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Discrimination is always a number one enemy in our mind at the back of our head. It’s an unusual word for me although it lacks an information for those who haven’t heard from that word. Mongoloid is also a negative derogatory word. And other derogatory words, I would not mention anymore. Because it has deeper meaning to us also.


What we can do to change the world?


1. Stop using the word of Down syndrome kid. It’s an appropriate word. Use the words properly: person with Down syndrome, a child with Down syndrome and an adult with Down syndrome.

2. Create a small group, a small organization or a sibling support system. With this, you can change the community in a small occasion manner.

3. Start campaigning on your neighborhood with this kind of project.


These three small steps I’ve created at the back of my head will be my project in the coming months. And I will be changing the town into a greater town. So anyone could acknowledge that people with Down syndrome has more unique characteristic talent and flourishing more on their talents which they could be independent like me.


Understanding the child with Down syndrome has become part of the society. But growing up with them has also alarming in the society. Some people as it may seems, they don’t consider the person with Down syndrome to become part of them. Other people in other establishment or organization take part of their role, they are considering person with Down syndrome to be needed in the society. Take your action today and not tomorrow, because a fight for the rights of people with Down syndrome have no fear because they are no barriers anymore. For me, it would also take part of new role in the society – moving forward in positive world.

~Status message in facebook, March 28, Friday, 9:32 p.m.


Finding a new words for your right decision of your little brighter ideas will make a change in your neighborhood. Small group, perhaps, can make a change. Or it should start somewhere else with some schools around the town. And I believe there are more seven special schools around the town here in our area. I don’t have specialization career here. But being as an advocacy drives me to get a higher role – is to become a role model. I may be not a perfect leader, but I can be a follower to anyone who can manage to listen at my good sides. I may be not a perfect writer, but more than words can attract more parents to read about this article. Campaigning is not also easy as it may seems to look. But rather, I’m focusing more in this small country we have here in the Philippines.


Two years until now, I became an active member here in the Philippines’ Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI. Showing my guilt in the past became lesser and lesser as I continued flourishing myself in positivity sides of the world. Changing might be good. But starting from the point will change higher if I continue spreading the good news.


I’ve been also in denial stage before. But I continue bringing more good news from my stories. In this imperfect world we have now are our guidance to improve more to ourselves. Starting from our special parents who helped us to grow stronger, we also know how to care of ourselves. In this journey of my story, I will still continue to bless my story.


No greater success comes from a little story. But a greater story comes with a positive side at the back of our mind. Greater care, greater patience, greater unconditional love and greater guidance have more flourishing from the special parents to take care of us. I am even blessed that I still have grandparents on my side. Continuing to bless sharing my story is my honor. Spread about all the love I take to you.


Fights for the rights: Changing in denial stage to acceptance stage to fighting stage

Fighting stage

We always have to be sensitive every time there is an issue against anyone who wants what is right and what is wrong. Tell them that they are wrong. I’ve been in denial stage before. Now I accepted the things that it was no going back to the place I was before. Looking forward to the future is always what we are going for. Honestly, there are many ways to stop the discrimination around the nation. And within the nation must comply honoring these special children with their capabilities they are unique and creative.


Look for this example, one of the best fighters is Michael Phelps. He is diagnosed as ADHD. All of his competitors are already on their best. But Michael is not still finished yet. He continued to fight for his freedom. What is freedom? Michael has freedom to express his nature despite he has ADHD. But he is no longer labeling him having ADHD, he has to live normally what we are. Like Michael Phelps, there’s Enchong Dee. Enchong Dee was a swimmer before. And he is already an actor in this generation. Stopping them is not an option, but to fight for their own good.


In my field, I may have an option, looking forward without turning back anymore and not stopping where I am going to my success. That is the fighting spirit, the fighting stage we are also known for our capabilities. We are unique. We are creative. We emphasize the world we are looking for the brighter future. And there is no tomorrow. Because fighting for your own child might change the society in a better world.


What are your concerns for your special child with Down syndrome?

There are many types of your concerns with your special child with Down syndrome. Like in my case, my parents said that I don’t have to worry for my heart problems. But I’m worrying about my health issues. Lesser to think at the back of my head only can make having problems with pulmonary, pneumonia and other health issues also.


Taking care of your special child with Down syndrome has many types of heart problems. Before turning to one year old, have your special child to go to the pediatrician or to your family doctor. Consult if there has an issues. With heart problems, parents should worry about their special child despite what they are having problems. Take a good look, God give you a special child. Does have you to be worry? He sees you to take care of special child He has given to you. The kingdom has pass down every special child in each family. But looking forward with positive attitude, you will always have to say bye-bye issues already.


Have you read the previous articles of No labels as Down syndrome?

If you haven’t read some article of No labels as Down syndrome series, there are two more previous articles will take you to read in this articles below:


No labels as Down syndrome


No labels as Down syndrome: Conquering the new fear



The signs of Down syndrome:

Hyper mobility

What is hyper mobility? Have you check his or her legs and arms? Children with Down syndrome have flexible arms and legs that can stretch than normal people except for talented ballet dancers. When they are starting to flex their muscles in their arms and legs, try to reduce their stretching arms and legs by doing some stitched pants and stitched arm supporters. In this way, it will lower their flexibility.



What is hyperthyroidism? Normally, children and adults with Down syndrome will eat their infinite eating habits. As it grows, their muscles in their body will become an issue among us. Like doing a physical exercise and eat a right amount of diet will slower their appetite. If you start to an earlier age of months, try to discipline your special child with Down syndrome. If not, try to consult to a pediatrician what it will can do to your child with special needs.


First toe finger to second toe finger

Normally, a child or an adult with Down syndrome has their unique characteristics other than who’s also has Down syndrome. To mention that their first toe finger is slightly far a bit from their second toe finger. That is one of the characteristics of being having Down syndrome. You cannot change the fact that they could change. But to accept their condition, you also have be a role model as a parent to take care of your special child with Down syndrome.


Slant face, short nose, wide tongue, unsized ears, height

What are the other characteristics of Down syndrome? Normally some of those who have not all have slant faces, short noses, wide tongues, unsized ears (meaning their both ears are not the same height) and height, they are already characterized as Down syndrome. Like in my case, I don’t have slant face and short nose. But I do have a wide tongue and unsized ears. Unsized ears are usually have not the same height in different angles.



1. Physical therapy

At the earlier age, I started at 2 years old by sending me to the physical therapist during the early 1980’s. Many doctors don’t know how to prepare their medications towards among us, children and adult with Down syndrome. I was diagnosed with mosaic Down syndrome, trisomy 21 chromosomes.


In my early age of 2, I sent to the school to have physical therapy. But it was quite that I didn’t remember very well. But that was another story. Sending to your therapist of your special child with Down syndrome as earlier as 4 or maybe 6 months, babies should start crawling by now if I am correct or not. If this didn’t work with you, consult a pediatrician and a doctor to get a results from them.


2. Speech therapy

During my those days I was having troubling to speak directly from my mouth, I wasn’t handling my speech during my childhood days. Some of my schoolmates were bullying because of my speech. I may have had a condition, but I was recovering through all manifesting years. Speech therapy is the most important therapy. Having your special child with Down syndrome take to the speech therapist. The therapist would welcome you a happy child. Because normally with those Down syndrome, we always have to be happy all the time.


In my condition, I was sent to a therapist when I was a child. Normally, I didn’t know all the troubles my mother would sending me to the therapist. So one hour packed filling with the therapist, the child should nourish their lessons to be learned in one-hour session. And to regret for the days I didn’t remember, it was time to let it go for me when I’ve entered the high school because I’ve had to learn on my own. After college, I still didn’t know how to write the sentence properly. After taking up the certificate in call center training last March 2012, I’ve ended up working in a special school being as an assistant teacher who assisted among special children with special needs last June 2013.


3. Occupational therapy

Behavior is always the main problem when reaching to your special child with Down syndrome. Sending your special child with Down syndrome to the therapist would fit to change the results.


In earlier age of 2, physical therapy and occupational therapy were the most improved therapy that would’ve done me today. It took me one year as I heard from my mom. But I learned from my mom. And mom knows best.


4. Vision therapy

Checking your special child with Down syndrome to the optometrist has a bit problem although I also have undergone too when I was entering the school before fourth grade. Seeing is hard to see what is blurry to your mind. To check the condition, consult first to the pediatrician if the special child with Down syndrome has problems in eye vision. Today, there’s already a vision therapy, a new therapy that was introduced to the world. Not only the children with special needs will benefit this but also the adults with special needs also will benefit this. If your neighbor, your brother, your sister, your parents, your relative or to your friend might have eye vision problem. Try consult with a vision therapist just in case you need a help.


5. Audio therapy

Your special child might having a problem with their hearing despite of all noises. Did you that the more decibels you are hearing might cause a little problem? Did you know that the fourth pollution was noise pollution? Sending your special child to the doctor will help you to determine if it’s having problem with hearing problems. To indicate if it causes, try to consult to a pediatrician if they allow your child send to the audio laboratory.


The most powerful tool we can allow to change the world is to show them our showcasing talent we have. Or the livelihood project that starts with all. Or to test the life skills we can show to the world. With this knowledge, people with Down syndrome will be flourishing their life to share their story in the world where you will go.


No barriers: The livelihood project, the life skills, the talents


The livelihood project

What is livelihood project? Livelihood project is based to your special child with special needs that is more likely to help your child to increase their skill and talent. If they learn very well, they could earn through selling some of their skilled efforts. For example, your special child learned how to bake the cookie and eventually sold them in a quantity. The community in their role would understand the benefit for the children to grow independently.


I was given a chance to run a business which my mom gave me a cellphone loading business. The loading business I am still doing running up to the present since June 2006. Creating your special child or special adult with this kind of livelihood project will giving an opportunity your child be given to work in a community.


The life skills

What are the life skills? Life skills are basically types of what you can do around your house. It can also take part in the community where your special child will learn new life skill. Like doing a household chore is already a life skill. Practicing your special child at home doing some household chores will increase the special child to motivate on their own independent. Increasing your special child with special needs about the things to learn around the house should know how to take care of themselves. Like having difficult making a bed neat and clean or the room has been filled with mess, practice your special child to take care of their own living life. Teach them how to take care of the bed, how to take care of their little brother or little sister, of teach them how to grow up how to be a good special adult someday. But teaching a special teen with special needs how to drive, that is another story. Take a good look around the community and tell me what’s their story all about.


The talents

The talents vary on one thing – their passion to carry throughout their life. If your special child is good at sports, send him or her to the nearest community where your special child is already learning their talent in running, swimming or any sports they could do. If your special child is very talented in singing, send the child in music ministry in the church, or in music therapy. Your special child will learn eventually things are going well in the community. But if your special child is well talented in other things, let them grow, teach them how to enhance it, encourage them to a positive mind, and grow positively through their hearts. Your passion is to support your special child to grow to their potential talent.


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This has been 14 years already when I was struggling to my problems before I knew that I have Down syndrome. It was then, a miserable life. But I always have had to ask myself what I’ve had done in my life? Was it good to have experience this way or was it bad? Some of the thoughts at the back of my head thinking if I was overacting to my thoughts. The real solutions came later in my life. Those 14 years from the year of 1997 when I learned that I have had Down syndrome, was one of the hardest times I’ve never achieved back then.


Learning from my experiences in the year of 2011, the year of changing of views came and exchanged stumbling to my thoughts at the back of my head if I was correctly myself. Then I said it to myself, it was time to let it go and accepted who I was. It was the Disney movie animation theme song from Frozen, Let It Go, when I felt the same way I always sang it to my heart. It was really painful that time, and I felt that it was something in my heart that I wasn’t a perfect gift. After I saw and heard Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines last January 2012 in the social network platform, it was then I felt that I wasn’t alone in the country knowing that I was feeling this way. But in my heart alone, the coldness and the numbness inside of my heart were melting one by one inside of my painful memories. It was the song I also learned that past is the past. So I moved on.


What can I do to be in my life today? Should I wake up? Or should I move on? Those repeating questions always have asked in my head until today. But I said to myself that I can do this through a lot of hardship relationship with God. I said to myself that I will be always loyal and be obedient. When I hear a lot of comments at the side of my negative side at the back of my head, I always block the negative sides. And to think of it at the back of my head, I will always allowing myself thinking more positive sides inside of my brain.


Journey of Down syndrome

Journey of Down syndrome


If I can do allowing myself to do more than I can do anything, I will claim all myself to Him alone. But the gift inside of my heart will be always cherishing inside of my life. The country Philippines should learn one by one of the facts that being having disability or not, people should be aware what they are doing against some of the special people and disability people. Because in reality, there are some people who can’t trusted what the words they are saying from their mouths. It’s their attitude is what their disability all about.


I may be have being having Down syndrome, but my heart is pure, sensitive and always understanding. I will always have to be calm all the time. And I claim my life to the Lord because everything here in the land are all temporary shelves in life. With two copies of chromosomes are normal and an extra copy of chromosome is called Mosaic Down syndrome, based on trisomy 21 chromosome test led by Dr. Jerome Lejeune and Dr. John L. Down who learned and discovered about Down syndrome, respectively.


Life is always have been as one of toughest of journey. And a journey is waiting for me in the future will unfold to me. With a lot of unquestionable questions they have hiding in the future, it will wait for me to test it. But along with powerful believing myself is all my strength left. Because all things are possible no matter what you are dreaming in your life. With a help from my promising life, I always seek to my unique talents and use it for my purpose doings. I will achieve in small things. And every smaller details of smaller things will deliver the message for me waiting to achieve. So the power of believing is one of my optimistic thoughts.


Two years have passed by from the year of 2012. 2012 was the perfect opportunity year to change me as well. And the blessings from 2012 was still continuing to bless me last year of 2013. Last year was a little bumpy to me. I have had experiencing with 8 days of relationship with my ex-girlfriend. It was a fling actually, but it counted as one anyway. Then she was the one who pushed me that I’ve had to wake up from a reality that I needed a job anyway. When I walked in for the first time in my life in a school, I grabbed the opportunity and continued the battles I’ve had today. This month was my eighth month anyway in my job.


The passion from my heart when I felt from the special children, it felt me that I began to like as a role model and a brother to most kids with Down syndrome. We also have kids with Autism and ADHD. Kids like them are gifted children. When I learned everything I could learn from my two bosses, I always wanted to be a teacher when I was thinking at the back of my head before. But I didn’t have an special education course diploma neither that I’ve had an education course diploma. I always asked myself everyday before when the time I was in depressed and frustrated times. I couldn’t do it. Because I was still in trauma years. It was years to build my courage back in reality. Fourteen years (14) that I always counted from 1997 to 2011. After building 3 years from 2011 until today, it was a difficult trial to me but I’ve had to accept it.


Then I suddenly woke up in reality and I said to myself that I can normally do what other people can do mostly in their lives. Applying, getting a passport and completing the papers was the first priorities that I did last year. And I did have a job. I’ve completely to be honest that I can do this with normal people. People with bad attitude are their disability. Somehow I don’t want them to judge, but they have to look us as our abilities what we can do. We may have unique intelligence in one, two or more fields. But we are capable trying to absorb in normal lives everyday in life struggling in a real world.


Being labeling having with Down syndrome is also one of greatest gift and a journey has more to tell you more stories.


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When I came to Happy Walk three years ago, it was me and my dad. That was when I wasn’t yet aware what I was doing to my childhood until adulthood. The world was intimidated me. Knowing that I didn’t know what I was capable of. But the fact I’ve enjoyed my life – being as a special adult.


Being having with Down syndrome, or simply no labeling with disability, doesn’t come to my fears and my doubts anymore. But I coped all of my problems when I was a child until I grew up maturely. I was hesitated to come in a big world. All my life has been depended in high school, college and frustration in the past years. Hiding from shadows cloaked me almost 14 years already but I came out from shadows that I became a light in 3 years already since 2011.


2011 was a big year changing me throughout all my hurdles. My burden heart poured down like a fire like I’ve been feeling loneliness, frustrated and depressed. I was all alone in one corner waiting for someone to tap me in my shoulder. Suddenly I woke up from my real dreams was waiting me all along. It was then one of my guardian angels told me that I have to follow where my heart is. And I did.


I was bored during my days waiting for me to have a work during those frustration and depression days. I was never satisfied what I was doing. I was shadowed of my pride and frustration began piling me up those days. And then I said to myself after I met Lapena family on February 15, 2012, days before Happy Walk begins on February 19, I didn’t want to go back where I was standing before. The boring days settled me down to my happiest times. My satisfaction grew up more as I wanted to look forward. And my pride and frustration began fading away. Looking up was a big step for me. I’ve always asked myself if I can still follow my wildest dreams to enter in the entertainment industry. I only allowed myself eager to be happiness all the time and my lips began smiling again.


The big three I coped up from my problems: 1) I’ve always allowed myself looking down no matter how small or big problems will come to your doors. 2) Noticing my real world wasn’t big enough but I only allowed myself as a frustration and depression during those days. And last 3) I looked in my past that I always wanted to change like in the movie of Back to the Future.


The big solved problems I made it so far: 1) I’ve entered DSAPI few days before the 20th Happy Walk. 2) I’ve joined my 1st Happy Walk back on Feb 19, 2012. 3) Blessings started pouring me down. And there were more plenty solved problems to been telling you the truth.


I’ve started to be walking alone in my own small two steps. Those small two steps were bigger chances to change my decisions. That year 2012 changed my whole life after I’ve entered Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines. I became a member last December 2012. And I’ve renewed my membership last December 2013 for adding two more years. Working was my first step priority those years. And I did working hard to earn my job last year. The roads today are more bumpy this year, because some of the roads I will take have risky chance. But those risky chances will prove my steadiness in the future.


The big three to my 3rd Happy Walk was a success. I’ve gained experiences. Some it might fall, but I have to stand up again for making mistakes growing to be stronger. Some it might to grow a little, the opportunity will knock me again those doors opening for me again calling that I will go back from my talents I’ve today.


Green shirt front

Green shirt front

Green shirt back

Green shirt back


No matter what problems are going for you, you have to knock it from your heart and change it for a good. I may be a special adult, but labeling me as Down syndrome is not my fear anymore or doubts. I will always surprising you in many ways, but to tell you at the back of my head that I have more greater ideas to create in the future. Waiting is not good, but to act from my heart will surprise you.


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The day swiftly made my debut running to my old form and it was my first time I joined in the fun run led by Ateneo’s No Speed Limit. For the first time of my life, I spent myself not indulging in computers but to health and fitness day. And I was satisfied. To tell the truth, I always spent my adulthood in computers. And as if there was no tomorrow for me, I’ve always asked myself if I can do it in my running shoes.


Front jersey: 3k

Front jersey: 3k

Back jersey: 3k

Back jersey: 3k


When I firstly knew about the Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines two years ago, then it was my fate to change my fitness for a good change. I didn’t know what I looked like if I go back to my old form when I was in younger age. But I did. The fact I minimized my body 34 pounds now, it was a difficult to turn the table back to a form age. I barely could not reach on this. Although my numbers for this year might be slow my pace back to my weight.


Last year I trimmed down my weight from 180 pounds above to cut it 31 pounds. And I made it to make my body fitted in my coat and tie in my sister’s wedding in Toronto. And all of my relatives was shocking to see that I was cutting my image from my body before. My role has becoming more wider and wider as I am going to change my world to look fitness more.


When I joined Special Olympics team last month, I met Ms. Kaye through facebook social network. It was a fate when I firstly knew DSAPI also two years ago, the same time I knew also in facebook platform. Well, I was merely shy back then. But when first things first came out at the back of my head thinking if I was shy right now, I knew some names in the Special Olympics team. And so my shyness becomes no worries for me no more.


I firstly thought I could be a shy. But at the back of my head simply is not resisting me at all. I saw thousand of dreams I could catch from my subconscious mind telling me if I could still follow my greatest or wildest dream to get in the entertainment world. But the real world has changing me now, for real. I was not intimidating myself anymore. In fact, I even more challenge myself into greatest roles – to become a role model instead going to the entertainment world.


If I know more dream I could reach is to believe myself within myself also. Whether you have impossible things you could ever imagine will turn into possible things. You realize how important your vital role is. Or how you could put yourself into a good position. If I do that, I would not imagine myself changing myself in the future.


The first run to 3 kilometers I ran up to this day made me to realize that I could still catch for my fitness. And yesterday was a good deal. I only ate two meals yesterday which it was oatmeal in the morning and chicken at the end of the day serving me as my dinner. And up to now, my diet was changing to a pace. I am more beginning to strict myself not to eat in six days about more than a meat in six days. Chicken, of course, is also considering a meat. Because it is poultry meat, the fourth cholesterol in a food pyramid which it consists chicken skin as a fat.


As I always made my mind changing my views from my culinary days, it was beginning for almost one year having myself in a diet period. My diet has started last the first day of April 2013. And up to now, I almost gave up my eating habits not to eat meat but it is also hard not to eat meat. I only now eat meat thrice a week. All of my days are changing as my habit turning into a vegetarian mode. Once the month of March will start occasionally of Ash Wednesday, the vegetarian mode will be turning soon.


The lessons here are simple. Eat a right amount in your body not too many in a day but to eat moderate in right time of the day. Eat breakfast, the important meal of the day. Once you put in your diet at the end of the dinner time, you could eat less in the evening. The hard it will digest you will be hard for you to make up to minimize your weight is. Don’t get frustrated on your diet. Take a time to spend looking yourself in the weight loss program. Always be conscious by looking your weight in a weight tool. And remind yourself so you could discipline your diet is.


Right now, my ultimate goal is a STEWARD. What is STEWARD? S is for Sunshine, TE is for Tiring Exercise, W is for Water, A is for Air, R is for Rest and D is for Diet. The more you discipline yourself in weight is the more you could minimize your weight down and helps you to realize how value your life is. And also put the number one vitamin in your body is a happiness.


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The key of success life is to live peaceful, harmoniously, optimistic and free to open your mind to one of happiness times. I always think free flow at the back of my head never believe to sadness, sorrowful, hurtful or believing to negative thoughts. Seeing my future to unfold will realize how important trials or problems will test me. No matter what makes depressed me, I will stand way out that being having with Down syndrome will be no longer as my label but to act as normal. I am who I am. And I believe in happiness no matter troubles will bring me in.”

~Status message in facebook, January 27, 2014, Tuesday, 8:28 p.m.


It changes my life from the past to what I am standing right now. When I encountered more of my problems before stating I was in depression and frustration times, I was always looking myself down to the mirror before the typhoon in Manila hit last September 26, 2009, Saturday morning. It was then I looked always how I was unchanged looking myself in the mirror. I was thinking at the back of my head I was locking in the cave no wondering that I would ever come back to see the light.


When I saw a light at the end of cave, I always thought that something was missing about myself. It is a matter of acceptance giving myself to change more about myself and to the people who really loves me much. Giving a chance that I have Down syndrome, mosaic Down syndrome that indicates two copies of chromosomes are normal while another extra copy of chromosome has trisomy 21 Down syndrome.


Normally I always not study on my own how to base what is really have to have Down syndrome. When I joined Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines two years ago, the 20th Happy Walk on February 19, 2012. That was Sunday. One rare gift could send to me. And it was a real gift blessing I received from one of my angels I really believed. Angels are my beliefs. And somehow it changes me when they are seeing whether I am doing wrong or I am doing right. I am not perfect who I am used to before or even until now. But I am also a gift from God that He send me to see my visualize my purpose in my life.


I read Purpose Driven Life book before. It was then I realized that book was important to me. But the typhoon washed all the books I loved to read. And one of them is Purpose Driven Life.


My purpose in my life has beginning to change my visions. When I was not able to finish my second choice to digital course in 2006 and until now, I was somehow changed my mindset if I can study again. My third choice today is looking forward to study in special education if I can budget all my savings and turn it all good choice to able looking forward to have a four year course. But on the other side, I will still have my own business creating my unique line – creating more greeting cards in different sizes, pocket books, novels, quotes book and many freshest ideas to make more. And that is how the name of Itsmikki Studio change me as well. But the connection to my wildest dreams if someday will achieve. I will be able to make a movie somehow, or a television show, or something that creates my vision. So I can let other disabilities to work with me as well as the label says that there is no label of being disability allows here on earth.


God always says to me that Jesus Christ will be always our savior to change us, He will be remain to rescue us from the sins we make from him. But we always do what we can do to change us. But it will be my faith to remain as catholic no matter what. I am looking always no matter what you have religion you believe into, the relationship with God is most important.


Seeing no labels as Down syndrome will no longer be part of my life. But I always believe what I can do no matter trials or problems will come after me. The secrets will always open to the truth. And the truth will set you free no matter you have today. And you will see the light at the end of the cave.


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Age doesn’t matter what you are looking for a right job, right decisions to make, for the fitness you like and right attitude towards to your life. I can’t imagine how painful I’m in my fitness and my mental age. Many from my problems measures in many ways of life. But I redeem all of my problems lighter. Thinking at the back of my head just seems not awaking for me. Doubts can also fear what you are doing. But happiness is all of my success in my life. Reducing or minimizing my mood situations can take in different stages. But the matter of fact, last year was full of blessings. And I come knocking again for this year’s blessings. I never stop knocking and do all the stuff I’m enjoying my days. My number one resolution last year was minimizing my weight. And I did. And the last unquestionable resolution also came to me last year. And so I did have a work today. My goals have changed. My dreams never stop me dreaming. The last thing I’ve received two years ago when I’ve joined in DSAPI. The Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines was a gift that I’ve received. Things have changed me. Those days of my depressions and frustration was over.

~Status message in facebook, January 22, 2014, Thursday, 8:12 p.m.


I am crossing my fingers to this Year of the Wood Horse. But I never believe in chinese traditions although my lineage to my mother’s side has chinese. And I’m also have part chinese in my blood. But the things have changed today.


When I see the whole point of changing attitude sometimes can change you for good. Whether what you are doing right now is bad, sometimes it may sounds bit of misunderstanding. Otherwise, you may sound awful what you are doing unmeasurable. I always count myself one to thousand. If I lose one number, I go back to that number and recite it all over again. But I always say to me that if ever I may encounter in this scenario, I always know what to do in right or wrong decisions.


Giant footstep

Giant footstep


The story of Growth success: Two years


I was disoriented in my life if I’ve had really have with a condition of Down syndrome. To think of it, I never knew in my life when I was a kid having with this kind of condition. I’ve entered high school and found out that I really have had Down syndrome. But I never asked my high school teacher which one really I’ve had in my life before. Later in 15 years for now, 2012 was the success changing my direction in my life. I started to join Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines 20th Happy Walk last February 19, 2012 in SM North EDSA skydome arena where I’ve celebrated my birthday the day of 20th Happy Walk. On this marking event of this 22nd Happy Walk coming this February 23, 2014, Sunday will be my 3rd Happy Walk. My parents finally confirm that they are going with me. And I guess time will come too if ever my siblings in Canada will join too in this event in next years hopefully.


I have two more siblings where I am a third child in five siblings. I am an elder brother to my younger sister and my younger brother. Time heals if time permits. All of the conditions before are now changing this past year and this year also. I’ve been doing all the good deeds. But sometimes I also have the few bad deeds unchanged until now. I admitted it that I was wrong. Time heals from the scorned mind at the back of my head. When I joined the 20th Happy Walk, it was not all about me. But it was also for changing who I am today. The acceptance was there when finally in my life came changing to me. Back to those days were depressed and frustrated. I’ve asked my colleagues, my bosses and my friends in my workplace to look after me. If someone got wrong to me again from anyone who can discriminate me, they will rescue me in the first place. I didn’t choose this condition. But God chooses to give me this condition and I’ve to accept in reality and change the heart in the society.


Being having with mosaic Down syndrome I’ve had in my life that my mom told me. That was because when I’ve finally attended the early intervention seminar thrice just to understand the situation I’ve had today. Because two copies of chromosomes are normal but the third copy of chromosome is an extra chromosome, which it is explained that I’ve mosaic Down syndrome.


New parents or new friends in Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines keep me asking what are my success in my life today. Just don’t be afraid of chances of your special child. Believe in whole-heartedly. I’ve ask myself to be better this time. Fears of rejection was one of my fears before. But now, I’ve now changed. Instead of fears of rejection moves closer to me, it begin with a belief in acceptance. Accept the special child has changing you. And the special child sometimes can find your emotions changing also. From fear of rejection, accept the reality and move on. I also have had encounters in my life before alone to my problems. But just that I live with my parents doesn’t mean that I’ve to stop. I also have to learn how to work independently, share my little story blessings and change emotions to happiness state in my life.


When asking too much from God, I’ve always ask myself too. Change yourself to a better person inside and out. I never work to myself alone. And God also works to my promises also. But I am helping myself in what some ways I can work independently. When asking too much supervision from my parents, sometimes I, alone, can’t work performing very well. Because they are always have the word of wisdoms saving to say it to me. When asking some words I can’t understand, that is the way I could ask from my parents. But not from financial basis, I work for my own. I also don’t ask money from them. But I could supervise myself with my money through my loading business whenever I could go to. Now that I’ve a work as an assistant teacher. Money is not an issue to me anymore, but an experience is already demand in my life today. Because if I rush to some thing, it would be helpless to me.


No money involves in networking companies where I am not working with them anymore. I already have fear from them changing their attitudes to a rightful way of thinking at the back of their heads. Their attitude sometimes when calling themselves as an abnormal, because they are talking about the money, their rich. That’s what the abnormal talks about in their head. And I am already sensitive in that word since I dissipate that word at the back of my head.


Since encountering with the networking or multi-level marketing companies for the last two companies I joined in the past, I already moved on and have to learn not to go back from them ever again. It was because this was the lessons I’ve learned. But I discovered Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines through one volunteer from my distant relative in Davao. I want to thank her and want to see her in real person. If I ever have a chance in my life to be wish granted, I just want to see her and that’s all I’ve in my life today.


This is my growth success in two years already. And this marks two years when I met one person in Clinica Manila, Megamall last February 15, 2012 and that was Agnes Lapena.


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As life went on to another stage, another scenario and another life book chapters, I was looking forward to a brighter days. But I will tell you how I am lucky where I am going to the right path today. Soon but not so sooner, it will take time to me leading my new future. Probably I am not looking for a work in entertainment industry but staying good working here in the school as an assistant teacher. Well probably, it might knock my doors if I can go to entertainment industry or maybe I will go modeling career instead. But I am assuming that I still have a work in school.


Seven months that I was working as an assistant teacher already. It was meant for me to follow my own dreams whether I shall not breaking my promises as a dancer, as an artist, as a photographer and as a writer too. I may sound an ambitious person, but I am as well as an optimistic and limitless person who have dreams to follow on my own.


Let me a recap in the past three years already from 2011. I was beginning to accept my condition having with my disability. July 15, 2011 was the beginning to open my eyes I was able to hear some networkers (who were working in multi-level marketing companies such as 1Bro, VMobile, Forever Living, UNO, etc.) calling themselves as an abnormal. But their term to call themselves as an abnormal, they were referring to become successful and rich people. It was against all odds when I lasted working with UNO days from June to October 2011. Then after a few months later, I also joined to another networking company the defunct VMobile for selling their load products indicating that they were still recruiting some people to add their money to go rich. What can you do if you are selling those load products? But mine was different.


After I went back to my old provider in July 2012, the D-Loads. VMobile gave me an another lesson never to go back to the networking days. Because I heard some millionaire in VMobile referring to some mongee as ngongo (ngongo means as in english as an inappropriate term for speaking verbally to Down syndrome and other disabilities as well). He was a selfless person who was using a word deriving from as a shortcut from mongoloid. Ouch!


The time I was already subsiding my life going back to reality. I’ve attended my first seminar of Early Intervention Seminar in August 2012 who was then the wife of a president of DSAPI introduced to some new parents in the seminar as well. I was shocked when new parents was amazed from I became today as a high-functional intellectual disability person. To tell the truth, all of these blessings kept coming in for me, I was always to accept what was right from wrong. Whenever it was wrong, I’ve never made to accept it. Rather I’ve accepted the right blessings coming for me.


Hence, the new membership identification card was made during the Christmas party 2012. I became a member of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI. My angels told me that I have to fixed my life today. And so also, I made a new historical date to my name that I’ve decided to becoming a special adult advocate for Down syndrome. But before the Christmas party, I was also invited by an UST student president who I talked my first short inspirational speech in their school. To become a new special advocate, I was aware that this was the track helping myself in a brighter future.


Last February 2012 was my first Happy Walk to attend the event and was also my birthday. But my second Happy Walk 2013 was even getting to know in a community better and better. Some new parents had to meet me. And I was amazed someone finally recognized my talent in writing an article here in my studio as well. I became also as an aspirant to many parents who have had their special child with Down syndrome just like me. I was working alone independently without a knowledge my parents knew about me. But at the end of the day, I told them honestly where I was going to this place.


Last year was a huge blessings from me. When I’ve applied in many applications from NBI clearance, passport, police clearance, my first PWD identification card and a medical certificate. And I didn’t know along the way that this was my girlfriend proved me that I have to push myself having to get a work ahead. Even if I did, then it probably both of us have had to decide to go back in any ways of living to work. My ex-girlfriend right now don’t have work. But I didn’t know myself either that I became a regular to the school where I was working as an assistant teacher.


The next thing it is approved for this year of 2014, I will becoming to sign a contract for having another year extension to my work hopefully as a productivity person as well. And to this day very moment, last two days I have had a tryout in bowling of Special Olympics hoping I will compete someday in Special Olympics. But I am determining to have my way of my path to success growth of my life.


That was my part accepting my condition having with mosaic Down syndrome. It doesn’t take me who I am, but I am happy for what I am today. Having part of this society makes me challenging. What challenges are telling me today, they are for my future, present and the past. What past is already past? I’ve been in denial stage before. And now I’m ready for my blessings to come moving forward for me.


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I suddenly felt nothing was changing me so far. But at least I felt being like a friend that I treated her. On this article will be the last article for the span of 5 months. But there will be more other addition of this continuation of articles in the future.


I’ve been promising to myself that I won’t be committing to have a girlfriend as long as I am working in the school. If I’ve even to have, then I would be able deep in trouble between my work and my status also. I won’t be able to stand of my business, my work and my life also. I don’t know why I am doing this to myself for the past year and this month of January. But this January, it’s rocking my month because on the next month, I’ll be celebrating my birthday soon. What else will be the same if nothing can change to my limits instead? But the limitless mind I have at the back of my head always remind me that I have to continue my life.


I’ll be forever been blessed for the past two years already. Because since I’ve had joining in Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines 20th Happy Walk the last two years ago, it was beginning to have pouring down of my blessings. On this day, it was incredible. I’ve received two blessings. But that is another story to be written on the next article. Wish I can fly above the clouds right now as if I am a superman wondering the skies to help someone to the rescue. But at the end of the day, I seem so happy right now. Because the past five days, I’ve been thinking too much. Now my migraine starts to settle too soon so I will be able to write article after article. I love writing, what can I do?


To cut the story short, I’ve been blessed that I was been a friend to my wonderful special education teacher who was nice, bubbly and the best teacher we’ve had in our school where I was working. Not because of that, I was also starting to see her personality on the first day I saw her on my work in the school. Her personality rocked my world. And she also smiled all day long just for her students and also for me. Because it reminded me to her traits. My traits was also like her. I am also a bubbly personality person. I love to smile. I love to joke. I love to have friends all day long with me. And I love to talk to anyone I could talk to. The one thing I love in my life is drawing, writing and dancing. But in the future, I know what it waits for my dreams so far. I cannot wait although I don’t know what it is. It’s reminding me that I have to continue what I am doing so good to myself.


And to cut the story long, when I saw her before, it always reminded me what I’ve been looking for a girl to know me better or to have a girlfriend. But whenever I asked to myself, “should I continue to date with her?” But at the back of my head was telling that I couldn’t continue because I’ve had a poor financial and accountability working status also. Right now for what I am offering to myself are to have a good life long-life working with the school, get a good record of doing good deeds, passing to achieve my achievements in my life and to have enjoying my life even to the end of my life. Because it is nothing claims for me but for the lord bringing me here down to the earth. And I’ve been a wonderful special adult.


I’ve been doing a lot of good deeds the past year. And this year would be opening soon the new achievements in my life today. And that’s another story will be opening to a new book also. I’ve been publishing every page of my new chapter. But on my second anniversary of my studio site on March 16, there will be a wonderful achievement to come along the way in my life today. What I’ve been doing right now is taking myself to another level – joining the Special Olympics. If I can search from my heart where I really love to do a right sport for me, it would be my determining for me and it will be more diligence working hard for me also.


My special education teacher and I’ve been doing a lot for the school today. And soon if the time comes she is leaving, I will give something another friendship gift to her. The gift I gave it to her two days before was a friendship flowers which were my token of my friendship with her. Because if I continue to date with her, we will be dealing some issues. And besides she will be working also in California. If time permits, then I would be definitely seeing her again in the future. Right now what I’ve been doing is being a friend to her. With my sport attitude, I should realize that a friend is in need then I will be on her side even if she has problem or an issue. There will be someone waiting for me at the end of my heart if someone is willing to take my offer to her becoming my girlfriend. Right now, the number one rule is being friends forever.


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Long before Rico Yan came in entertainment world, I didn’t know who I was today. Despite my disability being having with Down syndrome was not a hindrance to me anymore. But to tell you the truth, I have many troubles came when I was a kid.


1981 was a year when I came in. Pope John Paul II was having giving a mass in Quezon Memorial Circle when the time I was born already. But my parents gave me a nickname through Pope John Paul II and my real name came from my grandfather’s name and also from my father’s name also. To decide what was given to my life, I was also given to change the world in times of needed and supported. So I was given to be born here in the world to make it happen bigger.


And bigger opportunities when Rico Yan came around in 1994. I’ve remembered when he came in Master Eskinol commercial, his own very first commercial have ever been made. The longer it waited the opportunities, he also landed on his three film projects and two television appearances in 1996. That was his achievements. But my achievements wasn’t change the year of 1994.


It was the year 1994 that I turned a teenager. And when Rico smiled every angle at his commercial, I also smiled back on the mirror changing my opportunities if I could be also a model. Or if the time will come for me to grab an opportunity. It set my goals.


My dreams before was to become a photographer when I was still in elementary graduation. “If I become a photographer someday, I would get a glimpse to picture the scene of Mt. Mayon in Bicol where I love the area. It gives a beauty scenario,” that was at the back of my head when I said to myself.


Across at the back of my head, my high school dreams has changed through times of desperation what really my dreams were telling me about. Then I decided to tell my school mates, my classmates and my teachers that I will enter entertainment industry someday to become an actor. It was my biggest dreams that set in my mind way back before. It was all because I owe from Rico Yan who really me inspired so much in spite that I have disability. But a disability that I have before was a hindrance. My parents told me several times that I couldn’t entered in universities like University of the Philippines, University of Santo Tomas or in De La Salle University in Taft Avenue. But the dreams shattered to me when my parents told me that I won’t lasted graduating in my course I really liked was music in UST, theatre arts in UP or any courses in DLSU.


People have changed through times. And I didn’t know what to do. So I always gave doubts and fears inside at the back of my head thinking I wasn’t able coping my own problems. Because that time I was having a hard time on myself in denial stage before.


When I entered college in the year of 2000, my course was culinary arts and I studied in Center for Culinary Arts or CCA. It was a pioneering school who caters students studying in the field of baking or culinary. And at that time, I’ve had a few classmates who was also been a celebrities naming Danica Sotto and Diego Castro. They were my batch mates before. Diego was a son of late anchor man of ABS-CBN, Angelo Castro Jr. and cousin to Rico Yan.


Aside from them, I also have friends with cousin of Agot Isidro, Aljur Abrenica, Heart Evangelista and Rico Yan‘s female cousin. What else that I came in a reality? These cousins of celebrities, I was been blessed to have with them. Although I don’t want to name their names here in an article I am writing, it is about a privacy. Somehow I look myself in the mirror thinking at the back of my head if I could enter in entertainment industry someday and the question is, “when if the time comes?”


So I gave up my dreaming my goals to become an actor, a singer and a dancer. I was frustrated and depressed because of a hindrance that I have a disability. Knowing Rico Yan was not here anymore because when I heard the news that he died peacefully in his sleep in 29th of March, 2002. The news came viral everywhere around the nation. And so the followers and fans of Rico Yan have been giving their love for Rico. But my sides remained calm and peacefully.


Nine years later, it was already 2011. I’ve had a dreams recurring every night thinking at the back of my head because of him. Then one day when I posted some important to do was to set important details each and every day I have. The bad news came when I felt something strange inside of me. But the intentions were not in bad shape. Instead, my cousin invited me in networking in UNO. Literally I joined with her. I’ve lasted five months in multi-level marketing or networking in UNO from June to October 2011. But the acceptance was been made during I was working. So I thought myself having to know that I could do this on my own independent ways of earning.


Out of frustrations and depressions, I broke the chain and accepted who I was to be because of my disability. That kind of work of networking gave me a chills to my bones and my flesh. It was the time I’ve accepted my disability during July of 2011. Then later when I only lasted in October. I’ve joined and searched my genealogy roots both sides of my father and my mother’s sides. Knowing my side of my father, I was surprised when I was related to Pilar Pilapil, Dingdong Avanzado and Mark Bautista because they were all descendants of Veloso. Because I was also a descendant of Veloso clan. Wow, that was unimaginable thoughts inside at the back of my head.


Then at first, my dreams were coming back to me. So I’ve decided to bring my dreams again this time when I will enter the limelight of entertainment industry. With the likes of Danica Sotto, Diego Castro, Pilar Pilapil, Dingdong Avanzado and Mark Bautista, when will I become one of them at the back of my head?


At the end at the back of my head, I’ve remembered that I also have relatives who entered in entertainment industry. My two uncles Danny Javier and Dyords Javier were in entertainment industry. Danny Javier retired from the entertainment industry already, but his sibling Dyords Javier was still in the entertainment industry. So I make a classic move that I will become one of them, but on my definition to make my own name instead.


One year ago I joined with Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines, or DSAPI, on January 2012. Then I also joined in their annual walk event of the year, the 20th Happy Walk, in The Block, SM North EDSA on 19th of February, 2012, the day of my birthday. I was enjoying walking with someone that I also have a disability being having with Down syndrome. Having with a disability was not a hindrance to me anymore. Instead, all I want to become is to make my own name whether the dreams is still leading me in the right choice or decisions that I have.


Then I became a member last December 2012 where I got my first membership identification card. And to top of that, I also have experiences to speak in the audience who invited to come over in University of Santo Tomas to speak a short inspirational talk about me. The students, the school organizations and the teachers were applauded at my first short inspirational talk. But I was nervous that time. Maybe I have to speak again in the future.


But the blessings didn’t stop pouring down this year of 2013. I got my passport on my own applying in Megamall in January 2013. That was also the month I got my NBI clearance and my police clearance as well. So to decide what I was going to do – was to apply again in the next few months. But the 24th Angels Walk came when I joined and supported the autism awareness month last January 2013. It was my first support with the organization I joined. I saw one of UST who invited me last November 2012. And then at the back of my head, I’ve realized it was important for me already attending those events every year.


Then the 21st Happy Walk also came in last February 2013. It was my second Happy Walk I’ve joined. To added, there was one parent who came over to me and said, “I read your blog and I am one of your follower reading one of your article posts. Good job! Continue to inspire us.” At the back of my head, it was barely one year old of my studio site already. My studio debuted on 16th of March, 2012 where I posted my two articles at that time. Then a facebook page came later on 4th of July, 2012. I guessed that I put the dates on historical dates.


It came upon across at the back of my head when I also applied my first PWD identification card last 19th of March, 2013. I also knew why I chose the date because I loved to remember the dates I was putting in historical dates. But then at the height of my depression again during of April 2013, I was hesitated to go out and not looked for another job. Because despite I already completed the requirements including my medical certification. This was already the time if I want to have a girlfriend or not. So the dreams might occurred that I wasn’t able coping it one of my problems.


Then it came the month of May 2013. When my parents traveled to Europe for their vacation, that was the time I’ve had a girlfriend. But then, it was someone who also liked Rico Yan. From her, I didn’t know how to figure out what went wrong from me and from her. I’ve ended up a guy accepting a relationship with my girlfriend. And she was the one asking my hand to have relationship with her. Then I said, “yes.” Soon when it lasted only eight days of our relationship on the day of 16th of May. Our relationship ended eight days of relationship from 8th to 16th of May. Then I was not glad it was not over yet.


When I saw Nick Vujicic for the first time in Music Hall, Mall of Asia, I was surprised what Nick looked like. Because after all, he had no limbs of pairs of legs and arms. And to my surprise, that involved my life I also have a disability. And being having a disability was not a hindrance to me anymore. That was when 20th of May, 2013 happened.


A the height of desperation of cooling our relationship with my ex-girlfriend, all I wanted was to go back with her someday. So I walked in a job of the school on the day of 21st of May. On the seventh day of going back, I was hired already. Knowing myself in a different pattern, I’ve landed on my fourth job with a different job description – as an assistant teacher.


Fast-forwarded to this present day, I’ve accepted a chance to look forward getting to know what it will become for me in the year of 2014. Today is a final day of 2013 and tomorrow is a new day of 2014. I’ve so much to tell looking forward of 2014. What if I walk-in again in different job description? Will it become my job? To tell you the truth, this job of being as an assistant teacher I never chose about of this job. Instead the job looked for me surprisingly. So the words were not scripted but it was a fate for me when I followed my grandmother’s footsteps to become as an assistant teacher.


My lessons I have learned for this year of 2013 was honoring my job so beautifully, getting to know what the surroundings would like to know me better and the world had a place for me to look forward. No matter how small dreams can be, sometimes it can be a bigger opportunity would like to be. When you know how small dreams can act, it can also set bigger dreams in exchange of your place. This was how Rico Yan changed me from time I was depressed and frustrated to have a better job, positive outlook in life, happiness and optimistic when looking forward to future with positive thoughts.


What about you? How Rico Yan would change your life?


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If there was no success, there was no overnight of dreaming for success.


This is a year-end special article all about me from the beginning of 2013 until this month of December. What can you do for success if you can do for your hardworking? Yes, then you have to believe in yourself and not anybody could replace but your story as well is deserving more.


Let me rewind you to the past of January 2013 where I tell my story:


Starting from January 2013:

Applying requirements, joining advocacy in special education


This month was my success getting my second NBI clearance for my future employment. But I was planning to think which job would prefer to get me on the first place. Should I continue get a career ahead for call center career? Or should I continue where I start in my culinary career? My place for a job seeking opportunities was ahead for me already. But to think of it at the back of my head, I should scratch for all job descriptions: animator, writer, chef / cook, call center or entertainment industry. There were all my opportunities which one I should prefer.


After two weeks of January, my parents forced to apply for my passport alone. And so I did applying for passport applications. But the requirements narrowed down to my plans: NBI clearance, police clearance and passport. All of my validation identifications were been shown off for my next plan: get a job ahead before going to Toronto in September.


I did all my requirements doing my job applications. But the questionable was getting where I should start. So I joined supporting Angels Walk 2013, where I also joined the side of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI, where a thousand of autism groups and various schools also have joined the said event in Mall of Asia, Music Hall in Pasay City. This was the 24th Angels Walk for ASP or Autism Society of the Philippines who parents, educators, students and thousand of autism angels were there for the said event. And I was happy supporting for their group.


All of my happiness poured down my promising career: writing while getting a job or writing when I’m already in success.


February 2013:

2nd Happy Walk, celebrating month, Philippines’ Down syndrome awareness


This month was also my big celebration and my promising birthdays to come in many years. So to said, but it was also an excitement for every words I will write. But the success wasn’t over. So I joined the 21st Happy Walk in The Block, SM North EDSA in Quezon City of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI awareness event.


My blessings poured down to my birthday month, my birth month of February. I still clearly remembered when Pope John Paul II came to Manila for the first time 32 years ago. I was born on 19th of February, the day when Pope John Paul II was having a mass in Quezon Memorial Center, Quezon City. So the history said it was from February 17-21 when Pope John Paul II’s visit in Manila. So that explained how the world was looking for Pope John Paul II for his papal sainthood.


And it was also for Philippines’ Down syndrome awareness event for the whole nation. My dad first joined with me last year in 20th Happy Walk on the day of my birthday, 19th of February which it was introduced me to a few parents. And I met the couple, the children and their son with Down syndrome which it was the Lapena family. It was my first experience meeting with someone like me like Jeremy was, And I was happy that I joined the DSAPI family.


March 2013:

Applying for 1st PWD identification card, 3rd prom, meeting the showman of GMA channel


This was also the third month of my success. March has explained my various blessings I’ve done so far for this year of 2013. Because this was my first official that I’ve had my first PWD identification card or Persons With Disability. But that was when I’ve applied on 19th of March, a month after of my birthday. I chose the date because it was my first time applying for my PWD id.


Then it came before the application of PWD identification card was my third experience of prom date. And it was my first experience for having date with someone else and not from my relatives whom I really have had a good time. Guess what whom I dated with? It was Antonio and Juan Luna’s great granddaughter whom I dated with. And I was lucky to have date the famous Luna in the Philippines history. What I have to tell that I need to say? It was the best experience of prom date in my life.


And the first celebrity that I saw this year was none other of a famous showman in GMA channel, German Moreno. Kuya Germs when they said a name to him. And it was my pleasure to meet a person from a different channel. Because I was glued watching all ABS-CBN shows from morning to evening. But I didn’t notice that I can do it. And so my experience having a picture with him was a pleasure for me.


April-May 2013:

Depression looking for a job, first relationship, watched Nick Vujicic, looking for a job


This months of April and May of 2013 was a depression months for me. All I thought at the back of my head was either looking for a girlfriend or a job description unable to look for. But the words scripted from at the back of my head has said to me, “when can I start working so soon, so I could have a relationship with somebody else I really want to date with?” It was my first thoughts that crossed at the back of my head and without even noticing it, I looked depressed for a whole month.


After a month, I came to visit Rico Yan for a fourth time last 5th of May. Then it came upon that I met my first fling relationship with someone else. Two girls that I met. One of them was a former special education teacher and one of them was a housemaid who was working for taking care of a child and look taking care of the house. It crossed at the back of my head that I was first to say I’ve accepted her for having relationship with someone else. And she was the first person who asked my hand to have relationship with her. It is normally for a guy who is asking for a relationship to a girl. But the opposite came upon the two worlds between of us.


My ex-girlfriend and I were only lasted eight (8) days of relationship. And I was formerly taking off my relationship with her. But my heart felt for her so sorry. But at the end of the day, on the 20th of May, I watched Nick Vujicic’s concert also in Mall of Asia, Music Hall in Pasay City. It was my pleasure to have experience watching someone who was also have a disability. Nick Vujicic was born without limbs of arms and legs. And I have had my third inspiration coming from him.


Then after a day that my ex-girlfriend was formally underestimated in our relationship, I went anywhere near our village looking for a job. So I went for my first walk-in job inside of Cainta Greenpark Village that was also near my home in Cainta. And the interview wasn’t my first. But I did passing my first application resume to the employer. But my intentions came crossing thrice at the back of my head. I should also applied to other opportunities: writer in newspaper, call center job and entertainment industry job where I went to Megamall on 23rd of May. I sent many job applications to various employers from newspaper jobs, call center jobs and entertainment industry jobs as well.


Fews day after on 27th of May, the call was unexpected I’ve answered from my cellphone around 11 in the morning. The secretary have said that I have to come around 1 in the afternoon. So I changed myself in a better suit of applying a job. When I met two of my bosses before, I was nervous and feeling annoying on my first interview of the year. Then around after 15 to 20 minutes of waiting, one of two bosses interviewed me and I passed the interview evaluation.


For continuation of Year-End Special: Story about success, love life and work in a next article, there will be a set of month stories to unfold for a second part of Year-End Special: Story about success, love life and work.


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I appreciate my life today whole-heartedly as well. But consuming my time writing down of an article sometimes I often thinking at the back of my head, what will happen for me incoming new year of 2014? Is it possible to do your dreams when you are in the right track? What can I do next? My life today is being as an assistant teacher. And there’s a new special education teacher as well in the class. But I am going to say that there are more people who are willing to teach us in a real world also.


With my loading cellphone business on my back, my other option for opening business as well is also my concern regarding to my work. I don’t know if it will conflict my schedule next year. But I have to know and work it well starting in January 2014.


The plans are starting to open so soon. My greater opportunities are starting to pay me well next year. And that will be opening a new job details in my job position as well. I’m putting to make a banner for Angels Walk 2014 and Happy Walk 2014 in January and February respectively.


A new book sometimes opens for a new possibilities in life. When you say a new book, begin a new life and open a new discovery early next year.


Angels Walk 2014 will begin in SM Mall of Asia music hall on January 19, 2014, Sunday morning. The Angels Walk only participates in the morning from 8 am to 12 pm. And I am sure there are more to come years that I will support the Angels Walk. Because when a person starts to invite me, my opportunity will grab instantly to support and to share the secret story in life also. And why is it called an Angels Walk? It’s because you have to ‘Be An Angel for Autism.


Happy Walk 2014 will also begin next year on February 23, 2014, also on Sunday morning to afternoon that sets a schedule in a daytime program set by the organizers. Happy Walk is a walk for those who has Down syndrome. And why is it called a Happy Walk? It’s because you have to ‘Step Up For Down.


Both Angels Walk and Happy Walk does to do it every year. Angels Walk is from Autism Society Philippines who celebrates 25 years already in the Philippines history. And Happy Walk is from Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines who celebrates 22 years already. DSAPI started way back on 1992 but the ASP started earlier on 1989.


I have no motto already today, because there are numerous times already that I posted a lot of quotes for being having posting a motto in quotes. Mottos are also being written in quotes. Whatever I do, I begin a new life and open a new discovery.


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Traveling with Happiness

Toronto Highway

Toronto Highway

The vacation paid for my stress-free work when I traveled the other side of the globe which was the Toronto, east-side of Canada. I’ve finally see the world of traveling with my family. For me, when will I get a chance to traveling alone without them? That’s the independent question for me although in my life starts somewhere in the middle. At the back of my head says, ‘I can start budgeting my money and start a new life opening a new bank account.’ Otherwise, I will spend less in money. My salary was below the average of wage. But I don’t complain about my salary wage in the school where I am working. The only thing keeps me longing in the school is my performance and my happiness level.


Let’s talk about first about the salary wage before I return to the topic subject. The minimum salary wage is around 12-13k. But the amount you take home is around 6-6.5k per half of a month. Other says that it is way below for them. Those who have family already always complain about that. Good for me that I don’t have time to think at the back of my head that I have my own family. I’m still single. I’ve to earn with my dignity, patience and understanding. Working somewhere near to your place makes you time to think about your work. Well, of course, everybody notices that way. But not anybody could think that.


I learned from my sister when I went there in downtown of Toronto where my sister lived. The downtown said to my head, ‘I can work here for a better life but the only problem here is the weather.’ I’ve realized that I can’t work in a hasty places. But if you do working in a hasty places, your mind will go crazy. I’ve assuming that won’t work for me.


And the other one is about my happiness level. Happiness level varies from any kinds of level whether you are little low to a highest performance. I’ve seen myself when I started working as an assistant teacher in a school where my boss kept me for longer. Keeping me for fourth month, this makes me easier to think that I should continue for my resume details. So that the next employer would hire me, I would tell him or her what happened in my resume. Let me give you a catch. When you are in an interview, don’t be nervous and always be yourself. And the technique there is tell your story about yourself what happened really during your life. Working in a workplace environment, like I was doing in a school as an assistant teacher, makes you easier to work. So that whenever you feel, you tell your boss or your co-worker about what happened to your happiness level.


Happiness level varies the emotional side of your brain. It also controls your temper, your mood, your actions and your performance as well. People who have lower happiness level varies suiciding themselves in a situation, or varies in mannered situation. I don’t get it why themselves has a low self-esteem. Sometimes I do have low self-esteem but I’ve already surpass that. No matter how small the problem is, you have to cope with your problems.


Back to the topic subject, traveling in Toronto was breezy nights and cool-off days. In the afternoon towards the night was pretty amazing for me. The first week was preparation for my family because my sister finally married in the church. After that, we went variation tourist spots in Toronto. First was going to the small zoo. Secondly, we went to Niagara Falls. Amazing how God created the well-paid tourist attraction which was the Niagara Falls. I’ve finally to experience about the Maid of the Mist. Maid of the Mist will experience you traveling around the body of water which the falls sprinkle all the way. And I’ve find Toronto is a pretty nice location. Although I can’t really remember in the past when my parents always told me that I’ve been in Calgary, Edmonton and Vancouver before. But it was amazing. The only weakness I have was traveling and riding in an airplane. I do have fear of heights. That explained to me why I’ve been awake the whole trip back and forth watching movies and playing tetris. I’ve watched some 9 new movies in an airplane including The Croods, Monster University, Trance, GI Joe: Retaliation, Great Gatsby, Epic, A Moment in Time, The Mistress and other movie I really can’t remember at the back of my head. That was the back and forth traveling from Manila to Toronto and from Toronto to Manila.


The amazing I’ve experienced from the vacation was an apple-picking. My elder sister have said that it was Canadian tradition. I’ve to say that it was the best. If the Philippines has tradition of pineapple-picking in Mindanao, it would be the next travel destination of the Philippines. I guess the tourism in the Philippines should be level up to the next performance if they really have a budget.


Four common jobs I’ve to work in Toronto. It could be that I can work in the supermarket, St. Lawrence’s market, school and restaurant. But the first thing first comes in my place is to find some shelter, then find an organization to keep me healthy relationship in public relation. Here in the Philippines, it was Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines was my first advocate and it was my first organization that I’ve joined. I’ve also enjoyed watching baseball league between Toronto Blue Jays and New York Yankees. NY Yankees have won. It was beautiful scenario to have watching in a baseball series. Watching hockey game and NBA basketball game is my next dreams to have watch.


Next on Traveling with Happiness 2, I will be continuing to write about more in Toronto.


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Digest Your Mind

It’s okay to be simple, but you have to take another level in greater heights. When you complete the trials, you may create another one and challenge yourself in another trials.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


The list I’ve done so far this year is compared to last year’s success stories. Let’s go back and rewind what I’ve done from last year to this present year:


Number 1 (Introduction to Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI)


I was not aware in the past without thinking at the back of my head some kids and adults have Down syndrome, just like me. But the symbol I’ve joined in DSAPI was a best choice to participate. And it was impressive that some of a blessings have come good so far. This was dated back from February 15, 2012 when someone introduced me to the organization. It was my distant relative’s friend who volunteered in Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines, Davao Chapter. And I’ve asked what event will be held next month. That was January 26, 2012 when I’ve asked her. Two weeks later I went to Free Medical Mission that held in SM Megamall, Clinica where I met Ate Agnes and her children Meimei and Jeremy. Her son Jeremy has Down syndrome, and so I have.


Number 2 (20th Happy Walk 2012)


After I went to free medical mission in Clinica, SM Megamall where I met Ate Agnes and her son Jeremy who has Down syndrome, I went for my first time to attend my first Happy Walk that was held in SM North EDSA in Skydome, February 19, 2012. During that event was my birthday, my dad and I went but my family in the house was having a party that I’ve shared with my brother. And my brother had invited his friends to come and enjoyed the rest of the night. That day fulfilled my excitement into full bars of happiness. I could not resisted that I was the happiest during that day. Eventually I slept sound much better.


Number 3 (Studio platform, facebook page and twitter)


I didn’t much attending more events last year which I was focusing on my rebooted business that come back for good. It was intentionally that I really held to my word when someone was helping in my cellphone loading business. And so the history tested me that much. Then I’ve eventually came back writing in blog platform which I’ve called the studio platform moving from blogspot to wordpress. After a long absence where I didn’t write in almost after 10 years back before in blogspot, I’ve finally came back, reformed and created the purpose writing in wordpress.com with the name of Itsmikki Studio. The studio was now one year, five months and fourteen days already. And now that I came back, it was written in different article platforms thus creating with many categories just like magazine or newspaper. The name of Itsmikki I’ve given to create had a meaning: “Inspiring The Society: My Infinite Keeper’s Key Inc.” The meaning was already an acronym where I rarely found interesting slogan for my studio name.


Itsmikki Studio started the studio form last March 16, 2012 but the original state of writing came back alive. The original writing that I’ve always write was literature. It sparked on December 10, 1998 during my junior year in high school. And eventually it came back for good as well. After few months have passed, I’ve created facebook page of Itsmikki Studio and launched on July 4, 2012. And it finally discovered the new place where countless articles to be shown on the page. After few days, the twitter account also announced the new launching date of Itsmikki Studio, July 14, 2012.


Number 4 (First short inspirational talk)


After a few months have passed, I’ve joined the first Early Intervention seminar last August 12, 2012. Then a month, I’ve also joined the Sexuality Seminar last September 16, 2012. Then it came pouring new events that I’ve joined. I’ve also joined my first experience Halloween party where Siblings Support Group held the event in Guadalupe last October 14, 2012.


And it came to my first experience having to guest talk in UST Albertus Magnus building, the Education building where few respective schools with special children, teachers and students from UST listened to my first short inspirational talk. It was November 19, 2012. And I was nervous during that time with a mixed emotions being having excitement and coolness in the UST campus. I’ve felt the presence being as an exceptional. I found in my life that I loved myself more better than the past. What it takes to be exceptional, sometimes it takes to break the barriers that I wasn’t alone in the world with special needs.


DYM or Digest Your Mind is a new section of Life: New Unveiled. More surprising articles under DYM will be coming in the future. My fellow consistent readers, new readers, followers and unexpected readers, just keep reading my articles. And I will take time to write more interesting articles in my studio platform.


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Why Down syndrome

Somewhat in 1985-1988 Passport Picture

Somewhat in 1985-1988 Passport Picture

What is Down syndrome? Normally the new parents are asking the same question why do they have their child have with Down syndrome. There are normally two copies of 21 chromosomes on each side, one copy from a male and one copy from a female. But the genetic studies, there are three copies of 21 chromosomes.


Well in this article, I will bring you one topic, not less or more subjects.


Why Down syndrome?


I may be living as a normal to everyone. But to tell you the truth, no one seems to know me that I also have Down syndrome. Three copies of Down syndrome. It was called mosaic trisomy 21 Down syndrome. And that’s where I begin to fight over my case in the past years. Because I was in denial stage that time. Now in the terms you didn’t notice, mosaic trisomy 21 Down syndrome is a slightly chances to have change through the years.


Pure trisomy 21 or full trisomy 21 is the presence of an extra number 21 chromosome, the error or misdivision of chromosomes occurs in the egg or sperm cell that becomes the zygote. Because this error was at the very beginning of development, every cell that comes from this zygote will have an extra number 21 chromosome.


Mosaic trisomy 21 is the error or misdivision occurs after fertilization at some point during early cell division. Because of this, people with mosaic Down syndrome have two cell lines – one with the normal chromosomes, and one with an extra number 21.”

(Researched in http://downsyndrome.about.com/od/whatcausesdownsyndrome/a/mosaic_ro.htm)


Little did I know in my life, I realized that I wasn’t a sophisticated one. I rather to be called also one of the living factor in this little world called earth. I may be not boasting you to tell you this, but I would like to share what I decide to write this article about me, my life with being Down syndrome.


It’s not a big deal to have being with Down syndrome. I’ve discovered when I was in sophomore year in high school. The science teacher pointed out that I have had the case of Down syndrome. Little did I know that I didn’t know back before. I was having a little dilemma if I really have being what it takes to have Down syndrome.


So I came home and told my parents if I really have had on it. And yes from their mouths, then the world somehow devoured on me. I didn’t know all the time. I was in sixth grade or maybe in fifth grade when I began shifting to recall my memories. My voice somehow changed me as well. But the copies of Down syndrome didn’t get on my way.


Upon entering my college years before, my world began shifting again. This time, I told my batch mates if they were really know what was really like to have a friend with Down syndrome. One batch to another batch, I found one batch that I could really stayed and graduated with them. One of them became my best friend.


After the years it really came to my life that I have to accepted who I was. Then I found one group who among the parents have their child or adult with Down syndrome. It was an instant change that I have to join. It was one of my best endeavors when I realized that I wasn’t alone all the while. Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI was already in 20 years of service.


I joined 20th Happy Walk last February 2012, the first Happy Walk I’ve ever joined. But the community there somehow I knew was little that time. But my eagerness to come out somehow changed me again. Well I’m sort of talkative. But not as always, I’ve always want to talk. There is a dilemma again.


Let’s forward for this topic today. I have a job today. After seven years and seven months searching the job database in the nation of Philippines, I realized that I was a high functional Down syndrome, according to what my boss told me about it. It may be weird for you to hear, but I am aware what would be your reactions look like. My jobs before was different before. I began all my three jobs only lasted two months. None of them kept me in their service. Was it because of being competitive in the first place? They should treated me as one of them, not as a different from others.


Living with being Down syndrome is not difficult to handle with. In the community where I joined, new parents came closer to me. They have had even congratulated me for what I was being accomplished as one of the different from others. After living in 32 years, I finally cried for who I was to be. And it was my first time I discovered that I have potential in my career. I may be not perfect one, but as a gifted one, who have potential career ahead of time. Wish I could have my long life in more coming years of life.


The community where I joined and the work where I worked were the only treasure circle of friends I really trusted. I have never doubt them to become my friends. I may have few friends who were closer to me, but they were really closer to me. Among them in the small crowd of big population of 95 million Filipinos around the nation were really nice to me. It was nice to write, but sooner I will bring more articles to enjoy you will be reading.


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The M word

The M word

The M word

There are many words in the world that you should not know to mention such as the N word in American countries, the R word also in America or in any countries as well and the bad habit of the M word for all over the world.


Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI talked about the past rumors of the M word. It was a ridiculous for most of the educated and uneducated people in the entire of the Philippines or in short of Filipinos. We, Filipinos, don”t want to hear such a horrible words. Bullying, in fact, was almost everywhere.


When I was a kid, I can hear some of my school mates or some of my classmates calling me the “sped” word. It means in English dictionary as “retarded.” Shame of those new words as well. But the time I grew up in high school, I learned that I have, in fact, as a down syndrome. Little did I know that the world needed to know a little lessons to be careful what you have to call your neighbors a bad names.


There are mostly discriminative cases in the world. Like bullying, for example, is mostly some of the cases in the school involved or in the public cases. In the Philippines alone, there are many homeless or they shall be called as the alien outsiders. They are many shanty homes in the wide areas in Manila, Quezon City and some of the places I know about. I didn’t know about this when I’ve graduated in college where I studied in culinary arts.


After I joined the organization a year ago last February 2012 in the event of DSAPI, the 20th Happy Walk. I celebrated my birthday during that day. I was enjoying the whole program from the start to finish. But I wish that my mom would join next time in 22nd Happy Walk next year in February 2014. I became a member last December 2012. And the rain of blessings poured me from last year to this year. I’ve enjoyed my stay in UST where I was a guest speaker for special education of hopeful graduates to become a special education teacher.


I, like myself, don’t have experience of much about of special education course in any kind of schools. But I’ve recently joined as a teacher where I’ve been working in Cainta Greenpark Village, Reaching Our Children for the King or R.O.C.K. Integrated School. Yesterday was my first day of work in the school. My strengths as a teacher would be in the field of Arts, Music, Science and History. But my highest attainment in my life was able to graduate in a certificate in culinary arts.


This wasn’t in my dream list to become a teacher. And as a teacher as well was a noble profession in any kind of jobs in the field as well. When you need to become one, you need a serious job. This is my small steps in success in my life today.


Back to the issue of the M word where you should not say to any kind of serious in-demand cases that sought in this generation. Pardon me for this back log cases. There were many cases before. I’ve heard from the E-Boy television series in ABS-CBN saying that the kid was calling the M word to another kid. But that was unjustly timed scripting from the scriptwriter. Excuse me, scriptwriter, next time you should be carefully what to use the exact word. And of course the R word or the A word also, don’t also include in the script.


There was also one case from Senator Miriam Defensor Santiago where she called politicians as the M word. Excuse me, madam, but you are not supposed to call the politicians the M word, the A word or the R word. It’s abusive behavior if you are speaking in the public television and the whole nation as well.


And the last offensive behavior came from the so-called social network, the Facebook. Excuse me, Mark Zuckerburg, but you are allowing these people not to use the abusive words such as the N word, the A word, the R word, the M word or any kind of abusive words that wasn’t allowed to use in the social platform network.


Last two weeks ago, the DSAPI organization again was gaining some noise from this situations. Don’t use the M word for your business. Excuse me, moderators of your business of Monggi Productions. Please allow me to shout the names of your business. The name you are using is outrageous beyond the borders already. The M word whether is spell in short cut names, or any kind of unfamiliar names are just impurity in our organization. Your business of your productions are not exempted in this society. The names who owned this company were Pepe Fernandez, Em Pong, Bern Rodil, Mykk You, Jessie Brian Nardo and Erik Lauron Cupino. Sorry to call out your names because your business is not exempted.


I am not sensitive as the others as well. But I was a victim before. And now, I become a victim again for your own cause. Drop your business. Or so God will forgive you if you arrange the name drop from your business. Your materials and your jobs are not exempted also because you are allowing yourself to use the name of the short cut names.


The Philippines government and the society should know about this. Don’t allow yourself others to be a victim about this. I, myself, was always a victim about this M word. When somebody was telling a story about “ngongo,” I’ve heard it was also an abusive behavior. Because I’ve passed the stage from there.


Allow me to say this. “Don’t do to others if you are not doing any good behavior to others as well.” Mainly because some of the uneducated and educated society should know about this example. If you are really sorry for your behavior, do it in an appropriate good manners and good conducts.


And for the last time, this world should know about this good example from this country of how many cases were not resolved in any kind of matters. As in, any means necessarily, don’t do anything bad manners.

Last week of summer

Dreams are sometimes hope. And hope is everlasting promise you would do for your own good. Well I finally got a new job that enlisting new description in my resume. Sometimes when I make a wish, I make a good wish if I could do my job very well.


In the past, my hopes to be chef literally gone. But my knowledge was still there. It wasn’t enough that I got experiences from my job description. As a chef before, a lot of pressure came into me. I mean – a whole lot. My relatives asked me if I can cook for them. But deeper inside of my thoughts, I never thought or crossed at the back of my mind that I would do that for them. I lack of executing. And executing means practicing. Where could you get a skills when you have already in your own skills?


I may be not intelligent as Brina Maxino. But my heart tells me something important more. In the past, I always told   myself that I could never done anything. I always want what I needed for most of the time – to be my own skills. And skills that I have, drawing, writing, singing (maybe), or doing a lot of activities. Maybe I was not so sure about multi-tasking before. I love my life. And life to me teaches how to control your activities and your lifestyle.


Brina Maxino was like me. But upon from her, she was a valedictorian in her class during her high school time. Now she is entering a college. I may be have accomplishments, but she have what it takes to be as a special child. I know sometimes that I don’t accept myself in the past. Hoping someday I would do something just like Brina. Maybe Brina and I could do anything for the accomplishments. But my milestones is getting ready to add some more blessings in my life.


Last year I’ve joined Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI. But before that year, I’ve already accepted the fact that I was different from the rest of the society – as a special adult. I have mosaic Down syndrome. And my age is already in my early 30’s. And so to hear Brina Maxino last year, I was amazed when I saw her the last 20th Happy Walk during my birthday on February 19, 2012. It was Sunday. And I’ve told my dad if he can invite some of his friends along side with me. Maybe just a little big change. I guess. But that is predictable. It can happen anytime.


Accomplishment to another accomplishment, I’ve done any particular accomplishment in my life from last year and to this year. Last December during Christmas party of DSAPI, I finally have had my first DSAPI ID. To tell you the truth honestly, it was something that my angels was telling me where I could find some good community just like this. Well, here what I got some more blessings to come.


To added from my accomplishments, it was my first time in my life that I’ve completed the paper requirements for getting a new job: barangay clearance, four certificates of TESDA training of call center agent and fundamental of computer applications, certificate of communication skills training program and a certificate in culinary, community tax certificate (or cedula), SSS, medical record and NBI clearance. My police clearance got an expiry ahead of time. It was only two months valid. And the results of making complete for my paper requirements. I already got a new job.


My new job was assisting special children in Reaching Our Children for the King or ROCK Integrated School where I landed my new job. Thanks for the effort that I already got my complete paper requirements. And added to my lessons in my life – never get a girlfriend when you are not ready. I lack precisely to get a girlfriend. And my first girlfriend was just a paper. She was my fling. My first girlfriend that I’ve ever had. It was only 8 days relationship. And it ended so soon. I wasn’t a type of a guy who would get to know dilly-dallying for the purposes to have a girlfriend. I never wanted that.


And of course, my journey as an assistant teacher became my part of new life. And I hope more blessings will come in my door and keep knocking if it’s real or not. Sometimes when a door you’ve answered, it was a fluke or a fake that is.


Life as a special adult makes me extraordinary person and I am always proud of who I am and what I am excel to my skills and my talents.” – quoted from Itsmikki Studio


What will be my life tells me next? Should I come to open the door? Or should I not to open the door? It always tell me some surprise questions just like in mock interview questions or critical thinking questions in contact centers. Hmm…but I like the new sound of my new job. And the new description for my new job will unlock more opportunities in the future. I’ve never dreamt to be as a teacher. But God places me to this type of job description. And I hope this opportunity will last for me. I’ve always be what I’m always aiming for – to be the best of who I am.


And my new song I’ve created last week was undeniably challenging me to memorize the lyrics I’ve made. Wish someone can sing that song for me. Maybe Dingdong Avanzado or Gary Valenciano would do the honor to sing for this song. It’s called, My Angels Do in Your Heart. That song is dedicated to the special children that included me in that song. I love the rhythm and the beat of the song I’ve create. I’ve been always humming to that tune. I don’t have piano or any instrument. But I can tell it will be a song for this generation. And I will get you a sample for the last lyrics of my song:


…what else my angels do in everyone’s heart.


I love the lyrics so much. I don’t know why I always keep humming and singing the song I’ve created. Maybe I have to re-edited or to play for the tune. Hmm…if I only have an instrument, I could play a better song for the cause  of special children. And I hope my foundation will get to this project of this song.


Oh, it’s taking me so long to write an article again. It is too long again. I fall in love again with writings. Oh, I love what to write and to write. More articles please? Sounds interesting. Yes, I will write soon again.

Alternative job

I haven’t get into real job yet. But as soon I’ve accepted the deal being having with Down syndrome, it was the fate that chose me to go to.


I have mosaic Down syndrome like most of mosaics do a lot common. But some of us can’t do anything like similarities. Well mostly some of myself can’t do. I can draw. I can sing. I can write. I can even walk. But I am surely can talk. When I was younger, I’ve had a hard time to talk in straight in english. Like most of you can do and some of others won’t. Trisomy 21 Down syndrome is a different pattern in genetically disorder issues. I’ve met few people in my life when I joined Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines. That was when I’ve decided to add my advocacy to help special children to reach their talents.


My talents were sometimes a little different. Because some of you don’t notice what are my talents. I could be an artist. Drawing a lot of occasions in different patterns makes me part of growing up. And I remembered my most important of my life was the drawing of the sun. It was difficult at first learning that stage of knowing what to do in your talents. Maybe a little of perspective of your kid might have a chance to grow in their talents.


Now I am facing the fact, that I want to join as a teacher like my teachers did it to me. I learned so much well from them. If I’ve never been in occupational therapy, physical therapy or speech therapy, what would the field will choose me? Chef, maybe. Because I chose that field to learn of all nutrition of all meals. And of course, I didn’t regret choosing culinary course. Because I learned the knowledge of culinary and the basic concepts of culinary was. Artist, maybe. There was a little chance if I was given to graduate in First Academy of Computer Arts. But there was always given me a wrong decisions in my life.


Maybe this was a guess. An artist. Yes, I love the face of being an artist. Being an artist makes different from all the aspects in life. It can learn you from different perspective views or animate the feelings of a human. Well like most of the animators do are to create some humans involving with the things they can work it to. I guess if I make it right the good views.


A singer if I was given a chance with a good voice. Unlikely, I don’t have a beautiful voice. But I have beautiful talent writing lyrics of a song. Maybe for a lyricist for example, I can make different tunes for a song. Well most of the composers and lyricists did that for their field.


And of course, I’ve given a chance what to do in my life is to be a teacher. In the past, I always want it to be as a teacher. But most likely of the teachers do came from the education they have. From early childhood education, special education course, or being as a teaching course you would like to take it. But I don’t have teaching background. So I am ready to take a challenge to be part of teaching a class.


Special education is what I am aiming to teach about. Because this is where I learn so many different lessons. From the fact I learned how to read properly, how to speak properly, how to respect properly and every lessons you can make it the special children grow in their talents. And now my advocacy will start in special education. And I will make it happen to teach this children how to prompt their duties in their lives.


Teaching is the most profession in any countries. If you don’t have teacher or professor in your school, what would you can learn from them if you don’t know what are the principles of being as a teacher? Teacher is a remarkable position you can handle it to. Like I want it to make discuss what’s the down syndrome looks like. Some of my teachers were still in my facebook. And one high school teacher I knew in my life was very sweet to me. Because I was sweeter to make her good to me.


I hope the school I am applying to will simply going without a mistake. I want to dedicate myself as a teacher if I want it to make happen. This is a small step of my journey as a teacher before going something bigger step if it will make something bigger dreams.


And I was very proud of where I’ve been gone from my school. My journey as a student before ended. And now my journey as a teacher will make it something smaller to take. Teach them with your unconditional love you have. I love myself and I want it share in the world something smaller. Smaller dreams are sometimes a bigger opportunities to grab. But opportunities will grow eventually from your heart.

Blessings in life

I was born in the world being having with mosaic Down syndrome. But to tell you the truth honestly, it turn out that I am really a blessing that God sent me here. What’s all about me?


I am now at early 30’s. I’ve discovered that I have being with Down syndrome. Sixteen years have been passed when my biology teacher said that I was different from the rest of the class. At first, I didn’t know what to do. I became clueless and disoriented. So I came home and told my parents if I really could have the special condition. The day it became closer to me. I was always telling me if I really have that kind of case. My intelligence was being pushed and pushed as I considered one of my favorite subject was Science. Therefore, I learned the field of genetics where it falls in the branch of Science.


Genetics, according to the dictionary, is the science of hereditary, dealing with resemblances and differences or related organisms resulting from the interaction of their genes and the environment. (Reference: http://dictionary.reference.com)


And at the same time, I fell in my own hands determining that I couldn’t accept my fate being having with the special case I have. I have been 14 years to heal that I could accept myself. Although a long period of time couldn’t take to heal in own self, there was a time I couldn’t take my chances. And chances it was really hard to heal. One of my hardest regrets in my life was my decision to make. So in 14 years I couldn’t take hearing from the society that I am not belong to. It was a blessing. And my biggest achievement in my life was to accept my condition.


Two years ago when I finally accepted my decision to make was the hardest decision to let it go. And I guess being having with mosaic Down syndrome, I am a blessing disguised in heaven. With my doubts on me, sometimes I couldn’t take serious on my own. To tell you the truth honestly, my parents did all their best just to raise me well. And they did. I didn’t go to the physical therapy. But I did going in occupational therapy and speech therapy. My mom spent years for me to study in one of the speech therapists before. And I went a whole lot more before. Each time I wanted to remember, I asked my parents what was my condition before.


Speech therapy was one of the expenses my parents spent on me. And on part of that, occupational therapy was also that I considered also one of the expenses that my parents spent on me. Honestly I couldn’t remembered one bit of memory before. I have the longest long-term memory that I could remembered. But the thing was I also have short-term memory which I forgot my entire childhood memories. But whenever I asked from my classmates, my cousins and even from friends, they told me their stories about me.


In grade school, I’ve graduated in high colors graduating two times already. One was during my sixth grade before entering high school but I’ve ended up finishing seventh grade in the school in 1995. But the school have had still accepting me to study although I was the one and the last seventh grader in Montessori Integrated School of Antipolo. So I was the happiest student back then. And one was during seventh grade before going to high school in 1996. My biggest dreams back in elementary days was to become volcano photographer because I loved volcanoes very much until now. Although I have cellphone camera, I still want to earn more money to buy the expensive camera. It will be one of my blessings in life.


And in my high school life was entirely different from the elementary days. Before I became aware of my own self, I looked around to my classmates when I was in fifth grade. My heart have still the beat that I have a new crush back then. It was only the word of crush meaning, “the admiration in life.” And did you know that I was becoming aware in fifth grade? Now you know me already.


And of course when I was in high school prime years, the freshman year was challenging year for me although I didn’t take elective subjects as my teachers and my parents have agreed to. But I still have managed to attend the elective classes. Then of course, I also went up and down during my sophomore year. Some of my schoolmates thinking that I was a freak or maybe a word of “sped.” That word was already a derogatory word for me. Because the meaning of the word itself was translated to “retarded.” Around in junior year, I also discovered one of my talents before was writing. It was a blessing from the skies. And I enjoyed very much that year because of the junior prom who I dated my auntie, a year younger than me. And in my senior year was also my memorable moments in my life. I have said to my classmates and in my school if want to be an actor, I would still dreaming and hoping to be one in the future. It was one of my higher colors that was included blessings in life.


I may be graduated already in high school but the college was one of the hardest to cope to study on. Despite I chose culinary certificate course in Center for Culinary Arts in year of 2000 over the hotel and restaurant management diploma course in Montessori College. I got the passing grade in the other school with 88 but I chose to enter the culinary school with also the passing grade of 75. It was the hardest education in my life but still a blessing in life. I also finished in one of the pioneer culinary schools in the country which was the Center for Culinary Arts. I finished in three years in culinary but the course was 2 years course. To tell you the truth before entering in college, one of my dreams was to finish college. Because I believed some of you may not finishing college years in your life. And so I did my best. I studied and graduated in one of the pioneer culinary schools, the Center for the Culinary Arts. Although I moved four batches already, I have had and made some wonderful friends in college totaling numberless. It was a blessings in life.


After I graduated from the culinary school, it was a huge desperation to get the big check in my life – a salary. I was aiming for the salary raise. During that time, my family have had in financial crisis and my dad sold their family company on someone’s else – the car-making pipes industry. It was there already, but I believed it was a fate chance that gave me a wonderful life.


Before 10 years to this present, I was now a graduated jobless person thinking what job will fits for me. I was very choosy in terms of seeking a job. And so I ended up as a chef consultant which where I worked with my mother’s friend in front of the St. Jude nursing school in Sampaloc, Manila. And it only lasted two months. It was a desperation move for me although I’ve been hooked and addicted playing online games in the computer. But I give my chances to learn more in the future. And the second job I took was being a chef in Sacocina Catering where I worked in Robinsons’ Fairview in Teletech call center branch. Everyday I saw some of agents talking in English, none of them became unaware for me. Because all I know have to learn more in English language. Running later in 9 years, I gave my chances to train myself in call center training in Ortigas where I massively learned the basics of English language. I really wanted to learn so much in English language. It was one of the blessings in life I’ve received.


And at the time I knew about myself, two years ago when I stepped in one of my biggest regrets, joining the multi-level marketing or networking company where I joined at least one. One was enough for me and I learned and tired listening to the rich people screaming the derogatory word of “abnormal.” And so I claimed myself that I finally accepted who I belong and went back to my own feet again. Last year was full of blessings in life.


I named the categories that I was blessed about:

1. I’ve entered call center training because I wanted to learn more about the basics of English language. It was not that I really wanted to go in one of the exclusive call center jobs. It was that I really wanted to learn more of the basics.

2. I’ve joined the organization of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI where I learned that I wasn’t alone in the country being despite with Down syndrome in February 2012’s Happy Walk. That Happy Walk day was also my birthday.

3. My loading business paid off well in the charts and boosted my financial savings as well.

4. I’ve applied on my own applying for my first postal ID on September 2012.

5. My first short-inspirational speech talk have became part of my life and I was invited to talk in University of Santo Tomas (UST) on November 19, 2012, Monday morning.

6. I’ve applied in one of my first organization PWD ID which it was the DSAPI ID in December 2012’s DSAPI christmas party.

7. I’ve applied numerous applications in re-applying of NBI clearance and barangay clearance last January 2013.

8. I’ve applied my first PWD ID last March 2013.


It was all blessings in life. Although I am ready to go independently thinking if I could do it on my own, I am thinking to follow one of my biggest dreams – to become an actor in entertainment industry. If I do well in life, then I am ready to face the entertainment world. It was also thankful that I saw the wonderful movie of I Am Sam which it was about the father being having with Down syndrome and his normal daughter who never thought he could raise on his own.


Being having with my own self that I really love about is writing, drawing, acting if I could do it on my own and be part of the society also. I love being with myself. Without the blessings in life wouldn’t keep my ground off from the chart. But I am still looking for my dream board – to have my own house, to have my own business, to have family and to have helping other special children. And so if I do this on my wish list, I could far places such as Leyte, Bacolod, Cebu, Bohol, Davao and many parts of provinces of this country of the Philippines. I really love Philippines so much. And I love being with myself as a Filipino.


One of my biggest dreams now today is to become an actor if I could do it on my own earnings without a help from my parents. And I want to help my parents so much because they really raise me well. I decide to make it good in health and for the people I really care about.

We Tell The Story: A Musical

We Tell The Story: A Musical

The musical play was amazing. It was perfectly beautiful. Although I didn’t understand at first, I realized it has something added amazingly in the musical play. We Tell The Story: A Musical was simply catchy musical play.


The lead role was Marian Reyes, a friend of mine in the organization in Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines Support Sibling Group. The younger role was her sister, Andy. Both of them were talented. At first, I also want to become a singer, an actor and a dreamer. When I was still in high school, my dreams becoming as an actor failed at my first sight. It shattered. It was the glass that have never been going back in one mirror again.


But unlike in the reality, this was the second time I watched a musical play. Back before during my high school years, I watched the first musical show – Wizard of Oz. And what didn’t I miss of the musical show? It was Antoinette Taus who played as Dorothy in the story of musical show. Both Aiza Seguerra and Antoinette Taus who played for the role of Dorothy, but it was Antoinette I saw singing in the show. It was after 15 years already.


The story was unfolded amazingly. I thought at first the character Marian playing. It seems the other cast have been a problem in vocal phone in their neck. I rarely seen nearly. It was purely inevitable. Her sultry singing voice was one that I’ve been hearing for almost 18 years old ago. What I’ve really like for the girls? A beautiful voice. Singing like that could perfectly fit for my lyrics if I want making her to stardom. Well I don’t have recording studio. Normally I write songs from my heart and experiences. Then at the peak of my career, it was already 14 years, 3 months and 10 days when I’ve starting to write my very first poem. Back then, I was simply a high school student and created my home honing one of my talents.


Other of my talents could be dancing and acting. I’ve already acted once before in the skit play during my elementary days. I’ve portrayed as a soldier in the skit play of Magellan and Lapu-Lapu. There it was, all of my schoolmates were laughing at me. For somehow, they didn’t know what I became successful later in my life.


Marian and Andy were good singers. And what I’ve really like? The voice. Hmm…if I were a scriptwriter for the play, I would probably created wonderful songs. And maybe it will become successful. I’ve remembered that I’ve organized my first successful get-together for my elementary friends. I’ve brought 10 or almost 11 friends of mine back three years ago. Maybe this career was good enough for me.


The story of We Tell The Story: A Musical was a masterpiece. It wasn’t like Beauty and the Beast, or Princess Ariel in the Little Mermaid. Or maybe it wasn’t like any other classical stories. The concept for this story was perfect. It was the lady who wanted to rescue the man she really loved. And at the end of the day, she grew loved by her foster parents. And her foster parents didn’t want her to go to the heaven’s place where her man to be married was there. As she entered the heaven’s garden, she exercised the guy’s leg who can’t walk. So she thought if she could spared her life from her man to be loved. But the black god who have black powers, he said to the girl, “don’t dare to compare your life to the man you’ve really love. Instead, give a chance to kill him.” But the girl can’t killed him, so she spared her life to exchange the man return in the earth. And at the end of the story was a good ending.


And what did I see at the end of the play? Claire dela Fuentes. Why? Her son was the director of the play of We Tell The Story: A Musical. And I’ve said to myself that I’ve failed getting a photograph of Claire dela Fuentes. Instead I’ve enjoyed so much of they play. Other who attended the play were Charm Reyes and her brother Charles and Tin Nicholas.


So I’ve said that this musical play was a success hit. It still runs in Friday, 8 p.m. and Saturday for 3 p.m. and 8 p.m. slot. They still have three musical dates in UP Manila, CAC Theater. Hurry up and watch a musical show.


This article was not about the Enchanted movie in the theatres. The word Enchanted claims at the back of my head is a prom about being having Down syndrome with their La Salle partners. Let me give you first an introduction for my past two proms I have it before.


I have had my first prom when I was in my junior year. It was a junior prom and it was a month of February during that time. And I have had nothing to do asking a girl. So I was afraid not coming to the junior prom. Instead not going to the junior prom, my mom asked some of my relatives and it was my beautiful auntie who was a year younger than me. Then I thought I would came after all in junior prom. Our venue was in Walang Hagdanan restaurant in Antipolo. And I was quite remembering that place. I was with my auntie when I came down in our blue Pajero car that time.


As we came down to the car, we looked for our seats to sit on. Well I really looked fabulous. Then it came to my attention I was wearing that time. I have had with a black necktie, white polo long shirt and my dad’s americana coat. Then I have said if this was okay. Those times, technology in computers were less technology and also the cellphone numbers. But it came to my mind where I can find a camera. Finally after we introduced to my classmates, all of my male classmates were amazed of me because I brought a beautiful and petite lady in our prom night. That was Saturday. And of course, I wouldn’t forgot that I won a best dressed man. If we were on the prom set that night a little earlier, we could have an early bird awardees. So I thought and be the man I was going to be.


After a year, here it goes again. A prom night has arrived again. This time was 2000, our graduating year and the senior prom has come. Glittering in the night with beautiful stars was the brightest evening we ever had. The bad news was that I didn’t bring my prom partner who I have had dated her during my junior prom to my senior prom. Because of the conflict schedule came in good terms, it was turn of her sibling that I have dated with. Her younger sister whom I think was four or five years younger than me. And during that night, we haven’t done chatting each other. And my partner, whom was my auntie, asked and said, “can we go now?” I gasped, gave a sigh and said, “yes.” Then at that moment I realized my auntie didn’t enjoy that night. So I came home a little earlier because we didn’t enjoy that night. It was miserable and teary for me. I’ve never had to say, “I am sorry or a simply gesture of ‘thank you’.” After two days have gone, I came back to school to attend my classes. All of my classmates gave a nod and one of them said, “what happened during the prom night we enjoyed?


At the back of my head thought and said, “it would come better if I have a guts asking my crush in her freshman year start of the school.” But it didn’t happen quickly and it was like a disappearing of a bubble. Then I guessed it was a senior prom. And what was the memorable that year 2000? Instead of our valedictorian in our class gave a loud applause, it gave an outstanding standing ovation inside the entire theatre hall. It was when I stepped in the stage when I received my high school diploma. Being having with Down syndrome really made proud of who I was. And of course, nothing beats me like a simple gesture of “thank you and you’re welcome.”


It was during the hot and timid day around 2 in the afternoon. I was last checking my facebook and at the seconds in the clock stopped me what I was doing. I ran off to the comfort room to take a bath because of the hot weather today. Then it came for me a fresh bath for the second time of a day. I completed dressing my clothes. After that, it was when I left my home around 3 in the afternoon. I rode a taxi going to the venue where I was supposed to go to. Then I thought it might be a lucky day for me. And I thought I remembered the past two days if I cannot come. One of my close friends in the organization have asked me to go to the Enchanted prom where with special children above their age goes with prettiest girls and handsomest men. I was excited last night. And at the same time, my mind was blanked about what I was going to say to my partner.


And our maid have said to me if I might have a partner whom she was 60 years old already. I dare I can do that. But it was her joke. Then at the same moment when I came at the venue, I gave a long sigh and a long pause of my breath. Then I loosed out from my breath. Was I relaxing too much? Or was I stressing about what I am going to say? And at the start of the program nearly started, I thought I will be having partner with another special adult. Then it came along with prettiest girls and handsomest men in an hour. I posed a strike pose in the photo booth. And I might get a lucky shot with my cutest and wacky shots.


Then I met a few prettiest girls in the Enchanted prom night. Among them I met was the indian girl I really liked the most. It was merely that I might fall in love to her. Her looks being as another native makes me an awe for me. Then I thought she will be my partner. Instead one of the prettiest girls I rarely picked came to me. Her name was Ricci. This girl was stunningly beautiful. And I might get also attractive to her. Whatever my mind ran off to, it was like there was running horses around the white clouds telling me if I can ask her number. Then I did nearly before the prom night ended. And I got a chance to meet the indian girl, it was actually her name, Rashmi.

Enchanted prom night

Enchanted prom night

Enchanted prom night

Enchanted prom night

Enchanted prom night

Enchanted prom night

To tell you the truth honestly, this was the best prom night I have enjoyed so far although this was my third prom I went to. My last senior prom was during my senior year, the year of 2000, the graduating year. It was sadly for me not seeing some of my classmates anymore. But it was a challenging role for me to give a kick start career. For unlikely reasons, why I couldn’t landed a good stable and financial job for almost 13 years? It was the denial stage that I held for myself being having with Down syndrome. Keeping that was a mortal sin I have ever had. Thinking in the past years of my life, I’ve realized it was time to let it go and accepted the conditions whatever I have had. 2011 was the good start of my another chapter although there were some bad pages and good pages in my life.


Let me give you a straight answers at the back of my head. The bad pages were that I have joined in the networking job deals, the networking or in another term of multi-level marketing. But I’ve learned my lessons. The good pages I was talking about the knowledge of the product description. Selling products maybe have a little effort work for me. But I’ve decided not going to the company again after 5 months of staying there nothing to do. Giving a hard-knock at the back of my head was my best lessons I’ve ever had. And the other good pages I’ve found out was that I studied about my both family roots in my father’s side and my mother’s side. It was that really great. Meeting with some good community makes you more comfortable. And having the most of my entire life came back one by one of my memories.


The reason why I found this interesting organization of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines? It was another chapter have entered in my life. Giving a whole new blessings came towards to me. February 2012, the month of my birthday and the month of joining the Happy Walk, were among the blessings I’ve received. After a year, this was the most blessing I’ve received most of my life. To enjoy, to live, to breathe, to be happy all the time and to have a positive life are the most important ingredients in my life. This kind of organization to join is worth of all happiness you will receive.


What do I wish for my birthday last month? Simple. But you have to work your wishes together with strong prayers you have to pray. Well, I am going to say it. I just want following one of my dreams. The last wish I’ve received was the camera cellphone. But I am looking towards to buy a 50 grand pesos expensive camera. For going to work of one of my dreams, I am looking for my brighter dreams. Nothing becomes impossible in your life is believing in yourself 100%.


Let me give you a trivia. What is the name of the famous school where Francis Magalona’s children attend? And there is only one answer. It is Montessori Integrated School of Antipolo. The same school I went to where his children attended the same school I was in.


Having Enchanted in my life was the most memorable of my life. Being having with Down syndrome was not exempted in the society. It has no barriers and there are no boundaries. One of that I honor myself being having with Down syndrome simply gives me an excitement to bring. Meeting a new partner and having to meet new breed of prettiest girls in the planet are simply Enchanting me.

Enchanted prom night

Enchanted prom night

Learn from experiences

When I was in some places, people sometimes found annoying. And sometimes they took you for granted. I may have had encounters of this before. But I realize that too much of attention from them may find you a disturbing facts, “they really judge you for nothing.” Well at least something I come up some interesting issues I have to discuss for today. It’s about discrimination and some of the advices you will listen to my article today.


1. Elementary / High school / College


Normally I didn’t know the word of “sped” when I was in school days before. Schoolmates and some others called me “ahahaha, sped siya, ahahaha, sped siya! (ahahaha, he’s retarded, ahahaha, he’s retarded!)” But because I stood the wrong intentions, I came home crying and I have said it to my parents. What was this “sped” word? The word “sped” was short of special education. And I didn’t know the word throughout my life. But when I was studying in high school years, I have found out that I was feeling not okay. Everyday I walked in the classroom just to put down my bags and kept my things ready to study. Those times I was carried two heavy bags. One of my bag has contained school books and my other bag has school supplies. Well normally I did carrying my pens, notebooks, intermediate pad and some important things you should carry. I was not the type of a normal school teen who would carried a handbag materials (referring to the girls’ things like foundation and powder) and I have said to myself that I wasn’t giving myself an attention. I found it later during my sophomore year. My schoolmates still teased me somehow, normally all the lower levels than me. Because we were the first batch of high school have to graduate in the year of 2000. Then they realized that they stopped teasing me when teacher passed down the hallway and have to remain silent. The community back then was very small. Our batch in high school only consisted 18-21 students. And we were the only one section. Three years below have started two sections. And they have two batches during that time.


What I normally don’t stop knowing it? Because it keeps me going what I learn in the school. School provides education and education needs us to study in order growing up mentally, physically and emotionally. When we are finish in the education in the span of 18 years, we move up to the second level. That is where we have to start doing our job in return for our parents. After being that, we become adults and we are giving children to educate them. It’s a life cycle processing in our daily lives. And the country needs help from us in order to grow our education and the jobs have to provide us to sustain our needs. Back then including outside the school, the crowd saw me differently and judged mentally. And I was still remembering one grumpy old woman staring down on me in the church. I didn’t know if she was old woman but it was a lady. I was still 10 years old. And she said it to me, “How old are you?” Then I answered and said, “10.” “Really?” she asked again. “Yes,” I said it again. Then she nodded and gasped and asked firmly in her low voice and said, “You really should act like a 10 year old. But you are acting like a 2 year old kid. You are not toddler anymore.”


Those times I asked myself what I did that for a purpose. And during that time, my childhood entered a different direction. Entering fourth grade for me really gave me a goose-bumps. I looked to my pictures. Wearing eyeglasses in my eyes, my pants up to my waist and my shirt tucking up inside my pants really gave look like I was a nerd. And I kept repeating myself that I was really look like a nerd. Because of this show in television I saw keeps me remembering. That show was my favorite during my childhood and the line was and said, “help, help, I am falling and I can’t get up.” It really looked like a 70 show or something. But I really can’t remember the name of that show. There was something black pitch inside at the back of my head and I can’t remember. So after fourth grade came fifth grade. During fifth grade, my vision and my head started to pick up differently. I still remembered who my first crush was in my class and the first celebrity crush I have before.


Now I know what the term of “sped” is. It means retarded in english translated dictionary. People really start judging me at the same time I really don’t know. But I am glad that I know of this meaning today. Don’t ever call to the special children or special adults a derogatory word. It’s really that bad. If you can manage saying to other community, then you’re still wrong. Good company finds you good on you. If you go to the bad company you are going with, they are not referring you as a good person. Because that’s what I feel it about during my times. And I will discuss that later.


I have many good friends in college. This is not like any kind of university, it’s a small community school. This was Center for Culinary Arts or CCA where I enrolled to study culinary arts. Well of course, you cannot expect if you are not good enough. So my parents enrolled me in this small community school. Everybody I talked inside the campus and everyone I knew the names were the same treatment giving to me. But I didn’t expecting that too much. I took it whole-heartedly to finish the course but I wasn’t seriously getting to the top field like any honors do. I have made friends with two celebrities I have met in my life. One of them was a girl. And that girl was the daughter of Vic Sotto. So I thought giving me a best shot I could do. Nevertheless, I found later the right company for me, the batch I kept finishing together with them. They were some good and some others were not looking me seriously. But I said to them that I was different from the rest of them. And I have told my best friend in college not to judging me.


The lessons I learned:


I was afraid to accept who I was being having Down syndrome or special needs in my life. The friends I am making with them makes me comfortable. Don’t be afraid of who you are, instead give your chance to understand of who you are. As I have said earlier, “good company finds you good on you.” But later in my adulthood, I learned the fact this was not too late saying who I was and accepted the terms of who you are. Of course, everybody finds you different. Stand to yourself and be a true to yourself and say, “I can do this.” With the good strength, you will face the future with a good attitude. Strength considers your goal as your courage to stand up and face the reality.


2. After college years / in between jobs


I was curious at this level finding too much of difficulty times. And I have saying myself, “I can do this.” Sometimes I feel unknowingly feeling weaker. Yes, weaknesses finds you depressing and frustrating. You don’t have a job at the start after the college. Let me give you an advice, keep your position ready before your graduation starts. Have yourself with a good record, good performance and good attendance in the school. In the same way, you will manage have a job before your graduation ends. That is where your recommendation comes in.


But I don’t have a regular job the way I use going in and out at the end of the day. My jobs only lasts around 2-3 months. My first job was a chef assistant. Being as an assistant to my mom’s friend, we always have had a good time cooking and talking about the food stuff. Back then, I used going to Sampaloc, Manila where I traveled for one hour travel ahead of time. I was there early at the start of the morning. When I stepped down in Lacson Avenue going from Roosevelt-Quezon Avenue route, I managed walking down to the street for about 15-20 minutes going to the front of St. Jude Nursing College near the Dimasalang Street. I woke up early at the most of 5 am, then kept myself ready leaving the house before the school started. Because the school started normally early in the morning. My friend and I was already ready for the preparations for the cooking techniques what I have had in my mind. At that moment, I was already serving college students with fresh meals that has to be cooked. Of course, I made new friends that time. But the social media facebook wasn’t introduced to the Philippines yet. Only the communication tool of cellphone have already introduced during that time.


And I kept wondering myself why my friend put a store in front of the college. It was all nurses, midwifery and doctors who were studying there. And I have said to myself clearly. If I have a girlfriend someday, she might be a nurse for me knowing my conditions is. But I consider not looking for a love, I might reconsider her as a friend. During that time, I was scared and lost for somehow. Because commitment is where it starts for relationship to be last. The community was normally good. Of all the places I was been through, it was a pleasure to work somebody has to understand me. But I didn’t last to have a job there. My friend said to me that it was time to let it go. Somehow I couldn’t understood. After taking a job in 2004 and 2005 for about two months job again, it wasn’t place for me. Maybe I have to find a place to regain my strengths. I lost three times to make it longer. The last job I got only lasted in November 2005. After my boss ended up my contract at the half of my day, she instead gave me a look that I couldn’t got lasting my job enough. Instead going home earlier around 2 in the afternoon, my job ended around 6 pm in the evening. I watched a movie in Robinson’s Fairview. I needed to relax my mind and things were not easier for me to say to my parents that this could my last job.


The lessons I learned:


I was afraid taking jobs during that time. And I have guessed for me staying at home was better for me. People may have judged me but during those times, it was terribly bad and gone. Learning from my mistakes in the past doesn’t make you stop. It grows your heart to be stronger and mind to relax. But for me, I take it for years to practice going back to have a work again. I guess jobs are more challenging roles to sustain your income. And I finally learn that whenever I have mistakes, problems or challenges, it is possible to ask from Him above. And with Him above makes you stronger and immune from getting negatives. He makes you more positive to face your problems in the future.


3. Digital school / interests / networking


After I have been through my problems before, there goes another features of my life. I began loving to draw characters, simply watching television cartoons and animations. Then same goes to my problems. I need it how to draw like in animation does in the same way. Then I asked my parents if I study digital school in Makati. After what I have done not doing practicing with my culinary skills for a long time, I have managed to get another course in my life – a digital arts school. The interests in my past gave me another way studying what I liked most of my time.


I have done few characters, main characters I drew most of my time. But I didn’t know how to draw a Japanese character. So instead, I adapted my habits drawing in different way. Mostly I called them of my unique drawings. When I entered digital school since October 2006, I began studying the human anatomy and the digital aspects including where I watched most of the digitalized films. Since then, I began a game addict again. I stopped playing online and browser games since the 2009. Somehow I learned the basic adobe softwares back when I was in digital school. But one software I really liked most was Adobe Illustrator where the calendars, greeting cards and brochures were made in the Illustrator software. I also liked the Macromedia Flash where you can learn how to draw comes alive in animation. Giving you the best you can makes you comfortable. Normally I didn’t get a perfect score back when I was in elementary, high school and college years. But I didn’t know I can make it a perfect score. With an astounding score of 100, my Valentines greeting card got an awesome perfect score. Our computer instructor gave me a score, but the school records doesn’t want gave me a transcript record. Somehow I lost interests finishing the course. Because I both lost two flash drives. One flash drive lost somewhere when we moved to Cainta. And one flash drive lost when my friend incidentally lost my flash drive.


I stopped studying in digital school when I learned I also have had migraine. It was the July 2007 making me stop. It really happened so fast. My parents have said to me after we watched Die Hard 4 in Promenade, Greenhills, I became epilepsy. I wasn’t aware that I could gain some of unexpected illness. Migraine was the last sickness that I have had during my life. And after that, I became stable and okay doing what I was usually doing in my daily life.


It wasn’t keeping me stopping there when I went going back to the digital school in August 2010. I regained my knowledge doing digital stuff in my best what I can. I learned now how to use the Adobe After Effects software where you can learn how to use the magic digital effects either in movies, television shows and commercials. My flash drive items were the items stored in the second flash drive that lost in my unbecoming friend. So somehow, I lost my interests gaining back to draw. That friend was a cousin from my cousin’s side.


Going to networking or multi-level marketing company made a wrong move. Besides on the good side, I have gained new friends again. Some of them became my friends until now. Some of few didn’t last. I gained the knowledge how you will work the money multiplying (or leveraging). June until October 2011 made me realize how my family was more important than my job in networking. Their attitude was not good in terms for the big community. Their derogatory discrimination words used in networking were mongee (short for mongoloid) and abnormal. I also learned from their community where you managed how to keep good people from bad people. But at the back of my head stopped thinking about their thoughts were bad enough telling me. But of course, I still believe what I normally do.


The lessons I learned:


Don’t go to the bad company makes you miserable. And somehow they will erase your mind not going home for their entity of their bad deeds. At least I learned from my experiences. And don’t go the community where you can hear the derogatory words. People like them are not your community in your daily life. Choose good company where you can see how few people will treat you good. Not as people like them somehow erases my mind to think about. Maybe a little less or mostly none, but you need to be extra careful choosing friends.


The conclusion:


After networking, I found right and good community. I learned that I have relatives in each side of my parents’ family roots. My father’s roots has Veloso lineage. My uncle Danny Javier was my father’s first cousin. He has also Veloso lineage. Other relatives I have are Mark Bautista (from Cagayan De Oro), Pilar Pilapil (from Cebu) and Dingdong Avanzado (from Siquijor) in the same Veloso lineage. And I discover that I also have politics blood. President Sergio Osmena‘s relatives also have cross to Veloso lineage. In my mother’s side, I also learned that I discovered First President Emilio Aguinaldo was our great grandfather. Lolo Miong that he was being called in the movie of El Presidente. The person who found me way finding Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines was a friend of my cousin in the side of Veloso lineage. It was January 2012 when I found out that she was a volunteer student from Davao chapter of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines. And a month afterwards, I was aware accepting myself having with Down syndrome since 2011. So last two months was a success when I finally became a member of the organization. I love of who I am and what achievements I have. Be the best of who you are and never give up your success story.

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