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What is it taking to have a new life? Is it possible to tell a new life? How about turning back and redo all the things I’ve been asking? It was not usually that have been passed already to me. So I really gather how to put these things straight. When my life started working before, I was feeling guilty, loveless, anger and frustrated. New things have been passed throughout my life. But nevertheless I felt nothing. It felt my shameful from the beginning.

 

That was the time when I’ve had with my first experience to have a girlfriend. But it flew away from me like a piece of paper written down full of I LOVE YOU, SWEETHEART or something that bothered me from the beginning. The paper I threw it out from my pocket and trashed it already inside the garbage bin. New life has created. And new evidence has turned out good. Good beginnings created new humble beginnings. From where I stood when I was holding from my two hands, I felt from my feet that was shivering from my bones. I thought it was already too late. But it never felt me that wasn’t good. It always crossed me inside of my head.

 

The first girlfriend I’ve had experiencing with, I gave up and have to obey my the rules and regulations. And I’ve returned to single hood again. To think that I was supposed to satisfy my life back then, it was crucial at that moment. And that moment stole my life to have a meaningful way. But those kind of words never dealt me the same way. And I will tell you what I’ve been doing from the start I am doing.

 

This is about my story. And the story has greater possibilities in life:

 

“In the third week of May, 20th day of May, I was invited to see Nick Vujicic in SM Mall of Asia music hall when DSAPI held the invitations for those who just came and saw the event. It was real when disabilities were united as one. But from where I heard from Nick’s voice, my head tilted and said, ‘you must confirm all the greatness of your life, don’t be afraid of who you are. Get out from the shadow and start again from when you are born.‘ And yes, I proved all the possibilities in life was dreaming positive and drew out from my aura that I would do it. And so the next day came, 21st day of May, I went somewhere to have walk-in to apply. It was humid. And I felt something the sun coming inside of my body. So I went instead the classroom instead the office where I went in Cainta Greenpark Village for the first time.

 

When the glimpse of young man married in his early of his 30’s got a chance seeing me in a nice outfit, I came upon seeing two female teachers and one who had became an assistant to them. And upon he said to me, ‘return the day when we call you.‘ When he said that, I wasn’t confirming that I was applied for any positions. Then the next two days, I went to SM Megamall when the job fair held for various jobs that you want to seek. And so I applied two call center positions for tech support and one position in Manila Bulletin for being as a writer or a graphic artist. The next moment I feel was my intuitions. It would became easy for me if that walk-in apply would be best for me. But it never crossed to my mind. And I said and asked myself, ‘what if I never want this life before, I could redo this before having to look for a job.‘ But it was my instincts.

 

Five days later, a humid morning although I was playing an old facebook application game called Farm Town. It was 10:30 in the morning. The sun barely wanted to touch my skin and my head spilled from one moment, it was already the time when someone called from my cellphone. And when it rang, I suddenly picked up and answered and said, ‘who is this in the line please?‘ It was a sudden pressure from my chills to my bones. It was something I felt the past week. It was my intuitions again. And so the call said that I’ve had to go to my appointment interview around 1 in the afternoon. I set up a time. I didn’t get bath in time yet. I was smelling like you don’t want to smell me for. So after the game I finished, I hurriedly got a bath, dressed up quickly in my neat and tidy clothes and left the house around 12 past in the afternoon.

 

When I came around 12:45 in the afternoon in the office, I felt nervousness. The air conditioner felt nothing for me because I came from scorching sun that wants to melt me away. One looking good looking guy with eyeglasses dressing up like a professional came to me and said, ‘are you here looking to apply?‘ And then I’ve answered, ‘yes.‘ For the moment he gazed from the clothes I was wearing, he came off the place I supposed to have interviewing me. And as I thought, I’ve had the feeling that I wasn’t able to get a job right away. My intuitions got me wrong. But when he came back and said, ‘come around and take a look inside the classroom.‘ I got off from my chair sitting with nervousness written in my face. And I came off going with him to the classroom across from another building we would go.

 

As I started walking inside the classroom, he started talking to me again and said, ‘well, we need you to have it here. What position do you want?‘ He asked me again with a quick question. Did I get a job right away? I was obviously hinting the answer saying no I can’t have a job right away. But the intuitions said it was yes. It got me a job. And I’ve started to say my answer and said, ‘anything you could me offer me a position, I can do it properly and learn how to do it.‘ I’ve answered my smart thoughts clearly at the back of my head. And he was amazed from ideas and said, ‘that would be great. The teacher needs you to have an assistant in the afternoon, you can be a sped assistant teacher.‘ To think out of my mind, I was quickly noticing it that they were welcoming me.”

 

It finally paved way another chapter of my life, a new job, a new career and a best move to conquer my loneliness after I broke up with my girlfriend some few days ago. It was then I realized the faithful day chosen me to have a new job. And this was the tale of assistant teacher who never got wrong from his intuitions. His intuitions always served it right and it proved yes all the time.

 

The conclusion was already over. This Assistant’s corner: The tale of assistant teacher was the last page of this series. Although it got me a fourth job in my resume, it added a wonderful career that set good examples, courage and perseverance looking for a good job. The fifth job is coming on the month of May. This has something that sets me a good life with a new beginning again.

 

New beginning creates a path of courage, perseverance, honest and positivity life I always have. Setting a good life means a lot to me. Setting a goal is something that I always want to have new chapter. And it always have the meaningful way. From Assistant’s desk to Assistant’s corner, this has simultaneously written in different months that was started on August 2013 and it ended this month of April 2014. From cover to cover, it has 17 different pages and different filled in blank pages. I thought I would never come up with this series, but it did with a positive life.

 

Looking for a brighter future comes with full of integrity. Full of integrity comes my passion. And passion creates new vision of beginnings. And beginning is always has the same knowledge written in one word – positive.

 

Previous Assistant’s corner article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/31/assistants-corner-going-back-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/26/assistants-corner-when-it-comes-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/23/assistants-corner-the-beginning-of-new-life/

 

Previous Assistant’s desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/10/assistants-desk-new-life-has-blossom/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/01/11/assistants-desk-friends-forever/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/25/assistants-desk-last-christmas-party/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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Something it come up to me and it’s not about the relationship or friendship. It’s how you will make your understanding a mutual that makes a horrible decision. My boss and I were in the conversation again. If I made it to make right, sometimes the good things made for a bad purpose. Well, it wasn’t my decision to make it right. All my faults fell into a trap again. He said it to me if I was doing my performance very well. It wasn’t well or in a perfect condition. Sometimes I rated myself somewhere in okay situation when I’ve decided to make it okay and it’s not good.

 

Good or bad habits of my attitudes sometimes varies in some situation. Well in purpose, I don’t make it intentionally. It wasn’t bad after all or I didn’t do in a better way. It’s either you make it good or bad win-win situations. My boss and I didn’t make it to arguments. I was bitter. I was lost. My emotions ate me up and so my pride was. I don’t know how or why. Sometimes when some people really scold me, my emotions are really pretty low. In the middle of situations, I didn’t manage to make it properly in accordingly. But in fact, I fell into a trap. It was a mere of my problem anyway.

 

I don’t know how to make it good. But working with somebody to please you sometimes is hard to give it up easily or retire at the end of the day. It’s a bad habit for me. I also can’t please anybody who is really giving some their puppy eyes to make it bad. Some of them is making some worse. They are treating me like someone I really don’t like. What I aim to do is a better performance.

 

Sometimes, my performance is really damn low. When I say damn low, my delayed reactions is something coming up of my dilemma situations. It’s really hard to cope up with my problems. Or better say to understand, it’s really hard also to please some of your companions in your comfort zone.

 

Speaking of comfort zone, I’ll admit in this situation. I have a bad mouth. Sometimes I really talk a lot. I don’t know how or when to shut up when the conversation is starting to build up longer. And myself is a bit don’t-know-what-to-do. Or maybe I can’t talk all the time. Was it me I’m having my difficulties? Or was it somebody I’m having problems with? Or was it something else that really occurred in some situation? Some it says it’s not my fault. It’s about my conscience that talks a lot.

 

I may have my purpose to live and that’s how I will be entertaining with good positive ways and signs to them. I don’t entertain negative thoughts at the back of my head thinking honestly a wrong negative thoughts. Maybe it is somewhere I am doing wrong, worse or worst of them all. Hmm…I can’t clearly think at the back of my head when to build a wall or cover with your ears where somebody is talking a longer conversations. Maybe it’s not my intuition to hear some feedbacks. I may have something don’t like, or maybe I am really boasting about. Sometimes I am having hard time from my dilemmas where to get rid of it. Or maybe not.

 

Should I move to a proper place? Or should I properly to act like a normal one? What do you think? Or should I to think at the back of my head as nothing it really feels like? I lost my answers. Help me to solve this kind of problems.

 

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Page Three

Emotions

 

It is where I find my happiness when I am all in my ears listening to the music. Sometimes I rarely can dance all the day I always want. It sets the most of my time when the music melts your mood inside of the music. And I find it rarely when things are getting worse.

 

In the past, my life time was weary and worried all the time. When I was not in myself, I was considering in the place where nobody was there. I wanted to be lonely. I wanted to dance all day long. But the thing I have always tried was when the world doesn’t need to follow your day itself.

 

The day itself sometimes tears you apart when you feel about your frustration in your life. The music you hear sometimes tells you about the depression in your life. Well it’s not mostly all the time, but I tell you sometimes it’s worst. Probably when I am not alone, and when somebody is there. I would be standing in the wall talking to myself. Or the worst scenario is when I am starting to stare myself in the mirror. I will be talking in minutes that turns into hours. Or maybe it wasn’t making mistakes that you have depressions.

 

Sometimes emotions are usually encountering you in, when you are in deep troubles or consciousness depression mood. Hmm…how I start explaining this? Oh, of course, the consciousness depression mood was in the psychological answer that I found out later in my life.

 

Consciousness depression mood is the term that I rarely use, but not exactly I am not using all the time. This is my first time to bring up some terms that you should not consider to use. Depression mood is the term when you are in depressed times. But in consciousness depression mood sometimes when you are in distressed or you are really in depression, then you are realize that you are really doing it. Consciousness is yourself when you consider you are actively knowing yourself that you have depression mood. Well, I am not sure if I am not 100% that I could tell. But somehow, I find not amusing to myself.

 

The world is full of emotions whether your really like or something you are considering yourself to be part of reality world. I, myself, somehow find something unusual to myself. But I find it interesting. Whenever I come up another article, it really defines me somehow how I explain or how I write the article itself. Not mostly but it’s rarely to find in this kind of article.

 

Emotions is your subconscious mind when you are in the state of feelings whenever you are angry, happily, or any kind of emotions you have. I may be not a hundred percent to explain but sometimes it really drives me out how I can relate in this article.

 

Emotions also sometimes tell you how you can overcome in times of depressions and frustrations. It defines what you can feel in this article. But sometimes I was the one who thought this way.

 

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