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After seeing the end of journey of being as an assistant teacher, I’ve all want to share my blessings that takes me from every chapter has moving within me. This is the part 2 of The tale of assistant teacher.

 

Love life has moved twice as I’ve reached the mountains. But the roadblock at the end of the road told me to move on. Why was it happened me between being having as an assistant teacher? Was I even told to be a better assistant teacher? Or was it somebody who doesn’t like too much of being noisy adult? I was always talking and talking to myself in a minutes or in an hour. Telling you the truth honestly, some of the lessons I’ve been going through proved my excellence in my journey. I wasn’t noisy as anymore before. I was waiting for someone listening my side of my story. But was it someone who can lean to?

 

I’ve covered my eyes as I was waiting for my side. I’ve also covered my ears so I won’t listen to the story. When did I stop talking raging nonsense? I’ve full of passion, full of energy and full of hope. All my positive sides wanted telling you I was able telling the truth.

 

Honestly I wasn’t perfect human as God says in the bible, ‘there is no perfect human in the world.‘ True. But I hope it would allow somebody to tell the truth. All the angels were sending from heaven telling me if I would continue be a humble person. But I didn’t know which one I was suppose to do.

 

Let me tell you my whole story from the beginning I went through the start of my story:

 

“The school orientation came over on 10th of June, 2013. And every parent was there to hear from the stories of two teachers, one from preschool who came to teach the preschoolers and one from special education who came to teach special education kids how to handle on their own in the future. And it was a surprise that my bosses told me that they coped with my problems. I did telling them that I’ve had being having with Down syndrome. But they didn’t know with the word of mosaic Down syndrome, trisomy 21. It was a sudden blessing from heaven that I sent here for a mission. And it was all started to be humble from the good beginnings that begun.

 

I told them that mosaic has two copies of chromosomes is normal and one copy of chromosome has extra set. Which it is why it formed mosaic Down syndrome. Even Dr. Jerome Lejeune discovered before. But holding right there from my chromosome, my knowledge that I learned. I also hope to bring a message to all special parents who helped their special child to grow like I was standing. My two bosses were taking their jobs as school administrator, principal and also being part as an occupational therapist. Then I started to know when will I begin from my job.

 

The start of classes went by as the school started on 17th of June, every child has own their behavior. Their behavior that my boss told me being part of growing up have to nurturing their talent. Which was it how it handle the special kids? From ADHD, autism, cerebral palsy and even Down syndrome, the four cases I saw from different special kids in the classroom. I’ve learned new things that I discovered. But my world shook at the back of my mind what needs to learn must have extra careful. To set aside, the nutrition month was coming, the month of July. And there was an interns. And an interns from MCU were optometrist graduates. They were here to practice their lives. And so my life henceforth held on.

 

New things I discovered that those of who having had troubles with extra care must know how to overcome. And new discovery must learn how to cope with the problems in the future. And I learned each of trials or problems may come must confront of all details. And I fell in love looking one intern who was my one of my type. But I didn’t mind to fall in love. Because it gave me a new inspiration. And a new inspiration came to build my character. Those things in life were about to unfold the new secrets of love life.

 

So the nutrition month came finally over. I’ve enjoyed the feeling of being youth again. My boss turned good friend of mine. He was able to know my feelings and my inner strength. I’ve must confronted all the details that my mom didn’t know. The negative came from my mom’s aura. But my positive aura came bigger and bigger. And so to tell you my story, before the vacation nulled me thinking right now, the month of August also came. It swept my thoughts at the back of my head that the livelihood project I was working on failed to my own hands. But I learned the lessons that I must strived back with my own hands. And my boss was right that I’ve had to move on. But the typhoon swept all the problems came in. As we started to rebuild new school ground, we relocated new higher facility and bigger spaces to fill in. But the problem came in.

 

As the month of September 2013 came in, we handled our first language of the month (buwan ng wika) supposed to held last month of August. If the typhoon didn’t persisting to trouble with us, then the language of the month didn’t have to occur. The event was successful. Some kid won in the competition and some kid won the hearts in the audience. It really captivated the hearts of many students participated in the event. It was a brilliant idea. But the fact 13th of September came in, I felt I didn’t want to leave the kids alone with someone they really wanted to keep with. I never said that I won’t come back. But I promised that I would go back. As you promised one word, you kept it from your actions. If it failed, you were a failure. But failure sometimes took granted to rebuild the trust.

 

I went to Toronto attending my sister’s wedding with my family. And it was my first time in my life I felt I didn’t sleep the whole trip. I was scared of a whole trip might falling down like a turbulence in the movie. So I felt right from my shoes and my feet. I felt scared. But God alone never leaves us. He kept me awake instead and enjoyed watching movies. I also played some of tetris game. But the fact I’ve enjoyed, I’ve finished 6 movies in my first trip going to Toronto. My sister’s wedding was beautiful. She was dressed like a beautiful princess. And my new brother came to welcome to our new family, my sister’s husband. So I was happy to meet new family. When will I have my own family? When it will stop that my mom would nagging me all the time? But hey, I was blessed to have with them on my life. Then on the way back to the Philippines, I’ve also finished 7 movies and played a little game of tetris.

 

On the way back to the Philippines after the storm finished before we came in the territory of Philippines, I was happy to see the students again. I was happy and turned to be a responsible adult. And being part as a special adult, a lot of things turned good and bad news came in. The bad news was when the preschool teacher left us without a notice. But I continued to communicate with her until now. And the good news that I became a full-time assistant teacher in the school being also part in the morning classes with the preschool kids. The kids were happy to see me again.

 

When the September was over, the October came surprisingly knocking to my new blessing – attending a children’s party who someone in DSAPI praised me as well. Her daughter turned one year old. And I met new parents again who also have special child with Down syndrome. I felt blessing to them. Meeting new parents and a special child felt the same way I was raised by own special parents. Then one special education teacher came over at the start of the month of November, a friend of special education teacher who came from one school they attended the same school. It gave me something that knocked to my senses.

 

After hearing the truth when my boss was asking me that I’ve had a crush to the special education teacher, it was then pushing to my limitations that I must forget my ex-girlfriend. Having going back with my ex-girlfriend was already hard to push on because she was engaging to married someone else. So the December’s Christmas party came over. The Christmas party was success event. And from at the back of my mind played a lot of imaginations before the 2014 came over. The new life succeeded to me that I’ve had a new job – being as an assistant teacher on my fourth job in my resume. And I was happy that I’ve had regular job already, my first one.

 

2014 came over at the start of January. It was then I realized that something intuition came again for me. I didn’t mind noticing it. But I was afraid to sense it again. But I forgot how to praise myself having with a regular job. Then the troubles came on the month of February 2014. After my parents heard that I’ve had getting a salary from my regular job, the intuition was right. It was my mistake but new lessons that I learned. I stopped from being what it took from my job. I was afraid to let it go and wanted continuing my mission with the students wanting to see me happy again.

 

The month of March came in, my emotions came and ate my pride. I didn’t know what happened to me. It started to crumble like a rock falling from the mountain or something it never did happening to my life. It was then my intuitions came over. As I sensed it, the ESP or Extra Sensory Projection (sixth sense) has learned throughout my predictions. Before the retreat was going to start soon, I’ve stopped working with them on my final day on 24th of March. From my conscience, I didn’t want to leave them alone but to prosper with my blessings on them. My mom talked about negative things again. She always wanted to have bringing negative things all the time. It was then that I’ve repelled her negatives into positive notes.

 

The time I’ve stopped working with my load provider before, my mom scrutinized and if the load business crumbled, where will I get the money always spending to sell the cellphone loads of them. I’ve to repelling them. So I thought my positive notes came true. This was the basic truth. Being having with positive life must learn the conscience the truth of positive notes. After I went through all the problems, no negative thoughts would allow entering at the back of my head. It was then I never hesitated. I stopped hesitating. And I didn’t want believing the negative thoughts.”

 

This was the tale of assistant teacher part 2. It covered the whole story from Assistant’s desk to Assistant’s corner: Going back around. The additions to the story I’ve added have come to seal the words that I brought it up. Lesson number one is never treat negative thoughts at the back of your head. Lesson number two allows you to remember your good deeds, positive mind and fills your hopes and answers. What will you do if you’ve encounter the same fate that I’ve? Don’t treat the negative. Allow positive flowing to your energy chakra.

 

The second part of conclusion was brought to the end. “Don’t be afraid of your future is awaiting for you, but allow them to come over for you to experience and endure the problems. Let the future handle you and the prosper won’t hurt you but you learn the blessings come knocking to your heart. Remember this as you guide your life alone in the way of beautiful life.

 

Conclusion article post:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/04/08/assistants-corner-the-tale-of-assistant-teacher/

 

Previous Assistant’s corner article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/31/assistants-corner-going-back-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/26/assistants-corner-when-it-comes-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/23/assistants-corner-the-beginning-of-new-life/

 

Previous Assistant’s desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/10/assistants-desk-new-life-has-blossom/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/01/11/assistants-desk-friends-forever/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/25/assistants-desk-last-christmas-party/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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I finally understand what it means for me. If a new profound family is awaiting for me, then I will definitely go back where I am going. I’m blind to see my own future. I only tell what my mind tells me to do at the back of my head. It’s contradicting me my own words. My actions is contradicting to my words. What leaves me behind is my reflection.

 

I may be gone in a while. But I will be not gone forever. It’s all beyond that matters what needs to know from myself and my knowledge. Should anyone acknowledge me beside the matters? Or perhaps I might thinking over all the words I always say outside at the back of my mind. Losing myself on the ground caused a lot of troubles the past week. Then I reflected too much of myself. I needed to know what mistakes should I learn. And from what I learn, there’s always a new beginning of new life.

 

The school loves me. The teacher loves me. My own self discovered the truth. And so it says the half truth. No matter what the world is looking me down, I’m always looking for up for them to know that I’m stronger and I’m still here around the corner. Thousands of shattered broken glass may find hard to bring it back to altogether. The hope seems lost. But the new hope doesn’t lit out from the light. It’s only bringing up back behind what it tells me to do inside at the back of my head. Moving forward is a moving picture. And moving picture tells me a moving positive sides. All those who are not attracting to one self sometimes are repelling to each other because of one’s place loses only themselves. Maybe that’s the hope is talking about at the back of my mind.

 

One week of reflection, one week of full coming back to my thoughts, one week of preparations and one week full of awaiting dreams for me are more than possible things I should done for more. But the patience overcomes me. I should realize that emotions sometimes are killing me over my own self. Looking myself in front of the mirror tells me that I’ve to move forward. Moving forward is what I have to tell my mind always. A thousand of reflections would have been passe me all down. But I decide what it keeps me holding on to my future.

 

Last week was torturing me because of my emotions but I followed my intentions. Going back around means a lot to me. Going back around is what makes me stronger. And going back around is what it defines me all about. I may be not a perfect human. I make mistakes also and admit to my lose once again on the ground. In times, “some battles may find to be winning, but some few battles may find losing all the time.” Whatever it may contradicts to me anymore, I finally understand what it makes me stronger. Then I want to get it back what’s missing of piece of puzzle tells me about.

 

It’s not me anymore. But it’s all about what I get meant to be have on myself. And I’m patience what defines me. But I’m not overwhelm what it needs to have explanations. Some problem may find it not overdue, but it always look solutions all the time. Problem has careless to think, but it has more attention proving it needed to be resolving soon. Tempting to do a mistake is what makes me stronger. But I finally understand myself what it doesn’t need to be contradicting me anymore.

 

Previous Assistant’s corner article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/26/assistants-corner-when-it-comes-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/23/assistants-corner-the-beginning-of-new-life/

 

Previous Assistant’s desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/25/assistants-desk-last-christmas-party/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

Itsmikki Studio. 2014 Copyrights. All rights reserved.

In every beyond the borders or casting around the valleys, the true talent you are seeking is already in your heart. And that leads to your passion. It finds where you are doing purposely. In your heart alone, there are always a struggle in your life. But those between your struggles, in your past times you are doing in your heart what you are doing for the sake you loved. Putting you to the test is another challenge. And a challenge is a greater responsibility to change from your heart.

~Status message in facebook, March 27, 2014, Friday, 1:13 p.m.

 

Living in a daylight that you are doing for a purpose. You live actively in 24 hours a day. You sleep 8 hours to recharge your stamina, your strength and your endurance. But seeking from your heart, you release 15 hours to prepare your day is. Your purpose is your choice. And your choice is what you are seeking from your bottom of your heart. Many of us deal a problems. Some in the society has their own family already. Some in the society don’t dwell to other problems but to seek for themselves looking a right job for them. Some in the society don’t ask to somebody who didn’t know them. We already alert for ourselves. We divert to some many things we could look to. But many of us are seeking for a right time and a right talent is.

 

You question to someone that he or she is really proud from his or her talent is. Then you already are envying him or her. Isn’t an obvious that you don’t have like him or her? It’s because deep inside of your heart, you question to your skills and your talents to someone else. Deep inside at the back of your mind tells you already what kind of questions these are.

 

Seeking the right opportunity, seeking the right job and seeking the right unknown talent for you, you realize it’s already one of seven sins that leads you right there. My advice for you is stop envying him or her talents or skills that they have. Flourish your talent or skill that you already have. Stop making sense what people tells you more. To say it from your heart is sometimes taking you to lead somewhere. Are you getting my sense? Well, obviously of course not, because you are my reader here in my article.

 

If you sense the right question and the right answer, I might ask you only two questions below. Honestly from my heart, these two questions will only question at the back of your mind what’s in my head by the way. But I believe it will find you there to flourish what you have now.

 

In all kinds of job anywhere around the globe, the country or the place you are living for. Yet you find another interesting establishment right beside your neighborhood. You are curious, of course. So what kind of job is it? Is it taking your skill or talent that will flourish there?

 

Here is my answer for you. In many job experiences that I’ve had before, there were only four job descriptions that I’ve had so far. My previous first three jobs being as a chef or a cook, it took me a while what it was really acquired to do or flourished your talent is. The truth was, being a chef was the only thing I couldn’t do inside the kitchen. Instead, I am best making the nutrition in each and every dish it would come out from the kitchen.

 

Like this ordinary carbonara with bacon and cheese, the recipe contains more calories. Plus the bacon has higher calories. When you added the cheese above, it is also consisting more calories. Was it nutrition dish you could eat? This recipe is above high calories dish. If I direct you to eat more valuable dish, like pasta with olives, capers, tuna, sweet chili sauce and pepper-flavored. It contains less calorie contents. Because it doesn’t have cheese, the tuna has omega-3 and sweet chili sauce is basically low calorie content.

 

My talent in the kitchen doesn’t measure well. But I can tell what kind of dish I should eat properly for my right diet needs. That’s one of my strength talent I have. Being as a nutritionist for my position can only flourish one at a time. And I can practice every day so I could eat more nutritional dishes in the future.

 

You come across the counter and say to the cashier, “good morning, what kind of job you have? I would like to get knowing of your job.” Then at the thoughts at the back of your mind saying that you want to apply the kind of job you need in the future. So you think at the back of your mind, you ask yourself and saying, how would you take in this career you choose?

 

Here is my answer to you. I’ve been said that I’ve been in culinary career before. Now I chose another path of different career – to be an inspirational person as a role model. Well, of course, I didn’t choose taking the path of teaching. But the path of teaching became attaching with me. My great grandfather who was once a teacher before has became my inspiration. But that was on my father’s side. On my mother’s side, my grandmother was once a teacher in a school teaching major in filipino and minor in history. Both sides were shown that I’ve yet to follow them on my own too.

 

I’ve decided to choose what was best for me. So I continued flourishing my talent helping the kids to grow their talents. So someday, they will be the ones thanking me in the future. So my heart felt to them. Being part of 10 months as an assistant teacher, I’ve seen myself as an icon in the future.

 

Choice of your career somehow will find you in the future. It couldn’t tell at the back of your head. To tell you the truth honestly, career as an educator to those students will take me to another career. I didn’t choose the career as an educator. But it chose me instead. It flourished my passion for these kids to grow on their potential talents. Like I was before, I was beginning to like on science. So I am still practicing as a nutritionist instead taking part as a chef. I was also beginning to like history, economics and literature. So I become part of my talents.

 

Talents such being as an entrepreneur isn’t hard for me. In fact, I begin to enjoy flourishing more of my talents. It becomes part of my life. Liking history and economics, it’s a big interest for me although I have politics blood running both to my family sides. But I said that I won’t use it for bad decisions. In literature, I begin continuing my career to write more on simple poems, sonnets, songs and stories. And eventually, I also like to write quotes on my own. Creating them on my own is a basic talent that I have.

 

So choosing your own path of talent can take you higher career. Do it practicing every day and have patience yourself. And also one word of advice, take yourself to talk more about yourself alone. When asking alone, it boosts your charisma then eventually take you talking to other people. Charisma is a big plus personality. That is what I also have on my own instincts of talents.

 

The story of Growth success: Believing more to your talents

 

I have fond of many talents that I have. To share with my success is something I could give a little advice before the article ends here. But showing for you might give you a clue. Look around yourself inside of your room. What makes you motivated more? Is it what you are making proud of yourself? Or something that you can’t do in the past, now you can do a lot of better today.

 

I loved how to count from 1 to 100 when I was a kid. But growing up like a mathematician, I wasn’t be going that far. I liked more that I can get information like in NBA statistics from points, rebounds, assists and a lot more to recite in statistics. It’s obvious you can’t have a lot of talents you have now.

 

But when I was still in sixth grade, I was already in loved with science. Being as a science lover, I didn’t get a chance growing up to be a scientist, a dentist, a field where you can excel or something that you really love for. This was what made me proud of. I’ve enhanced a lot both in science and in arts. When I was starting to draw physically in traditional arts in science. My teacher would’ve graded me a higher score, but I couldn’t remembered how high I got in those I.W. (individualized work). To explain furthermore, I’ve ended up loving more in volcanoes and someday when I got a glimpse of a volcano. I will become to call as a volcano photographer. It didn’t come to me as well. But I flourished a little in photography talent that I’ve had.

 

And I also didn’t notice that I can do improving more on arts as I’ve passed on. To become to an end, someday I also ended up like an artist. And it was real. I became excel both in traditional arts and in digital arts. As an artist, you always have to practice every now as then. For me, being as an artist makes you more vulnerable in all aspects. But I never give up. Practicing makes you growing forward and flourish every time you make it.

 

Dancing or acting to dance was my mighty in-born talent. Despite my disability being having as Down syndrome wasn’t my hindrance anymore. I began widening my eyes to see looking forward and moving forward as well. I was then called my parents going to the front of an audience. Then I started to dance as well. Dancer as it called when you flourished your dancing acts as well. An in-born talent made you worth to practice every day of your life. Even at my age, I might catch up to the latest music from this generation to old generation as well.

 

Success of being talent you’ve shared through all of your life will measure your strength to change the world or your nation that is. But being alone hones you make practicing even more higher height. It will become your backbone of your talent someday.

 

Aside from my talents I also have was writing. My writings before was really that bad, or to make it worse in a wrong sentence, or broken phrases might be. Deep inside my heart, I also wanted to be a writer. Making a novel, or a comic story will shine of your career. But the problem was nobody believed on my talents. Not aside when I grew up stronger enough to stand on my own.

 

As a writer made you deciding what kind of words you would show up in a group of sentences in a paragraph. In a climax near ending of your story will show your strength if your characters build well enough to create a good story. But I’ve never done a story before when I was a child. I grew up as a poet first way back when I was in high school years. That was the time of my birth. And a birth became my passion to write. I wasn’t aware of that. But I was glad to have flourishing my own talents.

 

Literature was among my favorite subjects in high school. And so the name also began appeared before graduating in college. And the rest of the history was written already. Science, literature, music, economics and science were my top subjects in my elementary days up to high school years. And I am using my talents up to now, even to date itself today.

 

Your story will be written if you are believing more to your talents.

 

Itsmikki Studio. 2014 Copyrights. All rights reserved.

Each of inch has a success to your life whether it is love life, financial or something you could withdraw your life better than unusual things you discover to yourself. I see many top conclusions that never ends a happy ending, but it ends with a sad ending. You focus yourself to your past and redo it all over again. To satisfy of yourself must stay enduring yourself.

 

To tell you the truth honestly, at the back of my head thinks what it comes around inside of my life. For the remaining details in your life takes back anything, you wouldn’t take care of everything. It was something to do what you really want to do. First, you always have to discipline yourself in greater responsibility. And second, there are many times you will succeed but never give up. Giving up is a failure. And a greater success will bless you more.

 

The moment you realize is the more you get success points you can get. In my experiences before, I usually can tell that I really never give up. Giving up on one occasional habit makes you stepping closer to get you up to success ladder.

 

Let me give you some of my pointer tips what I have:

 

In my skills alone, I can multi-tasking with my skills doing to draw a 30-minute traditional drawing, making a lyrics in 10-15 minutes longer depends how it’s long about, writing an article in 15-25 minutes depends on brainstorming event, cleaning the room depends how it long will you take and making a habit disciplining closer to success.

 

Let me rephrase that. Since I’m not a perfect writer, I also can happen to dance in a few dance moves I have, can reciting a song to practice in one whole day or possible in two hours, can also think what’s inside at the back of my head. I’m not a perfect leader also. But I can take you there. It happens that I’m a skilled person as everybody has said to me that I also have a potential talent – which is a leader.

 

Being a leader makes you important to lead your role. You can never go back the way you can be. You always practice yourself in a first step ladder – as an apprentice. Being as an apprentice, you can practice what field you can get and have experience all the way to the top. But being as an apprentice is one of the hardest role because it takes time to practice. It may take days, months or even in years. More importantly, you learn the valuable lessons as an apprentice.

 

Apprentice is also one of the bridge role that can make you shifting to one another skill or talent that you have. If you have potential talent, in that case you can go higher roles you can land on.

 

Those days it saved me from the past before and I’ve learned my lessons. On which I’ve had experiencing three jobs that I’ve landed only two months each apart. But on my fourth job, it successfully got me lessons to be learn. And I also happened that I got 10 months already. It was already surpassing my longest employment history. Well, it is a fact and not as a joke.

 

What else you can tell? When it comes around, there are many excuses in your life.  When you’re saying an excuse, you always complain that you don’t learn that much. It means that you’re limiting yourself in knowledge terms. Always have a empty glass at the back of your head so you can learn something new what’s inside of a new knowledge. With a limitation lessons, you always find the key importance of lessons. And that way you can also find yourself in your skills and talents.

 

Talents are in-born talents. When you say it’s a skill, meaning you learn some new skill that it added to your life skills. Life skills such as you can knitting a cloth with a various colors of knitting, or earning an important skill like learn how to cook, learn how to prepare things for making important life skill. Life skills is more important than talents. But as such as talents, you can also learn how to provide your materials. Materials can make you more resourceful in a way that you can make life earning skill.

 

This is when it comes around your skills and talents you have. Don’t waste with your energy and time. Because if you do that, you will need your body to recharge at night as well.

 

Previous Assistant’s corner article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/23/assistants-corner-the-beginning-of-new-life/

 

Previous Assistant’s desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/25/assistants-desk-last-christmas-party/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

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I always see the beautiful life on a big flat green planet where there is always a beautiful animals, beautiful creatures, and beautiful living inside and out. But what can you do to make it your past something to do for your present now? To think that way at the back of my head seems losing the ground itself. To tell you the truth honestly, every life today is beautiful. You can either go to the dreams you are going. Or you should stop and try searching around the globe. The globe itself has a big 4 billion population. One small world makes you beautiful when you find out that there is someone you know is connecting to one common friend you have.

 

Well, it commonly does the same thing when you are meeting someone and if you find some connections, eventually you and the person you are referring to connect for one common friend you have. It’s a big deal. Our planet is always full of surprises.

 

Of all things in the world when there is inseparable dreams never seem to happen, there will be always a place to count for your dreams to continue. One dream seems to happen. One goal has to achieve some your smaller details to grow bigger. And one inseparable dream might come back where you are coming from – your future is. People as they speak dreams are not real and some people don’t speak the truth but they continue that their dreams are real. One big question – how you will change your height of your dreams? Nevertheless, it counts how small vision can turn you bigger vision of dreaming higher.

~Status facebook message, March 25, 2014, Tuesday, 7:19 p.m.

 

Here are some three weird explanations you want to find in this article:

 

1. Myth: You don’t like family tree or genealogy when you’re still a child. But as the old sayings says that if a first child in the family is favorite’s grandparents’ grandchild. The first child knows everything about the family tree or genealogy.

Fact: It didn’t come to me as I knew when I was still a child. In fact, when I grew up and finally knew where I came from. I started to like family tree or better known as your genealogy roots from both sides of your families.

 

2. Myth: It said that if the youngest child is spoiled child, it will get anything from the parents or siblings. And it has a greater intelligence quotient but it has a lesser emotional quotient.

Fact: Youngest child doesn’t consist as a spoiled child. It lacks of information getting the child or the person is. That if the child is the youngest, he or she would be intelligent. It doesn’t need to be intelligent or emotional, it needs discipline and behavioral test at home.

 

3. Myth: The middle child is always a miserable child. A naughty child that needs attention or a clown that attracts from the society as their relatives.

Fact: I was a middle child, third sibling among five siblings. Being as a middle child, it doesn’t consist that I am a miserable child. To count that is not miserable, it consists a variety numbers of gifted child. It materializes what it needs to be finish. It can also multi-task some things to do when it needs to do.

 

Despite of all things that God create in our living world planet called earth, it would have a beautiful life. And there is a mountain of hope, a valley of faith and river that streams your trustworthy in the land. No matter what it says, it always has to be said and says, “every life is new no matter in the beginning that will do in the present and it will last for the future upbringings.

 

One question has come to my intentions and there is always one answer needed. What do you need to know accessing from the past? The answer would be and says, “Go back where you come from and tell me about your past. So I will know what your character is. And for your background check, it will find a new meaning from accessing from your past.

 

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I always tell myself how I look in the future. Can I have a girlfriend? Can I marry myself to a beautiful woman who will accept me whole-heartedly? Can she love me the way I have my life today? But there are so many things in my life that I still have to conquer about myself. But my distraction today is looking for another job that suits for me. I’m not happy anymore in my situation. Because when someone has to be standing on my shadows, it would kill me one by one emotionally but not physically. My mom would keep me locking on my shadows.

 

When my emotions are draining me out, some along the way in my journey I am no longer existed. I have Down syndrome. It’s not a hindrance to me anymore. But the hindrance I cannot accept is an attitude. When an attitude is on my way when someone is not agreeing with me, that’s how you look that you are pretending to be someone locking on my cage.

 

Do I have to stay longer? Does my parents know me what I want? All their decisions made it for themselves. I have too many questions in my today. I’ve been quarreling on my other side at the back of my head knowing if I’m still good or not.

 

I’ve been sitting in my own bed, thinking if I’m ready to another relationship. My job is still kicking up to my nerves. My mom stares at the back of my head thinking if she will keep staring on me. I’m not a perfect human. Every human in the world has mistakes on their own. Nonetheless, every human has own mind what they are doing. Perhaps I give myself a mistake every now and then.

 

If I give up one thing in my life, I would stare on my wall again and staring blankly in a quiet room. My room has full of dreams. And some doors will surely keep knocking me again. If I go out again for tomorrow, what dream will have to wait for me? If my life give up, I wouldn’t mind to quit on top of my performance level inside at the back of my head. Is that how you treat me well? Of course not, I am not that kind of human.

 

If there are shadows that cannot be broken, there will be a light. And a light will shine in beautiful life. Life has full of mysteries whether has one goal has been struggling in my life. And that one goal, will I be getting married in the future? There are thousand of girls in the lonely planet. Each kind, each race, each better has come, but there will be only one who deserves my heart better.

 

One heart, one simple smile and a sweet glare of a beautiful smiling girl is waiting for me. If there’s a sunrise on the beach I could wait to see in beautiful morning, there will be a sunset. And that sunset is a girl who will keep me accompanying me in the future. Who deserves to know me better? What kind of a woman will win on my heart? Is she the one will keep my heart? I don’t know of these questions to be asked.

 

I’m suddenly feeling to my heart  that I can barely to know. If she is the one, I could be hard to breathe around when my mom is still around keeping to stare at me. Shadows are always there that cannot be broken, but there will be a light always that shines in beautiful life. Knowing one mistake you would do, some hidden mistake will appear on your own way.

 

New life has made. New birth consists a new importance in each and every human being. In that new birth, it means new hope, new faith and new role – a role model. I cannot stand what an attitude is always blocking my way to achieve. But there are many thousand of paths to be chosen. One goal to another goal, I’ve been sealing one goal to achieve and that is the highest of all dreams.

~Status message in facebook, March 23, 2014, Sunday, 10:23 p.m.

 

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I sat on the chair across the empty room where I began thinking at the back of my head which one should I do it first. In my vision for the day, I realized that I put too much of effort for my work. Little did I know was a little thought inside at the back of my head. Should I prefer to talk or to begin with a silence? Maybe I am a little conscious. Every day I always clean the classroom, now I am beginning to wonder what the little details will coming inside of my head. I should realize that I am helplessly thinking.

 

Each day has passed, each night I’ve helplessly slept with my pillows. The old days were over. But I never presumed that those days will bring it back to me. I began to wonder and wonder what would my days will be at the blink of an eye.

 

The summer is coming and the recognition day is coming in for the next two weeks more. The teachers are inseparable. And my two bosses were looking at me as their own brother. It was then I realized that I didn’t have an elder brother. I was a middle child in five siblings but I was an older brother to our youngest brother. Looking for the right place and right time didn’t matter to me. I was looking disarray on myself. Then sudden with my eyes felt sleepy. I was unconscious very night helplessly to wake up again. I almost wanted to wake up from reality.

 

My days are becoming dull and wide to have happen that I don’t it like. Timid but stubborn I was before. I didn’t want to bring it back to my personality. It has something to do with the person who is still working in the school. I didn’t like him. But I become not enjoying anymore and my eagerness to come in the school is becoming late. Forcing myself to work must something for me to energize for my whole day. I didn’t felt the presence.

 

I became more stubborn. But I don’t like. When I become stubborn, I should look for another job that suits for me. Maybe if time will permit, I should realize about that. But in ordinary days, I become disoriented. But right now what I feel toward going to my work, I feel more uneasiness. Should I continue with my emotions? Or should I take a rest first? But untimely in my life, I always seem happy everyday I see the smiling kids around the school.

 

I am becoming more unstable. Unstable in the way of living of money, I constantly drop from my performance. But I don’t want to let it happen. I might not create any happiness anymore. For moving forward, I must seek the dreams what I have today. Hmm…it’s easy to say but you’re not doing for action you are doing right now. All my life depended on the past. Or should I continue living away from my comfort zone? But I don’t know the answers yet.

 

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Every single day you ask me why I am not as seen as Down syndrome. It’s because it’s not a hindrance to me anymore. Disability as they speak, or not as disability as the others seems they don’t believe in it. One day, I ask them also why I am standing in my little shadows. I conquer my fears and doubts that has been casting away all my hatred, depression and frustrations from my life. I firmly believe that I also can do what others can do – in order to reach the highest goals.

~Status message in facebook, March 16, 2014, Sunday, 9:17 p.m.

 

No labels as Down syndrome: Conquering the new fear

No labels as Down syndrome: Conquering the new fear

 

It helped me to think at the back of my head that it would be another conquering one of my greatest fear: social sharing. It was the time that built my character that I spoke from my words. And sometimes when I shared my thoughts to anybody else, I would like to share my greatest fear – doubting myself to nothing.

 

I have being what you called me as a disability. And being as a disability for me don’t label me anymore as being having with Down syndrome. I set my days to be told and the days have been set me free. I always tell myself if I can do it more like as a motivational speaker. And I was once a guest speaker in University of Santo Tomas who I spoke to graduating students and educational students as they are becoming special education teachers someday. I was welcomed and became red teary from that moment.

 

One student who approached me in the facebook and chatted with me if I can go to the University of Santo Tomas. I was glad to take an opportunity to speak in the crowd. And a crowd was filled different participating special schools from Padre Burgos, Cupertino and from Metro Manila area, with teachers and volunteers in participating schools. I was scared at the time. But since it was first time. My anxiety became once my fear.

 

What is my greatest fear? Anxiety that it was called. But I loved to talk to someone I really knew. To someone I barely know, I wouldn’t talk to the stranger. My parents have really said to me that I wouldn’t talk to the strangers. But when the time I walked-in to the school I wanted really had a job. It offered me as an assistant teacher job. I met a wonderful boss. And I thought at the back of my head that he really was a bossy that time. Little by little, I became part with him also. Day by day when we talked, and night by night that I chatted even in text messages.

 

What was my fear again? It got lost. The anxiety inside of me has changed. And able to talk to new stranger, it coped from my problems. I’ve had been in denial stage since the day I’ve graduated the year of 2003. But from my hindrance before, the learning stage I’ve been through. It was dated back since the year of 1997. I learned that I’ve being condition as Down syndrome. And what it told me? It ate my pride. And I ate the word of anxiety. I became lost. I became desperate finding my answers. And years that I’ve had been in depression, frustration and hatred. What I have become to have my condition. Was it okay to move forward? And I have said that I was really lost.

 

My life since 1997 up to the present has been changed from the learning stage to in denial stage and to acceptance stage.

 

Learning stage

 

I love science before even up to now. And I began loving to draw even higher creative details to imaginative details. That moment I learned how I made science making real traditional artist. I drew a thousand science pictures from one book. And I was once a hundred percent student who loved drawing arts in science. In fact, when I found myself having with Down syndrome in my sophomore year in high school. I’ve withdrew with my stance and my post. I lost my confidence. So I hid from my emotions. That was the year of 1997 when I was still in my sophomore year in high school.

 

In denial stage

 

Knowing that I’ve been graduated from high school in the year of 2000 and moved on to the culinary years that I’ve entered in my prestigious culinary school in the Philippines, Center for Culinary Arts. And the moment I stepped in that school, all the things were different from my previous school. I lost my confidence. And I lost my conscience making up where I will go. My dreams shattered. University of the Philippines, University of Santo Tomas and La Salle College was the top choices I’ve wanted to go in. If I went in UP, I would be bested in theatre arts. If I went in UST, I would be bested in music. Or if I went in La Salle, I would be fitted in multimedia arts, music or any related course that I went in. But my pride fell. So I listened to my mother’s advices. I ate my own words and my anxiety grew powerful.

 

Anxiety made me angry every day and every night. Eventually I went deeper in my frustrations and depression mood. It was because what it happened during my sophomore year in high school. I learned the fact that I’ve being what it takes to be as a hindrance having with Down syndrome. I dived into my fears and doubts that I couldn’t reached in my biggest dreams – to enter in the entertainment industry. My mom enrolled me in dancing lessons during I was in my culinary years. And I enjoyed my stay and learned the basics of dancing. Eventually I learned how to dance hip-hop, ballet and traditional dancing also.

 

I felt my agony. I felt bitterness. I felt my depression. And my frustration would became wider and wider. When my two elder sisters were here, they stopped me drowning into fears as I almost went to suicide. But I couldn’t do it. Because I was afraid of myself. And the anxiety grew bigger and bigger inside of my personality.

 

Acceptance stage

 

The year of 2011 came into my life when I started to post some products I’ve wanted to have retailer down to my name. It was then, the networking came to my life, or so as to be called as multi-level marketing. I was fresh blood and didn’t knew the word of networking. So I joined in June 2011. Petrified that I was inside the networking company. All in the audience inside the establishment building shouted and said, “I am abnormal to become richer one day.” One word that has changed me instantly. What was the word I was called during my elementary and high school days? It was the word of sped. That word derived from the word of retarded. I began to wake up in reality and stopped what I was doing things that I didn’t like.

 

I only lasted in networking days about five months, almost as six months regular employee. Since that day, I’ve accepted my condition being having with Down syndrome and grew my confidence. But I didn’t know the genetically lessons about Down syndrome. I’ve been introduced through my relative’s friend who was been in Davao. They were both volunteers because they were both taking in special education course. Then Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines has been introduced into my ears in January 2012. I went to listen awareness in February annual Happy Walk, the yearly advocating month of Down syndrome.

 

And I became a member in December 2012. Blessings poured me down. Last year was a roller coaster. I didn’t have a job. My sister was getting married in September. What should I do? I asked myself. Then one incident came to my life. I did have experience to have a girlfriend last May 2013. But it only lasted 8 days of relationship. Then it pushed me getting a new job. So I walked in. And the unexpected job came to my life – being as an assistant sped teacher.

 

Anxiety acceptance stage

 

The last and not the least stage is my anxiety acceptance stage. A hindrance of Down syndrome is no longer part of my life or better to be called as no labels as Down syndrome. My boss said it was better for me to move on. And I did.

 

All my anxiety inside of my personality exchanged with new meanings: determination, acceptance, appreciation and confidence. Four words from one word, I drained all of my anxiety sickness. And the anxiety sickness I already overcame.

 

No labels as Down syndrome, what else is new? It decides to be conquering new fears.

 

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The world shows how we care for each and every of us. And I, included here, will also know how I am learning through all the stages I’ve been through. Determination shows me how I am really going to my dreams. Dreams are not that away from me. Although there are many clues in my life today that is showing in this year of 2014, and all that I am going to do is acting to my knowledge and learn how to get there in that stage.

 

More each and every day I see myself in the distant future. If I am not here today, I wouldn’t be going ahead  to my dreams. But sometimes I also need how life is also important to our daily lives. Appreciation is all I need where I can stand on my own. And sometimes when I feel lonely, all I need is to pray in few minutes or more and ask what is hidden in my confession prayers. Prayers are also important for each problems we have in life. We need a lot intentionally prayers through intercession.

 

Too much asking from God sometimes doesn’t give right away in your place. Praying in a long time-frame will have a process and it has to be constant for you to understand. It don’t give in and also it doesn’t count how many reasons or chances will have to go in your place. If you have too many reasons in your life and you want it right away. That doesn’t count. It gives a long sacrifice and silence when you are giving yourself with Him above.

 

Build an foundation in your place is also part of growing up in your life. Acceptance is one of the building processes to believe in yourself and it’s also part of growing matured of your life. It doesn’t count the way you can say that you’ve move on already. Acceptance is also part of growing who you are right now. Building yourself to other’s shoes doesn’t build you up. It has to be you. Don’t count or don’t rely to others. Help yourself. And always be conscious what you are doing good choices and replace it from bad choices you have in your life.

 

Today what I have now is a foundation of yourself to build up your character. When you find yourself in the distant future, trust with your life and submit yourself to Him above. Confidence needs a lot of practice and it takes time to have patience in your life. When you don’t have them both, then you are not ready to face conquering your fears and doubts. Racing through your life, when you are in trials or problems you are right now, gives you more to understand in your situation. I may be not a perfect person, but says the Lord that you are perfect to Him because you know of yourself than any person knows you well. He alone knows what you are doing and what you give back the situation you are in. Because the bigger confidence you have now with Him above, you believe in yourself to Him.

 

Every life is about changing everyday and night. It has special meanings in occasions. It don’t bring good or bad karma in your life. But it says that you underestimate it your own self. Believe it more to Him and it begins to believe it in your self. Every challenge in your life is a temporary shelf life. Don’t bring yourself to hatred. Hatred may bring you to frustration, depression or even in trouble times in your life.

 

Every life is new when you face yourself near the future. You cannot see yourself in the future if you are not doing it actively. Unless sacrifice some things you don’t have like gadgets or something that is valuable for you. When you enter your life in second life, all the things you have now are temporary things in your life.

 

Every life is new when you know the dreams are waiting for you. It doesn’t create the shortcomings. It creates new imaginations or a cloud of full dreams above your wildest imaginations. It also creates your confidence, acceptance, appreciation and determination in your life. Because when you believe for yourself. You adore your life even more better and you will guide even bigger dreams to fill in your own shoes.

 

NOTES:

 

Every Life is New is the second anniversary article this year 2014. It also marks the 493rd year of Philippines history since March 16, 1521. This is also the third book covering new chapters, new series, new wisdom quotes and there will be a lot new articles coming this year.

 

The new second series Assistant’s corner will starting soon after it ended from the first series Assistant’s desk with 13 pages in its first chapter. Also the second series of Living in my own shoes being as Down syndrome  will also starting soon after it ended from the first series Living being as Down syndrome with 10 pages in its first chapter. Living in my own shoes being as Down syndrome will tackle more interesting topics and new experiences that it will take place bringing back the life before when I am still in denial stage.

 

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