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After seeing the end of journey of being as an assistant teacher, I’ve all want to share my blessings that takes me from every chapter has moving within me. This is the part 2 of The tale of assistant teacher.

 

Love life has moved twice as I’ve reached the mountains. But the roadblock at the end of the road told me to move on. Why was it happened me between being having as an assistant teacher? Was I even told to be a better assistant teacher? Or was it somebody who doesn’t like too much of being noisy adult? I was always talking and talking to myself in a minutes or in an hour. Telling you the truth honestly, some of the lessons I’ve been going through proved my excellence in my journey. I wasn’t noisy as anymore before. I was waiting for someone listening my side of my story. But was it someone who can lean to?

 

I’ve covered my eyes as I was waiting for my side. I’ve also covered my ears so I won’t listen to the story. When did I stop talking raging nonsense? I’ve full of passion, full of energy and full of hope. All my positive sides wanted telling you I was able telling the truth.

 

Honestly I wasn’t perfect human as God says in the bible, ‘there is no perfect human in the world.‘ True. But I hope it would allow somebody to tell the truth. All the angels were sending from heaven telling me if I would continue be a humble person. But I didn’t know which one I was suppose to do.

 

Let me tell you my whole story from the beginning I went through the start of my story:

 

“The school orientation came over on 10th of June, 2013. And every parent was there to hear from the stories of two teachers, one from preschool who came to teach the preschoolers and one from special education who came to teach special education kids how to handle on their own in the future. And it was a surprise that my bosses told me that they coped with my problems. I did telling them that I’ve had being having with Down syndrome. But they didn’t know with the word of mosaic Down syndrome, trisomy 21. It was a sudden blessing from heaven that I sent here for a mission. And it was all started to be humble from the good beginnings that begun.

 

I told them that mosaic has two copies of chromosomes is normal and one copy of chromosome has extra set. Which it is why it formed mosaic Down syndrome. Even Dr. Jerome Lejeune discovered before. But holding right there from my chromosome, my knowledge that I learned. I also hope to bring a message to all special parents who helped their special child to grow like I was standing. My two bosses were taking their jobs as school administrator, principal and also being part as an occupational therapist. Then I started to know when will I begin from my job.

 

The start of classes went by as the school started on 17th of June, every child has own their behavior. Their behavior that my boss told me being part of growing up have to nurturing their talent. Which was it how it handle the special kids? From ADHD, autism, cerebral palsy and even Down syndrome, the four cases I saw from different special kids in the classroom. I’ve learned new things that I discovered. But my world shook at the back of my mind what needs to learn must have extra careful. To set aside, the nutrition month was coming, the month of July. And there was an interns. And an interns from MCU were optometrist graduates. They were here to practice their lives. And so my life henceforth held on.

 

New things I discovered that those of who having had troubles with extra care must know how to overcome. And new discovery must learn how to cope with the problems in the future. And I learned each of trials or problems may come must confront of all details. And I fell in love looking one intern who was my one of my type. But I didn’t mind to fall in love. Because it gave me a new inspiration. And a new inspiration came to build my character. Those things in life were about to unfold the new secrets of love life.

 

So the nutrition month came finally over. I’ve enjoyed the feeling of being youth again. My boss turned good friend of mine. He was able to know my feelings and my inner strength. I’ve must confronted all the details that my mom didn’t know. The negative came from my mom’s aura. But my positive aura came bigger and bigger. And so to tell you my story, before the vacation nulled me thinking right now, the month of August also came. It swept my thoughts at the back of my head that the livelihood project I was working on failed to my own hands. But I learned the lessons that I must strived back with my own hands. And my boss was right that I’ve had to move on. But the typhoon swept all the problems came in. As we started to rebuild new school ground, we relocated new higher facility and bigger spaces to fill in. But the problem came in.

 

As the month of September 2013 came in, we handled our first language of the month (buwan ng wika) supposed to held last month of August. If the typhoon didn’t persisting to trouble with us, then the language of the month didn’t have to occur. The event was successful. Some kid won in the competition and some kid won the hearts in the audience. It really captivated the hearts of many students participated in the event. It was a brilliant idea. But the fact 13th of September came in, I felt I didn’t want to leave the kids alone with someone they really wanted to keep with. I never said that I won’t come back. But I promised that I would go back. As you promised one word, you kept it from your actions. If it failed, you were a failure. But failure sometimes took granted to rebuild the trust.

 

I went to Toronto attending my sister’s wedding with my family. And it was my first time in my life I felt I didn’t sleep the whole trip. I was scared of a whole trip might falling down like a turbulence in the movie. So I felt right from my shoes and my feet. I felt scared. But God alone never leaves us. He kept me awake instead and enjoyed watching movies. I also played some of tetris game. But the fact I’ve enjoyed, I’ve finished 6 movies in my first trip going to Toronto. My sister’s wedding was beautiful. She was dressed like a beautiful princess. And my new brother came to welcome to our new family, my sister’s husband. So I was happy to meet new family. When will I have my own family? When it will stop that my mom would nagging me all the time? But hey, I was blessed to have with them on my life. Then on the way back to the Philippines, I’ve also finished 7 movies and played a little game of tetris.

 

On the way back to the Philippines after the storm finished before we came in the territory of Philippines, I was happy to see the students again. I was happy and turned to be a responsible adult. And being part as a special adult, a lot of things turned good and bad news came in. The bad news was when the preschool teacher left us without a notice. But I continued to communicate with her until now. And the good news that I became a full-time assistant teacher in the school being also part in the morning classes with the preschool kids. The kids were happy to see me again.

 

When the September was over, the October came surprisingly knocking to my new blessing – attending a children’s party who someone in DSAPI praised me as well. Her daughter turned one year old. And I met new parents again who also have special child with Down syndrome. I felt blessing to them. Meeting new parents and a special child felt the same way I was raised by own special parents. Then one special education teacher came over at the start of the month of November, a friend of special education teacher who came from one school they attended the same school. It gave me something that knocked to my senses.

 

After hearing the truth when my boss was asking me that I’ve had a crush to the special education teacher, it was then pushing to my limitations that I must forget my ex-girlfriend. Having going back with my ex-girlfriend was already hard to push on because she was engaging to married someone else. So the December’s Christmas party came over. The Christmas party was success event. And from at the back of my mind played a lot of imaginations before the 2014 came over. The new life succeeded to me that I’ve had a new job – being as an assistant teacher on my fourth job in my resume. And I was happy that I’ve had regular job already, my first one.

 

2014 came over at the start of January. It was then I realized that something intuition came again for me. I didn’t mind noticing it. But I was afraid to sense it again. But I forgot how to praise myself having with a regular job. Then the troubles came on the month of February 2014. After my parents heard that I’ve had getting a salary from my regular job, the intuition was right. It was my mistake but new lessons that I learned. I stopped from being what it took from my job. I was afraid to let it go and wanted continuing my mission with the students wanting to see me happy again.

 

The month of March came in, my emotions came and ate my pride. I didn’t know what happened to me. It started to crumble like a rock falling from the mountain or something it never did happening to my life. It was then my intuitions came over. As I sensed it, the ESP or Extra Sensory Projection (sixth sense) has learned throughout my predictions. Before the retreat was going to start soon, I’ve stopped working with them on my final day on 24th of March. From my conscience, I didn’t want to leave them alone but to prosper with my blessings on them. My mom talked about negative things again. She always wanted to have bringing negative things all the time. It was then that I’ve repelled her negatives into positive notes.

 

The time I’ve stopped working with my load provider before, my mom scrutinized and if the load business crumbled, where will I get the money always spending to sell the cellphone loads of them. I’ve to repelling them. So I thought my positive notes came true. This was the basic truth. Being having with positive life must learn the conscience the truth of positive notes. After I went through all the problems, no negative thoughts would allow entering at the back of my head. It was then I never hesitated. I stopped hesitating. And I didn’t want believing the negative thoughts.”

 

This was the tale of assistant teacher part 2. It covered the whole story from Assistant’s desk to Assistant’s corner: Going back around. The additions to the story I’ve added have come to seal the words that I brought it up. Lesson number one is never treat negative thoughts at the back of your head. Lesson number two allows you to remember your good deeds, positive mind and fills your hopes and answers. What will you do if you’ve encounter the same fate that I’ve? Don’t treat the negative. Allow positive flowing to your energy chakra.

 

The second part of conclusion was brought to the end. “Don’t be afraid of your future is awaiting for you, but allow them to come over for you to experience and endure the problems. Let the future handle you and the prosper won’t hurt you but you learn the blessings come knocking to your heart. Remember this as you guide your life alone in the way of beautiful life.

 

Conclusion article post:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/04/08/assistants-corner-the-tale-of-assistant-teacher/

 

Previous Assistant’s corner article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/31/assistants-corner-going-back-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/26/assistants-corner-when-it-comes-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/23/assistants-corner-the-beginning-of-new-life/

 

Previous Assistant’s desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/10/assistants-desk-new-life-has-blossom/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/01/11/assistants-desk-friends-forever/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/25/assistants-desk-last-christmas-party/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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Discrimination is always a number one enemy in our mind at the back of our head. It’s an unusual word for me although it lacks an information for those who haven’t heard from that word. Mongoloid is also a negative derogatory word. And other derogatory words, I would not mention anymore. Because it has deeper meaning to us also.

 

What we can do to change the world?

 

1. Stop using the word of Down syndrome kid. It’s an appropriate word. Use the words properly: person with Down syndrome, a child with Down syndrome and an adult with Down syndrome.

2. Create a small group, a small organization or a sibling support system. With this, you can change the community in a small occasion manner.

3. Start campaigning on your neighborhood with this kind of project.

 

These three small steps I’ve created at the back of my head will be my project in the coming months. And I will be changing the town into a greater town. So anyone could acknowledge that people with Down syndrome has more unique characteristic talent and flourishing more on their talents which they could be independent like me.

 

Understanding the child with Down syndrome has become part of the society. But growing up with them has also alarming in the society. Some people as it may seems, they don’t consider the person with Down syndrome to become part of them. Other people in other establishment or organization take part of their role, they are considering person with Down syndrome to be needed in the society. Take your action today and not tomorrow, because a fight for the rights of people with Down syndrome have no fear because they are no barriers anymore. For me, it would also take part of new role in the society – moving forward in positive world.

~Status message in facebook, March 28, Friday, 9:32 p.m.

 

Finding a new words for your right decision of your little brighter ideas will make a change in your neighborhood. Small group, perhaps, can make a change. Or it should start somewhere else with some schools around the town. And I believe there are more seven special schools around the town here in our area. I don’t have specialization career here. But being as an advocacy drives me to get a higher role – is to become a role model. I may be not a perfect leader, but I can be a follower to anyone who can manage to listen at my good sides. I may be not a perfect writer, but more than words can attract more parents to read about this article. Campaigning is not also easy as it may seems to look. But rather, I’m focusing more in this small country we have here in the Philippines.

 

Two years until now, I became an active member here in the Philippines’ Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI. Showing my guilt in the past became lesser and lesser as I continued flourishing myself in positivity sides of the world. Changing might be good. But starting from the point will change higher if I continue spreading the good news.

 

I’ve been also in denial stage before. But I continue bringing more good news from my stories. In this imperfect world we have now are our guidance to improve more to ourselves. Starting from our special parents who helped us to grow stronger, we also know how to care of ourselves. In this journey of my story, I will still continue to bless my story.

 

No greater success comes from a little story. But a greater story comes with a positive side at the back of our mind. Greater care, greater patience, greater unconditional love and greater guidance have more flourishing from the special parents to take care of us. I am even blessed that I still have grandparents on my side. Continuing to bless sharing my story is my honor. Spread about all the love I take to you.

 

Fights for the rights: Changing in denial stage to acceptance stage to fighting stage

Fighting stage

We always have to be sensitive every time there is an issue against anyone who wants what is right and what is wrong. Tell them that they are wrong. I’ve been in denial stage before. Now I accepted the things that it was no going back to the place I was before. Looking forward to the future is always what we are going for. Honestly, there are many ways to stop the discrimination around the nation. And within the nation must comply honoring these special children with their capabilities they are unique and creative.

 

Look for this example, one of the best fighters is Michael Phelps. He is diagnosed as ADHD. All of his competitors are already on their best. But Michael is not still finished yet. He continued to fight for his freedom. What is freedom? Michael has freedom to express his nature despite he has ADHD. But he is no longer labeling him having ADHD, he has to live normally what we are. Like Michael Phelps, there’s Enchong Dee. Enchong Dee was a swimmer before. And he is already an actor in this generation. Stopping them is not an option, but to fight for their own good.

 

In my field, I may have an option, looking forward without turning back anymore and not stopping where I am going to my success. That is the fighting spirit, the fighting stage we are also known for our capabilities. We are unique. We are creative. We emphasize the world we are looking for the brighter future. And there is no tomorrow. Because fighting for your own child might change the society in a better world.

 

What are your concerns for your special child with Down syndrome?

There are many types of your concerns with your special child with Down syndrome. Like in my case, my parents said that I don’t have to worry for my heart problems. But I’m worrying about my health issues. Lesser to think at the back of my head only can make having problems with pulmonary, pneumonia and other health issues also.

 

Taking care of your special child with Down syndrome has many types of heart problems. Before turning to one year old, have your special child to go to the pediatrician or to your family doctor. Consult if there has an issues. With heart problems, parents should worry about their special child despite what they are having problems. Take a good look, God give you a special child. Does have you to be worry? He sees you to take care of special child He has given to you. The kingdom has pass down every special child in each family. But looking forward with positive attitude, you will always have to say bye-bye issues already.

 

Have you read the previous articles of No labels as Down syndrome?

If you haven’t read some article of No labels as Down syndrome series, there are two more previous articles will take you to read in this articles below:

 

No labels as Down syndrome

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/01/28/no-labels-as-down-syndrome/

No labels as Down syndrome: Conquering the new fear

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/16/no-labels-as-down-syndrome-conquering-the-new-fear/

 

The signs of Down syndrome:

Hyper mobility

What is hyper mobility? Have you check his or her legs and arms? Children with Down syndrome have flexible arms and legs that can stretch than normal people except for talented ballet dancers. When they are starting to flex their muscles in their arms and legs, try to reduce their stretching arms and legs by doing some stitched pants and stitched arm supporters. In this way, it will lower their flexibility.

 

Hyperthyroidism

What is hyperthyroidism? Normally, children and adults with Down syndrome will eat their infinite eating habits. As it grows, their muscles in their body will become an issue among us. Like doing a physical exercise and eat a right amount of diet will slower their appetite. If you start to an earlier age of months, try to discipline your special child with Down syndrome. If not, try to consult to a pediatrician what it will can do to your child with special needs.

 

First toe finger to second toe finger

Normally, a child or an adult with Down syndrome has their unique characteristics other than who’s also has Down syndrome. To mention that their first toe finger is slightly far a bit from their second toe finger. That is one of the characteristics of being having Down syndrome. You cannot change the fact that they could change. But to accept their condition, you also have be a role model as a parent to take care of your special child with Down syndrome.

 

Slant face, short nose, wide tongue, unsized ears, height

What are the other characteristics of Down syndrome? Normally some of those who have not all have slant faces, short noses, wide tongues, unsized ears (meaning their both ears are not the same height) and height, they are already characterized as Down syndrome. Like in my case, I don’t have slant face and short nose. But I do have a wide tongue and unsized ears. Unsized ears are usually have not the same height in different angles.

 

Therapies:

1. Physical therapy

At the earlier age, I started at 2 years old by sending me to the physical therapist during the early 1980’s. Many doctors don’t know how to prepare their medications towards among us, children and adult with Down syndrome. I was diagnosed with mosaic Down syndrome, trisomy 21 chromosomes.

 

In my early age of 2, I sent to the school to have physical therapy. But it was quite that I didn’t remember very well. But that was another story. Sending to your therapist of your special child with Down syndrome as earlier as 4 or maybe 6 months, babies should start crawling by now if I am correct or not. If this didn’t work with you, consult a pediatrician and a doctor to get a results from them.

 

2. Speech therapy

During my those days I was having troubling to speak directly from my mouth, I wasn’t handling my speech during my childhood days. Some of my schoolmates were bullying because of my speech. I may have had a condition, but I was recovering through all manifesting years. Speech therapy is the most important therapy. Having your special child with Down syndrome take to the speech therapist. The therapist would welcome you a happy child. Because normally with those Down syndrome, we always have to be happy all the time.

 

In my condition, I was sent to a therapist when I was a child. Normally, I didn’t know all the troubles my mother would sending me to the therapist. So one hour packed filling with the therapist, the child should nourish their lessons to be learned in one-hour session. And to regret for the days I didn’t remember, it was time to let it go for me when I’ve entered the high school because I’ve had to learn on my own. After college, I still didn’t know how to write the sentence properly. After taking up the certificate in call center training last March 2012, I’ve ended up working in a special school being as an assistant teacher who assisted among special children with special needs last June 2013.

 

3. Occupational therapy

Behavior is always the main problem when reaching to your special child with Down syndrome. Sending your special child with Down syndrome to the therapist would fit to change the results.

 

In earlier age of 2, physical therapy and occupational therapy were the most improved therapy that would’ve done me today. It took me one year as I heard from my mom. But I learned from my mom. And mom knows best.

 

4. Vision therapy

Checking your special child with Down syndrome to the optometrist has a bit problem although I also have undergone too when I was entering the school before fourth grade. Seeing is hard to see what is blurry to your mind. To check the condition, consult first to the pediatrician if the special child with Down syndrome has problems in eye vision. Today, there’s already a vision therapy, a new therapy that was introduced to the world. Not only the children with special needs will benefit this but also the adults with special needs also will benefit this. If your neighbor, your brother, your sister, your parents, your relative or to your friend might have eye vision problem. Try consult with a vision therapist just in case you need a help.

 

5. Audio therapy

Your special child might having a problem with their hearing despite of all noises. Did you that the more decibels you are hearing might cause a little problem? Did you know that the fourth pollution was noise pollution? Sending your special child to the doctor will help you to determine if it’s having problem with hearing problems. To indicate if it causes, try to consult to a pediatrician if they allow your child send to the audio laboratory.

 

The most powerful tool we can allow to change the world is to show them our showcasing talent we have. Or the livelihood project that starts with all. Or to test the life skills we can show to the world. With this knowledge, people with Down syndrome will be flourishing their life to share their story in the world where you will go.

 

No barriers: The livelihood project, the life skills, the talents

 

The livelihood project

What is livelihood project? Livelihood project is based to your special child with special needs that is more likely to help your child to increase their skill and talent. If they learn very well, they could earn through selling some of their skilled efforts. For example, your special child learned how to bake the cookie and eventually sold them in a quantity. The community in their role would understand the benefit for the children to grow independently.

 

I was given a chance to run a business which my mom gave me a cellphone loading business. The loading business I am still doing running up to the present since June 2006. Creating your special child or special adult with this kind of livelihood project will giving an opportunity your child be given to work in a community.

 

The life skills

What are the life skills? Life skills are basically types of what you can do around your house. It can also take part in the community where your special child will learn new life skill. Like doing a household chore is already a life skill. Practicing your special child at home doing some household chores will increase the special child to motivate on their own independent. Increasing your special child with special needs about the things to learn around the house should know how to take care of themselves. Like having difficult making a bed neat and clean or the room has been filled with mess, practice your special child to take care of their own living life. Teach them how to take care of the bed, how to take care of their little brother or little sister, of teach them how to grow up how to be a good special adult someday. But teaching a special teen with special needs how to drive, that is another story. Take a good look around the community and tell me what’s their story all about.

 

The talents

The talents vary on one thing – their passion to carry throughout their life. If your special child is good at sports, send him or her to the nearest community where your special child is already learning their talent in running, swimming or any sports they could do. If your special child is very talented in singing, send the child in music ministry in the church, or in music therapy. Your special child will learn eventually things are going well in the community. But if your special child is well talented in other things, let them grow, teach them how to enhance it, encourage them to a positive mind, and grow positively through their hearts. Your passion is to support your special child to grow to their potential talent.

 

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The day swiftly made my debut running to my old form and it was my first time I joined in the fun run led by Ateneo’s No Speed Limit. For the first time of my life, I spent myself not indulging in computers but to health and fitness day. And I was satisfied. To tell the truth, I always spent my adulthood in computers. And as if there was no tomorrow for me, I’ve always asked myself if I can do it in my running shoes.

 

Front jersey: 3k

Front jersey: 3k

Back jersey: 3k

Back jersey: 3k

 

When I firstly knew about the Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines two years ago, then it was my fate to change my fitness for a good change. I didn’t know what I looked like if I go back to my old form when I was in younger age. But I did. The fact I minimized my body 34 pounds now, it was a difficult to turn the table back to a form age. I barely could not reach on this. Although my numbers for this year might be slow my pace back to my weight.

 

Last year I trimmed down my weight from 180 pounds above to cut it 31 pounds. And I made it to make my body fitted in my coat and tie in my sister’s wedding in Toronto. And all of my relatives was shocking to see that I was cutting my image from my body before. My role has becoming more wider and wider as I am going to change my world to look fitness more.

 

When I joined Special Olympics team last month, I met Ms. Kaye through facebook social network. It was a fate when I firstly knew DSAPI also two years ago, the same time I knew also in facebook platform. Well, I was merely shy back then. But when first things first came out at the back of my head thinking if I was shy right now, I knew some names in the Special Olympics team. And so my shyness becomes no worries for me no more.

 

I firstly thought I could be a shy. But at the back of my head simply is not resisting me at all. I saw thousand of dreams I could catch from my subconscious mind telling me if I could still follow my greatest or wildest dream to get in the entertainment world. But the real world has changing me now, for real. I was not intimidating myself anymore. In fact, I even more challenge myself into greatest roles – to become a role model instead going to the entertainment world.

 

If I know more dream I could reach is to believe myself within myself also. Whether you have impossible things you could ever imagine will turn into possible things. You realize how important your vital role is. Or how you could put yourself into a good position. If I do that, I would not imagine myself changing myself in the future.

 

The first run to 3 kilometers I ran up to this day made me to realize that I could still catch for my fitness. And yesterday was a good deal. I only ate two meals yesterday which it was oatmeal in the morning and chicken at the end of the day serving me as my dinner. And up to now, my diet was changing to a pace. I am more beginning to strict myself not to eat in six days about more than a meat in six days. Chicken, of course, is also considering a meat. Because it is poultry meat, the fourth cholesterol in a food pyramid which it consists chicken skin as a fat.

 

As I always made my mind changing my views from my culinary days, it was beginning for almost one year having myself in a diet period. My diet has started last the first day of April 2013. And up to now, I almost gave up my eating habits not to eat meat but it is also hard not to eat meat. I only now eat meat thrice a week. All of my days are changing as my habit turning into a vegetarian mode. Once the month of March will start occasionally of Ash Wednesday, the vegetarian mode will be turning soon.

 

The lessons here are simple. Eat a right amount in your body not too many in a day but to eat moderate in right time of the day. Eat breakfast, the important meal of the day. Once you put in your diet at the end of the dinner time, you could eat less in the evening. The hard it will digest you will be hard for you to make up to minimize your weight is. Don’t get frustrated on your diet. Take a time to spend looking yourself in the weight loss program. Always be conscious by looking your weight in a weight tool. And remind yourself so you could discipline your diet is.

 

Right now, my ultimate goal is a STEWARD. What is STEWARD? S is for Sunshine, TE is for Tiring Exercise, W is for Water, A is for Air, R is for Rest and D is for Diet. The more you discipline yourself in weight is the more you could minimize your weight down and helps you to realize how value your life is. And also put the number one vitamin in your body is a happiness.

 

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If there was no success, there was no overnight of dreaming for success.

 

This is a year-end special article all about me from the beginning of 2013 until this month of December. What can you do for success if you can do for your hardworking? Yes, then you have to believe in yourself and not anybody could replace but your story as well is deserving more.

 

Let me rewind you to the past of January 2013 where I tell my story:

 

Starting from January 2013:

Applying requirements, joining advocacy in special education

 

This month was my success getting my second NBI clearance for my future employment. But I was planning to think which job would prefer to get me on the first place. Should I continue get a career ahead for call center career? Or should I continue where I start in my culinary career? My place for a job seeking opportunities was ahead for me already. But to think of it at the back of my head, I should scratch for all job descriptions: animator, writer, chef / cook, call center or entertainment industry. There were all my opportunities which one I should prefer.

 

After two weeks of January, my parents forced to apply for my passport alone. And so I did applying for passport applications. But the requirements narrowed down to my plans: NBI clearance, police clearance and passport. All of my validation identifications were been shown off for my next plan: get a job ahead before going to Toronto in September.

 

I did all my requirements doing my job applications. But the questionable was getting where I should start. So I joined supporting Angels Walk 2013, where I also joined the side of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI, where a thousand of autism groups and various schools also have joined the said event in Mall of Asia, Music Hall in Pasay City. This was the 24th Angels Walk for ASP or Autism Society of the Philippines who parents, educators, students and thousand of autism angels were there for the said event. And I was happy supporting for their group.

 

All of my happiness poured down my promising career: writing while getting a job or writing when I’m already in success.

 

February 2013:

2nd Happy Walk, celebrating month, Philippines’ Down syndrome awareness

 

This month was also my big celebration and my promising birthdays to come in many years. So to said, but it was also an excitement for every words I will write. But the success wasn’t over. So I joined the 21st Happy Walk in The Block, SM North EDSA in Quezon City of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI awareness event.

 

My blessings poured down to my birthday month, my birth month of February. I still clearly remembered when Pope John Paul II came to Manila for the first time 32 years ago. I was born on 19th of February, the day when Pope John Paul II was having a mass in Quezon Memorial Center, Quezon City. So the history said it was from February 17-21 when Pope John Paul II’s visit in Manila. So that explained how the world was looking for Pope John Paul II for his papal sainthood.

 

And it was also for Philippines’ Down syndrome awareness event for the whole nation. My dad first joined with me last year in 20th Happy Walk on the day of my birthday, 19th of February which it was introduced me to a few parents. And I met the couple, the children and their son with Down syndrome which it was the Lapena family. It was my first experience meeting with someone like me like Jeremy was, And I was happy that I joined the DSAPI family.

 

March 2013:

Applying for 1st PWD identification card, 3rd prom, meeting the showman of GMA channel

 

This was also the third month of my success. March has explained my various blessings I’ve done so far for this year of 2013. Because this was my first official that I’ve had my first PWD identification card or Persons With Disability. But that was when I’ve applied on 19th of March, a month after of my birthday. I chose the date because it was my first time applying for my PWD id.

 

Then it came before the application of PWD identification card was my third experience of prom date. And it was my first experience for having date with someone else and not from my relatives whom I really have had a good time. Guess what whom I dated with? It was Antonio and Juan Luna’s great granddaughter whom I dated with. And I was lucky to have date the famous Luna in the Philippines history. What I have to tell that I need to say? It was the best experience of prom date in my life.

 

And the first celebrity that I saw this year was none other of a famous showman in GMA channel, German Moreno. Kuya Germs when they said a name to him. And it was my pleasure to meet a person from a different channel. Because I was glued watching all ABS-CBN shows from morning to evening. But I didn’t notice that I can do it. And so my experience having a picture with him was a pleasure for me.

 

April-May 2013:

Depression looking for a job, first relationship, watched Nick Vujicic, looking for a job

 

This months of April and May of 2013 was a depression months for me. All I thought at the back of my head was either looking for a girlfriend or a job description unable to look for. But the words scripted from at the back of my head has said to me, “when can I start working so soon, so I could have a relationship with somebody else I really want to date with?” It was my first thoughts that crossed at the back of my head and without even noticing it, I looked depressed for a whole month.

 

After a month, I came to visit Rico Yan for a fourth time last 5th of May. Then it came upon that I met my first fling relationship with someone else. Two girls that I met. One of them was a former special education teacher and one of them was a housemaid who was working for taking care of a child and look taking care of the house. It crossed at the back of my head that I was first to say I’ve accepted her for having relationship with someone else. And she was the first person who asked my hand to have relationship with her. It is normally for a guy who is asking for a relationship to a girl. But the opposite came upon the two worlds between of us.

 

My ex-girlfriend and I were only lasted eight (8) days of relationship. And I was formerly taking off my relationship with her. But my heart felt for her so sorry. But at the end of the day, on the 20th of May, I watched Nick Vujicic’s concert also in Mall of Asia, Music Hall in Pasay City. It was my pleasure to have experience watching someone who was also have a disability. Nick Vujicic was born without limbs of arms and legs. And I have had my third inspiration coming from him.

 

Then after a day that my ex-girlfriend was formally underestimated in our relationship, I went anywhere near our village looking for a job. So I went for my first walk-in job inside of Cainta Greenpark Village that was also near my home in Cainta. And the interview wasn’t my first. But I did passing my first application resume to the employer. But my intentions came crossing thrice at the back of my head. I should also applied to other opportunities: writer in newspaper, call center job and entertainment industry job where I went to Megamall on 23rd of May. I sent many job applications to various employers from newspaper jobs, call center jobs and entertainment industry jobs as well.

 

Fews day after on 27th of May, the call was unexpected I’ve answered from my cellphone around 11 in the morning. The secretary have said that I have to come around 1 in the afternoon. So I changed myself in a better suit of applying a job. When I met two of my bosses before, I was nervous and feeling annoying on my first interview of the year. Then around after 15 to 20 minutes of waiting, one of two bosses interviewed me and I passed the interview evaluation.

 

For continuation of Year-End Special: Story about success, love life and work in a next article, there will be a set of month stories to unfold for a second part of Year-End Special: Story about success, love life and work.

 

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They were unknown celebrities everywhere I go. Once I step on the entertainment industry, it must be my calling for me to get in. Maybe that was why I’ve had several pictures I saw from them.

 

One from GMA channel I saw, before when my grandparents’ had celebrating their 65th anniversary last March 30, 2013, was none other than German Moreno. German Moreno I knew in my life. I’ve watched his That’s Entertainment television show before. I was glued watching too many shows when I was a kid.

 

Celebrities of 2013

Celebrities of 2013

 

The only celebrities I’ve remembered from That’s Entertainment was from Monday group: Francis Magalona, Lotlot de Leon, Isabel Granada, Ruffa Gutierrez, Aiko Melendez, Carmina Villaroel, Ian Veneracion, Isko Moreno and Assunta de Rossi; from Tuesday group: Rita Avila, Billy Joe Crawford, Donna Cruz, Jean Garcia, Maricar de Mesa, Ara Mina, Dingdong Avanzado, Jessa Zaragoza, Janno Gibbs, Manilyn Reynes, Ana Roces, Judy Ann Santos and Gladys Reyes; from Wednesday group: Rachel Alejandro, Jojo Alejar, Sharmaine Arnaiz, Sheryl Cruz, Sunshine Cruz, Karla Estrada, Jennifer Mendoza and Romnick Sarmienta; from Thursday group: Harlene Bautista (sister of Herbert Bautista), Keempee de Leon, Vina Morales, Lea Salonga, Smokey Manoloto and Jennifer Sevilla; and from Friday group: Sunshine Dizon, Kier Legaspi, Glydel Mercado, Kristine Paner, Donita Rose and Cris Villanueva. They were only 42 celebrities I knew from That’s Entertainment and the rest of the cast of That’s Entertainment. I didn’t know much of some their fame in the entertainment industry.

 

Only the remaining names I knew in the entertainment industry were Francis Magalona who died from Leukemia in March 6, 2009, Ruffa Gutierrez, Carmina Villaroel, Assunta de Rossi, Billy Crawford, Ara Mina, Janno Gibbs, Judy Ann Santos, Gladys Reyes, Karla Estrada, Vina Morales and Donita Rose. They were those celebrities I knew that was still in the entertainment industry. If you are correct and I am wrong, just state the reason why I should put their name here that is still active in the entertainment industry.

 

Also Leo Martinez I also saw from my glimpse. It was one early morning around 6:30 am. Leo dropped and parked his car near the tricycle terminal in Cainta Greenpark Village where I was cleaning the school premises.

 

And other celebrities like Angel Aquino, Xyriel Manabat, Sofia Millares and Ina Feleo I had seen in this year of 2013.

 

I saw Angel Aquino twice already but I didn’t have a chance to get glimpse picturing with her. It was long time ago when I first saw her in Southwoods hosting some of an event. Sofia and Xyriel visited the Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines for their guest appearances that DSAPI invited them to come for their numbers. But I got a chance to have picture with them also.

 

The only celebrities that I didn’t have pictures were Angel Aquino and Ina Feleo. Once in a blue moon, those celebrities came into my eyes. And I said to myself, “they were too many celebrities I saw this year of 2013. But sometimes it is a calling for me when will I enter the entertainment industry.

 

Then again, I’ve ask myself again, “when will the light of entertainment industry will come to me? Is this a calling to me?” I’ve asked too many questions every day at the front of the mirror. Setting aside from photographer, an artist, a writer, a dancer and an entrepreneur from my everyday I always do, there are many chances that I will get to enter the entertainment industry. And one question is when?

 

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I appreciate my life today whole-heartedly as well. But consuming my time writing down of an article sometimes I often thinking at the back of my head, what will happen for me incoming new year of 2014? Is it possible to do your dreams when you are in the right track? What can I do next? My life today is being as an assistant teacher. And there’s a new special education teacher as well in the class. But I am going to say that there are more people who are willing to teach us in a real world also.

 

With my loading cellphone business on my back, my other option for opening business as well is also my concern regarding to my work. I don’t know if it will conflict my schedule next year. But I have to know and work it well starting in January 2014.

 

The plans are starting to open so soon. My greater opportunities are starting to pay me well next year. And that will be opening a new job details in my job position as well. I’m putting to make a banner for Angels Walk 2014 and Happy Walk 2014 in January and February respectively.

 

A new book sometimes opens for a new possibilities in life. When you say a new book, begin a new life and open a new discovery early next year.

 

Angels Walk 2014 will begin in SM Mall of Asia music hall on January 19, 2014, Sunday morning. The Angels Walk only participates in the morning from 8 am to 12 pm. And I am sure there are more to come years that I will support the Angels Walk. Because when a person starts to invite me, my opportunity will grab instantly to support and to share the secret story in life also. And why is it called an Angels Walk? It’s because you have to ‘Be An Angel for Autism.

 

Happy Walk 2014 will also begin next year on February 23, 2014, also on Sunday morning to afternoon that sets a schedule in a daytime program set by the organizers. Happy Walk is a walk for those who has Down syndrome. And why is it called a Happy Walk? It’s because you have to ‘Step Up For Down.

 

Both Angels Walk and Happy Walk does to do it every year. Angels Walk is from Autism Society Philippines who celebrates 25 years already in the Philippines history. And Happy Walk is from Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines who celebrates 22 years already. DSAPI started way back on 1992 but the ASP started earlier on 1989.

 

I have no motto already today, because there are numerous times already that I posted a lot of quotes for being having posting a motto in quotes. Mottos are also being written in quotes. Whatever I do, I begin a new life and open a new discovery.

 

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Digest Your Mind

It’s okay to be simple, but you have to take another level in greater heights. When you complete the trials, you may create another one and challenge yourself in another trials.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

The list I’ve done so far this year is compared to last year’s success stories. Let’s go back and rewind what I’ve done from last year to this present year:

 

Number 1 (Introduction to Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI)

 

I was not aware in the past without thinking at the back of my head some kids and adults have Down syndrome, just like me. But the symbol I’ve joined in DSAPI was a best choice to participate. And it was impressive that some of a blessings have come good so far. This was dated back from February 15, 2012 when someone introduced me to the organization. It was my distant relative’s friend who volunteered in Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines, Davao Chapter. And I’ve asked what event will be held next month. That was January 26, 2012 when I’ve asked her. Two weeks later I went to Free Medical Mission that held in SM Megamall, Clinica where I met Ate Agnes and her children Meimei and Jeremy. Her son Jeremy has Down syndrome, and so I have.

 

Number 2 (20th Happy Walk 2012)

 

After I went to free medical mission in Clinica, SM Megamall where I met Ate Agnes and her son Jeremy who has Down syndrome, I went for my first time to attend my first Happy Walk that was held in SM North EDSA in Skydome, February 19, 2012. During that event was my birthday, my dad and I went but my family in the house was having a party that I’ve shared with my brother. And my brother had invited his friends to come and enjoyed the rest of the night. That day fulfilled my excitement into full bars of happiness. I could not resisted that I was the happiest during that day. Eventually I slept sound much better.

 

Number 3 (Studio platform, facebook page and twitter)

 

I didn’t much attending more events last year which I was focusing on my rebooted business that come back for good. It was intentionally that I really held to my word when someone was helping in my cellphone loading business. And so the history tested me that much. Then I’ve eventually came back writing in blog platform which I’ve called the studio platform moving from blogspot to wordpress. After a long absence where I didn’t write in almost after 10 years back before in blogspot, I’ve finally came back, reformed and created the purpose writing in wordpress.com with the name of Itsmikki Studio. The studio was now one year, five months and fourteen days already. And now that I came back, it was written in different article platforms thus creating with many categories just like magazine or newspaper. The name of Itsmikki I’ve given to create had a meaning: “Inspiring The Society: My Infinite Keeper’s Key Inc.” The meaning was already an acronym where I rarely found interesting slogan for my studio name.

 

Itsmikki Studio started the studio form last March 16, 2012 but the original state of writing came back alive. The original writing that I’ve always write was literature. It sparked on December 10, 1998 during my junior year in high school. And eventually it came back for good as well. After few months have passed, I’ve created facebook page of Itsmikki Studio and launched on July 4, 2012. And it finally discovered the new place where countless articles to be shown on the page. After few days, the twitter account also announced the new launching date of Itsmikki Studio, July 14, 2012.

 

Number 4 (First short inspirational talk)

 

After a few months have passed, I’ve joined the first Early Intervention seminar last August 12, 2012. Then a month, I’ve also joined the Sexuality Seminar last September 16, 2012. Then it came pouring new events that I’ve joined. I’ve also joined my first experience Halloween party where Siblings Support Group held the event in Guadalupe last October 14, 2012.

 

And it came to my first experience having to guest talk in UST Albertus Magnus building, the Education building where few respective schools with special children, teachers and students from UST listened to my first short inspirational talk. It was November 19, 2012. And I was nervous during that time with a mixed emotions being having excitement and coolness in the UST campus. I’ve felt the presence being as an exceptional. I found in my life that I loved myself more better than the past. What it takes to be exceptional, sometimes it takes to break the barriers that I wasn’t alone in the world with special needs.

 

DYM or Digest Your Mind is a new section of Life: New Unveiled. More surprising articles under DYM will be coming in the future. My fellow consistent readers, new readers, followers and unexpected readers, just keep reading my articles. And I will take time to write more interesting articles in my studio platform.

 

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Why Down syndrome

Somewhat in 1985-1988 Passport Picture

Somewhat in 1985-1988 Passport Picture

What is Down syndrome? Normally the new parents are asking the same question why do they have their child have with Down syndrome. There are normally two copies of 21 chromosomes on each side, one copy from a male and one copy from a female. But the genetic studies, there are three copies of 21 chromosomes.

 

Well in this article, I will bring you one topic, not less or more subjects.

 

Why Down syndrome?

 

I may be living as a normal to everyone. But to tell you the truth, no one seems to know me that I also have Down syndrome. Three copies of Down syndrome. It was called mosaic trisomy 21 Down syndrome. And that’s where I begin to fight over my case in the past years. Because I was in denial stage that time. Now in the terms you didn’t notice, mosaic trisomy 21 Down syndrome is a slightly chances to have change through the years.

 

Pure trisomy 21 or full trisomy 21 is the presence of an extra number 21 chromosome, the error or misdivision of chromosomes occurs in the egg or sperm cell that becomes the zygote. Because this error was at the very beginning of development, every cell that comes from this zygote will have an extra number 21 chromosome.

 

Mosaic trisomy 21 is the error or misdivision occurs after fertilization at some point during early cell division. Because of this, people with mosaic Down syndrome have two cell lines – one with the normal chromosomes, and one with an extra number 21.”

(Researched in http://downsyndrome.about.com/od/whatcausesdownsyndrome/a/mosaic_ro.htm)

 

Little did I know in my life, I realized that I wasn’t a sophisticated one. I rather to be called also one of the living factor in this little world called earth. I may be not boasting you to tell you this, but I would like to share what I decide to write this article about me, my life with being Down syndrome.

 

It’s not a big deal to have being with Down syndrome. I’ve discovered when I was in sophomore year in high school. The science teacher pointed out that I have had the case of Down syndrome. Little did I know that I didn’t know back before. I was having a little dilemma if I really have being what it takes to have Down syndrome.

 

So I came home and told my parents if I really have had on it. And yes from their mouths, then the world somehow devoured on me. I didn’t know all the time. I was in sixth grade or maybe in fifth grade when I began shifting to recall my memories. My voice somehow changed me as well. But the copies of Down syndrome didn’t get on my way.

 

Upon entering my college years before, my world began shifting again. This time, I told my batch mates if they were really know what was really like to have a friend with Down syndrome. One batch to another batch, I found one batch that I could really stayed and graduated with them. One of them became my best friend.

 

After the years it really came to my life that I have to accepted who I was. Then I found one group who among the parents have their child or adult with Down syndrome. It was an instant change that I have to join. It was one of my best endeavors when I realized that I wasn’t alone all the while. Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI was already in 20 years of service.

 

I joined 20th Happy Walk last February 2012, the first Happy Walk I’ve ever joined. But the community there somehow I knew was little that time. But my eagerness to come out somehow changed me again. Well I’m sort of talkative. But not as always, I’ve always want to talk. There is a dilemma again.

 

Let’s forward for this topic today. I have a job today. After seven years and seven months searching the job database in the nation of Philippines, I realized that I was a high functional Down syndrome, according to what my boss told me about it. It may be weird for you to hear, but I am aware what would be your reactions look like. My jobs before was different before. I began all my three jobs only lasted two months. None of them kept me in their service. Was it because of being competitive in the first place? They should treated me as one of them, not as a different from others.

 

Living with being Down syndrome is not difficult to handle with. In the community where I joined, new parents came closer to me. They have had even congratulated me for what I was being accomplished as one of the different from others. After living in 32 years, I finally cried for who I was to be. And it was my first time I discovered that I have potential in my career. I may be not perfect one, but as a gifted one, who have potential career ahead of time. Wish I could have my long life in more coming years of life.

 

The community where I joined and the work where I worked were the only treasure circle of friends I really trusted. I have never doubt them to become my friends. I may have few friends who were closer to me, but they were really closer to me. Among them in the small crowd of big population of 95 million Filipinos around the nation were really nice to me. It was nice to write, but sooner I will bring more articles to enjoy you will be reading.

 

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The M word

The M word

The M word

There are many words in the world that you should not know to mention such as the N word in American countries, the R word also in America or in any countries as well and the bad habit of the M word for all over the world.

 

Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI talked about the past rumors of the M word. It was a ridiculous for most of the educated and uneducated people in the entire of the Philippines or in short of Filipinos. We, Filipinos, don”t want to hear such a horrible words. Bullying, in fact, was almost everywhere.

 

When I was a kid, I can hear some of my school mates or some of my classmates calling me the “sped” word. It means in English dictionary as “retarded.” Shame of those new words as well. But the time I grew up in high school, I learned that I have, in fact, as a down syndrome. Little did I know that the world needed to know a little lessons to be careful what you have to call your neighbors a bad names.

 

There are mostly discriminative cases in the world. Like bullying, for example, is mostly some of the cases in the school involved or in the public cases. In the Philippines alone, there are many homeless or they shall be called as the alien outsiders. They are many shanty homes in the wide areas in Manila, Quezon City and some of the places I know about. I didn’t know about this when I’ve graduated in college where I studied in culinary arts.

 

After I joined the organization a year ago last February 2012 in the event of DSAPI, the 20th Happy Walk. I celebrated my birthday during that day. I was enjoying the whole program from the start to finish. But I wish that my mom would join next time in 22nd Happy Walk next year in February 2014. I became a member last December 2012. And the rain of blessings poured me from last year to this year. I’ve enjoyed my stay in UST where I was a guest speaker for special education of hopeful graduates to become a special education teacher.

 

I, like myself, don’t have experience of much about of special education course in any kind of schools. But I’ve recently joined as a teacher where I’ve been working in Cainta Greenpark Village, Reaching Our Children for the King or R.O.C.K. Integrated School. Yesterday was my first day of work in the school. My strengths as a teacher would be in the field of Arts, Music, Science and History. But my highest attainment in my life was able to graduate in a certificate in culinary arts.

 

This wasn’t in my dream list to become a teacher. And as a teacher as well was a noble profession in any kind of jobs in the field as well. When you need to become one, you need a serious job. This is my small steps in success in my life today.

 

Back to the issue of the M word where you should not say to any kind of serious in-demand cases that sought in this generation. Pardon me for this back log cases. There were many cases before. I’ve heard from the E-Boy television series in ABS-CBN saying that the kid was calling the M word to another kid. But that was unjustly timed scripting from the scriptwriter. Excuse me, scriptwriter, next time you should be carefully what to use the exact word. And of course the R word or the A word also, don’t also include in the script.

 

There was also one case from Senator Miriam Defensor Santiago where she called politicians as the M word. Excuse me, madam, but you are not supposed to call the politicians the M word, the A word or the R word. It’s abusive behavior if you are speaking in the public television and the whole nation as well.

 

And the last offensive behavior came from the so-called social network, the Facebook. Excuse me, Mark Zuckerburg, but you are allowing these people not to use the abusive words such as the N word, the A word, the R word, the M word or any kind of abusive words that wasn’t allowed to use in the social platform network.

 

Last two weeks ago, the DSAPI organization again was gaining some noise from this situations. Don’t use the M word for your business. Excuse me, moderators of your business of Monggi Productions. Please allow me to shout the names of your business. The name you are using is outrageous beyond the borders already. The M word whether is spell in short cut names, or any kind of unfamiliar names are just impurity in our organization. Your business of your productions are not exempted in this society. The names who owned this company were Pepe Fernandez, Em Pong, Bern Rodil, Mykk You, Jessie Brian Nardo and Erik Lauron Cupino. Sorry to call out your names because your business is not exempted.

 

I am not sensitive as the others as well. But I was a victim before. And now, I become a victim again for your own cause. Drop your business. Or so God will forgive you if you arrange the name drop from your business. Your materials and your jobs are not exempted also because you are allowing yourself to use the name of the short cut names.

 

The Philippines government and the society should know about this. Don’t allow yourself others to be a victim about this. I, myself, was always a victim about this M word. When somebody was telling a story about “ngongo,” I’ve heard it was also an abusive behavior. Because I’ve passed the stage from there.

 

Allow me to say this. “Don’t do to others if you are not doing any good behavior to others as well.” Mainly because some of the uneducated and educated society should know about this example. If you are really sorry for your behavior, do it in an appropriate good manners and good conducts.

 

And for the last time, this world should know about this good example from this country of how many cases were not resolved in any kind of matters. As in, any means necessarily, don’t do anything bad manners.

Last week of summer

Dreams are sometimes hope. And hope is everlasting promise you would do for your own good. Well I finally got a new job that enlisting new description in my resume. Sometimes when I make a wish, I make a good wish if I could do my job very well.

 

In the past, my hopes to be chef literally gone. But my knowledge was still there. It wasn’t enough that I got experiences from my job description. As a chef before, a lot of pressure came into me. I mean – a whole lot. My relatives asked me if I can cook for them. But deeper inside of my thoughts, I never thought or crossed at the back of my mind that I would do that for them. I lack of executing. And executing means practicing. Where could you get a skills when you have already in your own skills?

 

I may be not intelligent as Brina Maxino. But my heart tells me something important more. In the past, I always told   myself that I could never done anything. I always want what I needed for most of the time – to be my own skills. And skills that I have, drawing, writing, singing (maybe), or doing a lot of activities. Maybe I was not so sure about multi-tasking before. I love my life. And life to me teaches how to control your activities and your lifestyle.

 

Brina Maxino was like me. But upon from her, she was a valedictorian in her class during her high school time. Now she is entering a college. I may be have accomplishments, but she have what it takes to be as a special child. I know sometimes that I don’t accept myself in the past. Hoping someday I would do something just like Brina. Maybe Brina and I could do anything for the accomplishments. But my milestones is getting ready to add some more blessings in my life.

 

Last year I’ve joined Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI. But before that year, I’ve already accepted the fact that I was different from the rest of the society – as a special adult. I have mosaic Down syndrome. And my age is already in my early 30’s. And so to hear Brina Maxino last year, I was amazed when I saw her the last 20th Happy Walk during my birthday on February 19, 2012. It was Sunday. And I’ve told my dad if he can invite some of his friends along side with me. Maybe just a little big change. I guess. But that is predictable. It can happen anytime.

 

Accomplishment to another accomplishment, I’ve done any particular accomplishment in my life from last year and to this year. Last December during Christmas party of DSAPI, I finally have had my first DSAPI ID. To tell you the truth honestly, it was something that my angels was telling me where I could find some good community just like this. Well, here what I got some more blessings to come.

 

To added from my accomplishments, it was my first time in my life that I’ve completed the paper requirements for getting a new job: barangay clearance, four certificates of TESDA training of call center agent and fundamental of computer applications, certificate of communication skills training program and a certificate in culinary, community tax certificate (or cedula), SSS, medical record and NBI clearance. My police clearance got an expiry ahead of time. It was only two months valid. And the results of making complete for my paper requirements. I already got a new job.

 

My new job was assisting special children in Reaching Our Children for the King or ROCK Integrated School where I landed my new job. Thanks for the effort that I already got my complete paper requirements. And added to my lessons in my life – never get a girlfriend when you are not ready. I lack precisely to get a girlfriend. And my first girlfriend was just a paper. She was my fling. My first girlfriend that I’ve ever had. It was only 8 days relationship. And it ended so soon. I wasn’t a type of a guy who would get to know dilly-dallying for the purposes to have a girlfriend. I never wanted that.

 

And of course, my journey as an assistant teacher became my part of new life. And I hope more blessings will come in my door and keep knocking if it’s real or not. Sometimes when a door you’ve answered, it was a fluke or a fake that is.

 

Life as a special adult makes me extraordinary person and I am always proud of who I am and what I am excel to my skills and my talents.” – quoted from Itsmikki Studio

 

What will be my life tells me next? Should I come to open the door? Or should I not to open the door? It always tell me some surprise questions just like in mock interview questions or critical thinking questions in contact centers. Hmm…but I like the new sound of my new job. And the new description for my new job will unlock more opportunities in the future. I’ve never dreamt to be as a teacher. But God places me to this type of job description. And I hope this opportunity will last for me. I’ve always be what I’m always aiming for – to be the best of who I am.

 

And my new song I’ve created last week was undeniably challenging me to memorize the lyrics I’ve made. Wish someone can sing that song for me. Maybe Dingdong Avanzado or Gary Valenciano would do the honor to sing for this song. It’s called, My Angels Do in Your Heart. That song is dedicated to the special children that included me in that song. I love the rhythm and the beat of the song I’ve create. I’ve been always humming to that tune. I don’t have piano or any instrument. But I can tell it will be a song for this generation. And I will get you a sample for the last lyrics of my song:

 

…what else my angels do in everyone’s heart.

 

I love the lyrics so much. I don’t know why I always keep humming and singing the song I’ve created. Maybe I have to re-edited or to play for the tune. Hmm…if I only have an instrument, I could play a better song for the cause  of special children. And I hope my foundation will get to this project of this song.

 

Oh, it’s taking me so long to write an article again. It is too long again. I fall in love again with writings. Oh, I love what to write and to write. More articles please? Sounds interesting. Yes, I will write soon again.

Blessings in life

I was born in the world being having with mosaic Down syndrome. But to tell you the truth honestly, it turn out that I am really a blessing that God sent me here. What’s all about me?

 

I am now at early 30’s. I’ve discovered that I have being with Down syndrome. Sixteen years have been passed when my biology teacher said that I was different from the rest of the class. At first, I didn’t know what to do. I became clueless and disoriented. So I came home and told my parents if I really could have the special condition. The day it became closer to me. I was always telling me if I really have that kind of case. My intelligence was being pushed and pushed as I considered one of my favorite subject was Science. Therefore, I learned the field of genetics where it falls in the branch of Science.

 

Genetics, according to the dictionary, is the science of hereditary, dealing with resemblances and differences or related organisms resulting from the interaction of their genes and the environment. (Reference: http://dictionary.reference.com)

 

And at the same time, I fell in my own hands determining that I couldn’t accept my fate being having with the special case I have. I have been 14 years to heal that I could accept myself. Although a long period of time couldn’t take to heal in own self, there was a time I couldn’t take my chances. And chances it was really hard to heal. One of my hardest regrets in my life was my decision to make. So in 14 years I couldn’t take hearing from the society that I am not belong to. It was a blessing. And my biggest achievement in my life was to accept my condition.

 

Two years ago when I finally accepted my decision to make was the hardest decision to let it go. And I guess being having with mosaic Down syndrome, I am a blessing disguised in heaven. With my doubts on me, sometimes I couldn’t take serious on my own. To tell you the truth honestly, my parents did all their best just to raise me well. And they did. I didn’t go to the physical therapy. But I did going in occupational therapy and speech therapy. My mom spent years for me to study in one of the speech therapists before. And I went a whole lot more before. Each time I wanted to remember, I asked my parents what was my condition before.

 

Speech therapy was one of the expenses my parents spent on me. And on part of that, occupational therapy was also that I considered also one of the expenses that my parents spent on me. Honestly I couldn’t remembered one bit of memory before. I have the longest long-term memory that I could remembered. But the thing was I also have short-term memory which I forgot my entire childhood memories. But whenever I asked from my classmates, my cousins and even from friends, they told me their stories about me.

 

In grade school, I’ve graduated in high colors graduating two times already. One was during my sixth grade before entering high school but I’ve ended up finishing seventh grade in the school in 1995. But the school have had still accepting me to study although I was the one and the last seventh grader in Montessori Integrated School of Antipolo. So I was the happiest student back then. And one was during seventh grade before going to high school in 1996. My biggest dreams back in elementary days was to become volcano photographer because I loved volcanoes very much until now. Although I have cellphone camera, I still want to earn more money to buy the expensive camera. It will be one of my blessings in life.

 

And in my high school life was entirely different from the elementary days. Before I became aware of my own self, I looked around to my classmates when I was in fifth grade. My heart have still the beat that I have a new crush back then. It was only the word of crush meaning, “the admiration in life.” And did you know that I was becoming aware in fifth grade? Now you know me already.

 

And of course when I was in high school prime years, the freshman year was challenging year for me although I didn’t take elective subjects as my teachers and my parents have agreed to. But I still have managed to attend the elective classes. Then of course, I also went up and down during my sophomore year. Some of my schoolmates thinking that I was a freak or maybe a word of “sped.” That word was already a derogatory word for me. Because the meaning of the word itself was translated to “retarded.” Around in junior year, I also discovered one of my talents before was writing. It was a blessing from the skies. And I enjoyed very much that year because of the junior prom who I dated my auntie, a year younger than me. And in my senior year was also my memorable moments in my life. I have said to my classmates and in my school if want to be an actor, I would still dreaming and hoping to be one in the future. It was one of my higher colors that was included blessings in life.

 

I may be graduated already in high school but the college was one of the hardest to cope to study on. Despite I chose culinary certificate course in Center for Culinary Arts in year of 2000 over the hotel and restaurant management diploma course in Montessori College. I got the passing grade in the other school with 88 but I chose to enter the culinary school with also the passing grade of 75. It was the hardest education in my life but still a blessing in life. I also finished in one of the pioneer culinary schools in the country which was the Center for Culinary Arts. I finished in three years in culinary but the course was 2 years course. To tell you the truth before entering in college, one of my dreams was to finish college. Because I believed some of you may not finishing college years in your life. And so I did my best. I studied and graduated in one of the pioneer culinary schools, the Center for the Culinary Arts. Although I moved four batches already, I have had and made some wonderful friends in college totaling numberless. It was a blessings in life.

 

After I graduated from the culinary school, it was a huge desperation to get the big check in my life – a salary. I was aiming for the salary raise. During that time, my family have had in financial crisis and my dad sold their family company on someone’s else – the car-making pipes industry. It was there already, but I believed it was a fate chance that gave me a wonderful life.

 

Before 10 years to this present, I was now a graduated jobless person thinking what job will fits for me. I was very choosy in terms of seeking a job. And so I ended up as a chef consultant which where I worked with my mother’s friend in front of the St. Jude nursing school in Sampaloc, Manila. And it only lasted two months. It was a desperation move for me although I’ve been hooked and addicted playing online games in the computer. But I give my chances to learn more in the future. And the second job I took was being a chef in Sacocina Catering where I worked in Robinsons’ Fairview in Teletech call center branch. Everyday I saw some of agents talking in English, none of them became unaware for me. Because all I know have to learn more in English language. Running later in 9 years, I gave my chances to train myself in call center training in Ortigas where I massively learned the basics of English language. I really wanted to learn so much in English language. It was one of the blessings in life I’ve received.

 

And at the time I knew about myself, two years ago when I stepped in one of my biggest regrets, joining the multi-level marketing or networking company where I joined at least one. One was enough for me and I learned and tired listening to the rich people screaming the derogatory word of “abnormal.” And so I claimed myself that I finally accepted who I belong and went back to my own feet again. Last year was full of blessings in life.

 

I named the categories that I was blessed about:

1. I’ve entered call center training because I wanted to learn more about the basics of English language. It was not that I really wanted to go in one of the exclusive call center jobs. It was that I really wanted to learn more of the basics.

2. I’ve joined the organization of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI where I learned that I wasn’t alone in the country being despite with Down syndrome in February 2012’s Happy Walk. That Happy Walk day was also my birthday.

3. My loading business paid off well in the charts and boosted my financial savings as well.

4. I’ve applied on my own applying for my first postal ID on September 2012.

5. My first short-inspirational speech talk have became part of my life and I was invited to talk in University of Santo Tomas (UST) on November 19, 2012, Monday morning.

6. I’ve applied in one of my first organization PWD ID which it was the DSAPI ID in December 2012’s DSAPI christmas party.

7. I’ve applied numerous applications in re-applying of NBI clearance and barangay clearance last January 2013.

8. I’ve applied my first PWD ID last March 2013.

 

It was all blessings in life. Although I am ready to go independently thinking if I could do it on my own, I am thinking to follow one of my biggest dreams – to become an actor in entertainment industry. If I do well in life, then I am ready to face the entertainment world. It was also thankful that I saw the wonderful movie of I Am Sam which it was about the father being having with Down syndrome and his normal daughter who never thought he could raise on his own.

 

Being having with my own self that I really love about is writing, drawing, acting if I could do it on my own and be part of the society also. I love being with myself. Without the blessings in life wouldn’t keep my ground off from the chart. But I am still looking for my dream board – to have my own house, to have my own business, to have family and to have helping other special children. And so if I do this on my wish list, I could far places such as Leyte, Bacolod, Cebu, Bohol, Davao and many parts of provinces of this country of the Philippines. I really love Philippines so much. And I love being with myself as a Filipino.

 

One of my biggest dreams now today is to become an actor if I could do it on my own earnings without a help from my parents. And I want to help my parents so much because they really raise me well. I decide to make it good in health and for the people I really care about.

Without a day to earn

In the past, I’ve really not thinking about the loading business. But as long as it goes in my life, there’s no easy business or work you’ve really get into. You finally have to understand the feeling being pocketless in your pocket. Why?

 

Sometimes I feel guilty inside my mind thinking about the things I’m really get into. But inside at the back of my head, it is something that I don’t want to get pass into. To have what’s inside sometimes I lead into wrong answers. Of course I felt guilty in the past. I’ve been running into circles in my whole life. I jump to another conclusion that I really don’t know the answer. Whenever what’s inside at the back of my head, maybe somehow I’m considering my whole life to consider what’s best for me.

 

After I’ve had graduated in college in Center for Culinary Arts (or CCA), things were around the circles. Working outside was really a difficult choice. Whenever what you got a job, it considered that was your biggest risk. My biggest risk that I had a choice was working in different places. I’ve considered my biggest fact was choosing culinary. I didn’t listen to my own opinions. My opinions were to choose University of the Philippines or University of Santo Tomas. But none of them failed in my own hands. Because I wasn’t to educate myself to enroll in highest universities in the country. It was my mom if I didn’t have to pass. But she was right. Choosing culinary certificate over theatre arts in UP or music arts in UST was worth to pass in my level.

 

But it became one of my facts that I dealt the wrong feelings, a doubt. Yes sometimes, we allow to doubt to ourselves. It doesn’t really considering me the fact I was really enjoying the culinary years. I met a wonderful chef instructors and have met their expectations. Sometimes I felt the guilt inside my feelings. After I’ve graduated in culinary years, my first job I’ve landed was a chef consultant and chef assistant to my mom’s friend. It considered my biggest break, but it only lasted two months in front of St. Jude Nursing School at Sampaloc, Manila. During that time, I was addicted playing online games. In fact, I lost my effort and time to choose my decisions being as a chef.

 

Whenever I have another job, there was always a question at the back of my head. It was a doubt again. But I’ve never stood of my feelings were. My second job I’ve landed was working in Sacocina Catering owned by Ignacio family. It wasn’t a perfect job for me. But I stood for my feelings in my work. So I’ve worked in my second job for only three months. It was dealing me between my feelings and the job itself. But then, she have said to me that this job wasn’t meant for me. Maybe she was right. In fact, I was already quitting culinary at the top of my depression years. It was during 2005.

 

Upon that, maybe it felt my feelings crossing in my veins and at the back of my head thinking if I was doing right decisions. I’ve quitted culinary years for almost 8 years being not practicing my culinary skills. But my culinary knowledge haven’t gone out at the back of my head. So I kept my knowledge whenever I have learned from my culinary years. But I kept mum and silent in 6 years.

 

When loading business have entered in 2006, my mom enrolled me to have my own loading business. I found loading business as a boring business at the start of few months. But I’ve never thought it was good for my addiction in games. So I’ve enrolled in different game online platforms like Ragnarok, Khan Online, Flyff Online, Perfect World and Ran Online. They were the only online platforms that I was really hooked on before. But I have said to myself it was good to get rid of my stress during my first year in loading business.

 

Stress was my feelings to get rid of my depression times. I grew my hair in three years. I was melodramatic and emotionally stress at home thinking if I was worthless, not accepting of who I was, or if I was an adopted child in the family. It was really emotionally depressed and frustrated of who I was. During that time, I’ve not decided if I really have Down syndrome as one of my special condition. I wasn’t aware because of that. It was a pain at the back of my head.

 

After long of waiting two years later on, my loading business grew larger in numbers when we moved to another location. My addiction in games haven’t kept me off. I kept my online accounts alive. But after we have experienced a flash flood that in Cainta, it was a greatest fear of my life. My depression and my frustration somehow brought me back inside again. But it kept off me finally from my addiction in games. I’ve learned my lessons. But my loading business kept me alive after I’ve learned many lessons in life.

 

In 2009 when I went back for my biggest dreams have keeping me alive. Drawing kept me stronger. And so was the writing. Writing for me was my biggest passion of my life. I’ve kept my writing skills throughout the years but it didn’t stop me to improve my skills in English language and English literature. Loading business was the one who have kept me alive in six years and ten months already. As I’ve got out from my depression and frustration in 2011. I’ve joined in multi-level marketing or networking bandwagon. It was UNO have kept me hopes bringing out my depression and frustrations in my life. Everyday, I spent my money from my loading business in five months. I’ve shredded my long hair bye-bye in 2009 when I’ve enrolled myself back in digital school.

 

Then one moment came in to my life. It was the biggest fact that I’ve finally learned my special condition to be accepted in 2011. It was the end of my depression and frustrations that year. And of course when I learned where I was belong, I found the organization or group of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI. In fact, I began to become a member last December 2012. And there were many blessings came in to my life last year and this year.

 

I’ve enrolled myself to have my own and first postal ID last September 2012. Then another milestone that I got was to get in front of the audience becoming a guest speaker. Being having with a special condition of Down syndrome was my biggest blessing for me. Because if I wasn’t able to learn what my special condition was, I won’t able to write here in a long story. And in fact, I got my first passport that I’ve enrolled myself in DFA Megamall. I’ve said to my parents that it was already a milestone for me. One step to another step was considering the fact I was following for my dreams – a writer + an artist (and + an actor as one of my biggest dreams).

 

And so I got also my first PWD ID last month. Now I was finally getting to my independent stage ready for my age with a help of my loading business for six years and ten months that kept me alive. This loading business is worth saving my financial crisis without a day to earn. In the past years of my life, it really saved me much. Now I am aiming to get 12k from my loading business to enroll myself in an audition in Star Magic Circle auditions next year or this year.

 

As I’ve always said to myself that I would never give up of my dreams. And one of my biggest inspiration icon who also saved me was Rico Yan. My dreams is waiting for me, now I’m facing my dreams waiting for me to gain exposure in the public television.

Enchanted

This article was not about the Enchanted movie in the theatres. The word Enchanted claims at the back of my head is a prom about being having Down syndrome with their La Salle partners. Let me give you first an introduction for my past two proms I have it before.

 

I have had my first prom when I was in my junior year. It was a junior prom and it was a month of February during that time. And I have had nothing to do asking a girl. So I was afraid not coming to the junior prom. Instead not going to the junior prom, my mom asked some of my relatives and it was my beautiful auntie who was a year younger than me. Then I thought I would came after all in junior prom. Our venue was in Walang Hagdanan restaurant in Antipolo. And I was quite remembering that place. I was with my auntie when I came down in our blue Pajero car that time.

 

As we came down to the car, we looked for our seats to sit on. Well I really looked fabulous. Then it came to my attention I was wearing that time. I have had with a black necktie, white polo long shirt and my dad’s americana coat. Then I have said if this was okay. Those times, technology in computers were less technology and also the cellphone numbers. But it came to my mind where I can find a camera. Finally after we introduced to my classmates, all of my male classmates were amazed of me because I brought a beautiful and petite lady in our prom night. That was Saturday. And of course, I wouldn’t forgot that I won a best dressed man. If we were on the prom set that night a little earlier, we could have an early bird awardees. So I thought and be the man I was going to be.

 

After a year, here it goes again. A prom night has arrived again. This time was 2000, our graduating year and the senior prom has come. Glittering in the night with beautiful stars was the brightest evening we ever had. The bad news was that I didn’t bring my prom partner who I have had dated her during my junior prom to my senior prom. Because of the conflict schedule came in good terms, it was turn of her sibling that I have dated with. Her younger sister whom I think was four or five years younger than me. And during that night, we haven’t done chatting each other. And my partner, whom was my auntie, asked and said, “can we go now?” I gasped, gave a sigh and said, “yes.” Then at that moment I realized my auntie didn’t enjoy that night. So I came home a little earlier because we didn’t enjoy that night. It was miserable and teary for me. I’ve never had to say, “I am sorry or a simply gesture of ‘thank you’.” After two days have gone, I came back to school to attend my classes. All of my classmates gave a nod and one of them said, “what happened during the prom night we enjoyed?

 

At the back of my head thought and said, “it would come better if I have a guts asking my crush in her freshman year start of the school.” But it didn’t happen quickly and it was like a disappearing of a bubble. Then I guessed it was a senior prom. And what was the memorable that year 2000? Instead of our valedictorian in our class gave a loud applause, it gave an outstanding standing ovation inside the entire theatre hall. It was when I stepped in the stage when I received my high school diploma. Being having with Down syndrome really made proud of who I was. And of course, nothing beats me like a simple gesture of “thank you and you’re welcome.”

 

It was during the hot and timid day around 2 in the afternoon. I was last checking my facebook and at the seconds in the clock stopped me what I was doing. I ran off to the comfort room to take a bath because of the hot weather today. Then it came for me a fresh bath for the second time of a day. I completed dressing my clothes. After that, it was when I left my home around 3 in the afternoon. I rode a taxi going to the venue where I was supposed to go to. Then I thought it might be a lucky day for me. And I thought I remembered the past two days if I cannot come. One of my close friends in the organization have asked me to go to the Enchanted prom where with special children above their age goes with prettiest girls and handsomest men. I was excited last night. And at the same time, my mind was blanked about what I was going to say to my partner.

 

And our maid have said to me if I might have a partner whom she was 60 years old already. I dare I can do that. But it was her joke. Then at the same moment when I came at the venue, I gave a long sigh and a long pause of my breath. Then I loosed out from my breath. Was I relaxing too much? Or was I stressing about what I am going to say? And at the start of the program nearly started, I thought I will be having partner with another special adult. Then it came along with prettiest girls and handsomest men in an hour. I posed a strike pose in the photo booth. And I might get a lucky shot with my cutest and wacky shots.

 

Then I met a few prettiest girls in the Enchanted prom night. Among them I met was the indian girl I really liked the most. It was merely that I might fall in love to her. Her looks being as another native makes me an awe for me. Then I thought she will be my partner. Instead one of the prettiest girls I rarely picked came to me. Her name was Ricci. This girl was stunningly beautiful. And I might get also attractive to her. Whatever my mind ran off to, it was like there was running horses around the white clouds telling me if I can ask her number. Then I did nearly before the prom night ended. And I got a chance to meet the indian girl, it was actually her name, Rashmi.

Enchanted prom night

Enchanted prom night

Enchanted prom night

Enchanted prom night

Enchanted prom night

Enchanted prom night

To tell you the truth honestly, this was the best prom night I have enjoyed so far although this was my third prom I went to. My last senior prom was during my senior year, the year of 2000, the graduating year. It was sadly for me not seeing some of my classmates anymore. But it was a challenging role for me to give a kick start career. For unlikely reasons, why I couldn’t landed a good stable and financial job for almost 13 years? It was the denial stage that I held for myself being having with Down syndrome. Keeping that was a mortal sin I have ever had. Thinking in the past years of my life, I’ve realized it was time to let it go and accepted the conditions whatever I have had. 2011 was the good start of my another chapter although there were some bad pages and good pages in my life.

 

Let me give you a straight answers at the back of my head. The bad pages were that I have joined in the networking job deals, the networking or in another term of multi-level marketing. But I’ve learned my lessons. The good pages I was talking about the knowledge of the product description. Selling products maybe have a little effort work for me. But I’ve decided not going to the company again after 5 months of staying there nothing to do. Giving a hard-knock at the back of my head was my best lessons I’ve ever had. And the other good pages I’ve found out was that I studied about my both family roots in my father’s side and my mother’s side. It was that really great. Meeting with some good community makes you more comfortable. And having the most of my entire life came back one by one of my memories.

 

The reason why I found this interesting organization of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines? It was another chapter have entered in my life. Giving a whole new blessings came towards to me. February 2012, the month of my birthday and the month of joining the Happy Walk, were among the blessings I’ve received. After a year, this was the most blessing I’ve received most of my life. To enjoy, to live, to breathe, to be happy all the time and to have a positive life are the most important ingredients in my life. This kind of organization to join is worth of all happiness you will receive.

 

What do I wish for my birthday last month? Simple. But you have to work your wishes together with strong prayers you have to pray. Well, I am going to say it. I just want following one of my dreams. The last wish I’ve received was the camera cellphone. But I am looking towards to buy a 50 grand pesos expensive camera. For going to work of one of my dreams, I am looking for my brighter dreams. Nothing becomes impossible in your life is believing in yourself 100%.

 

Let me give you a trivia. What is the name of the famous school where Francis Magalona’s children attend? And there is only one answer. It is Montessori Integrated School of Antipolo. The same school I went to where his children attended the same school I was in.

 

Having Enchanted in my life was the most memorable of my life. Being having with Down syndrome was not exempted in the society. It has no barriers and there are no boundaries. One of that I honor myself being having with Down syndrome simply gives me an excitement to bring. Meeting a new partner and having to meet new breed of prettiest girls in the planet are simply Enchanting me.

Enchanted prom night

Enchanted prom night

My 2nd Happy Walk

Two years of my age, since when I started to talk and to walk from where I learned in Cupertino Special Children School. It was there where it shook one of my memories breathing in and out of my mind. Then I started thinking what dream sequences were made it real for me. The early intervention made it possibly for me loud and clear. Something in my head tells me if I can’t write or talk, I rather do the same interests exercising my daily life. I could paint if something tells my dreams what’s inside of my brain. I could dance if there is no tomorrow living a daily life just like any ordinary dancer. I’m not born from boom box dancer, but I really love to dance just to exercise. I could walk a thousand miles if I could make it any kind of history.

Cupertino Special Children School

One clear memory, there was a swimming pool and I was afraid how to swim there in a swimming pool. And there was a monkey bars like clinging each bar you could hang on with. Well, there was also a basketball court. And I was pretty sure I also remembered that place. Filled with memories exactly came to my mind each time I still remembered and each time I held on to my dreams.

 

And one community specially came to my mind, the Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI. Full of my dreams were not scattering anymore. Full of hopes came back alive. Full of each memory came back one by one. It was this one occasional when I finally opened my facebook account looking for someone I could talk and share with to. One year already, February 15, 2012, Wednesday afternoon around 1 pm, I came inside and went to Clinica Manila in SM Megamall. Two of the hosts spoke, it was Ate Agnes and her daughter Patricia. It clearly came to my mind that I was also a special adult.

 

16 years of my age, I was not aware what I was doing in my life. Unaware looking for a clue or a piece of dream doesn’t come in my way to achieve. One way to another when I was in elementary days before graduating, I was dreaming to become one of the volcano lover-photographer who loves seeking out and picturing places with wonderful volcanoes. That was my biggest dream up to now. Yes, I may be have a cellphone camera in my hand. But I don’t have evidence to see the volcano explosion because that is too dangerous to watch it from a far.

 

People have asked me, “what stops you from achieving your dreams?” And I have stopped sighing and said, “well, there is no hope for me anymore.” So being there from a position of the person countless of dream sequences somehow amazes me, that I could think where I should be going now. I was in the world knowing unknowing what I was to be. Being despite having with special needs doesn’t stopped me there when one day I knew in my heart that I was having a little problem, to accept who I was to be and where I should be going now. When I was around in my sophomore year in high school, I learned a little facts. It was me who I found myself later, having with Down syndrome. I was not in my mood during my times were helpless when I needed one friend listening to me. I was having curious what I have to do in my life.

 

Before back from the times during my high school years, I finally enjoyed my life back then. But it was a black-pitch right there at the back of my head. Thinking I shouldn’t gone dating any girls in my life. Every teenager have had rights to date the partner during my age was. During that time when I was in junior year and senior year in high school, it was memorable for me. I fell in love of my passion what I still did my best that I can, to write and to live in each form of life. I have gone dancing two of my aunties during my junior and senior year. The junior year was when I danced my partner who was my auntie dancing with. I thought of myself that I can do for my best. And I just won award, the best-dressed man of the junior prom. Little knowing in my life have said in myself later during my senior year, I was there hoping I could bag for another award. But my auntie and I have left the prom. But I wasn’t devastated. It was the best I can do to enjoy my life.

 

14 years that have been passed of my life, I was now 30 years old when I finally knew that acceptance stage was the best for me. From there, I learned the fact I wasn’t ordinary like any other people in the crowd. I was less likely to feel out in the world. But from where I stand, I step right inside the crowd telling myself and said, “I can do this no matter what challenges will come in my way.”

 

And yesterday it was a huge blessing for me that this organization was also a success to be held in SM North EDSA Skydome, the 21st Happy Walk 2013. This was where I was always go when we used to live here in Quezon City. I have noticed some of the places that I used going here have many improvements. There was no Trinoma before and there was no pedestrian bridge that connected from Trinoma and SM North EDSA. Feeling like that I came home was perfectly coming to my attention, I was very happy. The feelings inside my mind and my heart something have changed a lot to me. And that was I loved and valued my life just to stay single. Being as a single with over 30 years of age is a new chapter, a new hopes and a new challenges will cross in my life. Since I’ve been joined in the organization last February 2012 (this was my first Happy Walk I’ve joined in my birthday, February 19 and the fact I’ve already accepted who I was to be,) and being active since August was all blessings that I’ve accepted.

 

Love of who you are and accept the blessings that have fate in you. Don’t break it and just wait the blessings to come.” ~ quoted from ItsmikkiStudio

Down syndrome awareness

Pictures from Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI

Halloween Party 2012

Froggy costume kid with Down syndrome

Halloween DSAPI

Teenager in costume with Down syndrome

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Me and Jeremy’s sister

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Adette de la Paz and kids with Down syndrome contestants

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Jeremy with Down syndrome and his sister Sarah

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Agnes in Mario costume

Halloween DSAPI004Me with Down syndrome and Agnes (Jeremy’s mother)

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Clara with Down syndrome

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Clara and I with Down syndrome

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Kid with Down syndrome

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Kid with Down syndrome

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Me and kid with Down syndrome

Halloween DSAPI010Teenage with Down syndrome in costume

Halloween DSAPI011Me, Kuya Rey and Sibling Support Group

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PWD Thanksgiving Party 2012

Teenager with Down syndrome

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Marian painting kid with Down syndrome

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Part 2 Painting session with Marian

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Art session of kids with Down syndrome

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Art session of kid with Down syndrome

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Painting session of teenager with Down syndrome

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Smiling kid with Down syndrome in Art session

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Kid with Down syndrome on top of his father

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Eating time! Kid with Down syndrome

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Art session! Teenager with Down syndrome

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After art session, painting session of teenager with Down syndrome

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Drinking time, kid with Down syndrome sitting on the sidewalk

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Kid with Down syndrome

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Eating time, kid with Down syndrome

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About Me

PWD Thanksgiving Party 2012

PWD Thanksgiving

Happy Walk 2012
my dad and I

I’ve joined Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines around the time Happy Walk 1 year ago. This with me was my dad. He came with me to celebrate my birthday during the Happy Walk 2012. And I was happy that I belonged here in DSAPI society. And I am proud who I am and what I have accomplish so far. In one of my DSAPi closest friends was Jennica Gan who invited me to talk in their school in University of Santo Tomas or UST Campus, Alberto Magnus Building, College of Education. It was my first time to give short inspiration talk about Down syndrome awareness about me last November 19, 2012, Monday around 10 am in the morning.

Jennica and I

Jennica and me from Angels Walk 2013

Return in Neverland

The story started a long time ago. But this story wasn’t all about Peter Pan and the Neverland. It was all about me. It was dreamy for me. Every night I sleep makes me still remembering the monkey bars and the swimming pool. Now each time it breaks my dreams, it become real for me.

 

I wasn’t able to walk. I wasn’t able to talk. And I wasn’t able to have motors like this kind of writing and typing articles. All I need to hear is a fictional story from my story. I am born in this world without knowing myself and my background. I wasn’t able to have a conversation to anybody else. Just as I started to walk and talk when I got an early intervention for every special child. In the world where there is a place have no perfect parents and no perfect child, God gave a talented special child. And that special child was later very talkative and at least, happy all the time.

 

When he turned two years old, his parents have found that their first-born baby boy has Down syndrome. The doctor couldn’t explained how he got the special case. Through his years, this baby boy turned a handsome boy. And that dearly handsome boy turned almost 8 years old as he entered the world of adventures. He entered 1st grade of his life. Then another 2nd grade, he passed without knowing himself yet. In another event of laughter and sadness, the teacher would gave up to this child. But no matter what happened, it turned great. When he entered 4th grade, one by one of his memories gained momentarily. He could remembered how Science built in knowledge and how to count in Mathematics from Addition to Division. He also loved to dance, loved to draw and loved to write. As he grew his talents, he graduated not in honors, but in loyalty and special award when he finished elementary in his school in Montessori Integrated School of Antipolo. But the incident happened to him unexpectedly. He thought he couldn’t finishing his studies in his life. All he wanted was to finish college at least.

 

Then he entered high school at his age of 14 years old for his freshman year. He now loved his subjects more than three subjects: Science, Arts and Music. It turned out that he also loved History. And the great history around the world was now seeking his knowledge. But he also loved watching sports, cartoons, and mostly important how to win the heart of a girl. Because he watched mostly from the love stories and read some of his favorite books, Hardy Boys. Each month it passed because of his knowledge became wider and wider for him. Knowing truthfully and honestly, this teenage male didn’t know that he have had Down syndrome when he was sophomore year (second-year high school). He was confused, frustrated and depressed. But he gave a fight finishing of his studies.

 

As he reached junior high (third-year high school), he now also liked Literature when he began to write a faithful day. It was Thursday afternoon lunch break, December 10, 1998. He wrote a poem. His first very poem wasn’t published in the school paper. He became frustrated and gave a fight again in his life. He wrote a thousand songs, sonnets and poems of his life. Then at the moment, he had a wider dreams to become like William Shakespeare and Emily Browning. He also liked how imagining the world will change in the future to become one of the brightest stars in television. He wanted to be an actor, a dancer and maybe a singer. All of his dreams will wait for him.

 

Until he graduated from high school in Montessori Integrated School of Antipolo, the first batch that graduated in high school. He and his classmates challenged in a next huge chapter, the college life. He gave two passing exams in Maria Montessori College and Center for Culinary Arts (in short, CCA). His grade from MMC was 88 but his grade in CCA was 75. He now thought entering culinary course rather entering in Hotel and Restaurant Management, both in fields of cooking courses. In his back of his head thought he could entering music course in University of Santo Tomas (in short, UST) or theater arts in University of the Philippines, Baguio (in short, UP). But he didn’t get of his two university schools out of 4 schools of his choice. Maybe it was a fate for him.

 

He gave another fight of his life when after his leave of absence during his college years. He went to courses that could gaining him a little experiences for cooking. When he came back in the culinary school, he finished and gave a fight. He attended a graduation ceremony in July 4, 2003 graduating in his certificate of culinary course. His years went down after his graduation. His dreams dived inside the ocean and waiting to arise from the ocean someday. He attended dancing school in Airdance in 2002 and 2003 during his college years. But it couldn’t waited for him for his dreams.

 

Impatient he was and irresponsible, he lost his interests going back to his culinary life. Instead, he was addicted playing online games, browser games and other stuff of platform games. He only thought becoming as an animator. So he entered in First Academy of Computer Arts (in short, FACA) taking up his second course of digital arts. He now learned how to draw basic drawings. Because he restarted his hobbies making a lot of effort. He went back to his interests: dancing, writing and drawing in the field of Arts, Literature and Music. But his fate of his dreams doesn’t stop him right there. As the years went by, he broke his silence. His female cousin invited him entering networking in Unlimited Networking of Opportunities (or in short, UNO). He was familiarizing the products, gave a big shot if he could selling products. It didn’t work well for him. Stopping after five months gave a little break for him in October 2011. He was thinking joining in another networking group of VMobile, later on February 2012. He joined the Happy Walk 2012 in his birthday.

 

He thought he could helping out of his dreams with an advocacy for special children and for the unfortunate people having to get a job or business. His wisdom of his writing makes him proudly. He also entered two training courses in 2012. One was computer call center agent training and basic steps computer courses. He completed his two training courses and might used for the future references. He now achieved his faith for his achievements. His first-delivered speech, he spoke for a hundred educators, teachers and special education students for his speech in Alberto Magnus Building, College of Education, University of Santo Tomas (UST) last November 19, 2012. And recently he received his first visit in Cupertino as the guest judge for their dessert competition last February 15, 2013.

 

This special adult now achieved his achievements awaiting for his dreams to having working in show business and entertainment industry. He might give a shot for his dreams as an animator, a writer, a poet, a dancer, an entrepreneur, an actor and a dreamer. He has now a loading business and a member in Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines (in short DSAPI) last December 2012.

 

Returning in Neverland from where he started how as an special child in Cupertino, he showed his best of his life. Being like as a Peter Pan in a fictional story, this special adult achieves everything. As he believes everything is possible, he truly awaits for his next achievements of his life.

Autobiography Chapter 1

Without a knowledge of a parents doesn’t know their child that needs a special attention, sometimes I use to think it before that I am alone. But when I discovered an organization last year, the day of Wednesday, February 17, 2012 around 1 pm in the afternoon, I listened one of Ate Agnes’s talk about what is down syndrome all about and where it does come from. I was curious. So I came in Clinica Manila in Megamall that special day. And I met a wonderful family, it was the Lapena family. I’ve had introduced myself to them that I have down syndrome. Ate Agnes was really surprised and does her daughter Meimei and her special child Jeremy.

 

I threw all my emotions away from negatives that I knew from the start. I started to think more clearly of my positiveness. Then I said myself that I was not alone. Being with Down syndrome was not that I am hiding anymore. But because of that, I became aware of what being that I have. Instead, all the blessings came in when I started to become active around in the month of September. I was not afraid anymore. In fact, the more I begin to face the reality is the more I am beginning to tell the truth of who I am now.

 

Being despite of ups and downs before, I didn’t love my life. It was hatred, pain and misunderstandings. The misunderstandings I take is the pain I get more from my emotions. Because it is my fate that I love writing from the start. I love drawing from the start. I love anything I put it down from my emotions. When I am not thinking emotions, I write it down to my paper with a pen. Somehow it really eases out from my problems and stressful days. Life was mysterious for me all the time before and until now. I seemingly disagreed with myself before. It was my parents who taught me how to build stronger and to be independent someday. Here I am now standing in front of the audience, the parents with their special children. The last time I was around building a character from my speech. It was in Alberto Magnus Building, College of Education in University of Santo Tomas. From one school I began to study was Cupertino, the special school reserved for the special children, she invited me in UST. It was Monday of November 19, 2012 around 10 am. I’ve delivered my short inspirational talk awareness about my Down syndrome life. It was nervousness at the start and I even sweated. I looked every person in my sight. Then I thought it about myself that I can do this the next time someone will be inviting me to talk.

 

All of my nervousness afterwards disappeared. Miss Gan really brought a tissue so I can wiped off my sweat after my speech deliver. So I thought that was a relief after all. This was the beginning of all the positiveness of my life. And I don’t know where I can start or even when I can go. Here I am talking some of new parents, maybe I can share of this in the next coming of early intervention seminars. Or maybe somehow in the future that I can be a sharer someday. I don’t know but maybe God plans me to put me on this kind of what I have feelings. Maybe an instrument I am, can determine that I will take my place to one of my occasional plans to my life.

 

So last month I was officially a member of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI for short. I was so happier than I thought I could be lonely. But my loneliness was already disappear. Being as a special adult, I can use my my PWD ID for medical purposes, free hospitalizations and some of the benefits for transportation like MRT and LRT. With it comes for the benefits, the ID I showed to the security guard, they let me went to the special lane and took 2 pesos discount if from MRT and 2.50 pesos if from LRT Cubao to Santolan. But I won’t use it for other purposes of what crime was all about in the Philippines. I moved in and behaved more like just the same as the adults was. And I am aware that being as an adult, I always look precaution and regulations if I may follow the strict rules have to be follow. Maybe I am now thinking how I will start my journey in another adventure in my life.

 

A new chapter and a new page will uncover to unfold the story about my life. Then how’s my life begins in a new page.

First Appearance

I felt the very first time in my life when I spoke my first Down syndrome awareness speech of what I have now. Being despite if I really have this, I don’t think or look to myself if it’s willing to take my place to a pride. November 19, 2012, Monday of course, it was the day my friend from Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines invited me two weeks ago before the day started to me that I’ve to speak in front of the audience. At first, I was afraid. But now that I am thinking about myself, maybe I can do this one more time or usual times if I can make it. My nervousness now didn’t matter for me. When you speak in the audience for the first time, you feel the awkwardness and maybe a little tension inside my body. As if I am falling from the smaller stage that is there standing in my feet.

 

I looked and met a fourth-year students who were graduating two months from now. Thomasians of University of Santo Tomas were really nice and very approachable to me. As if I were the inspiration for every parents who want to meet me. Then one month after this, I will go again in the Happy Walk awareness in SM The Block dome again in the coming event in February 24. Then I thought about myself if I am willing to take another try to be the first appearance to everybody else as I am.

 

What if I were the celebrity? Or the famous person on the planet everybody was chasing after me? Maybe somehow I don’t think that way. Or somehow a little bit of tense inside of me really feels me this way. Do you think I will be the one who can stand on my own? Or just a little bit inside of me can do that whatever you can do. One person I would like to do if I can act on my own. Because someday, I might go out everyday in the television or movie somehow. My dreams will always following me wherever I go and whenever I think of my own dreams.

 

My life will be always that not really bad of course, but I try to be nice and still be humble all the times. Not as bad as Justin Beiber when he was here in the Philippines, he became snob at every fans want to be photograph with him or even autographed his signature. Every dying fans would like to do that. Being a humble all the time won’t accept the society who really want you to be nice. Somehow I understand the way celebrity was. If I may correct, people deserve to know what or who they want to know better. And halfway on my mind, I am always saying to myself, “be gentle, be nice and have smile every time you encounter frowning faces of every person in the planet.”

Back to workspace

Back to real world again, it’s been a worth while to gain working again here in my blog. Since the last entry I posted for the past 147 days, I really do miss my working ethic here in my blog. There are so many things that I have to discuss the the big start of 2013.

 

First month that I missed was August to September 2012, it took me a long months to recover my posting job soon here. So here I am, alive and kicking up well. It was a storm raging our house. Floods rushing inside the house was not purely coincidentally hit our place. It was also my computer broke down. Then I think I will have to post again today and the next 365 days to fill my site as well.

 

I’ve also attended free computer classes in Mandaluyong City where the AiHu Foundation Computer Van Aralan was held. Running from September 4 (orientation day) to 25, I have completed my 18 class days. I learned how to operate the computer well from basics to advance Microsoft word. After that, I’ve had really focus in my loading business. It really gained me the knowledge well from the computer classes. As I said to myself, working outside is a really tough situation. Always in my mind that I’ve always tell myself that I really need to tough it up my business. Which it’s really give me a big break. After what I said to call center trainer, working is not important to me. But improving my English is worth a lot of improvement area for me.

 

Last November 19, 2012 where I stood a lot of students, teachers and a special students, in University of Santo Tomas (UST) Campus, Alberto Magnus Building, College of Education was there I spoke my first Down syndrome awareness speech. People applauded to me as I’m only the one who really was the guest speaker for Special Education. A friend from Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines Inc. (DSAPI) really invited me to be a special guest speaker in their respective school. She was really friendly to me. It was because we exchanged communication from Facebook social networking. She alone was proudly of me and I gave my inspiration speech talk. It was my first speech although I was a bit of tense and nervous. My sweat came out in my forehead, then I said afterwards, “it was a good call to build as an inspiration to everybody else in the building.”

 

After two weeks, I went to Manila Zoo where Photography With Disability event was held. I wasn’t invited but I was allowing myself to go there to meet new people who really wants to meet with me. It was hot and timid day. It was Saturday, December 1, 2012 around 6:35 am in the morning I went there. I allowed myself to meet a few. Then after the event, I went again in UST Campus and this time was in UST Medicine auditorium. I watched the Spedtacular event and I have enjoyed much of myself because my friend invited me again there.

 

Many have a good happenings and there was a none bad happenings happen for me. It was a good year for me, a Year of Dragon. And next year was a Year of Water Snake, the year 2013. Happy new year. everyone!

Sixtieth-Fifth English Quote:

 

Friends that is not

breaking apart,

lovers that is not

quarreling apart,

soldiers that is not

fighting apart,

but no else the same

if I’m coming home to you.

 

Selfish love don’t

bend the time

if only you

can remind me,

what else the same

then tomorrow

never comes to an end,

or should I know

to remember our

good times.

 

Sinners that is not

saying the truth,

saints that is not

doing to be martyr,

enemies that is not

be backing apart,

but no else the same

if I’m going now.

 

Selfish love

don’t bend the time,

if only you can

remind me,

what else the same

then tomorrow

never comes to an end,

of should I know

to remember our

good times.

 

I love you more

than just a lover,

then I should be

going now to be

part ways with you.

 

Sixtieth-Sixth English Quote:

 

Tame my mind,

find my name,

don’t forget for who

I am,

believe my faith,

hope will come

and now I join

to another day.

 

And to find me,

you never come,

run along to

another road,

take my hand,

walk with me

keeping me for a while.

 

My friend,

my only friend,

you do share with me

and I’m always be

with you,

thinking the last time

we talk,

is our true

friendship over the years.

 

NOTES:

 

This is might kind of funny when you are thinking too much of the lyrics and hearing a lot of times everyday that stuck in your mind. Well of course there is no lyrics that can stop you to remember then have to sing all the time. Remember the song of Carly Rae Jepsen who sings her upbeat melody song of Call Me Maybe. That is true, and the funny thing of that song reminds me how I sing this ridiculous song that stuck in my head all the time. When you sing it once, you sing it in double or twice. Or maybe until you remember the song repeatedly everyday, every hour, every minute and every second of everywhere you go. You heard from the radio station, from your iPad tunes, or maybe from your favorite list of pop melody. It’s nothing to beat when you really come to memorize all of this lyrics.

 

In this series I am writing about the episode of quote poems I made about four months ago. And I’m kind to surprise you that it might stuck in your back of your mind and read this all the time whenever you open my article site. Then of course, you will remember my name. And please, I will  name this to be disclosure since this is my real lyrics from my mind that I have made.

 

To come with this surprise, in this 65th English quote poem an actually a song poem. Did you see that lines of: “Selfish love don’t bend the time if only you can remind me, what else the same then tomorrow never comes to an end, or should I know to remember our good times.” It really repeated in the second and fourth paragraph of the quote poem. It usually reminds of this song, but it’s an actually a love poem. This is more like an upbeat love song added of a soul flavor. When you sing this, it will soothes your mind to remember. So you will love eventually.

 

While in 66th quote poem is also part of the song poem. And it has the element of friendship poem that has something to do with the lyrics. Well of course, you will not notice at the start of the tune. When I sing this and I will record this lyrics in the future. And I will make it this the help of music therapist who will come to help me. Aside from that, this song is also dedicated to Rico Yan who really inspired me a lot until now.

 

Rico reminds me how he talks when he was still alive. And this morning, I shared some of my success story to the audience. The audience there was the special education teachers, the music therapist and some of the founders of the Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI in short. And I believe what I can promise to this kids with down syndrome which I can help them in the future. My advocacy now will change the benefits for my own and for the kids also. I met wonderful people. And I met again Rico’s 3rd cousin who was the president of the DSAPI and he is none other than Elmer Lapena. He and Tita Agnes have a child with down syndrome. And there it is, I need to explain this in the future.

Some people intended to say mongee instead of mongoloid in some of establishment buildings. But many of them have said abnormal. Isn’t that obvious they are killing one of us? They are insulting us. Now I know that I don’t want to be part of them.

 

I remember one of the multi-level marketing company that many of the leaders used to call them as abnormal. Because some of point of view, I want to have them in their necks. But I leave to them. Already! Yep, some of them they want to get richer than have killing their prides in their neck. I will name two multi-level marketing companies: one of them is UNO (or Unlimited Networking of Opportunities) and the other one is VMobile Technology Inc. They are using the term of abnormal (in UNO) and mongee (in VMobile). I am so ashamed for some of my schoolmates are still intact with that word where I want to be part of them. But I already forgot them calling someone is insulting the entire race of Mongolia and to be part of that.

 

In the other side of the story, yes in fact, I am supposed to say that words. That is who I am. I will forgive them if they forgive me in the first place. It’s the lessons I have learned for the past months I joined but to declined in their offer. I won’t tolerate them. But I will leave them in the hands of pure fathers, mothers, brothers, sisters or relatives who have their kid has a down syndrome. They didn’t know what to do. I shall not do this in my article, but I am already doing writing down here in the article as well. This is a matter of fact of my side of my insensitivity. What done is already done.

 

For other reasons, people want to know that their kid has the same responsibility just like me. Many of down syndrome kids or adults who don’t have the ability to speak like I do. People forget the unconditional love. They only care for themselves, for loving money instead of their relative or family. I also don’t know why many people are still going hopes in the money of others. When someone is reading my article, I am sure some of you or someone will get to mention will like to join my forces. But I will pray for the people who want to change their minds. As long I am still alive and standing with the only one voice writing this article, it is because I am who I am. I have down syndrome. And I will not tolerate people who tolerates others. I will leave them in the name of justice and to God also.

 

I love in the name of the Father. I obey Him. In fact, I won’t use some names calling other names to the people. In fact, I am still not a perfect writer. I want to tell other people who have to educate to themselves. What will happen if you judge the wrong person? It happens to me every time. When they call me I am look like younger, I say I am really older to them. I accepted myself already last year. In the past, it was really hard to make decision whether I will accept or not for myself only. But I already did. Many times, people around looking for someone who wants to get grudge. I don’t want to get angry, because it will become immature side of me. It doesn’t matter if I like myself or not. Maybe it is the time to decide who do you want to look for.

 

I have joined in the association group last February 2012 which it’s Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines, Inc. or DSAPI if that it’s called. I turned older when I joined them to become more mature. Many of the parents, sisters, brothers or relatives are surprised because of me. I don’t know why. It was because I already accepted myself in this year of the dragon. My favorite aunt used to call me, “anak (ormy child).” But she’s my aunt who passed away since 23rd of June 2011. She gave me some coloring set since I loved to draw and pencil my drawings. She also loved my literature works which it kept in my best friend’s house. Then just before the month she died, she told me once. She said, “look for your brighter future that can hold with your success. I only can guide you if you help for yourself. Remember if you don’t do good, I will not guide you. Write whatever you can. Cook whatever you can. Or maybe what’s in your heart will lead to your future. Always follow your heart to decide. And always fight for it.”

 

And she also said to me, “take care of yourself, my favorite nephew. Don’t forget about me, and always pray for your journey. I have plans for you in the future if you do good well. I will leave to you that you need to tell your mom to help in the future plans in Negros Occidental in Himamaylan. Don’t forget the one you have to tell.”

 

I once feel every time I go to sleep, she is always reminding all the time. It’s because I haven’t tell mom about the future plans in Negros Occidental in Himamaylan. But I always want to go there. I only have to be careful. My dream places to go: Leyte, Cebu, Bohol, Bicol and Bacolod, and of course is the Boracay. I haven’t go the places I want to go. I don’t want to leave the Philippines behind my back. I want to save the last place to live here in our home. I want to save my family. And I want my sisters to go back here. I need them to be with me, what else I can go for. This is only dreams I am waiting for. And I will fight even it’s my last breath to fight for. If I only have time to tell them, I only want to have courage to do that. And I only want to get the family back they way it used to be even they have their own families. It is because I love them very much.

 

My will to survive is to be with my family forever and ever.

Anticipated world

Hoping this would be the perfect opportunity what I did the past few days. Yes, I’m starting from last week. Last week I went to Bay, Laguna to stay for about two days and one night. Only knowing what is going on, I’ve been unraveling some clues where to start.

 

Well from the start to bottom, I have always thought this would be the perfect discussion what I should do in my article. First things first, if anyone is reading my article, make sure you are ready to read my article. When there is nothing to do in your day today, start making a habit reading my article. Then I am starting to think what you should do in a day. From the morning I wake up, I am doing a different routine now since our maid takes a vacation for a month. I washed my face to look good in the morning then I brushed my teeth. I didn’t do this every morning. But I have to look good every morning. I don’t do especially when the two dogs were barking already, somehow I have intentionally wake up in an instant. That black dog we have is actually a street dog. But I train him a little since he is still eight months old now. Hoping that he would follow what I need to know about a little instructions about the new dog we have.

 

In my our place, people buy load from me, here in our house. Because I went back selling loads in cellphone loading business. I am now entering six years experience in cellphone loading business starting in June. I have trained myself already going from multi-level marketing plan last year, but it didn’t work for me well in selling beauty products. I will not mention the name since this is the public article I am writing about. But instead, I gain some knowledge from multi-level marketing. I left for a reason, to change myself in a better situation.

 

In fact, this is my dreams to fulfill everything. It will start for a new change. Maybe I will name after my full name is then it will have a meaning about it. This foundation will start around this year if my relatives or my classmates or my batch mates will help me about this. This foundation is about for the people who don’t have work and the special children I am building for a foundation program for them. Special children is where I will start in intervention and speech therapy since I am now a different level from them. But I am not that kind of superior since I am not an intelligent person. To start from there, maybe I need help from new gained friends in DSAPI. The president who is the founder of DSAPI will help me there. Maybe so or maybe not it will work. My ways to help people who don’t have work and for the special children just like me has down syndrome would be my priorities to help them.

 

To be able to do that, I need more funds to create a better way of vision. Somehow I can help and start somewhere here in Manila or maybe in my hometown in Javier, Leyte. This kind of foundation will help everyone who needs the help from the local government or some sectors I heard from somebody. I don’t know with that, but I am planning for the start. This would be the anticipated move I have and it would be a huge move for the anticipated world. This would be also the advocacy when it start already. From the moment from my recent years, I didn’t realize from the start I am here alive in this silent world.

 

What a melodramatic start is to make a dream. And I hope this would be to read for everyone to make a start from here. Please help me so I need more funds. If I can make a foundation concert then, it would be a huge success.

I still remembered way back during I was in high school before. About this second year high school or sophomore year, never one told me that I was different to everyone. I just want to know that I am extraordinary person with extraordinary talents like this our beloved idol, Rico Yan. Nevertheless, but it’s a yes.

 

The year 1996 when Rico Yan was already in the show business. I was 15 years old back then. Rico was 21 years old. During that time, I have hooked in this classic tale of literature, the Robin Hood times. People said to me talking like I am never born in this world before. Then I said myself that I have to stand in my own feet. Once in biology class during 1998, our biology teacher told me that never one in the class thought what in the world I was doing in high school. Never in my age that people passed in high school. So I stood in the class, then she told me that I have made this genetically rare disease, a down syndrome. I have never thought that easily. It is easy to other people rarely to reach the opportunity like me. But I held my fingers tight, then after I came home from the school. My mind was different and I came inside my parents’ room. Then I asked them why does on earth nobody told me that I have had this kind of genetically rare disease or down syndrome. My sisters never brought it up this issue inside the car when we were going home or going to the school every school days. I said to myself and why?

 

The year from 1996 to 1998 changed me everyday and everywhere. I have never thought how I shared my life about this. The year was so special about me. The year of 1996 when Rico Yan was already in show business. And the year about my adolescence changed me that time. Rico had already made three movies during 1996 and named them as Radio Romance, Ama, Ina, Anak (Father, Mother and Child) and Madrasta (Second Wife). Rico also made in television series in numerous series like Mara Clara as Derek, Maaalaala Mo Kaya as Dante in the episode of Valentines Card, Sine Siyete as the same name in the episode of Roses and Tracy, Star Drama Presents as Carlo in the episode of Rico and as Ricky in a Saturday afternoon series that spanned about in June 15, 1996 up to February 13, 1999.

 

The most lovable movie Rico made into the movies was Got 2 Believe with Claudine Barrreto as his partner when he portrayed as Lorenz, the photographer. I’m sure everyone can remember his movie as well. High school years was my primary years to me but when Rico was in his sensational break in the year of 1994 up to 2002.

 

The most inspirational move Rico made was in to show business, helping people with his killing look, and every time he has a birthday, he would celebrate in his most sharing life back then in his foundation. But my story continues after he died.

 

After hearing from the news Rico died in 29th of March 2002 and that was Good Friday in Los Palmas, Palawan together with Marvin Agustin and Dominic Ochoa, I still never forgot that coming from the news I heard in television. Rico shocked my world, and so devastated to me that time. I was inspired by many inspirational walks of life including him. But he was the impact of my life where I had to grabbing my opportunity to graduate in the same year Rico died. I graduated in 4th of July 2003, that’s Friday in Pasay where the graduation rites held. Being as a honor of a culinary graduate, I finally took myself as a college graduate in only 2 years culinary course. I never did satisfied my performance back then. It is because what my mom said and what my mom always want.

 

2002 was a dreadful year to everyone. But still I am getting inspiration from him, the first and foremost of my life. If I give my inspirational life, my dreams will not be going far as it could. I always want to get a foundation dreams last year, that sparks my favorite aunt died last June 23, 2011. It’s not the same dreams I have in the past. It came to my mind that I always want to grab any opportunity where I want. But my parents refused anything to help me. I said to myself that I won’t give up no matter what problems or challenge will come. It’s already there in my mind everyday I want to build foundation program for the kids who have down syndrome just like I am.

 

And I finally accepted myself that I am different person to everyone I could tell. When people doesn’t want me, it’s fine for me. I recently joined in Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines, Inc. or DSAPI and I have to become a member in the future. I have even celebrated with the kids who have down syndrome last 19th of February 2012 (my birthday, yey!) where the Happy Walk held at Skydome, SM North EDSA The Block. So I am proud what I accomplish. Then I will continue to fight for my dreams to achieve. Many people will shock to me after I am posting this. If there is any questions, just let me know.

 

This is my inspiration who Rico Yan I’m really looking for. Thank you for giving us an inspiration and I will still follow your heart and follow my dreams as well. I’m forever with you eternally.

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