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After seeing the end of journey of being as an assistant teacher, I’ve all want to share my blessings that takes me from every chapter has moving within me. This is the part 2 of The tale of assistant teacher.


Love life has moved twice as I’ve reached the mountains. But the roadblock at the end of the road told me to move on. Why was it happened me between being having as an assistant teacher? Was I even told to be a better assistant teacher? Or was it somebody who doesn’t like too much of being noisy adult? I was always talking and talking to myself in a minutes or in an hour. Telling you the truth honestly, some of the lessons I’ve been going through proved my excellence in my journey. I wasn’t noisy as anymore before. I was waiting for someone listening my side of my story. But was it someone who can lean to?


I’ve covered my eyes as I was waiting for my side. I’ve also covered my ears so I won’t listen to the story. When did I stop talking raging nonsense? I’ve full of passion, full of energy and full of hope. All my positive sides wanted telling you I was able telling the truth.


Honestly I wasn’t perfect human as God says in the bible, ‘there is no perfect human in the world.‘ True. But I hope it would allow somebody to tell the truth. All the angels were sending from heaven telling me if I would continue be a humble person. But I didn’t know which one I was suppose to do.


Let me tell you my whole story from the beginning I went through the start of my story:


“The school orientation came over on 10th of June, 2013. And every parent was there to hear from the stories of two teachers, one from preschool who came to teach the preschoolers and one from special education who came to teach special education kids how to handle on their own in the future. And it was a surprise that my bosses told me that they coped with my problems. I did telling them that I’ve had being having with Down syndrome. But they didn’t know with the word of mosaic Down syndrome, trisomy 21. It was a sudden blessing from heaven that I sent here for a mission. And it was all started to be humble from the good beginnings that begun.


I told them that mosaic has two copies of chromosomes is normal and one copy of chromosome has extra set. Which it is why it formed mosaic Down syndrome. Even Dr. Jerome Lejeune discovered before. But holding right there from my chromosome, my knowledge that I learned. I also hope to bring a message to all special parents who helped their special child to grow like I was standing. My two bosses were taking their jobs as school administrator, principal and also being part as an occupational therapist. Then I started to know when will I begin from my job.


The start of classes went by as the school started on 17th of June, every child has own their behavior. Their behavior that my boss told me being part of growing up have to nurturing their talent. Which was it how it handle the special kids? From ADHD, autism, cerebral palsy and even Down syndrome, the four cases I saw from different special kids in the classroom. I’ve learned new things that I discovered. But my world shook at the back of my mind what needs to learn must have extra careful. To set aside, the nutrition month was coming, the month of July. And there was an interns. And an interns from MCU were optometrist graduates. They were here to practice their lives. And so my life henceforth held on.


New things I discovered that those of who having had troubles with extra care must know how to overcome. And new discovery must learn how to cope with the problems in the future. And I learned each of trials or problems may come must confront of all details. And I fell in love looking one intern who was my one of my type. But I didn’t mind to fall in love. Because it gave me a new inspiration. And a new inspiration came to build my character. Those things in life were about to unfold the new secrets of love life.


So the nutrition month came finally over. I’ve enjoyed the feeling of being youth again. My boss turned good friend of mine. He was able to know my feelings and my inner strength. I’ve must confronted all the details that my mom didn’t know. The negative came from my mom’s aura. But my positive aura came bigger and bigger. And so to tell you my story, before the vacation nulled me thinking right now, the month of August also came. It swept my thoughts at the back of my head that the livelihood project I was working on failed to my own hands. But I learned the lessons that I must strived back with my own hands. And my boss was right that I’ve had to move on. But the typhoon swept all the problems came in. As we started to rebuild new school ground, we relocated new higher facility and bigger spaces to fill in. But the problem came in.


As the month of September 2013 came in, we handled our first language of the month (buwan ng wika) supposed to held last month of August. If the typhoon didn’t persisting to trouble with us, then the language of the month didn’t have to occur. The event was successful. Some kid won in the competition and some kid won the hearts in the audience. It really captivated the hearts of many students participated in the event. It was a brilliant idea. But the fact 13th of September came in, I felt I didn’t want to leave the kids alone with someone they really wanted to keep with. I never said that I won’t come back. But I promised that I would go back. As you promised one word, you kept it from your actions. If it failed, you were a failure. But failure sometimes took granted to rebuild the trust.


I went to Toronto attending my sister’s wedding with my family. And it was my first time in my life I felt I didn’t sleep the whole trip. I was scared of a whole trip might falling down like a turbulence in the movie. So I felt right from my shoes and my feet. I felt scared. But God alone never leaves us. He kept me awake instead and enjoyed watching movies. I also played some of tetris game. But the fact I’ve enjoyed, I’ve finished 6 movies in my first trip going to Toronto. My sister’s wedding was beautiful. She was dressed like a beautiful princess. And my new brother came to welcome to our new family, my sister’s husband. So I was happy to meet new family. When will I have my own family? When it will stop that my mom would nagging me all the time? But hey, I was blessed to have with them on my life. Then on the way back to the Philippines, I’ve also finished 7 movies and played a little game of tetris.


On the way back to the Philippines after the storm finished before we came in the territory of Philippines, I was happy to see the students again. I was happy and turned to be a responsible adult. And being part as a special adult, a lot of things turned good and bad news came in. The bad news was when the preschool teacher left us without a notice. But I continued to communicate with her until now. And the good news that I became a full-time assistant teacher in the school being also part in the morning classes with the preschool kids. The kids were happy to see me again.


When the September was over, the October came surprisingly knocking to my new blessing – attending a children’s party who someone in DSAPI praised me as well. Her daughter turned one year old. And I met new parents again who also have special child with Down syndrome. I felt blessing to them. Meeting new parents and a special child felt the same way I was raised by own special parents. Then one special education teacher came over at the start of the month of November, a friend of special education teacher who came from one school they attended the same school. It gave me something that knocked to my senses.


After hearing the truth when my boss was asking me that I’ve had a crush to the special education teacher, it was then pushing to my limitations that I must forget my ex-girlfriend. Having going back with my ex-girlfriend was already hard to push on because she was engaging to married someone else. So the December’s Christmas party came over. The Christmas party was success event. And from at the back of my mind played a lot of imaginations before the 2014 came over. The new life succeeded to me that I’ve had a new job – being as an assistant teacher on my fourth job in my resume. And I was happy that I’ve had regular job already, my first one.


2014 came over at the start of January. It was then I realized that something intuition came again for me. I didn’t mind noticing it. But I was afraid to sense it again. But I forgot how to praise myself having with a regular job. Then the troubles came on the month of February 2014. After my parents heard that I’ve had getting a salary from my regular job, the intuition was right. It was my mistake but new lessons that I learned. I stopped from being what it took from my job. I was afraid to let it go and wanted continuing my mission with the students wanting to see me happy again.


The month of March came in, my emotions came and ate my pride. I didn’t know what happened to me. It started to crumble like a rock falling from the mountain or something it never did happening to my life. It was then my intuitions came over. As I sensed it, the ESP or Extra Sensory Projection (sixth sense) has learned throughout my predictions. Before the retreat was going to start soon, I’ve stopped working with them on my final day on 24th of March. From my conscience, I didn’t want to leave them alone but to prosper with my blessings on them. My mom talked about negative things again. She always wanted to have bringing negative things all the time. It was then that I’ve repelled her negatives into positive notes.


The time I’ve stopped working with my load provider before, my mom scrutinized and if the load business crumbled, where will I get the money always spending to sell the cellphone loads of them. I’ve to repelling them. So I thought my positive notes came true. This was the basic truth. Being having with positive life must learn the conscience the truth of positive notes. After I went through all the problems, no negative thoughts would allow entering at the back of my head. It was then I never hesitated. I stopped hesitating. And I didn’t want believing the negative thoughts.”


This was the tale of assistant teacher part 2. It covered the whole story from Assistant’s desk to Assistant’s corner: Going back around. The additions to the story I’ve added have come to seal the words that I brought it up. Lesson number one is never treat negative thoughts at the back of your head. Lesson number two allows you to remember your good deeds, positive mind and fills your hopes and answers. What will you do if you’ve encounter the same fate that I’ve? Don’t treat the negative. Allow positive flowing to your energy chakra.


The second part of conclusion was brought to the end. “Don’t be afraid of your future is awaiting for you, but allow them to come over for you to experience and endure the problems. Let the future handle you and the prosper won’t hurt you but you learn the blessings come knocking to your heart. Remember this as you guide your life alone in the way of beautiful life.


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This has been 14 years already when I was struggling to my problems before I knew that I have Down syndrome. It was then, a miserable life. But I always have had to ask myself what I’ve had done in my life? Was it good to have experience this way or was it bad? Some of the thoughts at the back of my head thinking if I was overacting to my thoughts. The real solutions came later in my life. Those 14 years from the year of 1997 when I learned that I have had Down syndrome, was one of the hardest times I’ve never achieved back then.


Learning from my experiences in the year of 2011, the year of changing of views came and exchanged stumbling to my thoughts at the back of my head if I was correctly myself. Then I said it to myself, it was time to let it go and accepted who I was. It was the Disney movie animation theme song from Frozen, Let It Go, when I felt the same way I always sang it to my heart. It was really painful that time, and I felt that it was something in my heart that I wasn’t a perfect gift. After I saw and heard Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines last January 2012 in the social network platform, it was then I felt that I wasn’t alone in the country knowing that I was feeling this way. But in my heart alone, the coldness and the numbness inside of my heart were melting one by one inside of my painful memories. It was the song I also learned that past is the past. So I moved on.


What can I do to be in my life today? Should I wake up? Or should I move on? Those repeating questions always have asked in my head until today. But I said to myself that I can do this through a lot of hardship relationship with God. I said to myself that I will be always loyal and be obedient. When I hear a lot of comments at the side of my negative side at the back of my head, I always block the negative sides. And to think of it at the back of my head, I will always allowing myself thinking more positive sides inside of my brain.


Journey of Down syndrome

Journey of Down syndrome


If I can do allowing myself to do more than I can do anything, I will claim all myself to Him alone. But the gift inside of my heart will be always cherishing inside of my life. The country Philippines should learn one by one of the facts that being having disability or not, people should be aware what they are doing against some of the special people and disability people. Because in reality, there are some people who can’t trusted what the words they are saying from their mouths. It’s their attitude is what their disability all about.


I may be have being having Down syndrome, but my heart is pure, sensitive and always understanding. I will always have to be calm all the time. And I claim my life to the Lord because everything here in the land are all temporary shelves in life. With two copies of chromosomes are normal and an extra copy of chromosome is called Mosaic Down syndrome, based on trisomy 21 chromosome test led by Dr. Jerome Lejeune and Dr. John L. Down who learned and discovered about Down syndrome, respectively.


Life is always have been as one of toughest of journey. And a journey is waiting for me in the future will unfold to me. With a lot of unquestionable questions they have hiding in the future, it will wait for me to test it. But along with powerful believing myself is all my strength left. Because all things are possible no matter what you are dreaming in your life. With a help from my promising life, I always seek to my unique talents and use it for my purpose doings. I will achieve in small things. And every smaller details of smaller things will deliver the message for me waiting to achieve. So the power of believing is one of my optimistic thoughts.


Two years have passed by from the year of 2012. 2012 was the perfect opportunity year to change me as well. And the blessings from 2012 was still continuing to bless me last year of 2013. Last year was a little bumpy to me. I have had experiencing with 8 days of relationship with my ex-girlfriend. It was a fling actually, but it counted as one anyway. Then she was the one who pushed me that I’ve had to wake up from a reality that I needed a job anyway. When I walked in for the first time in my life in a school, I grabbed the opportunity and continued the battles I’ve had today. This month was my eighth month anyway in my job.


The passion from my heart when I felt from the special children, it felt me that I began to like as a role model and a brother to most kids with Down syndrome. We also have kids with Autism and ADHD. Kids like them are gifted children. When I learned everything I could learn from my two bosses, I always wanted to be a teacher when I was thinking at the back of my head before. But I didn’t have an special education course diploma neither that I’ve had an education course diploma. I always asked myself everyday before when the time I was in depressed and frustrated times. I couldn’t do it. Because I was still in trauma years. It was years to build my courage back in reality. Fourteen years (14) that I always counted from 1997 to 2011. After building 3 years from 2011 until today, it was a difficult trial to me but I’ve had to accept it.


Then I suddenly woke up in reality and I said to myself that I can normally do what other people can do mostly in their lives. Applying, getting a passport and completing the papers was the first priorities that I did last year. And I did have a job. I’ve completely to be honest that I can do this with normal people. People with bad attitude are their disability. Somehow I don’t want them to judge, but they have to look us as our abilities what we can do. We may have unique intelligence in one, two or more fields. But we are capable trying to absorb in normal lives everyday in life struggling in a real world.


Being labeling having with Down syndrome is also one of greatest gift and a journey has more to tell you more stories.


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The key of success life is to live peaceful, harmoniously, optimistic and free to open your mind to one of happiness times. I always think free flow at the back of my head never believe to sadness, sorrowful, hurtful or believing to negative thoughts. Seeing my future to unfold will realize how important trials or problems will test me. No matter what makes depressed me, I will stand way out that being having with Down syndrome will be no longer as my label but to act as normal. I am who I am. And I believe in happiness no matter troubles will bring me in.”

~Status message in facebook, January 27, 2014, Tuesday, 8:28 p.m.


It changes my life from the past to what I am standing right now. When I encountered more of my problems before stating I was in depression and frustration times, I was always looking myself down to the mirror before the typhoon in Manila hit last September 26, 2009, Saturday morning. It was then I looked always how I was unchanged looking myself in the mirror. I was thinking at the back of my head I was locking in the cave no wondering that I would ever come back to see the light.


When I saw a light at the end of cave, I always thought that something was missing about myself. It is a matter of acceptance giving myself to change more about myself and to the people who really loves me much. Giving a chance that I have Down syndrome, mosaic Down syndrome that indicates two copies of chromosomes are normal while another extra copy of chromosome has trisomy 21 Down syndrome.


Normally I always not study on my own how to base what is really have to have Down syndrome. When I joined Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines two years ago, the 20th Happy Walk on February 19, 2012. That was Sunday. One rare gift could send to me. And it was a real gift blessing I received from one of my angels I really believed. Angels are my beliefs. And somehow it changes me when they are seeing whether I am doing wrong or I am doing right. I am not perfect who I am used to before or even until now. But I am also a gift from God that He send me to see my visualize my purpose in my life.


I read Purpose Driven Life book before. It was then I realized that book was important to me. But the typhoon washed all the books I loved to read. And one of them is Purpose Driven Life.


My purpose in my life has beginning to change my visions. When I was not able to finish my second choice to digital course in 2006 and until now, I was somehow changed my mindset if I can study again. My third choice today is looking forward to study in special education if I can budget all my savings and turn it all good choice to able looking forward to have a four year course. But on the other side, I will still have my own business creating my unique line – creating more greeting cards in different sizes, pocket books, novels, quotes book and many freshest ideas to make more. And that is how the name of Itsmikki Studio change me as well. But the connection to my wildest dreams if someday will achieve. I will be able to make a movie somehow, or a television show, or something that creates my vision. So I can let other disabilities to work with me as well as the label says that there is no label of being disability allows here on earth.


God always says to me that Jesus Christ will be always our savior to change us, He will be remain to rescue us from the sins we make from him. But we always do what we can do to change us. But it will be my faith to remain as catholic no matter what. I am looking always no matter what you have religion you believe into, the relationship with God is most important.


Seeing no labels as Down syndrome will no longer be part of my life. But I always believe what I can do no matter trials or problems will come after me. The secrets will always open to the truth. And the truth will set you free no matter you have today. And you will see the light at the end of the cave.


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English quotes 38

Eightieth-Third English Quote:


I have no boundaries,

I have no scars to leave behind,

I don’t have labels

but I can describe myself

as a special person

with a big heart to change

and a big surprise of

changing your special mind.


I cross out my mind

to see a beautiful sunrise

coming right over the skies

and lifting above is a sun.


When I’m closing my eyes

I always think at the back

of my head

what is special all about

me and my parents

is through guidance,

pinch of patience,

dash of love

and a wonderful blessing

that we are as a special.


Eightieth-Fourth English Quote:


No one believes what I can do

no one believes in what capable I made of

and no one takes care what is good

from wrong.


I see the glimpse of running water

in the faucet saying it’s full

of unconditional love,

full of laughters we bring

and full of blessing we have.


But the real score above

is not only the one,

there are many reasons

why all the special children

have the same spirit

is to reach their highest dream

to be ever achieve

is their mightiest dream.




I am turning to be advocate of special education nowadays since the losing the labels I’m quite saying here in my literary works. Thus, it’s only the beginning of a new chapter series of english quotes 37 and so forth – to become inspirational quotes as well. It’s different from making photo messages which are the best quotes I am making from my android phone. But it don’t click all the rest of my photo messages. I must say it’s not yet a one hundred percent. But there’s a equality among the special children, special teenagers and special adults with their special needs.


Like I do, I also have mosaic Down syndrome. But it don’t matter me anymore because it’s not a hindrance to me anymore. It really feels that I’m still new in the world full of surprises. But being having with my condition is a role key of acceptance, honor and respect. I love what I am doing in my job today as an assistant teacher assisting regular and special children in a school. The rest of what I am doing when I’m at home is writing. I was enjoying writing since I was in high school that improves me through years. It took me years to practice, but it’s not that fast. You have to be dedicated and full of passion. You also have to take what you are love doing mostly in your life. And I accept for who I am today.


83rd English Quote:


The ingredient of eightieth-third english quote is interesting topic according to the word of a special. It creates a whole new perspective of changing quotes today than in the past quotes. But I am more focusing to create and to make new meaningful quotes this time. On this eightieth-third english quote is all about losing the labels, no barriers and big change of acceptance. It’s about special people with special needs. Like I do have being having with Down syndrome won’t matter if I can make it through my years right now. But I must say that I will continue what I am inspired to do a lot of things.


84th English Quote:


The ingredient of eightieth-fourth english quote is another interesting topic about the special children and a glimpse of full of blessings. It is how we are building our lives to be normal as we can and live up to our expectations breaking the barriers also. Being as a special adult today, I am more welcoming the new world of hope, new creativity of acknowledging special children and getting to know other people who have special needs. But right now I learn my lessons is to wait, to respond and to act as one person who loves everything given as a blessing. Without them, we wouldn’t be here.


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Age doesn’t matter what you are looking for a right job, right decisions to make, for the fitness you like and right attitude towards to your life. I can’t imagine how painful I’m in my fitness and my mental age. Many from my problems measures in many ways of life. But I redeem all of my problems lighter. Thinking at the back of my head just seems not awaking for me. Doubts can also fear what you are doing. But happiness is all of my success in my life. Reducing or minimizing my mood situations can take in different stages. But the matter of fact, last year was full of blessings. And I come knocking again for this year’s blessings. I never stop knocking and do all the stuff I’m enjoying my days. My number one resolution last year was minimizing my weight. And I did. And the last unquestionable resolution also came to me last year. And so I did have a work today. My goals have changed. My dreams never stop me dreaming. The last thing I’ve received two years ago when I’ve joined in DSAPI. The Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines was a gift that I’ve received. Things have changed me. Those days of my depressions and frustration was over.

~Status message in facebook, January 22, 2014, Thursday, 8:12 p.m.


I am crossing my fingers to this Year of the Wood Horse. But I never believe in chinese traditions although my lineage to my mother’s side has chinese. And I’m also have part chinese in my blood. But the things have changed today.


When I see the whole point of changing attitude sometimes can change you for good. Whether what you are doing right now is bad, sometimes it may sounds bit of misunderstanding. Otherwise, you may sound awful what you are doing unmeasurable. I always count myself one to thousand. If I lose one number, I go back to that number and recite it all over again. But I always say to me that if ever I may encounter in this scenario, I always know what to do in right or wrong decisions.


Giant footstep

Giant footstep


The story of Growth success: Two years


I was disoriented in my life if I’ve had really have with a condition of Down syndrome. To think of it, I never knew in my life when I was a kid having with this kind of condition. I’ve entered high school and found out that I really have had Down syndrome. But I never asked my high school teacher which one really I’ve had in my life before. Later in 15 years for now, 2012 was the success changing my direction in my life. I started to join Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines 20th Happy Walk last February 19, 2012 in SM North EDSA skydome arena where I’ve celebrated my birthday the day of 20th Happy Walk. On this marking event of this 22nd Happy Walk coming this February 23, 2014, Sunday will be my 3rd Happy Walk. My parents finally confirm that they are going with me. And I guess time will come too if ever my siblings in Canada will join too in this event in next years hopefully.


I have two more siblings where I am a third child in five siblings. I am an elder brother to my younger sister and my younger brother. Time heals if time permits. All of the conditions before are now changing this past year and this year also. I’ve been doing all the good deeds. But sometimes I also have the few bad deeds unchanged until now. I admitted it that I was wrong. Time heals from the scorned mind at the back of my head. When I joined the 20th Happy Walk, it was not all about me. But it was also for changing who I am today. The acceptance was there when finally in my life came changing to me. Back to those days were depressed and frustrated. I’ve asked my colleagues, my bosses and my friends in my workplace to look after me. If someone got wrong to me again from anyone who can discriminate me, they will rescue me in the first place. I didn’t choose this condition. But God chooses to give me this condition and I’ve to accept in reality and change the heart in the society.


Being having with mosaic Down syndrome I’ve had in my life that my mom told me. That was because when I’ve finally attended the early intervention seminar thrice just to understand the situation I’ve had today. Because two copies of chromosomes are normal but the third copy of chromosome is an extra chromosome, which it is explained that I’ve mosaic Down syndrome.


New parents or new friends in Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines keep me asking what are my success in my life today. Just don’t be afraid of chances of your special child. Believe in whole-heartedly. I’ve ask myself to be better this time. Fears of rejection was one of my fears before. But now, I’ve now changed. Instead of fears of rejection moves closer to me, it begin with a belief in acceptance. Accept the special child has changing you. And the special child sometimes can find your emotions changing also. From fear of rejection, accept the reality and move on. I also have had encounters in my life before alone to my problems. But just that I live with my parents doesn’t mean that I’ve to stop. I also have to learn how to work independently, share my little story blessings and change emotions to happiness state in my life.


When asking too much from God, I’ve always ask myself too. Change yourself to a better person inside and out. I never work to myself alone. And God also works to my promises also. But I am helping myself in what some ways I can work independently. When asking too much supervision from my parents, sometimes I, alone, can’t work performing very well. Because they are always have the word of wisdoms saving to say it to me. When asking some words I can’t understand, that is the way I could ask from my parents. But not from financial basis, I work for my own. I also don’t ask money from them. But I could supervise myself with my money through my loading business whenever I could go to. Now that I’ve a work as an assistant teacher. Money is not an issue to me anymore, but an experience is already demand in my life today. Because if I rush to some thing, it would be helpless to me.


No money involves in networking companies where I am not working with them anymore. I already have fear from them changing their attitudes to a rightful way of thinking at the back of their heads. Their attitude sometimes when calling themselves as an abnormal, because they are talking about the money, their rich. That’s what the abnormal talks about in their head. And I am already sensitive in that word since I dissipate that word at the back of my head.


Since encountering with the networking or multi-level marketing companies for the last two companies I joined in the past, I already moved on and have to learn not to go back from them ever again. It was because this was the lessons I’ve learned. But I discovered Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines through one volunteer from my distant relative in Davao. I want to thank her and want to see her in real person. If I ever have a chance in my life to be wish granted, I just want to see her and that’s all I’ve in my life today.


This is my growth success in two years already. And this marks two years when I met one person in Clinica Manila, Megamall last February 15, 2012 and that was Agnes Lapena.


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As life went on to another stage, another scenario and another life book chapters, I was looking forward to a brighter days. But I will tell you how I am lucky where I am going to the right path today. Soon but not so sooner, it will take time to me leading my new future. Probably I am not looking for a work in entertainment industry but staying good working here in the school as an assistant teacher. Well probably, it might knock my doors if I can go to entertainment industry or maybe I will go modeling career instead. But I am assuming that I still have a work in school.


Seven months that I was working as an assistant teacher already. It was meant for me to follow my own dreams whether I shall not breaking my promises as a dancer, as an artist, as a photographer and as a writer too. I may sound an ambitious person, but I am as well as an optimistic and limitless person who have dreams to follow on my own.


Let me a recap in the past three years already from 2011. I was beginning to accept my condition having with my disability. July 15, 2011 was the beginning to open my eyes I was able to hear some networkers (who were working in multi-level marketing companies such as 1Bro, VMobile, Forever Living, UNO, etc.) calling themselves as an abnormal. But their term to call themselves as an abnormal, they were referring to become successful and rich people. It was against all odds when I lasted working with UNO days from June to October 2011. Then after a few months later, I also joined to another networking company the defunct VMobile for selling their load products indicating that they were still recruiting some people to add their money to go rich. What can you do if you are selling those load products? But mine was different.


After I went back to my old provider in July 2012, the D-Loads. VMobile gave me an another lesson never to go back to the networking days. Because I heard some millionaire in VMobile referring to some mongee as ngongo (ngongo means as in english as an inappropriate term for speaking verbally to Down syndrome and other disabilities as well). He was a selfless person who was using a word deriving from as a shortcut from mongoloid. Ouch!


The time I was already subsiding my life going back to reality. I’ve attended my first seminar of Early Intervention Seminar in August 2012 who was then the wife of a president of DSAPI introduced to some new parents in the seminar as well. I was shocked when new parents was amazed from I became today as a high-functional intellectual disability person. To tell the truth, all of these blessings kept coming in for me, I was always to accept what was right from wrong. Whenever it was wrong, I’ve never made to accept it. Rather I’ve accepted the right blessings coming for me.


Hence, the new membership identification card was made during the Christmas party 2012. I became a member of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI. My angels told me that I have to fixed my life today. And so also, I made a new historical date to my name that I’ve decided to becoming a special adult advocate for Down syndrome. But before the Christmas party, I was also invited by an UST student president who I talked my first short inspirational speech in their school. To become a new special advocate, I was aware that this was the track helping myself in a brighter future.


Last February 2012 was my first Happy Walk to attend the event and was also my birthday. But my second Happy Walk 2013 was even getting to know in a community better and better. Some new parents had to meet me. And I was amazed someone finally recognized my talent in writing an article here in my studio as well. I became also as an aspirant to many parents who have had their special child with Down syndrome just like me. I was working alone independently without a knowledge my parents knew about me. But at the end of the day, I told them honestly where I was going to this place.


Last year was a huge blessings from me. When I’ve applied in many applications from NBI clearance, passport, police clearance, my first PWD identification card and a medical certificate. And I didn’t know along the way that this was my girlfriend proved me that I have to push myself having to get a work ahead. Even if I did, then it probably both of us have had to decide to go back in any ways of living to work. My ex-girlfriend right now don’t have work. But I didn’t know myself either that I became a regular to the school where I was working as an assistant teacher.


The next thing it is approved for this year of 2014, I will becoming to sign a contract for having another year extension to my work hopefully as a productivity person as well. And to this day very moment, last two days I have had a tryout in bowling of Special Olympics hoping I will compete someday in Special Olympics. But I am determining to have my way of my path to success growth of my life.


That was my part accepting my condition having with mosaic Down syndrome. It doesn’t take me who I am, but I am happy for what I am today. Having part of this society makes me challenging. What challenges are telling me today, they are for my future, present and the past. What past is already past? I’ve been in denial stage before. And now I’m ready for my blessings to come moving forward for me.


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Part X

Happiness defines as an obsolete or a good fortune that brings happy everywhere you go; or you make your fulfillment as a happiness life.


What defines you as a happy person? Is it really good to have receiving or is it having a good fortune you have right now? If so, all things you receive is about yourself. Not everyone has, because you are doing the right path you are making for the achievements you make. People sometimes don’t know how happiness define to themselves. Because they are not making well in their work, or in relationship, or sometimes in the school where you can’t satisfy for your assignments, or some choices you really want to do can’t make it yourself not properly. All things are bound to have what you are doing both in real and not real.


For somehow reasons, I’ve always made myself as a wrong decisions. Because it wasn’t for my dreams not working properly. If I make it a goal in my life, I would probably doing it for a good purpose and a good reason why are you helping by yourself. If you love yourself, don’t help yourself 100%. Instead make yourself a list of good deeds to make it happen. All things are not made for you. Because it won’t work if also your emotions will be mixing along with your life. God knows what we are doing right now. But on the other side of fortunate happens to you, it will make the benefits for you and for your perspective life.


Let me give you 6 quote stories what it is at the back of my head right now:


Quote #1:

People always has a choice, but sometimes they won’t achieve until they learn their lessons.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


There are several occasions that you can’t achieve it. Time will come and time will learn your lessons. What I did properly in most of my time in the past was dealing with myself. When I first knew about my condition about Mosaic Down syndrome, I couldn’t tell even if it was real or not. I firstly doubted about myself, my skills and my life also. My fears would it be didn’t make it happen so fast. Instead, it lasted for me 14 years in denial stage I’ve been experienced.


To expect the least expectations was accepting my condition and it happened even if you really liked your life even more better than the past. Because it is what you really feels better for yourself and not for the others. People will love you if you share your blessings and success of your life through experimenting yourself having with a good purpose in your life. Right now, I’m enjoying most of my time today because I’ve admitting myself having with this condition. That’s what it feels like to be happiness. And I learned my lessons from my experiences in my life.


Quote #2:

You can’t choose love bigger things between work or relationship if you find yourself happiness. The lessons perhaps will make you stronger to be happy.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


This was the biggest opportunity happen so fast to me last year and this was the moment I’ve been learned through all challenges that I’ve had to accept it. After I’ve been in relationship last year, that was during May 2013. Eventually my girlfriend and I didn’t work our relationship. Perhaps I wasn’t ready for a commitment. If I’m ready for a commitment, then time will wait for purposely willing to wait God will permit me. I went to my fourth job as an assistant teacher in the school. But the teaching profession wasn’t my profession. My profession is something you really love to deal with your life. The thing was I went through the challenges. I’ve been graduated in culinary course before and took for a granted because it was the only choice to be able feeling you were really graduate from college. It took me about 8 years what was really my profession looks like. I guessed what it was really matters to me that I found the right time of a good job that I’ve had today.


Work of course was a priority for me. And then when the relationship encounters with me, it won’t work for me if I will be able to help myself. So I chose the work over relationship. I told my friend who was a special education teacher that I wasn’t able to look for a relationship with her, instead I made a deal that we were be friends forever. Because from the start, she had a suitors who were able to escorting her. Then I’ve asked myself if I was ready. But no, I choose happiness for my work and love all the children I can help. Love will wait for me instead.


Quote #3:

Time is not the goal for you to have defeating the deadlines even you want to have to get on time ahead of you. Instead, happiness will find yourself to learn yourself and it will help you to become stronger.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


When you are defeating the deadlines, will it help you more happier? Is it worth to have feeling that’s all you always wanted? My experiences were different. I was also been in a hurry state at the back of my head last year. When I really wanted to make it feeling encountering yourself, it would be making yourself a different occasion. The first resolution for me was whether to decide to pursue to keep more healthier for me. And I’ve decided to make it minimizing my weight last year. I wasn’t making yet to get in time. But I’ve asked myself that I really can do it after all.


From the time I was in 180 pounds, it was beginning for me to get weighing down all 30 excess pounds off from me. I wasn’t in hurry state. What you are doing for yourself is taking a product to make it yourself to minimize your weight so fast in one or two months instead. But in my state of my condition, I went all through dieting and long-term already. I went my weight down before my sister’s wedding came. And when I went to a vacation in Toronto. All of my relatives were shocked seeing me in a good condition. I was looking good. 30 pounds will learn yourself about dieting, discipline and an action good time plan for a months.


Quote #4:

You love the most of your time doing nothing. Instead you give all the love for your special child.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


This was not my story. It was yours this time. I’ve been hearing a lot of this stories from the parents in the school where I was working. One parent came to ask me and said, “did you feel the love they are giving for you?” Of course I was feeling all the love. But the time came to me when my mom didn’t giving me all things for me. It won’t come for me, instead I learned my lessons that my mom did her love to love me after all. Happiness is a highest state in your life when you feel you are loved and feel the blessings keep coming in for you if you love other people.


Quote #5:

The eight days of relationship was keeping me down when the time I was in love. But the state of feeling in love wasn’t keeping for me to last for my happiness.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


This was my biggest lessons that I’ve had encountering this to me last year. When I’ve had in love with her, it was okay. She asked me for having my hands to her. Boy, I looked like a girl having a long hair. But it doesn’t matter who the person was really in love that time. Then I said it was okay for having a relationship with her. But the idea I brought to my attention when my parents came from a incentive vacation trip in Europe, they found out that I’ve had a relationship with a girl. But they weren’t ready for me getting married. Of course, I might be get a lot of heartaches to come that was she said to me. Eight days of relationship was my lessons to have with her. I’ve eventually ask her not to have with her anymore, instead I’ve to give up with her. She had this a personality when it comes to a money issues.


Quote #6:

When happiness defines you the most, it defines your personality the most and don’t make it to change of yourself.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


This happens to me the most of my time and to anybody else also. This traits of yours will find you easily. But the problems you are experiencing won’t be able to make you happy. It was because you always excused yourself you were happy for you to change your traits all the time. Having to change your trait to someone else doesn’t prove you are happy. Instead, don’t let the other people feel coming from your personality test. Make a habit yourself praying everyday. Don’t excuse yourself that you can’t change. Change your attitude, change your lifestyle, change your work environment or take a vacation. This will make you find yourself an inner peace. Happiness will find you where you can explore things you want for yourself. And I am glad today that my friends are still contacting with me until now. That is what happiness tells me everyday not to excuse yourself.


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There are numerous cases that the scientists bring more sensitive cases like Down syndrome who is willing to abort the disability. Their ability to know has to get it off. My opinion about for the doctors, don’t let it abort. Let the disability of Down syndrome approves in life to live longer, doing their lives independently and learn their self-care around the house. People with Down syndrome has prove that everyone is going to give more love, care, understanding and teach with them with full of unconditional love.


On my experience today as I am an assistant teacher in the school, I also have Down syndrome. Mosaic Down syndrome. And I’ve realize how I am important to my family as well. There are many discrimination cases around the nation of Philippines. Whether if a person has a disability or not, they should know how to respect and to honor like them. Now that I am aiming for a better world, somehow I feel the cases around the nation as well.


I have few friends with a disability. But to tell you the truth, with them I feel secure to tell them my life. And my life somehow shares my thoughts to be tell them what the world looks like when you are stepping inside the real world. But I feel for others too. The world has already in four billion population around the world. And there is no stopping to have be born around the world without a disability. Even in a bible says that even before has also disabilities. Well I thought it wasn’t real, now I was even more careful what I’ve had to say to other people, too.


Sadly these people has to create more illness words for us. And discrimination is also the main concern about the world’s thoughts. Can you say how you really acknowledge us without hurting a single word for us? Or even if this says it’s right, then I guess there’s no problem anymore. But sometimes, I feel the same way too at the back of my head thinking it’s not real. I guess there are more unimaginable people around the world without thinking the word of a disability.


Like ADHD for example, there are many kinds around from the field of ADHD. When I found out that my brother has ADHD, my lips are sealed already. I don’t want to bring an issue inside the house. I learned from my work even the ASD or anti-social disorder has the field of explanation. Whether is good or not, I feel for others as well.


Quote #1:

There are many reasons why the disability can’t be closed around the world. Without a disability, we can’t change without them.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


I have seen a lot of parents change their child from wrong to right. And I also met new parents when I entered in the school for my new job description in my resume. It only began changing my world with the kids in the school. I also have a heart for autism also. But I don’t have favoritism from all of them. Each of them has own personalities. One kid from a school change my life when I see them having difficult to understand us. But somehow being as a disability has a big heart.


Whether it’s Down syndrome, ADHD or autism, there are all alike each other. Because one of them has own unique talent and characteristic trait also. One of them I met through the school where I was working. It’s about time to change the reality full of doubts and fears into full of surprises and full of positivity sides. Each of disability also has love of their own lives.


Quote #2:

One has to be hated and one has to set side because he or she has an attitude. What’s the matter being as a disability? People with disability can change you half of your life. And they are living sacrifices before us.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


Attitude is not a problem for a kid or an adult with disability. But with an attitude in real life consists having no heart for people like us. People with a disability has own character. And I also have own character. But sometimes I don’t like my attitude as well when I feel different to others. It’s all because I also have a behavior problem in my life. We all have behavior problem. But the main concern there, it’s about who you really are. And I feel belong with disability rights as well. And I can’t figure out what I really like the most.


Being sensitive is also my concern. But sometimes even with a sensitive mind in my life can’t change that well, but I learn in many different ways to achieve some important lesson in our achievements in our lives.


Quote #3:

I hate people who are crowded to say that you’re not belong here anymore. Being despite that I have Down syndrome, people convince me to register them in good manners.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


What I really do the most in my life is to write something good from bad experiences in my life. Instead of making good and positive articles, sometimes I have to put some few negative derogatory articles also. Well, sometimes I don’t my attitude as well. What I really mean to say is, what you are doing good to your life, it will reward for you in the possible time.


I can do something every little in lives when you’re really a deserving person. In my case, I don’t have one. People who discriminate to other people often tells how we can drive them in good manners. And I also don’t know a word how to describe them either. It’s either how you can communicate in a good way and not in a bad way.


Quote #4:

The main ingredient in our lives is unconditional communication. But some others don’t call unconditional communication but concerns us even more.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


Communication is a better tool to appreciate people with disability. Whether it’s ADHD, Down syndrome, Autism or other abnormalities as well is the main ingredient in our lives. Because each of them has own to understand them very well. But the condition sometimes grows the concern in our lives. How can we teach them properly? Sometimes, I call it an unconditional communication. Unconditional communication is something I’ve discover recently when I am learning some new ideas as an assistant teacher. And being as an assistant teacher, there’s a great teacher. And a great teacher is very noble profession in any countries as well.


Unconditional communication brings more concerns to every new parents and every new family when someone in your family has a disability. One parent to another parent is sometimes arguing to a heated conversation. When a heated conversation opens up, the unconditional communication opens up in a shorter way or a longer way to explain between two parties as well. You don’t have to be angry each time you open up in a conversation. But you have to be calm every time and have to be patience as well. When you have a patience in your life, you will discover in your life that you have a self-patience in your life. And you have to start today, not tomorrow but today. Change is sometimes a motive to motivate your life with full of positive notes and being as an optimistic also.


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When I published my stories of How I overcome Down syndrome, Why Down syndrome and What’s wrong to have Down syndrome that posted in my studio journal diaries.


After three successful different pattern stories, this time I will tell you how I feel from my friends. When I asked my new friends in a new place that I met them, what would you have feel if you have a friend with Down syndrome?” My instance at the back of my head if I could give them a right answer. But at the end of the day, they asked me again. And I’ve accepted whole-heartedly being having with my condition of Down syndrome.


Melissa Riggio who also has Down syndrome just like me. But I’ve managed to overcome my mind about having my condition throughout my life. And I know how I will explain what the world Down syndrome is meaning all about.


I have mosaic Down syndrome. And being as a mosaic Down syndrome, two pairs of chromosomes are normal but another extra chromosome which it contains 47 chromosomes and why it has an extra chromosome in the first place. Which it is only mean that I really I have Down syndrome.


Then I’ve asked myself again when I got my first PWD card (person with disability), I saw upon myself what the term of chronic illness is.


Chronic illness is the long-life disability in your case to case scenario. Which it means it can’t be off with me. It only means that I still have chronic illness is. But at first, when I heard about chronic illness, I’ve started giving myself having with a strict diet. I’ve been doing since 1st of April without eating a rice. And I’ve been practicing before with three times already. They were successfully. But at my fourth time I’ve given myself a strict diet, I’ve begin to have giving myself being also a vegetarian. I’ve never done that before. Salad is always my favorite meal every time I eat and also goes to vegetables.


But to tell you the truth, chronic illness to me has gone to my mind. I only remind myself that I have to put myself enjoying my life. I don’t have other illnesses.


To date today, I have a work and I work as a hard worker. And I work consistently. I also have passion to the children which it’s my duty serving, assisting and helping regular and special children in the school. Here in my work, I am happier than my three previous jobs. And I love my new community as well – to parents, to my bosses and to my co-workers as well.


Those who also have same disability like me


Now that I’ve accepted myself with being having as a mosaic Down syndrome, I’ve overwhelmed when I speak my success story to new parents I meet along the way in my road. What’s the meaning to have condition like me?


It’s just to be like you as normal as everybody does. I love drawing, singing mostly, dancing mostly, writing and directing some animated short films. Or maybe I also want to try some other options as well – to become as an ambassador to Special Olympics or in the country also.


Work environment


My work place is different setting, different job description and different passion. My other three job descriptions were in the field of culinary. But I’ve never enjoyed inside the kitchen. So, what’s your passion? I’ve also been thinking someday if I can cook again. To tell the truth honestly, I miss cooking in the kitchen and practicing with my knife skills and culinary-minded also.


I also landed to get a certificate in contact center agent in training program. And I’ve successfully got it within 13 days. My attendance was perfect. And I didn’t know my english will getting improving. At the back of my head, I’ve been practiced trying to complete sentence to perfect sentence throughout my life. I am not a good writer to tell you a truth. But it seems I’m telling a story already.


Dream job: Dancer / Artist / Songwriter / Photographer


I’ve been dreaming to get in entertainment industry in a long-run dreams already. And I think it’s my long-term dreams to get attaining my dreams. I really love to dance and follow all songs I love to hear. What’s my passion? I also love to write poetry. Poetry means a lot to me since December 1998. And I’ve made a hundreds of poems, sonnets, songs and stories to date itself already. To added, I’ve also beginning to like writing quotes and making picture quotes as well.


One day in my life today, what will my world looks like in the future? Would I still continue to dream as a dancer, artist making animation short films and at the same time, photography? There a lots to me doing actively in my life today. And I’ve earn buying my first cellphone in my life – android phone. It was my first hardworking money.


You see yourself but what about me?


I see around myself everywhere in the world already. But I want you to know that you don’t have a right to look at me having with a disability. Look at me as a normal person. I am always happy to get around with my friends, my family, my relatives and looking for a girlfriend today.


Don’t look at me. Look at me as your friend. And I’ve always want you to respect me. Having a condition with intellectual disability doesn’t mean stopping you to be friends with me. Think and hold your thoughts.


What is Down syndrome?


Down syndrome is an intellectual disability in the Philippines. Around 500 to 1,000 babies in the Philippines are born each year. A person with Down syndrome has 47 chromosomes. A normal can only have 46 chromosomes. Extra chromosome is an extra care, full patience, capacity of understanding and a lot of love. Physical characteristics of a Down syndrome has similar structure in ears, slant face, tongue, slant body and other characteristics as well. Down syndrome has a nature of being as down-to-earth attitude and can manage to give you a long happiness in a day. Those who are similar with Down syndrome have unique characteristics and unique intelligence.


In the nutshell


If I leave this world behind me, I want everyone has to focus not only being as a disability, but I want the whole world to look me as a normal friend who can chat with you all day, have a long walk and have enjoying your life. Being having with Down syndrome in my life is not my weakness anymore, but my strength is to give everyone to understand what it feels to have disability in the first place. I want to live longer if I can. Each of us with Down syndrome live long-life individually. It’s not a comprehension whether you have a short life span or a long life span. It’s about a legend who gives a true meaning of Down syndrome – being having with an awesome syndrome.


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PART V-1: Positive

Positive reinforces new outlook in life whether thinking is good and not bad.


I’ve always take good chances when life borrows us. Life is good and live to the fullest. That is the term I’ve always using at the back of my head when my world needs to know educating people who have low self-esteem in their life. I’ve never been thinking at the back of my head what is going really in my head. And to swallow my pride sometimes takes new opportunity to make a change – to be better person. My bad habits are changing well so soon enough. And it will replace the good reinforcements in the little mind of my brain department – to be also good mood.


I am never setting myself bad always when I am entering in the school where I am going to work. The parents love to see my smile every day. And the children are the happiest in the planet. Many others want to argue and to complain, but sometimes you need to take a rest. And you have to get setting aside from your bad mood to good mood. What explains you the most?


I’ve explain you later my quote stories below. My life was in denial stage before. Thus it became a negative reinforcement inside at the back of my head. Every day and night, I think at the back of my head clinging some bad motives in my life. Whether I challenged myself everyday not to think about good mood. I’ve hated the good mood before. But at home, I was always happy. Because I did almost everyday watching television shows, playing computer games, drawing some of my unique dreams and chatting all day inside at the back of my head. What did I do? Nothing.


It was unbelievable for me to change from negative to positive reinforcements in my life. I’ve been changing positive mood everyday from negative mood in the past. In this date, I’ve been challenging new problems, new blocks inside at the back of my head and new pain that causes me everyday. But to tell you the truth, I’ve never been feeling good today.


Quote #1:

I hate myself doing nothing. And I don’t want to be exempted in one place, but to be exceptional is not also an excuse.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


Half of my life did the best all I do in the world. My achievements were to able graduating both in high school and college. Because not everyone can attain that highest level. Everyone has to leave and find a work in exchange to help their family needs. Well, for me, it’s different. I know it’s hard. But you have to be example for everyone in the world. People will exclaiming the excitement in their faces and telling you that you are doing the best what you can do to them.


And for the part of exceptional is not also an excuse. I’m also setting a good example aside from my newest inspirational hero – Nick Vujicic. Nick don’t have limbs, a pair of legs and arms. He has different story and so am I. We also value the word of disability. But being as a disability doesn’t make exceptions. The only word you’ve really hate to hear is an attitude. I will also tackling about the attitude problem later in this part of an article.


Quote #2:

I’m not good in the field of my subject, but other of my subjects are excellent. I’ll never able to top in the class.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


This is always an issue from every student in the world having a problem in their subject. I was also having problem when I was a teenager before. But my grades in elementary were poor performance. But in high school or the middle school have set new scores in my life. I was only excelling in science, arts and music when I’ve entered freshman year and sophomore year in high school. Later on, I found myself in the corner adding new favorite subject – literature that entered in my junior year in high school. And added for the best subject that challenged me was economics. Economics was a best grade I’ve ever had in my graduating year in high school. I’ve never felt that I became good in that field. People found economics so hard to study. But with all my help back tracking of my history mind, I became part of memorizing some part of historical dates.


Kids and teenagers set new problems in this generation – a digital age. People find it hard too. Because of this technology, you have to set schedules between your play time in computer, leisure time in computer and study time also in computer. How will you know if your kid is doing performing very well? Set a new rules inside of your house rules. And I am telling you that this digital age shall never experiencing this kids with this kind of technology for their leisure time and play time. Set your mind with study time and research time.


PART V-2: Attitude

Attitude is the problem focusing the behavior of a human.


Quote #3:

You encounter so many big deals in your life but because of that, you hate being as a sarcastic mind.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


I have a bad behavioral before. But to tell you the truth, I’ve already overcome and change my values setting aside from my attitude being as a responsible person. And I have no idea in my entire life that I really do the best that I can. My family believe me as of now. What if the world is looking and reading my point of my views?


I have mosaic Down syndrome. Mosaic is a “copy of pair of chromosomes are normal and the third copy is an extra pair of chromosome.” Sometimes I also have sarcastic mind dealing some bad behavior at the back of my head. But I’ve never been setting my new goal in a different path. And I am so blessed that I’m really changing my whole life now.


Quote #4:

The only disability in life is an attitude.


I have seen normal people arguing and discriminating against the human rights. And human rights are sometimes to be called people with disability. I’ve heard some community about this quote a few months ago. And I will explain the term of being as an attitude.


Attitude or behavioral problem in human is discussing about the physical, mentally and spiritually about the person’s behavior. Sometimes I make myself wrong also in my past years. But now I am changing my values to set new attitudes in life – to help others individually.


But normally, other people are exclaiming the discrimination from our side of being disability. Their problem is their attitude. They never change and sometimes they feel that they are leaving behind the circle of a community inside of their barriers. And I let go of other people being having with sensitive issues. I’ve never done that before.


Quote #5:

Don’t make yourself to excuse in the real world making you really don’t like about people with disability or not.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)


People are always people. And humans are always humans. But it never gone too far from animal to human. It can’t be like that anymore. The human evolution is already change from the past to the present times. Others feel about their attitude whether you have disability or not. People may dismay about your feelings. But I also feel that way too. Before I am not sensitive in some other cases. But now, I am challenging people with their attitude problem to make a change to positive reinforcements.


There are some issues before regarding the word of “a,” “r” and “s.” But I don’t want bringing up this words inside the article post. Because I’m getting fuming really. But I am as a friendly person who can welcome you instead. But these are the words I don’t want to hear from them. Because they have bad mouths. And bad mouths are somewhat boasting their lives exposing in the real world that at the end of the day, you are left alone already. Once you gone out, you won’t come back anymore.


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It’s finally reached at the highest mark of my job description and changed my entire resume. My outline today is regular employee. I’ve been dreaming about getting a regular job someday. And I did it on my best where I didn’t get easy jobs before.


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Even my favorite huggable student has left from the school when the classes were over. But the classes are not over when she leave the school. I’ve been promising myself to visit her again but this time, in her home in the future. I’ve been crying last night and today also. I’ve been wondering what my tears say all about for me. But the good news don’t get me wrong.


I’ve been staying, enjoying and disputing my excitement everywhere here in my status: regular employee. But I must say no matter what my salary says in my resume doesn’t matter to me. All I want is a regular job. And I prove it in by making a history. It all tells the matter where I can stay and work for choosing a job before. It brought me back before when I was applying other than my three previous jobs before. I even didn’t get finish my second course – digital course. It made no sense before. But now it broke my tears today.


I’ve been sharing all my life with my success growth. But all I can say is growing up to be responsible person in each and every way in my life. New parent always asks me where I can get all my happiness. My answer is that I am getting my happiness from your child. Because the child is the one who carries more happiness than anyone else. But seemingly I don’t want to get assuming this so far.


New students as well, there are more students gaining in our school premises today. Even though we’re not look alike. I have mosaic Down syndrome. Each one of my characteristics still stay in my feature – my ears, my tongue, my hips and my legs. But my face isn’t normal with other similar conditions.


People says that I don’t have Down syndrome. But each time I said to them, I still have few characteristics of being Down syndrome. Then later on, they realized already about my features. People may deserve to know what I am doing today. But now I am proud to have a regular job. Today’s a wonderful day. And each wonderful day teaches me how to stand independently on my own. And I carry all my life to be the best.


Is that all makes sense? If you are correct, then let me now. If I am wrong, then also let me know. There are difference about correct and wrong. Sometimes I make perspectives wrong about myself. My two bosses are my friends now. Each time I laugh, they also laugh. Each time I make some funny comments, they laugh. Each time I bring my happiness inside the school, all the parents, co-workers and of course, the children come inside. I also bring some happiness to everyone. This is one who makes my day so far.


It’s the best job I’ve acquire in my job description today. Someday I also want to follow my grandmother’s footsteps – to become teacher as well teaching my subjects to them. But it seems that I’m relying on my weakness subjects. My strength subjects are science, arts, english and elementary math. But somehow the history also makes prove the best for me. All three subjects are normally my poor grades before and now it become my favorite subjects. But I seem relying too much from my perspective mind at the back of my head. And each time I’ve encountered is a little fortunate to my little ideas at the back of my head.


What it feels to be like a teacher when you’re not expecting? It feels good to be happy all the time.


And how it feels to be around inside the classroom? Excellent.


Being as an assistant teacher and being having with a condition of Down syndrome is the greatest gift in my life. It considers me making a new history in the map of Philippines and the same way goes to my life also. People will discover how the greatness becomes happiness of all time. What do I get? It is to become optimistic and limitless person. That’s why.


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Alternative job

I haven’t get into real job yet. But as soon I’ve accepted the deal being having with Down syndrome, it was the fate that chose me to go to.


I have mosaic Down syndrome like most of mosaics do a lot common. But some of us can’t do anything like similarities. Well mostly some of myself can’t do. I can draw. I can sing. I can write. I can even walk. But I am surely can talk. When I was younger, I’ve had a hard time to talk in straight in english. Like most of you can do and some of others won’t. Trisomy 21 Down syndrome is a different pattern in genetically disorder issues. I’ve met few people in my life when I joined Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines. That was when I’ve decided to add my advocacy to help special children to reach their talents.


My talents were sometimes a little different. Because some of you don’t notice what are my talents. I could be an artist. Drawing a lot of occasions in different patterns makes me part of growing up. And I remembered my most important of my life was the drawing of the sun. It was difficult at first learning that stage of knowing what to do in your talents. Maybe a little of perspective of your kid might have a chance to grow in their talents.


Now I am facing the fact, that I want to join as a teacher like my teachers did it to me. I learned so much well from them. If I’ve never been in occupational therapy, physical therapy or speech therapy, what would the field will choose me? Chef, maybe. Because I chose that field to learn of all nutrition of all meals. And of course, I didn’t regret choosing culinary course. Because I learned the knowledge of culinary and the basic concepts of culinary was. Artist, maybe. There was a little chance if I was given to graduate in First Academy of Computer Arts. But there was always given me a wrong decisions in my life.


Maybe this was a guess. An artist. Yes, I love the face of being an artist. Being an artist makes different from all the aspects in life. It can learn you from different perspective views or animate the feelings of a human. Well like most of the animators do are to create some humans involving with the things they can work it to. I guess if I make it right the good views.


A singer if I was given a chance with a good voice. Unlikely, I don’t have a beautiful voice. But I have beautiful talent writing lyrics of a song. Maybe for a lyricist for example, I can make different tunes for a song. Well most of the composers and lyricists did that for their field.


And of course, I’ve given a chance what to do in my life is to be a teacher. In the past, I always want it to be as a teacher. But most likely of the teachers do came from the education they have. From early childhood education, special education course, or being as a teaching course you would like to take it. But I don’t have teaching background. So I am ready to take a challenge to be part of teaching a class.


Special education is what I am aiming to teach about. Because this is where I learn so many different lessons. From the fact I learned how to read properly, how to speak properly, how to respect properly and every lessons you can make it the special children grow in their talents. And now my advocacy will start in special education. And I will make it happen to teach this children how to prompt their duties in their lives.


Teaching is the most profession in any countries. If you don’t have teacher or professor in your school, what would you can learn from them if you don’t know what are the principles of being as a teacher? Teacher is a remarkable position you can handle it to. Like I want it to make discuss what’s the down syndrome looks like. Some of my teachers were still in my facebook. And one high school teacher I knew in my life was very sweet to me. Because I was sweeter to make her good to me.


I hope the school I am applying to will simply going without a mistake. I want to dedicate myself as a teacher if I want it to make happen. This is a small step of my journey as a teacher before going something bigger step if it will make something bigger dreams.


And I was very proud of where I’ve been gone from my school. My journey as a student before ended. And now my journey as a teacher will make it something smaller to take. Teach them with your unconditional love you have. I love myself and I want it share in the world something smaller. Smaller dreams are sometimes a bigger opportunities to grab. But opportunities will grow eventually from your heart.

First and last

I’ve finally understand what’s the true love means. First of all, I don’t have a girlfriend for entire of my story. To cut in short, I was able to fall in love three times already. Those three times were difficult make to happen a good ending. But it turned out like a bad ending. Such a beautiful waste of my life made me worrying too much of my own story.


I fell in love in writing 16 years ago when I first heard about of the literature world. But it came to my life when I shared of my story about the love cycle that I have from my past. Past were extremely hard to forget but it learned me quickly from my love troubles. And of course, for the first time in my life in 1997 when the literature world came into my life. It was not an awful experience, it was such waste less and much trouble thinking about it. It didn’t matter to me.


1997 was an introduction of my sophomore year in high school story of my life. It was exactly not thinking about what to meant to be such in my life. It mattered most of my time I’ve been looking for the perfect girl to dream about. Also that year, it made me clear that I wasn’t an ordinary human. But I was a special human with dreams and aspirations to tell. To cut in short, I’ve had a mosaic Down syndrome. I’ve discovered on my own going home from my school. My biology teacher said it all, and then I’ve asked my parents. Which it’s why the truth came out. It leaked my story awful but inspiring.


And of course, as one year gone by, junior year came to me inspiringly to me so special. I can’t wait to dance someone if I knew would like to dance with me. The junior prom was February. And so I waited. But it came in 1998 with an explosive thoughts entering at the back of my head. It jumped out like a beans. And then I firstly wrote my first poem on 10th December of 1998. Two months before the junior prom, I’ve been searched from everywhere I could asked from my school mates. But none of them really didn’t like that much.


The junior prom was already in a month. But of course, junior prom have maybe the better dance for me. We did soiree already in freshman year and sophomore year. But in reality, love fits for everyone to make it the love real. This junior prom was a great experience. And of course, I was named best dressed man of the night. And I wasn’t awarded for the king of the prom. The award didn’t fit me well but I’ve accepted as the best dressed man of the night. And so the senior prom also came. The junior prom was better than the senior year.


I’ve realized of love being like that. I wasn’t looking for the girl. I was looking for the person who accepted me. The first girl I’ve loved was a shattered dreams to me. It made me to cry and fell to my own knees. I’ve felt the agony. And so the pain in my heart released from my anger. In the other thoughts, I felt happily I can pass the problems.


College years was a typical years for every student who needed to finish their course seriously. Just look at me after high school, everyone have finally accepted who I was and what I became being a proud of my own feet. With a crowd of audience gave an outstanding ovation when my name was called, that high school was over. In college years, things were a little different situation and a little of mixed emotions.


After one batch to another, I’ve stopped after third batch. I’ve said that I can finished the culinary course. It was really difficult to make coping my own problems. One of my love cycles here in my college years have also waved goodbye after a roller coaster mutual understanding. It wasn’t that in a relationship. When they said we were in the school campus, we were in. But when we were outside, I felt my loss because it wasn’t a serious one.


Jumping forward to the present, I became clearly visible. Love cycle was a greater fall or maybe a raise from your experiences. I stood amount of love I take from my parents, my family, my relatives and my friends. In the world of reality, there was never given a chance of third chance. In 2011, I’ve experienced again like it was in my college years. And now that I knew about pseudo-relationship was all about. It mattered me already. It felt sadness and bitterness. But I’ve stopped knowing her. Then I’ve moved on my own life.


What do you want for the girl? Is she really for you? For my whole life, none of the girls really accepted me wholly. I’ve stopped reading my radar looking for other girls. After a senior prom, there was an enchanted prom that the organization I was joining, they were inviting to date a girl once again. It was a great experience. She was my third prom partner of my life. And I’ve said to myself, “I can look again for another girl who can accepted me whole.”


It was an amazing gift that God gave me from these blessings that I can pass my problems by doing on my own. But sometimes I need a little conversation between my parents and to my relationship. When can I do this again? And after I’ve visited Rico Yan last March in his birthday. The search was almost complete. Not until someone have asked me and said, “can I have relationship with you?” She asked me first.


I nodded somewhere in my thoughts thinking where would the relationship go for this right opportunity. Then I’ve said yes when she really loved me. And I’ve answered her back with, “I love you too.” With those four little words you were saying means a lots of love you give it to her.


It came unexpectedly in my life after we’ve met for the first time. Maybe she was seeing me like a first love in the eyes. But she have had a boyfriend before. None of it mattered to me now because I’ve accepted her. Because she accepted me also the way I moved and I talked this way. What if the world tumble across the universe? What it would look like when you meet unexpectedly? Crazy and weird as you may notice. In my little faith in heaven, there was always an opportunity for the love will bring. Looking for my radar again have finally stopped in a moment. When the feeling came it out, it felt me a happiness of love. What I have seen thoughts of love, I’ve always thought I can imagine how true love means.


The moment of an answer, it was because she was my first girlfriend and would it be my last girlfriend I will ever have. And the quote have said, “Of all the things you’ve seen it, don’t worry about conclusion in the ending because there’s always a beginning of new love.” “Love is not to know about your partner, you must go deeper in your relationship and better to know herself half of the answers you will discover.” “Crazy as it may sounds like the love will bring weird, but you must have to know that you’ve really love her most of your life and give it your the best time you have. “

Blessings in life

I was born in the world being having with mosaic Down syndrome. But to tell you the truth honestly, it turn out that I am really a blessing that God sent me here. What’s all about me?


I am now at early 30’s. I’ve discovered that I have being with Down syndrome. Sixteen years have been passed when my biology teacher said that I was different from the rest of the class. At first, I didn’t know what to do. I became clueless and disoriented. So I came home and told my parents if I really could have the special condition. The day it became closer to me. I was always telling me if I really have that kind of case. My intelligence was being pushed and pushed as I considered one of my favorite subject was Science. Therefore, I learned the field of genetics where it falls in the branch of Science.


Genetics, according to the dictionary, is the science of hereditary, dealing with resemblances and differences or related organisms resulting from the interaction of their genes and the environment. (Reference: http://dictionary.reference.com)


And at the same time, I fell in my own hands determining that I couldn’t accept my fate being having with the special case I have. I have been 14 years to heal that I could accept myself. Although a long period of time couldn’t take to heal in own self, there was a time I couldn’t take my chances. And chances it was really hard to heal. One of my hardest regrets in my life was my decision to make. So in 14 years I couldn’t take hearing from the society that I am not belong to. It was a blessing. And my biggest achievement in my life was to accept my condition.


Two years ago when I finally accepted my decision to make was the hardest decision to let it go. And I guess being having with mosaic Down syndrome, I am a blessing disguised in heaven. With my doubts on me, sometimes I couldn’t take serious on my own. To tell you the truth honestly, my parents did all their best just to raise me well. And they did. I didn’t go to the physical therapy. But I did going in occupational therapy and speech therapy. My mom spent years for me to study in one of the speech therapists before. And I went a whole lot more before. Each time I wanted to remember, I asked my parents what was my condition before.


Speech therapy was one of the expenses my parents spent on me. And on part of that, occupational therapy was also that I considered also one of the expenses that my parents spent on me. Honestly I couldn’t remembered one bit of memory before. I have the longest long-term memory that I could remembered. But the thing was I also have short-term memory which I forgot my entire childhood memories. But whenever I asked from my classmates, my cousins and even from friends, they told me their stories about me.


In grade school, I’ve graduated in high colors graduating two times already. One was during my sixth grade before entering high school but I’ve ended up finishing seventh grade in the school in 1995. But the school have had still accepting me to study although I was the one and the last seventh grader in Montessori Integrated School of Antipolo. So I was the happiest student back then. And one was during seventh grade before going to high school in 1996. My biggest dreams back in elementary days was to become volcano photographer because I loved volcanoes very much until now. Although I have cellphone camera, I still want to earn more money to buy the expensive camera. It will be one of my blessings in life.


And in my high school life was entirely different from the elementary days. Before I became aware of my own self, I looked around to my classmates when I was in fifth grade. My heart have still the beat that I have a new crush back then. It was only the word of crush meaning, “the admiration in life.” And did you know that I was becoming aware in fifth grade? Now you know me already.


And of course when I was in high school prime years, the freshman year was challenging year for me although I didn’t take elective subjects as my teachers and my parents have agreed to. But I still have managed to attend the elective classes. Then of course, I also went up and down during my sophomore year. Some of my schoolmates thinking that I was a freak or maybe a word of “sped.” That word was already a derogatory word for me. Because the meaning of the word itself was translated to “retarded.” Around in junior year, I also discovered one of my talents before was writing. It was a blessing from the skies. And I enjoyed very much that year because of the junior prom who I dated my auntie, a year younger than me. And in my senior year was also my memorable moments in my life. I have said to my classmates and in my school if want to be an actor, I would still dreaming and hoping to be one in the future. It was one of my higher colors that was included blessings in life.


I may be graduated already in high school but the college was one of the hardest to cope to study on. Despite I chose culinary certificate course in Center for Culinary Arts in year of 2000 over the hotel and restaurant management diploma course in Montessori College. I got the passing grade in the other school with 88 but I chose to enter the culinary school with also the passing grade of 75. It was the hardest education in my life but still a blessing in life. I also finished in one of the pioneer culinary schools in the country which was the Center for Culinary Arts. I finished in three years in culinary but the course was 2 years course. To tell you the truth before entering in college, one of my dreams was to finish college. Because I believed some of you may not finishing college years in your life. And so I did my best. I studied and graduated in one of the pioneer culinary schools, the Center for the Culinary Arts. Although I moved four batches already, I have had and made some wonderful friends in college totaling numberless. It was a blessings in life.


After I graduated from the culinary school, it was a huge desperation to get the big check in my life – a salary. I was aiming for the salary raise. During that time, my family have had in financial crisis and my dad sold their family company on someone’s else – the car-making pipes industry. It was there already, but I believed it was a fate chance that gave me a wonderful life.


Before 10 years to this present, I was now a graduated jobless person thinking what job will fits for me. I was very choosy in terms of seeking a job. And so I ended up as a chef consultant which where I worked with my mother’s friend in front of the St. Jude nursing school in Sampaloc, Manila. And it only lasted two months. It was a desperation move for me although I’ve been hooked and addicted playing online games in the computer. But I give my chances to learn more in the future. And the second job I took was being a chef in Sacocina Catering where I worked in Robinsons’ Fairview in Teletech call center branch. Everyday I saw some of agents talking in English, none of them became unaware for me. Because all I know have to learn more in English language. Running later in 9 years, I gave my chances to train myself in call center training in Ortigas where I massively learned the basics of English language. I really wanted to learn so much in English language. It was one of the blessings in life I’ve received.


And at the time I knew about myself, two years ago when I stepped in one of my biggest regrets, joining the multi-level marketing or networking company where I joined at least one. One was enough for me and I learned and tired listening to the rich people screaming the derogatory word of “abnormal.” And so I claimed myself that I finally accepted who I belong and went back to my own feet again. Last year was full of blessings in life.


I named the categories that I was blessed about:

1. I’ve entered call center training because I wanted to learn more about the basics of English language. It was not that I really wanted to go in one of the exclusive call center jobs. It was that I really wanted to learn more of the basics.

2. I’ve joined the organization of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI where I learned that I wasn’t alone in the country being despite with Down syndrome in February 2012’s Happy Walk. That Happy Walk day was also my birthday.

3. My loading business paid off well in the charts and boosted my financial savings as well.

4. I’ve applied on my own applying for my first postal ID on September 2012.

5. My first short-inspirational speech talk have became part of my life and I was invited to talk in University of Santo Tomas (UST) on November 19, 2012, Monday morning.

6. I’ve applied in one of my first organization PWD ID which it was the DSAPI ID in December 2012’s DSAPI christmas party.

7. I’ve applied numerous applications in re-applying of NBI clearance and barangay clearance last January 2013.

8. I’ve applied my first PWD ID last March 2013.


It was all blessings in life. Although I am ready to go independently thinking if I could do it on my own, I am thinking to follow one of my biggest dreams – to become an actor in entertainment industry. If I do well in life, then I am ready to face the entertainment world. It was also thankful that I saw the wonderful movie of I Am Sam which it was about the father being having with Down syndrome and his normal daughter who never thought he could raise on his own.


Being having with my own self that I really love about is writing, drawing, acting if I could do it on my own and be part of the society also. I love being with myself. Without the blessings in life wouldn’t keep my ground off from the chart. But I am still looking for my dream board – to have my own house, to have my own business, to have family and to have helping other special children. And so if I do this on my wish list, I could far places such as Leyte, Bacolod, Cebu, Bohol, Davao and many parts of provinces of this country of the Philippines. I really love Philippines so much. And I love being with myself as a Filipino.


One of my biggest dreams now today is to become an actor if I could do it on my own earnings without a help from my parents. And I want to help my parents so much because they really raise me well. I decide to make it good in health and for the people I really care about.

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