to tell you the truth, I have many troubles came when I was a kid.

 

1981 was a year when I came in. Pope John Paul II was having giving a mass in Quezon Memorial Circle when the time I was born already. But my parents gave me a nickname through Pope John Paul II and my real name came from my grandfather’s name and also from my father’s name also. To decide what was given to my life, I was also given to change the world in times of needed and supported. So I was given to be born here in the world to make it happen bigger.

 

And bigger opportunities when Rico Yan came around in 1994. I’ve remembered when he came in Master Eskinol commercial, his own very first commercial have ever been made. The longer it waited the opportunities, he also landed on his three film projects and two television appearances in 1996. That was his achievements. But my achievements wasn’t change the year of 1994.

 

It was the year 1994 that I turned a teenager. And when Rico smiled every angle at his commercial, I also smiled back on the mirror changing my opportunities if I could be also a model. Or if the time will come for me to grab an opportunity. It set my goals.

 

My dreams before was to become a photographer when I was still in elementary graduation. “If I become a photographer someday, I would get a glimpse to picture the scene of Mt. Mayon in Bicol where I love the area. It gives a beauty scenario,” that was at the back of my head when I said to myself.

 

Across at the back of my head, my high school dreams has changed through times of desperation what really my dreams were telling me about. Then I decided to tell my school mates, my classmates and my teachers that I will enter entertainment industry someday to become an actor. It was my biggest dreams that set in my mind way back before. It was all because I owe from Rico Yan who really me inspired so much in spite that I have disability. But a disability that I have before was a hindrance. My parents told me several times that I couldn’t entered in universities like University of the Philippines, University of Santo Tomas or in De La Salle University in Taft Avenue. But the dreams shattered to me when my parents told me that I won’t lasted graduating in my course I really liked was music in UST, theatre arts in UP or any courses in DLSU.

 

People have changed through times. And I didn’t know what to do. So I always gave doubts and fears inside at the back of my head thinking I wasn’t able coping my own problems. Because that time I was having a hard time on myself in denial stage before.

 

When I entered college in the year of 2000, my course was culinary arts and I studied in Center for Culinary Arts or CCA. It was a pioneering school who caters students studying in the field of baking or culinary. And at that time, I’ve had a few classmates who was also been a celebrities naming Danica Sotto and Diego Castro. They were my batch mates before. Diego was a son of late anchor man of ABS-CBN, Angelo Castro Jr. and cousin to Rico Yan.

 

Aside from them, I also have friends with cousin of Agot Isidro, Aljur Abrenica, Heart Evangelista and Rico Yan‘s female cousin. What else that I came in a reality? These cousins of celebrities, I was been blessed to have with them. Although I don’t want to name their names here in an article I am writing, it is about a privacy. Somehow I look myself in the mirror thinking at the back of my head if I could enter in entertainment industry someday and the question is, “when if the time comes?”

 

So I gave up my dreaming my goals to become an actor, a singer and a dancer. I was frustrated and depressed because of a hindrance that I have a disability. Knowing Rico Yan was not here anymore because when I heard the news that he died peacefully in his sleep in 29th of March, 2002. The news came viral everywhere around the nation. And so the followers and fans of Rico Yan have been giving their love for Rico. But my sides remained calm and peacefully.

 

Nine years later, it was already 2011. I’ve had a dreams recurring every night thinking at the back of my head because of him. Then one day when I posted some important to do was to set important details each and every day I have. The bad news came when I felt something strange inside of me. But the intentions were not in bad shape. Instead, my cousin invited me in networking in UNO. Literally I joined with her. I’ve lasted five months in multi-level marketing or networking in UNO from June to October 2011. But the acceptance was been made during I was working. So I thought myself having to know that I could do this on my own independent ways of earning.

 

Out of frustrations and depressions, I broke the chain and accepted who I was to be because of my disability. That kind of work of networking gave me a chills to my bones and my flesh. It was the time I’ve accepted my disability during July of 2011. Then later when I only lasted in October. I’ve joined and searched my genealogy roots both sides of my father and my mother’s sides. Knowing my side of my father, I was surprised when I was related to Pilar Pilapil, Dingdong Avanzado and Mark Bautista because they were all descendants of Veloso. Because I was also a descendant of Veloso clan. Wow, that was unimaginable thoughts inside at the back of my head.

 

Then at first, my dreams were coming back to me. So I’ve decided to bring my dreams again this time when I will enter the limelight of entertainment industry. With the likes of Danica Sotto, Diego Castro, Pilar Pilapil, Dingdong Avanzado and Mark Bautista, when will I become one of them at the back of my head?

 

At the end at the back of my head, I’ve remembered that I also have relatives who entered in entertainment industry. My two uncles Danny Javier and Dyords Javier were in entertainment industry. Danny Javier retired from the entertainment industry already, but his sibling Dyords Javier was still in the entertainment industry. So I make a classic move that I will become one of them, but on my definition to make my own name instead.

 

One year ago I joined with Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines, or DSAPI, on January 2012. Then I also joined in their annual walk event of the year, the 20th Happy Walk, in The Block, SM North EDSA on 19th of February, 2012, the day of my birthday. I was enjoying walking with someone that I also have a disability being having with Down syndrome. Having with a disability was not a hindrance to me anymore. Instead, all I want to become is to make my own name whether the dreams is still leading me in the right choice or decisions that I have.

 

Then I became a member last December 2012 where I got my first membership identification card. And to top of that, I also have experiences to speak in the audience who invited to come over in University of Santo Tomas to speak a short inspirational talk about me. The students, the school organizations and the teachers were applauded at my first short inspirational talk. But I was nervous that time. Maybe I have to speak again in the future.

 

But the blessings didn’t stop pouring down this year of 2013. I got my passport on my own applying in Megamall in January 2013. That was also the month I got my NBI clearance and my police clearance as well. So to decide what I was going to do – was to apply again in the next few months. But the 24th Angels Walk came when I joined and supported the autism awareness month last January 2013. It was my first support with the organization I joined. I saw one of UST who invited me last November 2012. And then at the back of my head, I’ve realized it was important for me already attending those events every year.

 

Then the 21st Happy Walk also came in last February 2013. It was my second Happy Walk I’ve joined. To added, there was one parent who came over to me and said, “I read your blog and I am one of your follower reading one of your article posts. Good job! Continue to inspire us.” At the back of my head, it was barely one year old of my studio site already. My studio debuted on 16th of March, 2012 where I posted my two articles at that time. Then a facebook page came later on 4th of July, 2012. I guessed that I put the dates on historical dates.

 

It came upon across at the back of my head when I also applied my first PWD identification card last 19th of March, 2013. I also knew why I chose the date because I loved to remember the dates I was putting in historical dates. But then at the height of my depression again during of April 2013, I was hesitated to go out and not looked for another job. Because despite I already completed the requirements including my medical certification. This was already the time if I want to have a girlfriend or not. So the dreams might occurred that I wasn’t able coping it one of my problems.

 

Then it came the month of May 2013. When my parents traveled to Europe for their vacation, that was the time I’ve had a girlfriend. But then, it was someone who also liked Rico Yan. From her, I didn’t know how to figure out what went wrong from me and from her. I’ve ended up a guy accepting a relationship with my girlfriend. And she was the one asking my hand to have relationship with her. Then I said, “yes.” Soon when it lasted only eight days of our relationship on the day of 16th of May. Our relationship ended eight days of relationship from 8th to 16th of May. Then I was not glad it was not over yet.

 

When I saw Nick Vujicic for the first time in Music Hall, Mall of Asia, I was surprised what Nick looked like. Because after all, he had no limbs of pairs of legs and arms. And to my surprise, that involved my life I also have a disability. And being having a disability was not a hindrance to me anymore. That was when 20th of May, 2013 happened.

 

A the height of desperation of cooling our relationship with my ex-girlfriend, all I wanted was to go back with her someday. So I walked in a job of the school on the day of 21st of May. On the seventh day of going back, I was hired already. Knowing myself in a different pattern, I’ve landed on my fourth job with a different job description – as an assistant teacher.

 

Fast-forwarded to this present day, I’ve accepted a chance to look forward getting to know what it will become for me in the year of 2014. Today is a final day of 2013 and tomorrow is a new day of 2014. I’ve so much to tell looking forward of 2014. What if I walk-in again in different job description? Will it become my job? To tell you the truth, this job of being as an assistant teacher I never chose about of this job. Instead the job looked for me surprisingly. So the words were not scripted but it was a fate for me when I followed my grandmother’s footsteps to become as an assistant teacher.

 

My lessons I have learned for this year of 2013 was honoring my job so beautifully, getting to know what the surroundings would like to know me better and the world had a place for me to look forward. No matter how small dreams can be, sometimes it can be a bigger opportunity would like to be. When you know how small dreams can act, it can also set bigger dreams in exchange of your place. This was how Rico Yan changed me from time I was depressed and frustrated to have a better job, positive outlook in life, happiness and optimistic when looking forward to future with positive thoughts.

 

What about you? How Rico Yan would change your life?

 

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June-July 2013:

New job description, making new friends in my work, nutrition month

 

After passing the interview evaluation, my two bosses accepted me as well as their sped assistant teacher knowingly that I can do much better than the previous assistants. But I didn’t want to bring some issues that I could do better. Which that I could not comparing to other assistants as well. But the fact I admitted to my fourth job. It broke the chain when I finally have had a job because I was been not doing very well in the past 7 years and 7 months which I didn’t have a job.

 

I was underestimated by those who can underestimated me at the start. The work was introduced me in parents and teachers orientation before the school year was started. As long as I was working part-time in livelihood project, my two bosses were kindly to say to me that I also can run my loading business which I have had been working my hiatus in money cellphone loading business for 7 years and 6 months already as of to date today.

 

Assuming that I was working progressively participating in the school and in the therapy center during Saturdays. The parents before was looking something to change me as well. But the fact I entered in a new job description – as an assistant teacher. I was in the slow progress. I couldn’t move when there was nothing to do. My dull days became longer hours during my stay in a livelihood project.

 

But the nutrition month came in the month of July. The interns were working harder to look for their children. In the afternoon, I worked so hard for taking care of special children. I knew some few students in the morning because I wasn’t working in the morning classes. My work was in the livelihood project in the morning and also in the afternoon was taking care of special children being as an sped assistant teacher. The face I’ve had enjoying myself in the field of being as an assistant teacher, my work was being issued by several parents for lack of communication. I was almost destroying my work environment when I was been terrified.

 

One of the two bosses was almost fired me as well. But the fact I couldn’t find another work was there was no room for me in the world working. When the employer was criticizing and discriminating because of my special condition, somehow I survived because of my work.

 

August 2013:

Moving to a new school relocation, love life, work relationship

 

Even I was not in the mood around the month of August. It was the last days of my work as a livelihood chef in a livelihood project. My work relationship with a preschool teacher and a special education teacher which they were both female teachers. The preschool teacher was too cute for me but the personality didn’t fit me as well. But the fact was why I joined along with a special education teacher, she was nice, bubbly and smiling teacher. And I began to like her the fact I joined with her the last two months.

 

The special education teacher didn’t recognize me somehow. But the issues from them against me sometimes misunderstood the situation as well. The school setting was small, the classroom was small but the love life began wider and wider to me as well. I couldn’t helped it when I was thinking about her all the time. But too cute teacher was also having an issues against me as well.

 

But the work relationship was getting bumper and bumper because of my moody hours. I began scrutinizing one of the employees in the convenience store when they were not selling sandwiches anymore and one of the staff in the school saw what I did in the convenience store. So I didn’t know what it will happen at the end of my work relationship in the school.

 

My boss called me several times already because of two warnings I did already. But the work was been spread like a viral. I didn’t know where I have had to search for another job. My job was to protect my name, my work and the children also. And my life would be the end where there was no one accepting me in another job hunting season again. I’ve been unemployed for 7 years and 7 months, but my business ran for a life-time already since I’ve had from June 2006 (7 years and 2 months already).

 

Then we went to another school relocation inside the village of Cainta Greenpark Village that we must focused to have working in the field. Another school setting, big campus, big classrooms and a convenient school setting as we were looking toward at the end of two weeks remaining in the school. But the storm curled down one week. We didn’t have much school days when the storm came in by the time we relocated the school already. Then we were cleaning the school as we were working hard for the school team as well.

 

September 2013

Cooling off vacation in Toronto

 

The interns was been getting riding from our necks. They were too busy for their names and their future jobs as well as an optometrists. Were they really working hard for their jobs? Or were they wrong for their job internship in our school? I didn’t knew that my hardworking days were over already. But I’ve been hating myself why I didn’t let my emotions eating me again. As the vacation in Toronto came closer and closer, the school, the teachers, the students and my two bosses were at the back of my head thinking I shouldn’t taking a vacation after all. I didn’t know what to do when I came back.

 

Then the vacation came over on 14th day of September in Toronto, the coldest night we’ve had arrived was 8 degrees in celsius. And I’ve had been getting chilling out in one of the coldest province in Canada. Was I the one who didn’t like the weather of Toronto? Maybe I thought about that. One week preparation for my sister’s wedding, I was been thinking my work in the Philippines. I couldn’t helped thinking what they were working so hard. Because of the test exams were in the week when I was in Toronto already.

 

The fact I’ve had enjoying from my work, I was almost getting in highest emotions of my time – being as a happiest assistant teacher. I loved my work so much and I couldn’t help thinking about it. But it broke the record because I’ve had surpassed my employment. In my three previous jobs before only lasted for two-three months, but in September, it was almost four months already. So I thought if I come back, my job will be over if they weren’t allowing me going back to work.

 

I was enjoying my vacation instead not to think about working in the school. I went in various locations in Toronto. But the place I didn’t like it was the CN Tower. I didn’t want to step in a glass floor because I almost died seeing down so far away that I was almost died seeing about it. In short, I have fear on heights. When I first rode in the airplane going to Toronto, I couldn’t slept the whole trip going to Toronto. Instead, I watched a numerous movies, listened to the music and played the computer games in a first-class business airplane.

 

We went to a zoo, apple-picking farm, shopping in groceries and do a lot of buying gifts for all the parents and the workers in a school as well. By the time, I went home in the Philippines after attending to my sister’s wedding and also taking a vacation as well. I went back to the school working again in 30th day of September.

 

October 2013

Assistant teacher, halloween party

 

After I’ve found out that the preschool teacher was been fired by the employer’s reasons, because the preschool teacher I knew. She had a difficulty mind not being as a committed teacher as well in the school. She did a big time almost destroying the work relationship we have had in time. But the good news came in because my two bosses have said to me that I can do as an assistant teacher from morning to afternoon classes.

 

I did all my tasks as well in the morning to afternoon. I was cleaning in the waiting area, completing the tables and chairs in accordingly and maintaining the cleanliness around the school. My heart to students was already in another level – teaching someday to them. Being as a teaching profession wasn’t in my heart before. I don’t have passion in teaching. The fact the field as a teacher is a high profession in the country. So you must have a big feet to fill passionately for the students and for the parents as well.

 

The Halloween party was around in the third week already. We’ve had an overnight days when the special education teacher, the third occupational therapist and I did a lot of hardworking days for a field working in halloween party. And the days were over when the halloween party came in. The success was proven good. And oh, I forgot the event of language of the month (or buwan ng wika) that was held last month of September instead of August. It was because the storm came in Manila and suspended a week in classes. That was why the language of the month came in first week of September as well.

 

The halloween party, third event of the school year calendar, was ended successfully. But the love life I have with a special education teacher even grew stronger and stronger. Because I was finally realized I couldn’t helped thinking about her. But I didn’t know how to invite a relationship between her and me.

 

November-December 2013

Love life again, new special education teacher, Christmas party

 

The moment every time I came in a school every day, each time I saw her. I watched her glimpse teaching special kids for her heart. Her smile was melting the special children sadness away, and was I also been melting her heart to me. But she didn’t know that I was helplessly thinking her every night and then.

 

Then a Christmas party had to come and wait for 6 weeks preparation. A new friend of my special education teacher came in for an interview with two bosses we’ve had. She passed. But she had been something hiding from ourselves. I couldn’t helped thinking it at the back of my head also. The thoughts crossed over. Then again, the Christmas was already three weeks preparation again.

 

The special education teacher has to leave around the month of December. But she extended her work as long as she taught the special children and the regular children. I didn’t know what to do when she was gone already. But I was already going to give her my first present last nutrition month. Then again, I’ve had something to send her again some important gift.

 

My boss told me if I have had a crush on her when she entered the room again, then I said it was a yes. She was blushed when she knew I had a crush on her. Eventually I didn’t want our friendship ended miserably. So I extended my smiles to her everyday I saw her in a school. The house before was my special education teacher’s home. But now, she gave her home that was been empty for four years giving us to have a new school setting – a big school campus instead.

 

Then the Christmas party came in. She was even getting beautiful in a day of Christmas party. I didn’t know how to invite a relationship again between two of us. But I knew I couldn’t take a risk. Instead I gave a words as “friends forever instead a relationship wrecker.

 

The illusions of love life was over. I didn’t like a word of relationship. I was focusing more on my work for my commitment long-term for my work. And I was surprised that I was already a regular assistant teacher in a school already. To tell a truth, this isn’t the last Year-End Special: Story about success, love life and work. This is just a new beginning to set new goals of achievement of the year of 2014, year of green wood horse.

 

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I’ve never seen my heart so happy when I feel my heart seems to be single all the time. But to tell you the truth, this won’t be the last page of Assistant’s desk. There are more pages to come to tell in the future. As long I’ve been working as an assistant teacher, I’m still who I am and what I tell about my life inside the classroom, inside the school and outside the school also. The sped teacher have been reinforce telling me that I only want to seek with her as a friends after all.

 

Yes, I’m not ready for commitment with who any girls out there. But to tell you the truth, on this coming day of Christmas day, it will be another Christmas year for me again. It’s about who I will celebrate with. And it’s my family. My two sisters are in abroad. And my family still lives here in the Philippines. What can I do to live normally alone with my family? Is there any chances to become in relationship with someone else?

 

No matter how I am single looks like, I am still looking at my heart whenever I feel anxious about with. The person should understand about that. And last Christmas party, the event in the school was great. The parents, the kids, the helpers, the co-workers and my two bosses were also enjoying Christmas event for the year. It was not only for our Christmas. But to tell you the truth, it will become Jesus’ birthday. People have seen the Christmas even happier.

 

But unluckily for those who won’t celebrate Christmas, it will still touch many in the society the presence of Christmas spirit. Christmas spirit from the past, present and future will tell you how you feel about Christmas. And Christmas is all about exchanging gifts and celebrating family reunion. A big family reunion is also about forgiving people who greatly don’t have enough heart to celebrate. And it’s time for a big celebration.

 

And last Friday was also been celebrating great. The staff in the school was stunning to enjoy the lent of Christmas spirit. What if the things turn around? Is there any chances that the sped teacher and I will become part ways? But I’m not sure. Thing has to be done surely and occasionally the deadline also has to beat the date.

 

I was surprised when one of my two bosses celebrated today because of his birthday. I’ve had enjoying the Christmas spirit. The essence of Christmas spirit is also been a heartwarming for everybody. And what about? When I heard about the book of A Christmas Carol written by Charles Dickens, I almost didn’t how the Christmas looks like if there was no Christmas. But the story will tell you the great lessons of being forgiving for those who needs the essence of happiness, the excitement and the eagerness of celebrating Christmas. A Christmas Carol is about Ebenezer Scrooge who a man didn’t believe Christmas and all he wants is his fortunate rich. But at the end of the story, Scrooge gives bonus for his employee. And he also gives the money for those who needs the most. And one day, he will be recognize to anyone who wants need help from him. It’s a great lesson indeed.

 

But in reality, there are many kind of greediness rich people who won’t giving their wealth to share their success with someone who really needs the most. It’s for the unfortunate people who don’t have money. Power, money and all about fame are somehow source of not giving when the Christmas comes around. Politicians here in the Philippines are somehow not kind of someone that I know. But I won’t name of some names here in the article I’m writing about.

 

The essence of Christmas spirit is something you have to celebrate about yourself, share your success story and give some value who wants to hear from you. And it’s not all about that. It is also time for those who have been not believing Christmas.

 

My end of my point of view is that it’s okay to be stay single, enjoy yourself having free time with someone you’ve enjoy with your family time and your loved ones. The relationship between the sped teacher and me has been stay for friendship forever. I don’t want to go down deeper for relationship as long as she deserves someone, the she goes for her commitment that the time will come. The lesson between of two of us has no commitments, but to stay in friendship level.

 

Previous Assistant’s Desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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Troubled Mind (Sacred song)

 

Feel about time and

phase out the stress,

feel about sorrow

and phase out your sadness,

tell me what’s wrong

in your troubled mind.

 

I get lost and weary

and I get depressed,

I get surprised and anxious

and I get frustrated,

I get in love and busted

when I feel about you,

there’s no time between us,

there’s no time between

the longest time we ever have.

 

In this quite journey for me

I long to tell you

that I’ve my condition,

in this quite journey for you

you long to forget

that you must pray and tell.

 

Feel about time and

phase out the stress,

feel about sorrow

and phase out your sadness,

tell me what’s wrong

in your troubled mind.

 

Oh, I am lost (I am still lost)

oh, I’ve been forsake (I am still forsaken)

oh, there are no miracles

oh, there are many doubts

oh, there are many fears

when I seek out at the end of the day

I almost get out of my troubled mind

that I almost forget about

is Him above, the sacred king.

 

He who will never give

forsake about you,

He who will give

miracles for you everyday,

He who will never give

fears and doubts

and I surrender my soul to Him above.

 

The story:

What is Troubled Mind (Sacred song)?

 

This was all about me who have been troubled mind in a longest time period in 14 years. And there was a time that I’ve had been in denial stage for a long time. And yet for about 7 years and 7 months, it broke for my emotions. It was all because that I’ve never stayed for a work that I all wanted. Being as an assistant teacher or as a teacher didn’t choose me. But it is a fate that chooses me. There were many hindrances in my life before. I’ve never thought or crossed at the back of my head becoming as an assistant teacher. I’ve never helped myself. I almost tripped out of all my problems, my trials and my challenges that awaits for me. What else can you become if you have a part of being having with Down syndrome in your case? It’s really hard for me. My parents didn’t tell me. My sisters didn’t tell me either. Or my relatives or my friends had never been telling me each time I’ve faced my troubles.

 

I am surely that I am matured already becoming to face what’s reality or not. I guess there are many trials and challenges that await for me to handle. And late last year or this year when 2013 came, my sister told me that I have a brother who has ADHD. At first, I don’t know what to do. But at the end of the day, I always ask God what plans he would rather chooses me the best. I came from a place where people celebrated from a church who listened to the word of God. Then I give myself a better chance to change my life.

 

When I visited for a fourth time in Rico Yan’s place, I’ve met someone who really loved me the most. In a span of 8 days, we enjoyed ourselves becoming my first relationship with her. She was the one who speaks to have handling relationship with me and I said yes. But suddenly with a range of disillusions, we partly changed ways and I broke her heart momentarily. Because my parents said it was not a time yet for me to marry her. This was all about doubts and fears that surrounded my thoughts before. There were no what-ifs that time and there were no second chances backing out. We were talking about marriage the way she said it to me. All she wanted to have a marriage to someone she really loved so much. What can you do all about the troubled mind? I guessed it was already the song chooses me after all.

 

Troubled Mind (Sacred song) is a song of life-breathtaking story about me. This is my second chance to fall in love and commit with God alone to focus what plans has been made and set it for me. And I declare my words to tell you that I”m ready to face another chapter year for the year of 2014.

 

Troubled Mind (Sacred song) is another one of my composition songs that I made it for today’s literature. And I guess if the time has come, it will be a big celebration if there will be a time someone who deserves me the most because I choose the right girl for me. When will it come? Sooner I think at the back of my head.

 

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There are numerous cases that the scientists bring more sensitive cases like Down syndrome who is willing to abort the disability. Their ability to know has to get it off. My opinion about for the doctors, don’t let it abort. Let the disability of Down syndrome approves in life to live longer, doing their lives independently and learn their self-care around the house. People with Down syndrome has prove that everyone is going to give more love, care, understanding and teach with them with full of unconditional love.

 

On my experience today as I am an assistant teacher in the school, I also have Down syndrome. Mosaic Down syndrome. And I’ve realize how I am important to my family as well. There are many discrimination cases around the nation of Philippines. Whether if a person has a disability or not, they should know how to respect and to honor like them. Now that I am aiming for a better world, somehow I feel the cases around the nation as well.

 

I have few friends with a disability. But to tell you the truth, with them I feel secure to tell them my life. And my life somehow shares my thoughts to be tell them what the world looks like when you are stepping inside the real world. But I feel for others too. The world has already in four billion population around the world. And there is no stopping to have be born around the world without a disability. Even in a bible says that even before has also disabilities. Well I thought it wasn’t real, now I was even more careful what I’ve had to say to other people, too.

 

Sadly these people has to create more illness words for us. And discrimination is also the main concern about the world’s thoughts. Can you say how you really acknowledge us without hurting a single word for us? Or even if this says it’s right, then I guess there’s no problem anymore. But sometimes, I feel the same way too at the back of my head thinking it’s not real. I guess there are more unimaginable people around the world without thinking the word of a disability.

 

Like ADHD for example, there are many kinds around from the field of ADHD. When I found out that my brother has ADHD, my lips are sealed already. I don’t want to bring an issue inside the house. I learned from my work even the ASD or anti-social disorder has the field of explanation. Whether is good or not, I feel for others as well.

 

Quote #1:

There are many reasons why the disability can’t be closed around the world. Without a disability, we can’t change without them.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

I have seen a lot of parents change their child from wrong to right. And I also met new parents when I entered in the school for my new job description in my resume. It only began changing my world with the kids in the school. I also have a heart for autism also. But I don’t have favoritism from all of them. Each of them has own personalities. One kid from a school change my life when I see them having difficult to understand us. But somehow being as a disability has a big heart.

 

Whether it’s Down syndrome, ADHD or autism, there are all alike each other. Because one of them has own unique talent and characteristic trait also. One of them I met through the school where I was working. It’s about time to change the reality full of doubts and fears into full of surprises and full of positivity sides. Each of disability also has love of their own lives.

 

Quote #2:

One has to be hated and one has to set side because he or she has an attitude. What’s the matter being as a disability? People with disability can change you half of your life. And they are living sacrifices before us.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

Attitude is not a problem for a kid or an adult with disability. But with an attitude in real life consists having no heart for people like us. People with a disability has own character. And I also have own character. But sometimes I don’t like my attitude as well when I feel different to others. It’s all because I also have a behavior problem in my life. We all have behavior problem. But the main concern there, it’s about who you really are. And I feel belong with disability rights as well. And I can’t figure out what I really like the most.

 

Being sensitive is also my concern. But sometimes even with a sensitive mind in my life can’t change that well, but I learn in many different ways to achieve some important lesson in our achievements in our lives.

 

Quote #3:

I hate people who are crowded to say that you’re not belong here anymore. Being despite that I have Down syndrome, people convince me to register them in good manners.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

What I really do the most in my life is to write something good from bad experiences in my life. Instead of making good and positive articles, sometimes I have to put some few negative derogatory articles also. Well, sometimes I don’t my attitude as well. What I really mean to say is, what you are doing good to your life, it will reward for you in the possible time.

 

I can do something every little in lives when you’re really a deserving person. In my case, I don’t have one. People who discriminate to other people often tells how we can drive them in good manners. And I also don’t know a word how to describe them either. It’s either how you can communicate in a good way and not in a bad way.

 

Quote #4:

The main ingredient in our lives is unconditional communication. But some others don’t call unconditional communication but concerns us even more.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

Communication is a better tool to appreciate people with disability. Whether it’s ADHD, Down syndrome, Autism or other abnormalities as well is the main ingredient in our lives. Because each of them has own to understand them very well. But the condition sometimes grows the concern in our lives. How can we teach them properly? Sometimes, I call it an unconditional communication. Unconditional communication is something I’ve discover recently when I am learning some new ideas as an assistant teacher. And being as an assistant teacher, there’s a great teacher. And a great teacher is very noble profession in any countries as well.

 

Unconditional communication brings more concerns to every new parents and every new family when someone in your family has a disability. One parent to another parent is sometimes arguing to a heated conversation. When a heated conversation opens up, the unconditional communication opens up in a shorter way or a longer way to explain between two parties as well. You don’t have to be angry each time you open up in a conversation. But you have to be calm every time and have to be patience as well. When you have a patience in your life, you will discover in your life that you have a self-patience in your life. And you have to start today, not tomorrow but today. Change is sometimes a motive to motivate your life with full of positive notes and being as an optimistic also.

 

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It’s finally reached at the highest mark of my job description and changed my entire resume. My outline today is regular employee. I’ve been dreaming about getting a regular job someday. And I did it on my best where I didn’t get easy jobs before.

 

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Assistant teacher 003

 

Even my favorite huggable student has left from the school when the classes were over. But the classes are not over when she leave the school. I’ve been promising myself to visit her again but this time, in her home in the future. I’ve been crying last night and today also. I’ve been wondering what my tears say all about for me. But the good news don’t get me wrong.

 

I’ve been staying, enjoying and disputing my excitement everywhere here in my status: regular employee. But I must say no matter what my salary says in my resume doesn’t matter to me. All I want is a regular job. And I prove it in by making a history. It all tells the matter where I can stay and work for choosing a job before. It brought me back before when I was applying other than my three previous jobs before. I even didn’t get finish my second course – digital course. It made no sense before. But now it broke my tears today.

 

I’ve been sharing all my life with my success growth. But all I can say is growing up to be responsible person in each and every way in my life. New parent always asks me where I can get all my happiness. My answer is that I am getting my happiness from your child. Because the child is the one who carries more happiness than anyone else. But seemingly I don’t want to get assuming this so far.

 

New students as well, there are more students gaining in our school premises today. Even though we’re not look alike. I have mosaic Down syndrome. Each one of my characteristics still stay in my feature – my ears, my tongue, my hips and my legs. But my face isn’t normal with other similar conditions.

 

People says that I don’t have Down syndrome. But each time I said to them, I still have few characteristics of being Down syndrome. Then later on, they realized already about my features. People may deserve to know what I am doing today. But now I am proud to have a regular job. Today’s a wonderful day. And each wonderful day teaches me how to stand independently on my own. And I carry all my life to be the best.

 

Is that all makes sense? If you are correct, then let me now. If I am wrong, then also let me know. There are difference about correct and wrong. Sometimes I make perspectives wrong about myself. My two bosses are my friends now. Each time I laugh, they also laugh. Each time I make some funny comments, they laugh. Each time I bring my happiness inside the school, all the parents, co-workers and of course, the children come inside. I also bring some happiness to everyone. This is one who makes my day so far.

 

It’s the best job I’ve acquire in my job description today. Someday I also want to follow my grandmother’s footsteps – to become teacher as well teaching my subjects to them. But it seems that I’m relying on my weakness subjects. My strength subjects are science, arts, english and elementary math. But somehow the history also makes prove the best for me. All three subjects are normally my poor grades before and now it become my favorite subjects. But I seem relying too much from my perspective mind at the back of my head. And each time I’ve encountered is a little fortunate to my little ideas at the back of my head.

 

What it feels to be like a teacher when you’re not expecting? It feels good to be happy all the time.

 

And how it feels to be around inside the classroom? Excellent.

 

Being as an assistant teacher and being having with a condition of Down syndrome is the greatest gift in my life. It considers me making a new history in the map of Philippines and the same way goes to my life also. People will discover how the greatness becomes happiness of all time. What do I get? It is to become optimistic and limitless person. That’s why.

 

Previous Assistant’s Desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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Hiding from confessions

There are times when you seek relationship either in school, in work or somewhere in the middle of the day after you finally get the answer – getting into a relationship.

 

It may sound awkward. But somehow it may sounds true. I have confessions in the past. When I was in high school nearly graduating, my schoolmates seemed to know that I was barely getting a girlfriend. She was different from her class. Her eyes were mesmerized. But the late news came to me. She have had a boyfriend already. Being loveless that time, every Christmas and Valentines, I always knew love take me in another level. But it wasn’t.

 

People seem have to know my knowledge. But it never came too late. I’m also having in love with my mutual understanding partner in college. My friends called me to tease us always in the campus off and on whether it’s in college campus or not. But I didn’t know where to start. I always get that I really don’t like. And others are few. When I get what I want, she starts to move different. And she barely knew my moves.

 

Now it come bringing the love again. I’ve been falling in love again. I don’t know how it feels like she will react this way. If her suitors come in her way, somehow I feel a little jealous. But I stop being jealous because in either ways is not my decision. So I literally stop being a little jealous. Last two days, my teacher and my friend already knew that I really have had a crush on her. She was flattered.

 

My mouth fell when I said that to my boss opening a conversation between a teacher and as a friend. Which one that I really prefer to say? Does it counter really deserving? Or does things go wrong? The answers are on the way. Because I know from the start that she is really leaving so soon. And I don’t want her to leave on my presence that I really fall for her. The parent with her child with autism seemed leaving already. And I am thinking not to leave with her also. What can I do when her father is really keep on her shoes to leave Philippines.

 

But she said she can’t live in California for a long time. Because she really want to go back again here in the Philippines. What if I say that I really fall for her and I will wait for her? Does the parent in the school want to know that I really move a little closer with her? I don’t know what to do specifically. But in my presence at the back of my head I am little curious of my own moves.

 

My head feels like insomnia thinking at the back of my head that my mind can’t help thinking of her. What can you do in my place? In my situation where she is there everyday with her. Does it feel so good? Or does it feel not good? My temptations are not shown yet. Because I don’t want to start my moves to say that I really love her. If I fall for her, she will get angry. And I don’t want her emotions mixed with her work environment. I am relying my emotions intact with me. I am also curious of my own moves. My little people inside of my brain are little crazy about love and relationship. What if it really works what I really get from her? If my bosses found out, I seem stopping out of my head that I really go ballistic. And I don’t want to get that on my way at the back of my head.

 

Little people inside of my brain are also thinking, at the back of my head, that I really have to move on my own in some ways. And I have the decisions to make and to stop. When it is really getting closer, that is the time that I have to stop. And my concerns are that I don’t want our friendship end so soon. Because around the community will have to know what is going on inside the classroom between me and my teacher.

 

This is my life. And I have to share a little details inside my brain about hiding from confessions.

 

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It might be daring. It might be interesting. And it might be a young-oriented post that I would to reveal my own dreams. I’m personally changing my dreams from show business to a new dream. Maybe if I follow my heart a long time ago, I would be nothing just like today.

 

My heart aches when my teacher has to leave. Occasionally, no. But personally, it’s a yes. In fact, I revealed to tell her that I’ve really had crush to my teacher where I am as an assistant teacher. Who wouldn’t thought of that? Well, somehow I find amusing myself in the middle of nowhere or I find nothing in all corners around the world. People believe that if you find your dream, you will be successfully stepping to a new dream.

 

What is my real dream? Me too, I’m still clueless up to now. My parents have decided to make a change. When I was in culinary field, I always thought about the money. But money today wasn’t my issue anymore. Because if you think the money, it would be a waste of time thinking too much how would you spend and budget your money wisely from your salary. I’m getting a minimum salary wage. But I don’t thinking that way at the back of my head. Some others called it was a hoax. If you think that way, then you’re wrong.

 

I’m assuming when you work in a right place of work environment, you will find happiness in your life. But to tell you a truth, people can’t change the perspective of other people’s mind. People are people and human is still a human. But I don’t know how it will be thinking that way at the back of your head and saying it’s a hardest thing to do in your life. But yes, somehow, you find it difficult in your own way.

 

Nearly six months in a few days, I am thinking a better solution in my life. Maybe I go for vegetarian mode. Because I’m beginning to feel to eat vegetables properly in my nutrition diet needs. When I am eating meat whether it’s chicken, pork or beef, I call it a ‘meat day.’ Because your body still needs protein in your body. But somehow along a way in my life, I am beginning to feel like a vegetarian. I often got successfully rid off the meat in my nutrition diet. I’ve already surpassed two days to a one-week vegetarian mode. All of a sudden, at the beginning of new year that I will resume to prolong my life eating as a vegetarian.

 

Back to the topic as well, what is my dreams to be followed? Modeling is a high profession in the industry. Maybe I can try that as well. Ambassador? Why not? I’m always aiming to have my dreams come true in a different ways of living passionately in your life. People can change it too. When Brina Maxino will be off in Special Olympics participation, I am aiming the next Filipino ambassador aside from her. Who knows that who could tell? It’s too early to be forecast. But I am willing to do it on my own if I can add my work experience in my resume as well.

 

How about entering a new design of technology? I am not an IT expert. But I can manage to keep it up with my skills in computer. With my multi-media skills that I can use, computers are not as easy before or difficult. It will be up for me in the coming months or years, maybe.

 

What is my new dream? My dream is to become motivational speaker. In a way of practicing my skills in writing my article posts, I am now practicing to memorize some of that I’ve written already from literature and inspirational notes as well.

 

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Assistant teacher002

 

Previous Assistant’s Desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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Creating Illusions (Thousand Promises)

Creating Illusions (Thousand Promises)

There is someone I am really in love. But the question is, how can I make her to fall in love with me? It may end with a big answer of no. Despite of that, I would encounter more of experiencing being not falling in love again. I fell many times before when I for long to be told, that I want to be falling in love, but it trapped me instead.

 

For many years since my time being in my high school days, my culinary days in college, my frustration days and my new chapter – being as an assistant teacher. Well, the question now today, when I will start falling in love again? After I broke up with my ex-girlfriend last May 16, the relationship we’ve had torn and broke me into pieces. The mirror didn’t buy the time back into the new frame. Instead, she was interrupted to hold in engagement with her current boyfriend. For me, why would I waste if I don’t want to win her back? It’s her choice anyway.

 

Back in shattered dreams where I am creating illusions or rather of full of promises. It may be sound weird, but it is insanely true. I may be not a perfect boyfriend. Or I may be not perfect husband if we are married already. Is it suppose to have someone who is worth for you to stay? I mean someone has to use saying to me, “there are many fishes in the sea, try to hook one and one will stay with you longer.” Yes, I may be a sarcastic knowing I could get a girlfriend easier. But the relationship is not worth saying if you are doing your partnership with your boyfriend or girlfriend instead.

 

Believe me. I’ve been through a lot of challenges before. Now I’ve already encountered once in relationship in once in my life. Being in love isn’t keeping you to be last. Instead, do it on your own shoes. It may fill up a while, but it will take time to create more illusions. Illusions are made to be unreal. Or maybe an isolated one will not coming back to you. Trapped, dazed, or sometimes disoriented, I may be not knowing my partner who is really about her. Is the mirror telling me that she is the one for me?

 

There are many fishes in the sea.” Yes, that may be true. But somehow, I don’t know how to explain how I can keep only one to find. It’s not easy or difficult to find one. I’ve fallen many times in a mazes before. I’ve tried to keep sending too much of literature poems, countless sonnets or singing songs I’ve been doing in my high school days and my culinary days as well. It may be quite journey for me. But it’s unusual thing to do for all of us.

 

Maybe there’s a lot of thousand promises to be made in the future. Or maybe there will be a time to say that you have to let it go instead holding back to your past. Sounds related? I don’t experience that way either. It may be counted different, but it may be create a lot of confusion answers. I have a condition being having with Down syndrome. But why’s wrong doing there? Shame, maybe. Or discriminated. Somehow I belong to the society where all singles are here to stay and to date if there’s a chance. Somehow in this quite of unrealistic article I am writing about, it’s about me, my future-girlfriend-to-be-married and my messed and disoriented mind at the back of my head.

 

I got a lot of answers before. But now, I am aiming to be the best guy for which the girl can afford loving me so much in the future. But then again, there’s a question inside at the back of my head again thinking if there is a chance to prove your partner will be loyal and faithfully for you. But I always follow my heart where I can understand them. They have to understand my condition, but it seems half glass to be filled the water soon. When it says half glass, it may be fill with water full or it could be drink in a same way of creating relationship with your partner.

 

Thousands of sending sonnets, poems or singing a songs that wasn’t having a tune yet, it may be a hang for a while. But for me, relationship is something you have to have stronger personality. It may bring something different. It’s not in my dictionary either. Instead, I am making love for everybody that I know. My family. My relatives. My friends. My whole extended family. And my life that I am living happily even without creating illusions.

 

Creating illusions are made for subconscious mind. And subconscious mind sometimes brings different meaning in our lives. It may sound big, but it’s really a small and tiny at the back of your brain telling it may create memories with your loved ones. Or somehow the hope will bring more showering of blessings instead. People hear a lot of interesting stories, but mine is different for the rest of the world. Being having with my condition is not an exceptional. But I am telling you that I have a big heart to fill out my half-glass heart to someone I am waiting to be falling in love again.

 

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It seems that I’ve been working five months already and going on regular basis the next month. I don’t know what happens next. But I presume I like my job better than my profession job before. Although I didn’t realize at the start I could work at school, well I know the best place where I can I work.

 

Assistant teacher

Assistant teacher

 

People will imagine how I feel like independent special adult like Paolo Javier, last night I’ve been watched in youtube.com. It feels like that I am enjoying much of my own. Whether it’s not difficult job or no way other around, I will still seeking a new better future on my own. I misjudged my abilities. And so I was afraid to take it during my college days. And that abilities will enhance more improvements along the way in my life. People recognize me as a better person. And I feel like I really belong in a society.

 

Discrimination comes always around. Discounts varies in price description through transportation. The government always come in arguments in the supreme court. The natural disaster last month in Bohol was a disaster. And I hope along way in my road will open more chapters to come. I didn’t strive on my own as my parents raised me well. They put my feet together. No matter what lifestyle changes through the years, I will still keeping my own feet to walk or to run in a long road.

 

Next Happy Walk 2014 on February will depend how I will carry my own life today. Last Happy Walk 2012 was an introduction to me. It was new for me back then. This year, Happy Walk 2013 made a few adjustments in my life. I was keeping my feet on the ground and still walked on my own independently. So I was happy along the road seeking more happiness days to come.

 

And yet, I found a job consistently being as an assistant teacher. Well, I am not licensed teacher. I am not sure that I can do my 100% performance. But I will keep holding my attitude low and my profile also. So to speak, nowadays I have to be careful raising my own independently.

 

No one interferes me but somehow God knows better than I. He will keep companying me throughout my life.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

In previous articles of Assistant’s desk, here’s the links below:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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Sacrifices

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Sacrifice_by_nJoo

Short speech from Itsmikki Studio link

(October 28, 2013 http://wwww.facebook.com/ItsmikkiStudio):

Seven years and seven months I went sacrifices along the way. I was sad that I didn’t have a real job that will describe me. Along the way, I’ve had three jobs before. None of them became long enough to take seriously. It was sacrifice I’ve made to choose. But sacrifices teach me how to carry your life. Maybe like Abraham Lincoln, he also made sacrifices. Like Albert Einstein, he also made sacrifices. Many scientists discovered nothing to have made new. And one chromosome teaches me how to carry is my sacrifice.

 

Lincoln have said, ‘four score and seven years ago,’ then I would have say the same thing. Seven years and seven months ago, I’ve had a greatest lesson to have made is to accept yourself. Choose one passion that you really have. And somehow along you way only chooses your path alone to have sacrifices. I may be not only one, but there is more chromosomes around the world aside from me.

 

Down syndrome is not a scientifically disease. It is a genetically disorder. Having with someone in your family with new chromosome teaches your life a new. And that new will teach your way to be stronger. And the mighty word I create is a big happiness. Why did I choose to be as not-a-perfect-writer? It is my passion. And I love to write in poetry before.

 

Now I love to write more in literature even better. I become of what I become today. Any other genetically disorder will be treating call as one of small priority group, a People With Disability. Like Nick Vujicic who don’t have limbs but he is still living actively with sacrifices. And sacrifices will teach your way to be strong. Strong enough to say that you are happy. Teach me how to get sacrifices. And that’s how I am today.

 

Synopsis:

When I wrote this first, it came across in my mind. I didn’t know what to do. I, instead, did my brainstorming ideas. It was writing a new element across my facebook page and my blog site as well. It was just that I was using my blog traffic between social networks: facebook and wordpress. Well I got to say it wasn’t success, but it did.

 

Eventually, this idea came across tumbling after a hectic schedule I did with my school work. Yes, I was working as an assistant teacher. And being as an assistant teacher became my full-pledged working routine. I was able to comply from my boss’ orders. Then another across my mind, I did helping jobs across from room to room. I was challenging myself to clean the room, assisting special and regular children, helping the staff’s needs and providing the parents’ needs also to their children. I was happier to my working status.

 

Then from my ideas, I did increasing to do my photo messages from my blog site to my facebook page. It wasn’t my idea. It also chooses me. I don’t have photoshop in my Macintosh laptop, but instead, I studied how to use my new android phone. The settings had photo grid where all people gave their ideas to use for their another social network, instagram. Hmm, if I only bought my android phone before, then I would make more photo messages in the past. But it was my hardworking money when I bought my first cellphone android phone. And it was cool to buy my own stuff.

 

FAQs

 

What is sacrifices to you?

 

Sacrifices can make anywhere you want, anyplace you want and anytime you need to buy some time. It takes time to heal. Somehow being as having with Down syndrome condition I have, it couldn’t matter to me anymore. Well, I guess there’s a space more in my brainstorming department.

 

Sacrifices is also made from experiences that you went through before. Whatever you made before, that was made you stronger. People always had failed to do their accomplishments, but on my part, I didn’t stop. I still continue what I start before. And that’s how it counts to impress.

 

What are your sacrifices?

 

My sacrifices came in shapes or accomplishments. It varies in many situations. I went experiences from bullying before. They were calling and chanting ‘sped’ name to me. And I was clueless before. When I found out I was in sophomore year in high school, then it was said that I went through experiences that before. So I claimed that was also part of sacrifices. My other sacrifices also came from denying my condition before. After with existence for 17 years, I found my condition that I’ve had Down syndrome. Then further in my life after 13 years, I’ve already accepted the challenge that I already had my condition better. And I said, sacrifices also made you stronger from my condition. People will follow me, listen to my stories and read my articles as well. In this part of my life journey, sacrifices like Abraham Lincoln and Albert Einstein would be even better. No matter who you are made to be, you are still that you are you. And you will tell them you’ve been through your sacrifices.

 

Did you have a girlfriend before? And did you sacrifice your relationship?

 

Yes. And it was made me even better. It only lasted 8 days relationship. It was tough between my ex-girlfriend and I. My parents didn’t like it when I’ve had my first relationship with my first ex-girlfriend. But it was tough when we separated. And until now, I’ve had claiming that we haven’t closure yet. We could go back together but it is hard to explain. People who have relationship in their partner is a struggle and sacrifice.

 

Did you have job experiences before? How many? And how did you sacrifice your job experiences?

 

Yes. It only counted four jobs including my present job as an assistant teacher. My three job experiences before only lasted around two to three months. It was hard and it was sacrifices. I did what I did in my job. But I found my happiness in my job description being as an assistant teacher. From being my profession in culinary, I shifted to digital career and then to being as an educator – as an assistant teacher.

 

Did you get more nightmares nowadays or dreams instead? How did you manage from your sacrifices?

 

Yes. I’ve had numerous nightmares before. But now instead of nightmares, I slept from my slumber sleeping good dreams. And that good dreams contradicted how many dream sequences that I’ve had now. And I went through sacrifices as well.

 

For further more questions, you can ask me by simply telling your questions and I will answer through my experiences. Or I will directly answer your questions in FAQs form. Just e-mail me at mikki.javier@yahoo.com or just go here on my studio site: itsmikki.wordpress.com to use commenting box. Just ask any questions.

 

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Traveling with Happiness

Toronto Highway

Toronto Highway

The vacation paid for my stress-free work when I traveled the other side of the globe which was the Toronto, east-side of Canada. I’ve finally see the world of traveling with my family. For me, when will I get a chance to traveling alone without them? That’s the independent question for me although in my life starts somewhere in the middle. At the back of my head says, ‘I can start budgeting my money and start a new life opening a new bank account.’ Otherwise, I will spend less in money. My salary was below the average of wage. But I don’t complain about my salary wage in the school where I am working. The only thing keeps me longing in the school is my performance and my happiness level.

 

Let’s talk about first about the salary wage before I return to the topic subject. The minimum salary wage is around 12-13k. But the amount you take home is around 6-6.5k per half of a month. Other says that it is way below for them. Those who have family already always complain about that. Good for me that I don’t have time to think at the back of my head that I have my own family. I’m still single. I’ve to earn with my dignity, patience and understanding. Working somewhere near to your place makes you time to think about your work. Well, of course, everybody notices that way. But not anybody could think that.

 

I learned from my sister when I went there in downtown of Toronto where my sister lived. The downtown said to my head, ‘I can work here for a better life but the only problem here is the weather.’ I’ve realized that I can’t work in a hasty places. But if you do working in a hasty places, your mind will go crazy. I’ve assuming that won’t work for me.

 

And the other one is about my happiness level. Happiness level varies from any kinds of level whether you are little low to a highest performance. I’ve seen myself when I started working as an assistant teacher in a school where my boss kept me for longer. Keeping me for fourth month, this makes me easier to think that I should continue for my resume details. So that the next employer would hire me, I would tell him or her what happened in my resume. Let me give you a catch. When you are in an interview, don’t be nervous and always be yourself. And the technique there is tell your story about yourself what happened really during your life. Working in a workplace environment, like I was doing in a school as an assistant teacher, makes you easier to work. So that whenever you feel, you tell your boss or your co-worker about what happened to your happiness level.

 

Happiness level varies the emotional side of your brain. It also controls your temper, your mood, your actions and your performance as well. People who have lower happiness level varies suiciding themselves in a situation, or varies in mannered situation. I don’t get it why themselves has a low self-esteem. Sometimes I do have low self-esteem but I’ve already surpass that. No matter how small the problem is, you have to cope with your problems.

 

Back to the topic subject, traveling in Toronto was breezy nights and cool-off days. In the afternoon towards the night was pretty amazing for me. The first week was preparation for my family because my sister finally married in the church. After that, we went variation tourist spots in Toronto. First was going to the small zoo. Secondly, we went to Niagara Falls. Amazing how God created the well-paid tourist attraction which was the Niagara Falls. I’ve finally to experience about the Maid of the Mist. Maid of the Mist will experience you traveling around the body of water which the falls sprinkle all the way. And I’ve find Toronto is a pretty nice location. Although I can’t really remember in the past when my parents always told me that I’ve been in Calgary, Edmonton and Vancouver before. But it was amazing. The only weakness I have was traveling and riding in an airplane. I do have fear of heights. That explained to me why I’ve been awake the whole trip back and forth watching movies and playing tetris. I’ve watched some 9 new movies in an airplane including The Croods, Monster University, Trance, GI Joe: Retaliation, Great Gatsby, Epic, A Moment in Time, The Mistress and other movie I really can’t remember at the back of my head. That was the back and forth traveling from Manila to Toronto and from Toronto to Manila.

 

The amazing I’ve experienced from the vacation was an apple-picking. My elder sister have said that it was Canadian tradition. I’ve to say that it was the best. If the Philippines has tradition of pineapple-picking in Mindanao, it would be the next travel destination of the Philippines. I guess the tourism in the Philippines should be level up to the next performance if they really have a budget.

 

Four common jobs I’ve to work in Toronto. It could be that I can work in the supermarket, St. Lawrence’s market, school and restaurant. But the first thing first comes in my place is to find some shelter, then find an organization to keep me healthy relationship in public relation. Here in the Philippines, it was Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines was my first advocate and it was my first organization that I’ve joined. I’ve also enjoyed watching baseball league between Toronto Blue Jays and New York Yankees. NY Yankees have won. It was beautiful scenario to have watching in a baseball series. Watching hockey game and NBA basketball game is my next dreams to have watch.

 

Next on Traveling with Happiness 2, I will be continuing to write about more in Toronto.

 

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Page Five

Dilemma and insecurities

 

I may bound achieving nothing, but sometimes it takes time to achieve one at a time. My dilemma is to have working hard and playing uneasy. It’s not easy to admit in this situation. Somehow I manage to overcome my sickness towards my dilemmas.

 

You may be hear some my interesting stories before. Well sort of something you really like to read some of my articles. In this article, you will be reading page five about dilemma and insecurities and how I overcome them for somehow.

 

Before I got on my job in Stand and Walk Therapy Center / Reaching Our Children for the King (ROCK) Integrated School as an assistant teacher, there were a lot of problems come to my life. It wasn’t hard to get rid of it. But somehow along the way when there was a roadblock, I’ve always been escaped from the roadblock of my problems.

 

When you thought some hardest to explain at the back of your head, you explained why your life was difficult to mix with other situations. You haven’t get money from your parents all the time. Or expect to overcome, just earn it from your hard working. I didn’t get pampered of sponsoring some items I’ve always wanted. For example, I just want to have a nice living condition as long I only want as a leisure items like computers, gadgets, television or some item you really have valuable on that item. But as long you are want them in your side, somehow you lose it by from a purpose. You don’t want to seek any kind of living items you’ve really wanted in your life. But on the other side when you need something important like financial, physically or sometimes emotionally, you really have desperate needing it for your own purpose.

 

I didn’t get what I want all the time. But instead, I’ve earned it. Not of all it. It is difficult to say that you really need it at the end of the day of your situation. And a word of advice: don’t kill the time when you really want something else, instead use of your time needed in your daily routine unless you grab the risks. Normally I don’t have excuses or to point out some reasons.

 

Everyone has dilemma in any corner of life. Sometimes it may exceed to some excuses, but at the end of your head thinking if you are getting the exact point of reason. You have really some excuses and reasons all the time. You don’t think some other people just to excuse you. Instead help them before you love yourself. Somehow I learned the lessons needed prior at the end of the day.

 

What is insecurities? Insecurities is somewhat your inside habit of form making heavy reasons. When you think some excuses in your life, you really feel that you are really insecure towards your sibling rivalry, judging from other people or making up some new friends as well. I don’t need to be insecure because I’ve learn the valuable lessons in life.

 

Insecure person is somewhat is inside of your personality just like the eight deadly sins, an envy. You envy some person you’ve really like to grow up someday, but at the end of your life, you can’t force yourself to achieve because you don’t allowing yourself to be envious. Envy is really one of the deadly sins. Aside from envy, jealous and glutton are also the signs of deadly sins. When you’re jealous to something related to you, thus you are really being as an insecure. Glutton is the same way. When someone has something to eat, then you don’t get it what you want to eat. Ahead someone wants to eat, you eat right away the food item. And you’re being sarcastic and as an insecure person also.

 

Dilemma and insecurity are somewhat the same, or maybe not if you want something to explain. It’s your opinion. But this is option if you want to read my opinions as well. Reading other opinion related in articles is not highly recommended. It is up to you when and where you want to read my article about Fruitful of Happiness: Dilemma and insecurities.

 

I am happy to say that dilemma and insecurities are my maturity level I am coping up with my problems in my past to present form. Let’s cheers to me as I only want to congratulate myself as an achiever for somehow.

 

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Page Four

My new family

 

My happiness sometimes exists today when you are having a good community and a good circle of friends. Well mostly in my days are exactly common of my happiness days. My boss and I usually share the same idea of happiness terms.

 

It was started when I joined the Stand and Walk Therapy Center as an assistant teacher. My salary was basic commodity in my life. It was not necessarily in life that you have had this or that. You have to be a simple guy to walk in the community where you can start to work.

 

First day or maybe my first week of my work was dramatically changing me as well. My routine was changing me from being as a couch potato to work-acholic. And the best start I’ve had started there was they really accepted who I was to be. The teachers changed me as well. As they knew my condition, my routine became part of my life. I knew it was changing me that well.

 

But things have changed when someone was to leave and someone was to enter. It was not necessarily to say this. But sometimes the eagerness inside of you wants to say something you really want it to say. My secrets are limited. I’ve overcome being as a secretive. But knowing myself, I also limit my secrets from no one can ever know about something not as necessarily as well.

 

One month I have lasted that long, my performance level didn’t change. I still managed to catch time to sleep and managed to use of my routine levels. From being facebook addict I was before, being as an online gamer before and being as a console gamer before literally changed my life as well. I was almost changing myself to a better future. My attitude before changed me as well now today. From being self-confessed addicted gamer, I am seriously change myself and my routine today.

 

I am no longer an addicted gamer today, and plus that I am no longer a facebook user anymore. I can update myself from time to time. But not as always when I am glue to my computer, I always put myself not sleeping entirely in the night. I have a work today plus with my loading business. My boss said to me that I have a potential where I can contribute something for the school important. It is something I find rarely in my life – a perfect new family.

 

What’s a new family by the way? That’s a good question. And my answer is my work environment. I am really glad that I have family on my back: my two bosses, the secretary and the co-teachers as well. I am considering myself as a lucky person. Don’t get me wrong if I am not right. So tell me if I am really wrong.

 

My new family is my work environment. Things are changing me as well. And my perspective in my life is also changing me as well. If I continue this as well, my routine in my life today should not considering to change me as well. Because I want some my work to have my loyal in my back whenever I have problems. I can be open-minded but sometimes that I have to be shut up also. Because sometimes I am really that talkative either also in my life.

 

I have mosaic trisomy 21 Down syndrome. It means that I have partly becoming with disability doesn’t mean that I have to stop there. I am a blessing. And blessing should use in the proper use in life. And so I use it properly. When you have disability, sometimes you care of yourself, your family and your pet also. You love anything that considers the most of your time in your life.

 

What is my happiness? I could tell you that is because of my work. And I love my work. The work environment, the circle of good friends and the day routine find myself in a better way of living life. I rarely get a chance a good set of friends. And I share my life with good people including the student’s parents where I get a chance to talk with. Being with somebody else you really to talk to open-minded somehow change your vision in your life.

 

It is because I really want to get a chance to be a better person. And I really need to change myself also as a part of your own reality. And reality sometimes chooses you to find your own path of fate. The fate chooses you and choose to work what is best for you. And so I am consider to be part of my life.

 

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Roles changing

At this point of new chapter of Life: New Unveiled, on some part that it might change a little. Maybe it’s a bit of challenging me. It’s between me, my job and my business. It might sound interesting to some of you about my story. You always hear some of new stories and some repeated old stories as well.

 

Maybe it’s a bit of changing routine as well. My life now has changing me. And so the part of the sadness situation becomes a happiness situation. DID you know one of my oldest page was way back during 1998? Maybe you didn’t listen to me very carefully.

 

1998 was the year full of surprises. It was between sophomore year of high school and junior year of high school. It was that summer of 1998. Between the summer classes, my mom said that I have had to gone in summer classes in Ateneo. Well I was not an Atenean, I was more of Montessorian. I met no one there. I was not open-minded. I rather spoke up only to myself.

 

During that time, no one have had ever been friends to me in Ateneo. Because I was too scared to be mix someone who don’t know me. Sadly, I had to go back to Montessori Integrated School of Antipolo in upcoming school year of 1998 – 1999. That year broke into sadness story of NBA. It got shortened season when San Antonio SPURS won their first championship in 1999. That was another story.

 

Today, I’ve asking myself what I am doing is sort of what I have suppose to do. New life, new page and new unfold story is the same thing supposed to say. I am no longer as an assistant teacher next week of classes.

 

One week was a terrible mess when the storm Maring got mess the whole Luzon because of the weather. Well, sad to say, that was another story. But I was assuming I want it to be as a teacher. When I will be going to be as an assistant teacher again?

 

Hmm…my boss quite messes my head this time. I have my identification card as well and it said there that I was an a sped assistant. On the other part, they exchanged me into a harder part of role – to become a security. From as an assistant teacher, now as a security, the so-called life I have today has change me again.

 

What if I am not capable to do things very well? Hmm…it is really confusing me as well. My role change so fast. I fit to no one’s position. And also, the prayers was also prayed. The Reaching Our Children for the King or ROCK Integrated School has moved in new place. It was once that Teacher Jana lived their house. Now it was the time for the school grows more. With a big facility comes a big responsibility. Hmm…sounds confusing to me again.

 

Who would thought that the ROCK Integrated School become a big school now? Maybe if I am a big prayers, it would come. But it seems a little change in the name of the school. And the answer would become unusual.

 

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Can an assistant teacher become a teacher?

 

In some many ways, it’s a yes. But in a few ways, it’s not compared to few professional licensed teachers. I’ve asked some that I knew already. “Can really they become good teachers?” Hmm…a lot of says that it might be a consider as an assistant teacher becoming teacher so soon.

 

I may be a not a good teacher, but I pray that I might be a good teacher in the future. It’s not one of my dreams that considers my field as a teacher. In fact, before I come in this fate, being as a teacher is really a tough profession in the country. Some it says that it’s hard and some it says that it’s commonly they do in everyday tasks.

 

Checking the papers if it’s complete, scoring if the student gets a high score, checking the student’s performance, listing the student’s punctuality and some many more to mention are not big deal to me. But in some ways, some professional licensed teachers can really do some everyday in their lives. I mean that I haven’t see my grandmother checking the paper’s scores if it’s good or bad. Whenever I have heard my mom’s stories about her mom as well was a teacher, even though I don’t remember Lola Betty at her age coming from her school just to check the attendance.

 

It was her age that mattered the most. But it seems that I am lost in the middle of nowhere. I have some classmates who become teachers as well. My classmate during fourth grade really topped in the class and graduated in San Beda College and moved up to teach students in Xavier school in San Juan. And the other classmate I have had was during my fourth year high school. He was a valedictorian and was now a teacher where we’ve had graduating in Montessori Integrated School of Antipolo.

 

Who may never know that I may be as an assistant teacher in the first place?” It says in my facebook timeline that I’ve posted a comment about as a teacher as well. It was last year’s post around June 2012. It may sounds weird but I could tell I really post it about the comment exchange. Hmm…that sounds really interesting.

 

I didn’t have education degree taking up in the college, but the only thing I’ve really remembered was graduating college certificate in culinary arts. I’ve never took any kind of college degree yet. If I ever take a college degree, I may be an honor to do that as well.

 

Since this is the part of my day that I become as an assistant teacher, almost two months, one week and still counting. My boss says that I have potential becoming as a teacher. I have always dream to become one of my goals before is to portray as a teacher in entertainment industry. But it seems it’s not easy to become portraying someone else. The fate chooses me as an assistant teacher, and I am proud of what I have accomplish my goals so far.

 

To think one of my goals today, it is change already. In my dreams alone before, I choose that I have to follow my dreams to become as an entertainer in the entertainment industry. It is to become dancer, singer maybe and an actor as well. If I am lucky, I will be leading as a producer, scriptwriter or as a director as well. You can’t go if you can’t complete the production before you come up some of the directing movies as well. To become one, you have to go as one of the below positions in the entertainment industry. Plus you will get have to gain the knowledge.

 

That is one of my biggest aspirations before. Now it’s change. I hope I can be the one to become as a good role model, a good leader, a motivational speaker or maybe as an ambassador as well. Being as a tough can’t beat all the odds itself. You have to become one good role model. Hmm…it is really hard to say than acting alone.

 

Sometimes in reality, what it really tells me that I still have to follow my aspiration dreams. Or maybe both if I need to attain what is my happiness tells me about. When I follow my dreams, I always tell myself that I have to be strong as a horse steadily riding to your dreams. In the past, that was one of my problems when I have had in my denial stage of what my condition controlled me most. Somehow, I held to my problems and then later I realized that I was wrong. The last minute I couldn’t tell is myself.

 

My pride sometimes eats yourself the whole when you don’t know and you are starting to panic all the times. Eventually later, I studied what was my wrong about and what was my right attitude should be. And I said myself, ‘hey, I could do this better.’ Things when I usually do is writing what is best should have.

 

It sets in the east when the sun rises to wake you up. You should know that the beautiful day will start a new day itself. And somehow at the end of the day, you learn a valuable lessons in your life. Before you go to sleep, you pray for the beautiful day to come again. That’s when miracle sometimes does everything change for you. Make a habit and form a positivity in your life.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

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Unwrapped Future

 

How it feels to be like someone when you are not ready seriously in the world full of doubts and too many questions?

 

It feels like that I am in the place where you really work with a good environment you have and the community itself really secures you well. Like somebody who is really looking up to you as a good model.

 

Is it okay for you to work somebody you really don’t like?

 

It’s up for someone who really have a good heart to a big guy like me.

 

How is it feels for you that you are different from the rest of the society?

 

I am not different. Being different is not a big deal in the society. It feels me what I am proud today.

 

Do you like what you feel today?

 

Like I said, I am neither different or define as not normal. I just want to live longer being having Down syndrome. This is what I really love to do and I feel not so special I really love.

 

Thank you and you continue to inspire us for your beautiful message.

 

It is not about who I am or feels that I am not being different to somebody else. It is who I am making history or maybe a story that feels like to be written about. The story about me is something new in the society. Being as an assistant teacher is a small step for me for success story.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

I rarely find one of these days a new partner for me. After I have had relationship with my first fling ex-girlfriend, I felt secured to me where I worked as an assistant teacher in the therapy center and the school I worked. The first thing I know in my life was a burdened heart that was in my chest.

 

Then I realized it was only hope and fate that chooses me. My heart was terrible before I came working in the school. It was a sudden, like a quick stepping in the world of humanity. Yes, it may be sounds weird but sometimes it works that well. I don’t know what you can call, but sometimes it is written somewhere.

 

I have said about the article from the last time. The 8 people with Down syndrome who are making history and the Spain’s 1st Down syndrome councilor are great articles to read. It’s really that amazing. But somehow in the point of view in my life thinks that I am coming in the right way. In the past, all I can thought about was a big mistake. Now, I am making my story colorful where I am happily working in the therapy center and the school as an assistant teacher.

 

Why Assistant’s Desk anyway? Anyone?

 

Assistant’s Desk is a catch phrase. If there is a teacher’s table, then this article would be another meaning as an Assistant’s Desk. It would be inappropriate if I will use a teacher’s table but I am not teacher yet. But if you could imagine my life is full of imagination is a great opportunity.

 

The other night, I’ve dreamed my student, Ecko who has Autism. It is not a disease and it is called as a genetically disorder that involves with a curious case. I may don’t have Autism but I have Down syndrome. It is not also a disease. It is also genetically disorder that happens with an extra chromosome and it calls in my case as mosaic trisomy 21 Down syndrome. The part of it takes, the natural way when you are getting older, is where I get my mother’s features throughout the years. That is what mosaic trisomy 21 Down syndrome has.

 

I have other students who have Autism, different ranges of age. And one of my students is a little girl called Cassy. She is really lovable and fun to study with her. She loves to roam, loves to play and loves to kiss your cheeks. Her case is different from Ecko. Cassy is wonderful kid and have a bright mind at the back of her head. Every time I check about her, her special education teacher Jana always gives an outstanding grade to her when she gets a perfect score. But when she is not in the mood, sometimes she don’t looks so good at her performance.

 

Every kid with Autism has different characteristics in every aspect in their lives. Two of them are Ecko and Cassy. Ecko has a minimal speech and also goes to Cassy. Both of them are also not looking in eye contacts. Which it means they have to learn and prepare for their brighter future. It is one of a great stories have to be waiting in the future.

 

Why special children that I choose to handle? Anyone?

 

It is rare for me to handle for them. It was something that whispered in my ears when I was interviewed by Sir Kirby. And I wasn’t hesitated to answer and I gave my answer as “assistant teacher to special children.” Little did I know was a perfect gift. A good model and as an assistant teacher for them is a big blessing.

 

God doesn’t make mistakes to create special someone in your life. It is a miracle does miracle in your life. It gives you a perfect condition whenever you ask yourself, “why do I choose to have special kid like this?” It is all about unconditional love, patience and a gift of understanding for little kids with special condition. It is not a BIG MISTAKE, it is a PERFECT GIFT.

 

And it is something that God gives us a wonderful special children in the first place.

 

If there is a Science wants to close extra chromosome of Down syndrome, would you agree?

 

I won’t agree for that. If you are able to choose that, I won’t give another comment. Because God’s gift is sent to us to understand them, just like me. And I won’t be able to write a good article of Assistant’s Desk in the first place.

 

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Every chromosomes count in every kid or adult with Down syndrome that they have to know with blessings in life.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

With many normal possibilities in life, sometimes we all know ourselves in different religions, cultures, nations and also part of our history that we all have capabilities in life. Like me, for example, is a big opportunity in life when I am part writing in my history about what I can do.

 

Being as an assistant teacher is a big opportunity for me. I didn’t expect to come bigger role in life. When I was started in my work, I usually encountered with big possibilities in life – to become a role model in each that I have had handling special children with autism, ADHD and Down syndrome. Well, in my part, I have Down syndrome. I don’t hold my hindrance to become part of it. I’ve accepted the whole situation in my life now.

 

Let’s rewind in my past. I was intimidating my whole life being having hindrance to become my part of my life in the past. I didn’t accept myself of who I was to be. For being part written in my life, I’ve whole-heartedly accepted to become part of one. I’ve read an article which it is the 8 people with Down syndrome who are making history. Here’s the link below:

 

8 People with Down syndrome Who Are Making History

http://www.babble.com/babble-voices/living-and-loving-with-down-syndrome-eliana-tardio/8-people-with-down-syndrome-who-are-making-history/

 

I’ve read the whole part of an article every time I read all about. Then I wonder and realize and asked myself, “Am I still dreaming or is it possible that I can become to be part of them?” That is where I have to start thinking at the back of my head that I could be one of them. I could be the 9th or somewhere there in the article. I have no idea. But to be part of the history, my boss said that I really could be one of them who could be inspired the whole nation here in the Philippines.

 

I’ve met Brina Maxino who is the brightest student graduated in her alma mater high school as the top in her class as a valedictorian. She has Down syndrome, just like me. She can speak clearly. And I can speak clearly too. In next years, she could be like me.

 

Mosaic trisomy 21 Down syndrome is what I have. But I don’t know if Brina and I are the same in mosaic area. But I don’t want to talk about that.

 

Back to the assistant’s desk, I’ve managed to get out of my hindrance test in my life after two years. I was really in denial stage. Because nobody told me that I’ve had Down syndrome in my life. It could be anybody’s fate. I really couldn’t tell about it.

 

When I’ve first met one of two bosses, the first one was Sir Renan. He couldn’t thought at the back of his head that I’ve really had Down syndrome. He could doubt on me. But he realized later on that I’ve had on it. Because of my slow development and slow reactions for somehow, but I really could have a bigger room of opportunity to become a good model.

 

After one week, their secretary called me. It was one that I’ve remembered. I thought her name was Elaine. It was Allaine. I’ve heard for the unique name for the first time. Being part of written history I am making, each time I write or read, I’ve usually doubt too many questions to myself. For reasons why, I don’t know.

 

Then I’ve met Sir Kirby. He was nice. But at first I’ve met him, I was nervous, sweaty and a mixed reactions of scared and terrified. I didn’t know what to do. I’ve first met also the preschool teacher and the special education teacher. Teacher Jana was the special education teacher. And also part in our staff was Teacher Kyla. They were both on the start of the day, I was also scared of them.

 

But on the run later in life, I’ve really took chances to become one of them someday although I didn’t hold any education degree in my life before. So I’ve felt it was my second home. I was devoted to become one of the good role models. I’ve had heard different stories. But mine was different from the rest of the Down syndrome society.

 

I am eager to learn and I am eager to take the challenges later in life. Because if you doubt too many questions, you couldn’t take the risks later in life. You have to be ready and always take cautious and initiative thinking. What I did every morning? Then I have to tell you.

 

I was sweeping leaves and some garbage spills every Monday to Friday early mornings. Normally I’ve arrived 5:25 to 5:35 every morning. Each time I’ve arrived whether there was rain or no rain, I really took challenges. I felt becoming not cautious at the start. Each time I swept leaves, I was thinking at the back of my head that I could really take chances whatever it may go in my life in the future.

 

Unfold, unwritten and blank pages is the first step to fill it up in my life. Sometimes whenever I look for, I’ve normally doing the good doings in life.

 

What else can you read any articles, you could read about this:

 

Spain’s First Down syndrome councilor

http://www.thelocal.es/20130729/spain-first-down-syndrome-councillor

 

“Time flies when you don’t realized that it is the fate chooses you and not your fate. Sometimes it may count as a big blessing and an opportunity. And it count the way the blessings will knock in your door.”~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

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Fruitful of Happiness

Page One

It was one of my hardest to cope with challenging chapters – to accept my dilemma to able accept my condition was. Yes, it may be sounds weird and it sounds interesting too.

 

Question (Itsmikki Studio): What is it like to have condition like me?

My Answer (MA): I really don’t know how to deal Down syndrome, of my story really. But to tell you the truth, I’ve never feels so happy through the years.

 

IS: If you want to be happen a politician, where do you want to run and why?

MA: If I want to be a politician, I will never run if I may answer that. Next question please.

 

IS: Why next question, you should be answering my question?

MA: Maybe in my province or where I was been raised, I could be a councilor or lower position. But I would mind helping people who have greater needs.

 

IS: Okay, let me push to the next question. If you want to be what do you want to grow up, what would you really like to be someday?

MA: I would probably pursuing my dreams both in photography about volcanoes and go and act like an entertainer someday. Because that is what it makes happily I want to go to.

 

IS: Why?

MA: It is one that I will contribute in the country to able help other with greater needs.

 

IS: Good luck with that. I hope I will meet you soon.

MA: Thanks.

 

IS: One more thing, what would you say to fellow readers?

MA: Follow whatever in your heart that says your true happiness, just follow and you can shine for your opportunities.

 

Facts:

Itsmikki Studio is one of the pioneering names I can come up with this kind of names and it’s unique. How I found out that this is unique. Hmm…it’s hard to explain. Let me browse you my previous articles and just read the previous articles. It will find out how you really like my articles written well and versed.

 

Also in my part, ItsMikkiStudio Literature is under the name of Itsmikki Studio. Under the copyrights contained and versed, it is my right duty to comply rules and regulations as of June 2013.

 

Page Two

One of the challenging roles now I am facing about – being as an assistant teacher. Assistant teacher, whether I like or not, is one of toughest roles I’ve accept in my life. But in that case, I’ve never dream really in my life being as an assistant teacher handling children with special needs or greater needs in short.

 

What I really about as an assistant teacher? Assisting special children with angelic and charming in their smiles sometimes melts your sadness away each and every day. I feel I am around with them. With energetic they have, I also feel the energetic from them. It may sounds weird but it sounds really fun to work as an assistant teacher.

 

My dilemma right now is how to juggle my career as a writer, traditional artist, a novelist and being part as an assistant teacher. I also have my part having with my business in cellphone loading almost already in 8 years, one month and five days old.

 

Doing my part in my happiness is also helping to ease my sadness away. Meaningless that I say, after I broke up with my first fling ex-girlfriend last May 16, it may sounded weird to me but it contributed a reversal psychological answer. That reversal psychological answer was finding something to exchange having a work somewhere else. Because assisting special children found my way to surprise parents, helping them to encourage and catering the greater needs with that condition. My work as an assistant teacher is simply amazing to me.

 

I like doing right now to write about positive, less opportunity to think about negative issues. But the last time I wrote about negative issue was from the section of Driven News being written last month. So much to say is less than to talk about. I don’t bring up another issue again. It may eat my pride or my positivity sides will be gone to negativity sides.

 

Aside from being having my first experience with my ex-girlfriend, I’ve realized that it was time to let it go. And she found easily another man just to fall for her. Easy to say for a lady like her, because the last I saw her was her happiness before I broke up with her.

 

With the withered smile she have had with me before, it was another fruitful evidence in my life that I’ve encountered love life in a short period of time. Hmm…sounds negative to me, but in the other sides, it is normally saying it’s the only life driven after you.

 

When I entered working with new environment of teaching these smiling special children was simply heavenly and angelic. They are angels to me. Three of kids have Down syndrome and the rest have autism. Hmm…if I am correct or not, some of them have cases I still don’t know up to now to its date today. Hopefully in the future, I will be gladly to help these kind of special children – as an inspiration motivation speaker someday if I may added in my aspiration dreams.

 

One of my best encounter in my aspiration dreams is coping of my dilemma with a curious case of Down syndrome. I found late when I was in sophomore year in high school. Learning from genetics, it was really hard in the start, now that I learned well throughout the years from my experiences. It is one of my fruitful of happiness years.

 

“Let it be bygone have to be bygones already. Let go of your sadness years from you. Create new ones and start daily of your activities have positive sides. Don’t be afraid to take your future ahead of you and start practicing by now. And all the answers will wait for you patiently in times of needed. Time will heal and eventually become your blessings.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

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Assistant’s desk

“One hundred smiles sometimes can send a thousand letters or even millions over in a globe population. But with a single smile can make you a big difference – with a killing smile of an extra chromosome (down syndrome).” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

I, sometimes with a big heart, read a lot now and then aside from my story. Little by little in my life, I’ve started to know better with a lot stories from many families who have their child with Down syndrome, or other some cases.

 

I’ve handled three kids with Down syndrome. Two of them were boys and one was the little girl. Gabe was a sweetheart kid who have had sometimes making some noises to attract teachers. Because he was too excited to see some other kids interacting with him. He was one of the oldest who have had Down syndrome in the class I was assisting in the afternoon special education classes.

 

When I first met Alfred at the therapy center, I was glad to meet him. Because he was adorable. He reminds me when I was at his age. I taught him a little move I knew when I was a kid. And that was his hands reversed and his fingers were in his cheeks – more like giyomi style. But it was one of the oldest moves I’ve got from my friends and my cousins as well. Alfred was also behaving in the class.

 

The last and not at least was the little girl with Down syndrome was Gabbie. She was really cute. She really loved how to make-up for her face. Since her nanny taught her how to make-up, it was still cute for her. I’ve even know that her mother was a doctor. It was the same goes to Gabe because Gabe’s mother was also a doctor. Gabbie was turning year old by next Friday. But I didn’t know their ages so much. Because I don’t have profiles about them.

 

If I only have their profiles, I would even know their profiles as well.

 

At the other side as an assistant teacher, I would be likely to become a freelance writer someday. I don’t have funds for it. But I am planning to buy first – a new brand cellphone. Over the past years, I don’t have a stable job just to buy a new cellphone. In that case, I would buy a new cellphone next month or maybe next to months. It all depends to a matter for my salary. And I hope all goes well.

 

My two bosses really liked my performance well both in livelihood and in the class where I was assisting for special children in afternoon classes. Hopefully my two bosses would come up adding a new Grade 1 next year. We only have had preschool and alternative learning system (special education classes). It all depends in God’s time and in God’s blessings also.

 

Their routine became added and added. And it also same goes to me. Hopefully it will be remarkable in all ways of life.

 

Once you get out from your shell, it all goes in a normal way of living way of being independent.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

After two months of stable job, I’ve finally reached a new record of employment. It is a huge blessing for me to have a new job in a perfect time. My two bosses liked me that much. Me and two of them were in the same bracket of age. We’ve shared the likes in music, fashion and everything we know in life. Now that includes from our generation before about candies and food as well.

 

Adding from that, the huge blessing I got from this year’s resolution was that I’ve finally reached my new year resolution. It was the number one new year resolution – to adjust my weight forming back to my ideal weight. And I’ve reached it. I was even more happier. This morning I’ve weighed 151.4 pounds. And I was even more happier because I’ve maintaining my weight now and then everyday. If I did this before, I would be feeling more happier. But that was before. You have a bit to change yourself for a year.

 

One small step sometimes gets closer for you reaching your goal.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

And I’ve formally formed my studio to its new name – ItsMikkiStudio Literature or IMS Ltre. But the original name was still there as Itsmikki Studio. If I’m abbreviating the name for IS, it would be sounds different. But if I’ve added, it would became a new name. Ltre means literature, sounds like Ltd from Limited. It sounds like the same, but sooner or later, I would become adding a new department under Itsmikki Studio from ItsMikkiStudio Literature.

 

It was all because of hardworking I’ve worked through the years. It was started years before when I started to write but there was having hard time for me with no trade name yet. I’ve given a second chance to write again a year ago in a new blog platform site. Blogging is like something you have given to write something you would come up to write. But for me, I gave my site to a new different level to name after my youtube account.

 

The original name was Mikki where I was using the name over the years I was playing in Ragnarok Online, Khan Online, RAN Online, Perfect World and last but not the least was Flyff Online. The name after I’ve used, it stuck in my head and formed after my deviantart.com. Then it became mikki90.deviantart.com officially because of my portfolio from traditional and digital age. Then another one was from my youtube account, itsmikki. From this date of March 16, 2012 last year, the launching of my studio name was finally commercializing to its new name – Itsmikki Studio. The domain name I’ve maintained lasted only from June 2012 until February 2013. I’ve didn’t manage to continue it because I don’t have a financial basis from my financial stability.

 

My facebook page I’ve created for Itsmikki Studio launched last year, July 2, 2012. It turned a year older last month for my fan page anniversary where I’ve maintained my business ventures. My twitter account for Itsmikki Studio also turned a year old last month, July 16, 2012.

 

But the success growth for my business ventures in writing is still there up to its new date and updates regularly. I’ve even now complying to continue my writing to this month of August. Last two months I’ve worked for my two hardworking early months. Now I’ve successfully continuing my job as an assistant teacher and also being as a writer for my studio business ventures. Next month, I’m planning to write more because I will be going to fly to Toronto.

 

Toronto is a new place to write my writing basis paying months. And I’m planning to get a new bank account where I can get my basic pay from my writing career. Even though I am still part of my job as an assistant teacher for handling special education kids. Kids are important for me. They are part for my backbone of my hardworking job.

 

Now I am aiming to a new height – to become another history. Like Nick Vujicic said, “no matter what you are, whether you have disability or not, you are still a blessing from God and use it properly in time. And blessings will come knocking in your doors and open it wisely even you are wise or not.” That was what he said in the front of the audience.

 

I was shocked to what he said. I am inspired from him. And also being part of the history, I also want adding to my life if I can still make up to my dreams – as an actor in the entertainment industry as well. And eventually in the future, I will be gladly to help the economy for the entertainment industry and tourism industry as well. Because of that, I will love to help and cater for the people’s needs in our country as well.

 

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