Category: Life Diary


After seeing the end of journey of being as an assistant teacher, I’ve all want to share my blessings that takes me from every chapter has moving within me. This is the part 2 of The tale of assistant teacher.

 

Love life has moved twice as I’ve reached the mountains. But the roadblock at the end of the road told me to move on. Why was it happened me between being having as an assistant teacher? Was I even told to be a better assistant teacher? Or was it somebody who doesn’t like too much of being noisy adult? I was always talking and talking to myself in a minutes or in an hour. Telling you the truth honestly, some of the lessons I’ve been going through proved my excellence in my journey. I wasn’t noisy as anymore before. I was waiting for someone listening my side of my story. But was it someone who can lean to?

 

I’ve covered my eyes as I was waiting for my side. I’ve also covered my ears so I won’t listen to the story. When did I stop talking raging nonsense? I’ve full of passion, full of energy and full of hope. All my positive sides wanted telling you I was able telling the truth.

 

Honestly I wasn’t perfect human as God says in the bible, ‘there is no perfect human in the world.‘ True. But I hope it would allow somebody to tell the truth. All the angels were sending from heaven telling me if I would continue be a humble person. But I didn’t know which one I was suppose to do.

 

Let me tell you my whole story from the beginning I went through the start of my story:

 

“The school orientation came over on 10th of June, 2013. And every parent was there to hear from the stories of two teachers, one from preschool who came to teach the preschoolers and one from special education who came to teach special education kids how to handle on their own in the future. And it was a surprise that my bosses told me that they coped with my problems. I did telling them that I’ve had being having with Down syndrome. But they didn’t know with the word of mosaic Down syndrome, trisomy 21. It was a sudden blessing from heaven that I sent here for a mission. And it was all started to be humble from the good beginnings that begun.

 

I told them that mosaic has two copies of chromosomes is normal and one copy of chromosome has extra set. Which it is why it formed mosaic Down syndrome. Even Dr. Jerome Lejeune discovered before. But holding right there from my chromosome, my knowledge that I learned. I also hope to bring a message to all special parents who helped their special child to grow like I was standing. My two bosses were taking their jobs as school administrator, principal and also being part as an occupational therapist. Then I started to know when will I begin from my job.

 

The start of classes went by as the school started on 17th of June, every child has own their behavior. Their behavior that my boss told me being part of growing up have to nurturing their talent. Which was it how it handle the special kids? From ADHD, autism, cerebral palsy and even Down syndrome, the four cases I saw from different special kids in the classroom. I’ve learned new things that I discovered. But my world shook at the back of my mind what needs to learn must have extra careful. To set aside, the nutrition month was coming, the month of July. And there was an interns. And an interns from MCU were optometrist graduates. They were here to practice their lives. And so my life henceforth held on.

 

New things I discovered that those of who having had troubles with extra care must know how to overcome. And new discovery must learn how to cope with the problems in the future. And I learned each of trials or problems may come must confront of all details. And I fell in love looking one intern who was my one of my type. But I didn’t mind to fall in love. Because it gave me a new inspiration. And a new inspiration came to build my character. Those things in life were about to unfold the new secrets of love life.

 

So the nutrition month came finally over. I’ve enjoyed the feeling of being youth again. My boss turned good friend of mine. He was able to know my feelings and my inner strength. I’ve must confronted all the details that my mom didn’t know. The negative came from my mom’s aura. But my positive aura came bigger and bigger. And so to tell you my story, before the vacation nulled me thinking right now, the month of August also came. It swept my thoughts at the back of my head that the livelihood project I was working on failed to my own hands. But I learned the lessons that I must strived back with my own hands. And my boss was right that I’ve had to move on. But the typhoon swept all the problems came in. As we started to rebuild new school ground, we relocated new higher facility and bigger spaces to fill in. But the problem came in.

 

As the month of September 2013 came in, we handled our first language of the month (buwan ng wika) supposed to held last month of August. If the typhoon didn’t persisting to trouble with us, then the language of the month didn’t have to occur. The event was successful. Some kid won in the competition and some kid won the hearts in the audience. It really captivated the hearts of many students participated in the event. It was a brilliant idea. But the fact 13th of September came in, I felt I didn’t want to leave the kids alone with someone they really wanted to keep with. I never said that I won’t come back. But I promised that I would go back. As you promised one word, you kept it from your actions. If it failed, you were a failure. But failure sometimes took granted to rebuild the trust.

 

I went to Toronto attending my sister’s wedding with my family. And it was my first time in my life I felt I didn’t sleep the whole trip. I was scared of a whole trip might falling down like a turbulence in the movie. So I felt right from my shoes and my feet. I felt scared. But God alone never leaves us. He kept me awake instead and enjoyed watching movies. I also played some of tetris game. But the fact I’ve enjoyed, I’ve finished 6 movies in my first trip going to Toronto. My sister’s wedding was beautiful. She was dressed like a beautiful princess. And my new brother came to welcome to our new family, my sister’s husband. So I was happy to meet new family. When will I have my own family? When it will stop that my mom would nagging me all the time? But hey, I was blessed to have with them on my life. Then on the way back to the Philippines, I’ve also finished 7 movies and played a little game of tetris.

 

On the way back to the Philippines after the storm finished before we came in the territory of Philippines, I was happy to see the students again. I was happy and turned to be a responsible adult. And being part as a special adult, a lot of things turned good and bad news came in. The bad news was when the preschool teacher left us without a notice. But I continued to communicate with her until now. And the good news that I became a full-time assistant teacher in the school being also part in the morning classes with the preschool kids. The kids were happy to see me again.

 

When the September was over, the October came surprisingly knocking to my new blessing – attending a children’s party who someone in DSAPI praised me as well. Her daughter turned one year old. And I met new parents again who also have special child with Down syndrome. I felt blessing to them. Meeting new parents and a special child felt the same way I was raised by own special parents. Then one special education teacher came over at the start of the month of November, a friend of special education teacher who came from one school they attended the same school. It gave me something that knocked to my senses.

 

After hearing the truth when my boss was asking me that I’ve had a crush to the special education teacher, it was then pushing to my limitations that I must forget my ex-girlfriend. Having going back with my ex-girlfriend was already hard to push on because she was engaging to married someone else. So the December’s Christmas party came over. The Christmas party was success event. And from at the back of my mind played a lot of imaginations before the 2014 came over. The new life succeeded to me that I’ve had a new job – being as an assistant teacher on my fourth job in my resume. And I was happy that I’ve had regular job already, my first one.

 

2014 came over at the start of January. It was then I realized that something intuition came again for me. I didn’t mind noticing it. But I was afraid to sense it again. But I forgot how to praise myself having with a regular job. Then the troubles came on the month of February 2014. After my parents heard that I’ve had getting a salary from my regular job, the intuition was right. It was my mistake but new lessons that I learned. I stopped from being what it took from my job. I was afraid to let it go and wanted continuing my mission with the students wanting to see me happy again.

 

The month of March came in, my emotions came and ate my pride. I didn’t know what happened to me. It started to crumble like a rock falling from the mountain or something it never did happening to my life. It was then my intuitions came over. As I sensed it, the ESP or Extra Sensory Projection (sixth sense) has learned throughout my predictions. Before the retreat was going to start soon, I’ve stopped working with them on my final day on 24th of March. From my conscience, I didn’t want to leave them alone but to prosper with my blessings on them. My mom talked about negative things again. She always wanted to have bringing negative things all the time. It was then that I’ve repelled her negatives into positive notes.

 

The time I’ve stopped working with my load provider before, my mom scrutinized and if the load business crumbled, where will I get the money always spending to sell the cellphone loads of them. I’ve to repelling them. So I thought my positive notes came true. This was the basic truth. Being having with positive life must learn the conscience the truth of positive notes. After I went through all the problems, no negative thoughts would allow entering at the back of my head. It was then I never hesitated. I stopped hesitating. And I didn’t want believing the negative thoughts.”

 

This was the tale of assistant teacher part 2. It covered the whole story from Assistant’s desk to Assistant’s corner: Going back around. The additions to the story I’ve added have come to seal the words that I brought it up. Lesson number one is never treat negative thoughts at the back of your head. Lesson number two allows you to remember your good deeds, positive mind and fills your hopes and answers. What will you do if you’ve encounter the same fate that I’ve? Don’t treat the negative. Allow positive flowing to your energy chakra.

 

The second part of conclusion was brought to the end. “Don’t be afraid of your future is awaiting for you, but allow them to come over for you to experience and endure the problems. Let the future handle you and the prosper won’t hurt you but you learn the blessings come knocking to your heart. Remember this as you guide your life alone in the way of beautiful life.

 

Conclusion article post:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/04/08/assistants-corner-the-tale-of-assistant-teacher/

 

Previous Assistant’s corner article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/31/assistants-corner-going-back-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/26/assistants-corner-when-it-comes-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/23/assistants-corner-the-beginning-of-new-life/

 

Previous Assistant’s desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/10/assistants-desk-new-life-has-blossom/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/01/11/assistants-desk-friends-forever/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/25/assistants-desk-last-christmas-party/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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What is it taking to have a new life? Is it possible to tell a new life? How about turning back and redo all the things I’ve been asking? It was not usually that have been passed already to me. So I really gather how to put these things straight. When my life started working before, I was feeling guilty, loveless, anger and frustrated. New things have been passed throughout my life. But nevertheless I felt nothing. It felt my shameful from the beginning.

 

That was the time when I’ve had with my first experience to have a girlfriend. But it flew away from me like a piece of paper written down full of I LOVE YOU, SWEETHEART or something that bothered me from the beginning. The paper I threw it out from my pocket and trashed it already inside the garbage bin. New life has created. And new evidence has turned out good. Good beginnings created new humble beginnings. From where I stood when I was holding from my two hands, I felt from my feet that was shivering from my bones. I thought it was already too late. But it never felt me that wasn’t good. It always crossed me inside of my head.

 

The first girlfriend I’ve had experiencing with, I gave up and have to obey my the rules and regulations. And I’ve returned to single hood again. To think that I was supposed to satisfy my life back then, it was crucial at that moment. And that moment stole my life to have a meaningful way. But those kind of words never dealt me the same way. And I will tell you what I’ve been doing from the start I am doing.

 

This is about my story. And the story has greater possibilities in life:

 

“In the third week of May, 20th day of May, I was invited to see Nick Vujicic in SM Mall of Asia music hall when DSAPI held the invitations for those who just came and saw the event. It was real when disabilities were united as one. But from where I heard from Nick’s voice, my head tilted and said, ‘you must confirm all the greatness of your life, don’t be afraid of who you are. Get out from the shadow and start again from when you are born.‘ And yes, I proved all the possibilities in life was dreaming positive and drew out from my aura that I would do it. And so the next day came, 21st day of May, I went somewhere to have walk-in to apply. It was humid. And I felt something the sun coming inside of my body. So I went instead the classroom instead the office where I went in Cainta Greenpark Village for the first time.

 

When the glimpse of young man married in his early of his 30’s got a chance seeing me in a nice outfit, I came upon seeing two female teachers and one who had became an assistant to them. And upon he said to me, ‘return the day when we call you.‘ When he said that, I wasn’t confirming that I was applied for any positions. Then the next two days, I went to SM Megamall when the job fair held for various jobs that you want to seek. And so I applied two call center positions for tech support and one position in Manila Bulletin for being as a writer or a graphic artist. The next moment I feel was my intuitions. It would became easy for me if that walk-in apply would be best for me. But it never crossed to my mind. And I said and asked myself, ‘what if I never want this life before, I could redo this before having to look for a job.‘ But it was my instincts.

 

Five days later, a humid morning although I was playing an old facebook application game called Farm Town. It was 10:30 in the morning. The sun barely wanted to touch my skin and my head spilled from one moment, it was already the time when someone called from my cellphone. And when it rang, I suddenly picked up and answered and said, ‘who is this in the line please?‘ It was a sudden pressure from my chills to my bones. It was something I felt the past week. It was my intuitions again. And so the call said that I’ve had to go to my appointment interview around 1 in the afternoon. I set up a time. I didn’t get bath in time yet. I was smelling like you don’t want to smell me for. So after the game I finished, I hurriedly got a bath, dressed up quickly in my neat and tidy clothes and left the house around 12 past in the afternoon.

 

When I came around 12:45 in the afternoon in the office, I felt nervousness. The air conditioner felt nothing for me because I came from scorching sun that wants to melt me away. One looking good looking guy with eyeglasses dressing up like a professional came to me and said, ‘are you here looking to apply?‘ And then I’ve answered, ‘yes.‘ For the moment he gazed from the clothes I was wearing, he came off the place I supposed to have interviewing me. And as I thought, I’ve had the feeling that I wasn’t able to get a job right away. My intuitions got me wrong. But when he came back and said, ‘come around and take a look inside the classroom.‘ I got off from my chair sitting with nervousness written in my face. And I came off going with him to the classroom across from another building we would go.

 

As I started walking inside the classroom, he started talking to me again and said, ‘well, we need you to have it here. What position do you want?‘ He asked me again with a quick question. Did I get a job right away? I was obviously hinting the answer saying no I can’t have a job right away. But the intuitions said it was yes. It got me a job. And I’ve started to say my answer and said, ‘anything you could me offer me a position, I can do it properly and learn how to do it.‘ I’ve answered my smart thoughts clearly at the back of my head. And he was amazed from ideas and said, ‘that would be great. The teacher needs you to have an assistant in the afternoon, you can be a sped assistant teacher.‘ To think out of my mind, I was quickly noticing it that they were welcoming me.”

 

It finally paved way another chapter of my life, a new job, a new career and a best move to conquer my loneliness after I broke up with my girlfriend some few days ago. It was then I realized the faithful day chosen me to have a new job. And this was the tale of assistant teacher who never got wrong from his intuitions. His intuitions always served it right and it proved yes all the time.

 

The conclusion was already over. This Assistant’s corner: The tale of assistant teacher was the last page of this series. Although it got me a fourth job in my resume, it added a wonderful career that set good examples, courage and perseverance looking for a good job. The fifth job is coming on the month of May. This has something that sets me a good life with a new beginning again.

 

New beginning creates a path of courage, perseverance, honest and positivity life I always have. Setting a good life means a lot to me. Setting a goal is something that I always want to have new chapter. And it always have the meaningful way. From Assistant’s desk to Assistant’s corner, this has simultaneously written in different months that was started on August 2013 and it ended this month of April 2014. From cover to cover, it has 17 different pages and different filled in blank pages. I thought I would never come up with this series, but it did with a positive life.

 

Looking for a brighter future comes with full of integrity. Full of integrity comes my passion. And passion creates new vision of beginnings. And beginning is always has the same knowledge written in one word – positive.

 

Previous Assistant’s corner article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/31/assistants-corner-going-back-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/26/assistants-corner-when-it-comes-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/23/assistants-corner-the-beginning-of-new-life/

 

Previous Assistant’s desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/10/assistants-desk-new-life-has-blossom/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/01/11/assistants-desk-friends-forever/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/25/assistants-desk-last-christmas-party/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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I finally understand what it means for me. If a new profound family is awaiting for me, then I will definitely go back where I am going. I’m blind to see my own future. I only tell what my mind tells me to do at the back of my head. It’s contradicting me my own words. My actions is contradicting to my words. What leaves me behind is my reflection.

 

I may be gone in a while. But I will be not gone forever. It’s all beyond that matters what needs to know from myself and my knowledge. Should anyone acknowledge me beside the matters? Or perhaps I might thinking over all the words I always say outside at the back of my mind. Losing myself on the ground caused a lot of troubles the past week. Then I reflected too much of myself. I needed to know what mistakes should I learn. And from what I learn, there’s always a new beginning of new life.

 

The school loves me. The teacher loves me. My own self discovered the truth. And so it says the half truth. No matter what the world is looking me down, I’m always looking for up for them to know that I’m stronger and I’m still here around the corner. Thousands of shattered broken glass may find hard to bring it back to altogether. The hope seems lost. But the new hope doesn’t lit out from the light. It’s only bringing up back behind what it tells me to do inside at the back of my head. Moving forward is a moving picture. And moving picture tells me a moving positive sides. All those who are not attracting to one self sometimes are repelling to each other because of one’s place loses only themselves. Maybe that’s the hope is talking about at the back of my mind.

 

One week of reflection, one week of full coming back to my thoughts, one week of preparations and one week full of awaiting dreams for me are more than possible things I should done for more. But the patience overcomes me. I should realize that emotions sometimes are killing me over my own self. Looking myself in front of the mirror tells me that I’ve to move forward. Moving forward is what I have to tell my mind always. A thousand of reflections would have been passe me all down. But I decide what it keeps me holding on to my future.

 

Last week was torturing me because of my emotions but I followed my intentions. Going back around means a lot to me. Going back around is what makes me stronger. And going back around is what it defines me all about. I may be not a perfect human. I make mistakes also and admit to my lose once again on the ground. In times, “some battles may find to be winning, but some few battles may find losing all the time.” Whatever it may contradicts to me anymore, I finally understand what it makes me stronger. Then I want to get it back what’s missing of piece of puzzle tells me about.

 

It’s not me anymore. But it’s all about what I get meant to be have on myself. And I’m patience what defines me. But I’m not overwhelm what it needs to have explanations. Some problem may find it not overdue, but it always look solutions all the time. Problem has careless to think, but it has more attention proving it needed to be resolving soon. Tempting to do a mistake is what makes me stronger. But I finally understand myself what it doesn’t need to be contradicting me anymore.

 

Previous Assistant’s corner article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/26/assistants-corner-when-it-comes-around/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2014/03/23/assistants-corner-the-beginning-of-new-life/

 

Previous Assistant’s desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/25/assistants-desk-last-christmas-party/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

Itsmikki Studio. 2014 Copyrights. All rights reserved.

In every beyond the borders or casting around the valleys, the true talent you are seeking is already in your heart. And that leads to your passion. It finds where you are doing purposely. In your heart alone, there are always a struggle in your life. But those between your struggles, in your past times you are doing in your heart what you are doing for the sake you loved. Putting you to the test is another challenge. And a challenge is a greater responsibility to change from your heart.

~Status message in facebook, March 27, 2014, Friday, 1:13 p.m.

 

Living in a daylight that you are doing for a purpose. You live actively in 24 hours a day. You sleep 8 hours to recharge your stamina, your strength and your endurance. But seeking from your heart, you release 15 hours to prepare your day is. Your purpose is your choice. And your choice is what you are seeking from your bottom of your heart. Many of us deal a problems. Some in the society has their own family already. Some in the society don’t dwell to other problems but to seek for themselves looking a right job for them. Some in the society don’t ask to somebody who didn’t know them. We already alert for ourselves. We divert to some many things we could look to. But many of us are seeking for a right time and a right talent is.

 

You question to someone that he or she is really proud from his or her talent is. Then you already are envying him or her. Isn’t an obvious that you don’t have like him or her? It’s because deep inside of your heart, you question to your skills and your talents to someone else. Deep inside at the back of your mind tells you already what kind of questions these are.

 

Seeking the right opportunity, seeking the right job and seeking the right unknown talent for you, you realize it’s already one of seven sins that leads you right there. My advice for you is stop envying him or her talents or skills that they have. Flourish your talent or skill that you already have. Stop making sense what people tells you more. To say it from your heart is sometimes taking you to lead somewhere. Are you getting my sense? Well, obviously of course not, because you are my reader here in my article.

 

If you sense the right question and the right answer, I might ask you only two questions below. Honestly from my heart, these two questions will only question at the back of your mind what’s in my head by the way. But I believe it will find you there to flourish what you have now.

 

In all kinds of job anywhere around the globe, the country or the place you are living for. Yet you find another interesting establishment right beside your neighborhood. You are curious, of course. So what kind of job is it? Is it taking your skill or talent that will flourish there?

 

Here is my answer for you. In many job experiences that I’ve had before, there were only four job descriptions that I’ve had so far. My previous first three jobs being as a chef or a cook, it took me a while what it was really acquired to do or flourished your talent is. The truth was, being a chef was the only thing I couldn’t do inside the kitchen. Instead, I am best making the nutrition in each and every dish it would come out from the kitchen.

 

Like this ordinary carbonara with bacon and cheese, the recipe contains more calories. Plus the bacon has higher calories. When you added the cheese above, it is also consisting more calories. Was it nutrition dish you could eat? This recipe is above high calories dish. If I direct you to eat more valuable dish, like pasta with olives, capers, tuna, sweet chili sauce and pepper-flavored. It contains less calorie contents. Because it doesn’t have cheese, the tuna has omega-3 and sweet chili sauce is basically low calorie content.

 

My talent in the kitchen doesn’t measure well. But I can tell what kind of dish I should eat properly for my right diet needs. That’s one of my strength talent I have. Being as a nutritionist for my position can only flourish one at a time. And I can practice every day so I could eat more nutritional dishes in the future.

 

You come across the counter and say to the cashier, “good morning, what kind of job you have? I would like to get knowing of your job.” Then at the thoughts at the back of your mind saying that you want to apply the kind of job you need in the future. So you think at the back of your mind, you ask yourself and saying, how would you take in this career you choose?

 

Here is my answer to you. I’ve been said that I’ve been in culinary career before. Now I chose another path of different career – to be an inspirational person as a role model. Well, of course, I didn’t choose taking the path of teaching. But the path of teaching became attaching with me. My great grandfather who was once a teacher before has became my inspiration. But that was on my father’s side. On my mother’s side, my grandmother was once a teacher in a school teaching major in filipino and minor in history. Both sides were shown that I’ve yet to follow them on my own too.

 

I’ve decided to choose what was best for me. So I continued flourishing my talent helping the kids to grow their talents. So someday, they will be the ones thanking me in the future. So my heart felt to them. Being part of 10 months as an assistant teacher, I’ve seen myself as an icon in the future.

 

Choice of your career somehow will find you in the future. It couldn’t tell at the back of your head. To tell you the truth honestly, career as an educator to those students will take me to another career. I didn’t choose the career as an educator. But it chose me instead. It flourished my passion for these kids to grow on their potential talents. Like I was before, I was beginning to like on science. So I am still practicing as a nutritionist instead taking part as a chef. I was also beginning to like history, economics and literature. So I become part of my talents.

 

Talents such being as an entrepreneur isn’t hard for me. In fact, I begin to enjoy flourishing more of my talents. It becomes part of my life. Liking history and economics, it’s a big interest for me although I have politics blood running both to my family sides. But I said that I won’t use it for bad decisions. In literature, I begin continuing my career to write more on simple poems, sonnets, songs and stories. And eventually, I also like to write quotes on my own. Creating them on my own is a basic talent that I have.

 

So choosing your own path of talent can take you higher career. Do it practicing every day and have patience yourself. And also one word of advice, take yourself to talk more about yourself alone. When asking alone, it boosts your charisma then eventually take you talking to other people. Charisma is a big plus personality. That is what I also have on my own instincts of talents.

 

The story of Growth success: Believing more to your talents

 

I have fond of many talents that I have. To share with my success is something I could give a little advice before the article ends here. But showing for you might give you a clue. Look around yourself inside of your room. What makes you motivated more? Is it what you are making proud of yourself? Or something that you can’t do in the past, now you can do a lot of better today.

 

I loved how to count from 1 to 100 when I was a kid. But growing up like a mathematician, I wasn’t be going that far. I liked more that I can get information like in NBA statistics from points, rebounds, assists and a lot more to recite in statistics. It’s obvious you can’t have a lot of talents you have now.

 

But when I was still in sixth grade, I was already in loved with science. Being as a science lover, I didn’t get a chance growing up to be a scientist, a dentist, a field where you can excel or something that you really love for. This was what made me proud of. I’ve enhanced a lot both in science and in arts. When I was starting to draw physically in traditional arts in science. My teacher would’ve graded me a higher score, but I couldn’t remembered how high I got in those I.W. (individualized work). To explain furthermore, I’ve ended up loving more in volcanoes and someday when I got a glimpse of a volcano. I will become to call as a volcano photographer. It didn’t come to me as well. But I flourished a little in photography talent that I’ve had.

 

And I also didn’t notice that I can do improving more on arts as I’ve passed on. To become to an end, someday I also ended up like an artist. And it was real. I became excel both in traditional arts and in digital arts. As an artist, you always have to practice every now as then. For me, being as an artist makes you more vulnerable in all aspects. But I never give up. Practicing makes you growing forward and flourish every time you make it.

 

Dancing or acting to dance was my mighty in-born talent. Despite my disability being having as Down syndrome wasn’t my hindrance anymore. I began widening my eyes to see looking forward and moving forward as well. I was then called my parents going to the front of an audience. Then I started to dance as well. Dancer as it called when you flourished your dancing acts as well. An in-born talent made you worth to practice every day of your life. Even at my age, I might catch up to the latest music from this generation to old generation as well.

 

Success of being talent you’ve shared through all of your life will measure your strength to change the world or your nation that is. But being alone hones you make practicing even more higher height. It will become your backbone of your talent someday.

 

Aside from my talents I also have was writing. My writings before was really that bad, or to make it worse in a wrong sentence, or broken phrases might be. Deep inside my heart, I also wanted to be a writer. Making a novel, or a comic story will shine of your career. But the problem was nobody believed on my talents. Not aside when I grew up stronger enough to stand on my own.

 

As a writer made you deciding what kind of words you would show up in a group of sentences in a paragraph. In a climax near ending of your story will show your strength if your characters build well enough to create a good story. But I’ve never done a story before when I was a child. I grew up as a poet first way back when I was in high school years. That was the time of my birth. And a birth became my passion to write. I wasn’t aware of that. But I was glad to have flourishing my own talents.

 

Literature was among my favorite subjects in high school. And so the name also began appeared before graduating in college. And the rest of the history was written already. Science, literature, music, economics and science were my top subjects in my elementary days up to high school years. And I am using my talents up to now, even to date itself today.

 

Your story will be written if you are believing more to your talents.

 

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Each of inch has a success to your life whether it is love life, financial or something you could withdraw your life better than unusual things you discover to yourself. I see many top conclusions that never ends a happy ending, but it ends with a sad ending. You focus yourself to your past and redo it all over again. To satisfy of yourself must stay enduring yourself.

 

To tell you the truth honestly, at the back of my head thinks what it comes around inside of my life. For the remaining details in your life takes back anything, you wouldn’t take care of everything. It was something to do what you really want to do. First, you always have to discipline yourself in greater responsibility. And second, there are many times you will succeed but never give up. Giving up is a failure. And a greater success will bless you more.

 

The moment you realize is the more you get success points you can get. In my experiences before, I usually can tell that I really never give up. Giving up on one occasional habit makes you stepping closer to get you up to success ladder.

 

Let me give you some of my pointer tips what I have:

 

In my skills alone, I can multi-tasking with my skills doing to draw a 30-minute traditional drawing, making a lyrics in 10-15 minutes longer depends how it’s long about, writing an article in 15-25 minutes depends on brainstorming event, cleaning the room depends how it long will you take and making a habit disciplining closer to success.

 

Let me rephrase that. Since I’m not a perfect writer, I also can happen to dance in a few dance moves I have, can reciting a song to practice in one whole day or possible in two hours, can also think what’s inside at the back of my head. I’m not a perfect leader also. But I can take you there. It happens that I’m a skilled person as everybody has said to me that I also have a potential talent – which is a leader.

 

Being a leader makes you important to lead your role. You can never go back the way you can be. You always practice yourself in a first step ladder – as an apprentice. Being as an apprentice, you can practice what field you can get and have experience all the way to the top. But being as an apprentice is one of the hardest role because it takes time to practice. It may take days, months or even in years. More importantly, you learn the valuable lessons as an apprentice.

 

Apprentice is also one of the bridge role that can make you shifting to one another skill or talent that you have. If you have potential talent, in that case you can go higher roles you can land on.

 

Those days it saved me from the past before and I’ve learned my lessons. On which I’ve had experiencing three jobs that I’ve landed only two months each apart. But on my fourth job, it successfully got me lessons to be learn. And I also happened that I got 10 months already. It was already surpassing my longest employment history. Well, it is a fact and not as a joke.

 

What else you can tell? When it comes around, there are many excuses in your life.  When you’re saying an excuse, you always complain that you don’t learn that much. It means that you’re limiting yourself in knowledge terms. Always have a empty glass at the back of your head so you can learn something new what’s inside of a new knowledge. With a limitation lessons, you always find the key importance of lessons. And that way you can also find yourself in your skills and talents.

 

Talents are in-born talents. When you say it’s a skill, meaning you learn some new skill that it added to your life skills. Life skills such as you can knitting a cloth with a various colors of knitting, or earning an important skill like learn how to cook, learn how to prepare things for making important life skill. Life skills is more important than talents. But as such as talents, you can also learn how to provide your materials. Materials can make you more resourceful in a way that you can make life earning skill.

 

This is when it comes around your skills and talents you have. Don’t waste with your energy and time. Because if you do that, you will need your body to recharge at night as well.

 

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I always see the beautiful life on a big flat green planet where there is always a beautiful animals, beautiful creatures, and beautiful living inside and out. But what can you do to make it your past something to do for your present now? To think that way at the back of my head seems losing the ground itself. To tell you the truth honestly, every life today is beautiful. You can either go to the dreams you are going. Or you should stop and try searching around the globe. The globe itself has a big 4 billion population. One small world makes you beautiful when you find out that there is someone you know is connecting to one common friend you have.

 

Well, it commonly does the same thing when you are meeting someone and if you find some connections, eventually you and the person you are referring to connect for one common friend you have. It’s a big deal. Our planet is always full of surprises.

 

Of all things in the world when there is inseparable dreams never seem to happen, there will be always a place to count for your dreams to continue. One dream seems to happen. One goal has to achieve some your smaller details to grow bigger. And one inseparable dream might come back where you are coming from – your future is. People as they speak dreams are not real and some people don’t speak the truth but they continue that their dreams are real. One big question – how you will change your height of your dreams? Nevertheless, it counts how small vision can turn you bigger vision of dreaming higher.

~Status facebook message, March 25, 2014, Tuesday, 7:19 p.m.

 

Here are some three weird explanations you want to find in this article:

 

1. Myth: You don’t like family tree or genealogy when you’re still a child. But as the old sayings says that if a first child in the family is favorite’s grandparents’ grandchild. The first child knows everything about the family tree or genealogy.

Fact: It didn’t come to me as I knew when I was still a child. In fact, when I grew up and finally knew where I came from. I started to like family tree or better known as your genealogy roots from both sides of your families.

 

2. Myth: It said that if the youngest child is spoiled child, it will get anything from the parents or siblings. And it has a greater intelligence quotient but it has a lesser emotional quotient.

Fact: Youngest child doesn’t consist as a spoiled child. It lacks of information getting the child or the person is. That if the child is the youngest, he or she would be intelligent. It doesn’t need to be intelligent or emotional, it needs discipline and behavioral test at home.

 

3. Myth: The middle child is always a miserable child. A naughty child that needs attention or a clown that attracts from the society as their relatives.

Fact: I was a middle child, third sibling among five siblings. Being as a middle child, it doesn’t consist that I am a miserable child. To count that is not miserable, it consists a variety numbers of gifted child. It materializes what it needs to be finish. It can also multi-task some things to do when it needs to do.

 

Despite of all things that God create in our living world planet called earth, it would have a beautiful life. And there is a mountain of hope, a valley of faith and river that streams your trustworthy in the land. No matter what it says, it always has to be said and says, “every life is new no matter in the beginning that will do in the present and it will last for the future upbringings.

 

One question has come to my intentions and there is always one answer needed. What do you need to know accessing from the past? The answer would be and says, “Go back where you come from and tell me about your past. So I will know what your character is. And for your background check, it will find a new meaning from accessing from your past.

 

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I always tell myself how I look in the future. Can I have a girlfriend? Can I marry myself to a beautiful woman who will accept me whole-heartedly? Can she love me the way I have my life today? But there are so many things in my life that I still have to conquer about myself. But my distraction today is looking for another job that suits for me. I’m not happy anymore in my situation. Because when someone has to be standing on my shadows, it would kill me one by one emotionally but not physically. My mom would keep me locking on my shadows.

 

When my emotions are draining me out, some along the way in my journey I am no longer existed. I have Down syndrome. It’s not a hindrance to me anymore. But the hindrance I cannot accept is an attitude. When an attitude is on my way when someone is not agreeing with me, that’s how you look that you are pretending to be someone locking on my cage.

 

Do I have to stay longer? Does my parents know me what I want? All their decisions made it for themselves. I have too many questions in my today. I’ve been quarreling on my other side at the back of my head knowing if I’m still good or not.

 

I’ve been sitting in my own bed, thinking if I’m ready to another relationship. My job is still kicking up to my nerves. My mom stares at the back of my head thinking if she will keep staring on me. I’m not a perfect human. Every human in the world has mistakes on their own. Nonetheless, every human has own mind what they are doing. Perhaps I give myself a mistake every now and then.

 

If I give up one thing in my life, I would stare on my wall again and staring blankly in a quiet room. My room has full of dreams. And some doors will surely keep knocking me again. If I go out again for tomorrow, what dream will have to wait for me? If my life give up, I wouldn’t mind to quit on top of my performance level inside at the back of my head. Is that how you treat me well? Of course not, I am not that kind of human.

 

If there are shadows that cannot be broken, there will be a light. And a light will shine in beautiful life. Life has full of mysteries whether has one goal has been struggling in my life. And that one goal, will I be getting married in the future? There are thousand of girls in the lonely planet. Each kind, each race, each better has come, but there will be only one who deserves my heart better.

 

One heart, one simple smile and a sweet glare of a beautiful smiling girl is waiting for me. If there’s a sunrise on the beach I could wait to see in beautiful morning, there will be a sunset. And that sunset is a girl who will keep me accompanying me in the future. Who deserves to know me better? What kind of a woman will win on my heart? Is she the one will keep my heart? I don’t know of these questions to be asked.

 

I’m suddenly feeling to my heart  that I can barely to know. If she is the one, I could be hard to breathe around when my mom is still around keeping to stare at me. Shadows are always there that cannot be broken, but there will be a light always that shines in beautiful life. Knowing one mistake you would do, some hidden mistake will appear on your own way.

 

New life has made. New birth consists a new importance in each and every human being. In that new birth, it means new hope, new faith and new role – a role model. I cannot stand what an attitude is always blocking my way to achieve. But there are many thousand of paths to be chosen. One goal to another goal, I’ve been sealing one goal to achieve and that is the highest of all dreams.

~Status message in facebook, March 23, 2014, Sunday, 10:23 p.m.

 

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I sat on the chair across the empty room where I began thinking at the back of my head which one should I do it first. In my vision for the day, I realized that I put too much of effort for my work. Little did I know was a little thought inside at the back of my head. Should I prefer to talk or to begin with a silence? Maybe I am a little conscious. Every day I always clean the classroom, now I am beginning to wonder what the little details will coming inside of my head. I should realize that I am helplessly thinking.

 

Each day has passed, each night I’ve helplessly slept with my pillows. The old days were over. But I never presumed that those days will bring it back to me. I began to wonder and wonder what would my days will be at the blink of an eye.

 

The summer is coming and the recognition day is coming in for the next two weeks more. The teachers are inseparable. And my two bosses were looking at me as their own brother. It was then I realized that I didn’t have an elder brother. I was a middle child in five siblings but I was an older brother to our youngest brother. Looking for the right place and right time didn’t matter to me. I was looking disarray on myself. Then sudden with my eyes felt sleepy. I was unconscious very night helplessly to wake up again. I almost wanted to wake up from reality.

 

My days are becoming dull and wide to have happen that I don’t it like. Timid but stubborn I was before. I didn’t want to bring it back to my personality. It has something to do with the person who is still working in the school. I didn’t like him. But I become not enjoying anymore and my eagerness to come in the school is becoming late. Forcing myself to work must something for me to energize for my whole day. I didn’t felt the presence.

 

I became more stubborn. But I don’t like. When I become stubborn, I should look for another job that suits for me. Maybe if time will permit, I should realize about that. But in ordinary days, I become disoriented. But right now what I feel toward going to my work, I feel more uneasiness. Should I continue with my emotions? Or should I take a rest first? But untimely in my life, I always seem happy everyday I see the smiling kids around the school.

 

I am becoming more unstable. Unstable in the way of living of money, I constantly drop from my performance. But I don’t want to let it happen. I might not create any happiness anymore. For moving forward, I must seek the dreams what I have today. Hmm…it’s easy to say but you’re not doing for action you are doing right now. All my life depended on the past. Or should I continue living away from my comfort zone? But I don’t know the answers yet.

 

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Every single day you ask me why I am not as seen as Down syndrome. It’s because it’s not a hindrance to me anymore. Disability as they speak, or not as disability as the others seems they don’t believe in it. One day, I ask them also why I am standing in my little shadows. I conquer my fears and doubts that has been casting away all my hatred, depression and frustrations from my life. I firmly believe that I also can do what others can do – in order to reach the highest goals.

~Status message in facebook, March 16, 2014, Sunday, 9:17 p.m.

 

No labels as Down syndrome: Conquering the new fear

No labels as Down syndrome: Conquering the new fear

 

It helped me to think at the back of my head that it would be another conquering one of my greatest fear: social sharing. It was the time that built my character that I spoke from my words. And sometimes when I shared my thoughts to anybody else, I would like to share my greatest fear – doubting myself to nothing.

 

I have being what you called me as a disability. And being as a disability for me don’t label me anymore as being having with Down syndrome. I set my days to be told and the days have been set me free. I always tell myself if I can do it more like as a motivational speaker. And I was once a guest speaker in University of Santo Tomas who I spoke to graduating students and educational students as they are becoming special education teachers someday. I was welcomed and became red teary from that moment.

 

One student who approached me in the facebook and chatted with me if I can go to the University of Santo Tomas. I was glad to take an opportunity to speak in the crowd. And a crowd was filled different participating special schools from Padre Burgos, Cupertino and from Metro Manila area, with teachers and volunteers in participating schools. I was scared at the time. But since it was first time. My anxiety became once my fear.

 

What is my greatest fear? Anxiety that it was called. But I loved to talk to someone I really knew. To someone I barely know, I wouldn’t talk to the stranger. My parents have really said to me that I wouldn’t talk to the strangers. But when the time I walked-in to the school I wanted really had a job. It offered me as an assistant teacher job. I met a wonderful boss. And I thought at the back of my head that he really was a bossy that time. Little by little, I became part with him also. Day by day when we talked, and night by night that I chatted even in text messages.

 

What was my fear again? It got lost. The anxiety inside of me has changed. And able to talk to new stranger, it coped from my problems. I’ve had been in denial stage since the day I’ve graduated the year of 2003. But from my hindrance before, the learning stage I’ve been through. It was dated back since the year of 1997. I learned that I’ve being condition as Down syndrome. And what it told me? It ate my pride. And I ate the word of anxiety. I became lost. I became desperate finding my answers. And years that I’ve had been in depression, frustration and hatred. What I have become to have my condition. Was it okay to move forward? And I have said that I was really lost.

 

My life since 1997 up to the present has been changed from the learning stage to in denial stage and to acceptance stage.

 

Learning stage

 

I love science before even up to now. And I began loving to draw even higher creative details to imaginative details. That moment I learned how I made science making real traditional artist. I drew a thousand science pictures from one book. And I was once a hundred percent student who loved drawing arts in science. In fact, when I found myself having with Down syndrome in my sophomore year in high school. I’ve withdrew with my stance and my post. I lost my confidence. So I hid from my emotions. That was the year of 1997 when I was still in my sophomore year in high school.

 

In denial stage

 

Knowing that I’ve been graduated from high school in the year of 2000 and moved on to the culinary years that I’ve entered in my prestigious culinary school in the Philippines, Center for Culinary Arts. And the moment I stepped in that school, all the things were different from my previous school. I lost my confidence. And I lost my conscience making up where I will go. My dreams shattered. University of the Philippines, University of Santo Tomas and La Salle College was the top choices I’ve wanted to go in. If I went in UP, I would be bested in theatre arts. If I went in UST, I would be bested in music. Or if I went in La Salle, I would be fitted in multimedia arts, music or any related course that I went in. But my pride fell. So I listened to my mother’s advices. I ate my own words and my anxiety grew powerful.

 

Anxiety made me angry every day and every night. Eventually I went deeper in my frustrations and depression mood. It was because what it happened during my sophomore year in high school. I learned the fact that I’ve being what it takes to be as a hindrance having with Down syndrome. I dived into my fears and doubts that I couldn’t reached in my biggest dreams – to enter in the entertainment industry. My mom enrolled me in dancing lessons during I was in my culinary years. And I enjoyed my stay and learned the basics of dancing. Eventually I learned how to dance hip-hop, ballet and traditional dancing also.

 

I felt my agony. I felt bitterness. I felt my depression. And my frustration would became wider and wider. When my two elder sisters were here, they stopped me drowning into fears as I almost went to suicide. But I couldn’t do it. Because I was afraid of myself. And the anxiety grew bigger and bigger inside of my personality.

 

Acceptance stage

 

The year of 2011 came into my life when I started to post some products I’ve wanted to have retailer down to my name. It was then, the networking came to my life, or so as to be called as multi-level marketing. I was fresh blood and didn’t knew the word of networking. So I joined in June 2011. Petrified that I was inside the networking company. All in the audience inside the establishment building shouted and said, “I am abnormal to become richer one day.” One word that has changed me instantly. What was the word I was called during my elementary and high school days? It was the word of sped. That word derived from the word of retarded. I began to wake up in reality and stopped what I was doing things that I didn’t like.

 

I only lasted in networking days about five months, almost as six months regular employee. Since that day, I’ve accepted my condition being having with Down syndrome and grew my confidence. But I didn’t know the genetically lessons about Down syndrome. I’ve been introduced through my relative’s friend who was been in Davao. They were both volunteers because they were both taking in special education course. Then Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines has been introduced into my ears in January 2012. I went to listen awareness in February annual Happy Walk, the yearly advocating month of Down syndrome.

 

And I became a member in December 2012. Blessings poured me down. Last year was a roller coaster. I didn’t have a job. My sister was getting married in September. What should I do? I asked myself. Then one incident came to my life. I did have experience to have a girlfriend last May 2013. But it only lasted 8 days of relationship. Then it pushed me getting a new job. So I walked in. And the unexpected job came to my life – being as an assistant sped teacher.

 

Anxiety acceptance stage

 

The last and not the least stage is my anxiety acceptance stage. A hindrance of Down syndrome is no longer part of my life or better to be called as no labels as Down syndrome. My boss said it was better for me to move on. And I did.

 

All my anxiety inside of my personality exchanged with new meanings: determination, acceptance, appreciation and confidence. Four words from one word, I drained all of my anxiety sickness. And the anxiety sickness I already overcame.

 

No labels as Down syndrome, what else is new? It decides to be conquering new fears.

 

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The biggest encounter for my life sets my goals to a higher level is being committed something you really love in your life. Don’t let it go and it will reward you at the end of the day. The eternal sunshine at the end of the day will give you more inspiring stories you’ve ever told in your life.

 

Introduction:

Little by little and faith by faith, life is always having achieved what you need to know about. Life is clinging to some promises you have. A small detail may always carry surprising factor. But you never know what it is inside. Is it the power to change or power to protect? You always have know what is inside at the end of your brain thinking to change some important small detail in every success you actually needed. At the end of the day, I have always to think at the back of my mind encountering many choices in your life but to choose only one. It is a decision but not a will to change.

 

The course you have at the back of my head swiftly changes to a new responsibility being as a role model. The mindset I have on my mind sets to discipline myself on every decision I will make. But of course, the new ideas will not change if it’s not properly address at the back of my mind. When I always make conditions to revise, I always think at the end of my mind if I can make it in good condition. And that’s always have to be myself.

 

I prolong always have to say about this but I am proud what I am doing my best in all corners in my life. I am not alone in my journey. I have my family on my back. I have Down syndrome and the fact is that I’ve accept what my condition tells me to do the good deeds in my life. Life is not always unfair. It is always fair that in fact to be honest, God will show your true colors in each and every day what you are doing right now.

 

Do you know the life is always a blessing for all of us?

 

When I am setting my goal for some reasons, it achieves in some many ways. The shapes of inspiration may corner around the world from you. But yet it is inside of you that you need the attention what you are doing right now. How would you know if some parents will follow you? Because you are drawing the attention in the society that you are creating the good deeds in your life. I may be not an expert. But I am a human. And when it comes from the mistakes, I learn from it and act from true love in life.

 

I see the distances from my past to the present times. I didn’t want to compare from my past what I am today. In fact, some changes here right now are made from the truth that you are stronger than in your past. Think about some knowledge you gain from your experiences. Those experiences in your past will teach you how some actions to be made what is wrong and what is right.

 

Determination is a fight to change in your life learning from your experiences. When you are in deep trouble, you seek from your frustration and depression. You cannot go further more. But unless you act from what you are doing, it is wrong. Decisions are always there for you to change.

 

Have you seen your naked eye behind the imaginations?

 

When you are seeking the dreams you prolong always to remember and have to fight from your will to change your destiny, it might come true in your life when once you have to believe your own self. One set goal can make change your life different from your past. Some other people will call it as a jinx. They are saying it won’t come true in your life. Ambitions are real. Dreams are much more you control of your wishes you really want to believe in your self. Why? I always see myself through the mirror telling at the back of my head that I always want to be seen in the television some time in the future. I don’t know why but it seems there are many roads that I have to take before going in a good path.

 

Self-sufficeint and independent is always around inside of my life. When the time my parents will be gone and my sisters are still in Toronto, I will be staying for good here in the Philippines. Being having with my condition of Down syndrome doesn’t make me to stop working in other countries. In fact, the nationalism inside of my life will go on if I am working to other countries like in Canada. The experience I have in Canada is different. But the weather there I cannot prolong is the winter. Philippines is my home country and it’s a tropical country. Some of the tourists are the most attraction in the world expanding more businesses to build.

 

The social platform have been created in 2004 but it expanded on 2008-2009 because of the population users wanted to use the internet usage. To tell you the truth, I always want to fulfill some of my dreams. It acts from my will and the imagination from my brain department will boost my emotions down and the limitless will seek more in the future.

 

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Living around inside the fears you always have pain, is it okay to move forward? But sometimes, I always listen to my conscience and think three times before doing anything not so good. But living around inside the doubts you always have inside of you, you can’t move forward a bit because you are afraid something you can expose the truth. Doubts can set you free when you know you believe yourself. Nevertheless, the world we have today is not a perfect world. We always have to conquer what we can knowledge for ourselves. And today it’s a perfect words to say that you can do it rather doubting yourself more.

~Status message in facebook, March 12, 2014, Wednesday, 7:13 p.m.

 

Conquering your darkness might control more in fears and doubts. When we are scared we cannot move on and hurt someone else, there is something inside of you cannot free yourself. In the past experiences what I have had, there was always an explanation why we were always doubting ourselves even in our abilities or skills that we’ve acquired. But the experience that I’ve had, there was nothing to do but to blame always from somebody else, or to yourself also. Thinking at the back of my head thought even more greater than lesser to think. But lesser thoughts I’ve had inside was a belief. Knowing myself was not good. Acceptance was still going on before. But nevertheless, it always happened for me before that I was been in denial stage.

 

What can you make decide that you are going back to the light?

 

There is always one option and that is something to change, an acceptance. Freeing yourself from any doubts and fears inside from your heart will blossoming you more even blessed in any ways of believing. I don’t have fear that can control me. But my emotions will always ask at the end of the day, ‘what I have done positivity today and not to think negativity.‘ It is always a formation to have believing yourself.

 

The story of Growth success: Going back to the light

 

The darkness of betraying of yourself could lead to suicide. But it never happened to me. I was once doubting myself in the past years for not believing what I can do more as much as I can do. I dared to myself to experience in electrocution once more or to get an accident again. But it never did. Those two incidents in the past happened when I was in my childhood days. It was during the summer before entering fourth grade and before graduating sixth grade in elementary moving at least to high school. When I was after my third grade in my elementary days, I was once electrocuted. And before graduating in sixth grade in my elementary days, it happened to me that I got a transportation vehicle almost hit it me. But it was a minor injury in my shoulder bone.

 

I always looked for an answers everywhere I could go to. But when at the end of the tunnel, a white light would have been asked me and said, ‘are you ready to go back and wanting to go in the trials you would have pass?‘ And I answered to my doubts and said, ‘I would never destroy my emotions but yes, I would test myself to pass all the trials in my life today.

 

Regardless to say that I would been success rather conquering my fears and my doubts. Doubts would climb to your fears. And fears will feeling you out if you could continue to your life. Life is always a mystery when or where you could think, but almost every seconds in your life you would be a thought if you would be a burden or as a mistake in your life. Being having with my condition as Down syndrome is not a mystery. It’s a gift. And I put myself in the right place. Being with my disability is not my hindrance to me anymore. What I could feel right now if somebody would fill in my boots? You couldn’t say to yourself a success. But look for the right community if they could please you and believe what you are doing a good place you are never been.

 

My world is not a perfect place. And it’s not anybody could understand the meaning of being as a disability. Going back to the light is one small step that will replace to a bigger step achieving you more to a greater heights. I’ve been afraid in 14 years before from the year I knew I have Down syndrome since 1997 until 2011. Grieving from my mistakes, I would seek more from my experiences and replace with a happiest thoughts in your life. Living in a fear and a doubt in your life would give a greater lesson in your life. But whenever I tell myself if I am not success or not, I would lose a single sight if I am not mistaken. Tell me if it’s wrong to say. Doubtless thoughts are good chances to survive longer in this part of this world. And numberless word quotes would never give you a perfect meaning.

 

I share my life to the beginning of this blog. But whenever I share my life with, it should have been whatever I need to be in a right place to be as a friendly person. And I would surrender my life to the Lord he has given to me.

 

With this so many experiences in my life, in this part of article of Growth success: Going back to the light, it would been better to share my truth and honestly words I’ve been putting together to form a greatest experience – an acceptance.

 

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With every new chapter, there is always been a new life that blossoms around the corner. But it splits up to new every second of every that I breathe. It was then that I have completely blank my mind again thinking at the back of my mind dared myself not to think of her again, but to replace a new one. Was it hard for having complicated life that you have? I did.

 

The moment I took new breathing sounds like inhaling and exhaling from the bottom of my lungs. Both was working properly in my respiratory lungs. To tell you the truth, there is a new life has blossom my way in a new chapter. And what it triggers? It restores the new faith, my commitment to the special children and the regular children who are studying in the school where I am as an assistant teacher assisting the teacher to help educating the children. What I am supposed to handle with care? I handle with unconditional care with long patience.

 

Last month was astonishing moments in my life bringing back my moments after I stepped in Enchanted Kingdom after 14 years. The theme park of Enchanted Kingdom back then was barely new. But now, it came along with new ride attractions and I perfectly dodged with new ride attractions. First with the flying fiesta, I was all dizziness coming down from that ride. My mind would popped out if I could imagine puking all my food have been eaten. But it didn’t happen. And I supposed the long day I’ve had waiting was with the team I was with. Three special education teachers, the tourist’s grand daughter and our boss were with me riding some four to five rides. The last part of our trip was exciting to ride a bus again. It was because of the animation movie Frozen has been featured two times in our trip. One was when we went off from Cainta and one was when we left Enchanted Kingdom going to our home.

 

What were the songs that have been listening to my ears all the time? Name it: Do you want to build a snowman, For the first time and Let It Go. The ideal song of Let It Go was really capturing my heart along with a movie. And the movie went on and off whenever I watched the movie. It simultaneously played in my music player in android phone. It played at least five-to-seven times a day just to memorize the song. And I eventually did it. I already memorized it. Now it brought me back to sing my masterpiece song, My angels singing to your heart.

 

The song I always sang, My angels singing to your heart, I wrote it from the piece of notepad in laptop. Then eventually I sang it to memorize at least four-to-five times a day. Whew! Isn’t that how the singers memorize the songs everyday? Is it possible that I make it to the entertainment industry? Maybe it is calling to my heart.

 

And the new love life has restoring again to fulfill bringing back the articles of Assistant’s desk again. It was this time, a fulfilling restoration love life or shall I call as an inspiration. I wonder how many chapters will I able to make this time. I wrote twelve articles from the beginning of the month of August. But then with the capabilities making to restore the series, it would be a difficult for me this time. Or maybe I should contain with a new title series soon in different title rather restoring of Assistant’s desk series again.

 

To tell you the truth honestly, I always claim this series would be definitely a success in a future’s promises. What can you make a good story if you can’t write a good concept for a good ideas? I always thought of that at the back of my head thinking it would be fitted. But so, even I always say that this is a purpose in my life today making a promising articles.

 

Previous Assistant’s Desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/25/assistants-desk-last-christmas-party/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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What is 10 happiest moments in your life? Is it what you achieve in the past 10 years of your life? Or 10 months of achieving to surpass in your life? What is your goal then? All of these questions may occur at the back of your head thinking it is going to be having in your mind.

 

Let start from the bottom 10 up to number 1 in my 10 Happiest moments:

 

10 was the new number that I got the months I’ve achieved in my life adding the longest employment in my life.

 

It was then I’ve realized that I can do leveling up to my responsibility disciplining my habits in my life. Working to discipline made realize that you do a lot of your independent life. But aside reasoning out of my problems before was my habits keep changing me. As of that I tested myself of how I can manage my time and discipline work-acholic time.

 

9 was the best numbers that I drew my emotions out from my previous relationship but committed something more important in my life forcing me to work.

 

You can see a lot of emotions in your previous relationship. But after I made my decision not to have conversation with my ex-girlfriend anymore, I made myself to promise that I do lot of my duties as my responsibility to have work. Instead making a lot of emotions, I started to make myself changing your ideas yourself rather depending to someone you don’t do to others. But on the other part, my family are always there for me. Depending not to committed again, I soon didn’t doubting myself in ways of committing a relationship to your partner.

 

8 days of relationship was over already.

 

I moved on after 10 months already and made my decision if I ever saw her again. I won’t make hesitations to start a conversation with her again. But as a friends, it could be a hint to take a small conversation but to evade a lot of questions.

 

7 times stronger than my emotional subconscious mind are giving me more important role in my life.

 

I built a lot of emotional stress points in my subconscious mind already. Depending what I react inside at the back of my head thinks if I can do it alone. I should choose what is right over the wrongdoings in your life. It is more efficient for me today what I can decide not to think of it inside at the back of my head knowing if I can do it more important in your life. Which it is not possible ideas could stress you more. Thinking more impossible and reasonable ideas are stressing you point that you exceed more happiest in your life. That was my goal surpassing my new heights.

 

6 less ordinary days are compiling my work ethic knowing that I can do more vital roles in a week.

 

I only have one day off and that is only a Sunday. If I can do it in Sunday, then it would be more efficient to think a lot of great ideas after your work is done in a week. This is my limitation that have been sets the entire week. Sometimes when it needs more attention to my days, choosing a day sometimes is giving me harder when I can give my day a relaxation and less stressful days.

 

5 minutes are better for relaxing your mind to sleep to boost from your stress or heavy ideas thinking at the back of your head.

 

I always gave myself a quick nap around 5 minutes. My mind was always setting to schedule new importance of your day. If you give yourself a quick nap in 5 minutes, you freshly start at your mind thinking at the back of your mind a new set of ideas in your brain department. What I usually do in my habits, writing is a better choice to give more relaxing at the end of the day.

 

4 is always a better choice to give yourself 4 D’s – discipline, determination, diet and demonstration.

 

What are the factors of 4 D’s? There are many types you can do at the end of your hectic schedule. Let go of your bad habits and change it for a good habits to make it exchange such as from sleeping shorter five-six hours to seven-eight hours of sleeping habits. Determining you to achieve is a vital role at the end of your day. You’ll write in your note if you achieve something new ideas in your list. Diet is an everyday goal in your body daily needs. Like exchanging from three meals in your list, make it cook two important meals either in lunch or dinner such as vegetables and fish only. And demonstration is most important at the end of the day. If you think at the end of your brain doing a lot of activities to be done, make at least demonstrate your activities to be check in your schedule to be done.

 

3 powerful prayers can make it happen at the end of your day – make at least 3 mysteries in a rosary beads to pray for your wishes.

 

I’ve done this in the year of 2012 before getting to know what will be your wishes to be granted. If you wait for your prayers to be done, it needs a time frame and a full of patience. A short time of patience towards of your one mystery in your prayer sometimes takes 15 minutes. Make it a simple habit of your time praying 3 mysteries. The more you pray and the more you wait for the right time frame and full of patience will grant slowly at the rate of your desired wishes. Those particular bad ideas won’t achieve because it won’t happen unless you do it more effectively at the daily needs of your time. Needing 45 minutes of your prayer will make sure you pray conveniently and waiting for your daily 45 minutes together with the Lord.

 

2 important people are better in your life are your parents and with God.

 

Mostly I wait for the right time if my parents are here. But sometimes when they are away from you, have always yourself with God. Take time to pray and communicate with God. He takes time listening you. He always forgive us what we do for the bad times. He always give the right time to acknowledge what we’ve done achieving our new heights. And believing with Him is the most important in your vital role at the end of the day.

 

1 wish is always believing what your dreams can tell you – grab always an opportunity or risk of your life.

 

I always forget what your dream can tell your wildest dream might it happen in your life. Doing a right decision, determination and discipline can make you more stronger each and every day. Testing your limits will break through in your life. What happened to me for the past 3 years was to believe what you can do for your talents is what you have right now. Today the more effective way I can excel to my limitless mind is to test myself to each and every hardest problem I would take at the end of the day. And at the end of the next day will solve one by one in your list. Thinking at the end of the day would test your strengths and weaknesses. One of your weaknesses will prove yofvu more to skill out of your problem needs.

 

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When I came to Happy Walk three years ago, it was me and my dad. That was when I wasn’t yet aware what I was doing to my childhood until adulthood. The world was intimidated me. Knowing that I didn’t know what I was capable of. But the fact I’ve enjoyed my life – being as a special adult.

 

Being having with Down syndrome, or simply no labeling with disability, doesn’t come to my fears and my doubts anymore. But I coped all of my problems when I was a child until I grew up maturely. I was hesitated to come in a big world. All my life has been depended in high school, college and frustration in the past years. Hiding from shadows cloaked me almost 14 years already but I came out from shadows that I became a light in 3 years already since 2011.

 

2011 was a big year changing me throughout all my hurdles. My burden heart poured down like a fire like I’ve been feeling loneliness, frustrated and depressed. I was all alone in one corner waiting for someone to tap me in my shoulder. Suddenly I woke up from my real dreams was waiting me all along. It was then one of my guardian angels told me that I have to follow where my heart is. And I did.

 

I was bored during my days waiting for me to have a work during those frustration and depression days. I was never satisfied what I was doing. I was shadowed of my pride and frustration began piling me up those days. And then I said to myself after I met Lapena family on February 15, 2012, days before Happy Walk begins on February 19, I didn’t want to go back where I was standing before. The boring days settled me down to my happiest times. My satisfaction grew up more as I wanted to look forward. And my pride and frustration began fading away. Looking up was a big step for me. I’ve always asked myself if I can still follow my wildest dreams to enter in the entertainment industry. I only allowed myself eager to be happiness all the time and my lips began smiling again.

 

The big three I coped up from my problems: 1) I’ve always allowed myself looking down no matter how small or big problems will come to your doors. 2) Noticing my real world wasn’t big enough but I only allowed myself as a frustration and depression during those days. And last 3) I looked in my past that I always wanted to change like in the movie of Back to the Future.

 

The big solved problems I made it so far: 1) I’ve entered DSAPI few days before the 20th Happy Walk. 2) I’ve joined my 1st Happy Walk back on Feb 19, 2012. 3) Blessings started pouring me down. And there were more plenty solved problems to been telling you the truth.

 

I’ve started to be walking alone in my own small two steps. Those small two steps were bigger chances to change my decisions. That year 2012 changed my whole life after I’ve entered Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines. I became a member last December 2012. And I’ve renewed my membership last December 2013 for adding two more years. Working was my first step priority those years. And I did working hard to earn my job last year. The roads today are more bumpy this year, because some of the roads I will take have risky chance. But those risky chances will prove my steadiness in the future.

 

The big three to my 3rd Happy Walk was a success. I’ve gained experiences. Some it might fall, but I have to stand up again for making mistakes growing to be stronger. Some it might to grow a little, the opportunity will knock me again those doors opening for me again calling that I will go back from my talents I’ve today.

 

Green shirt front

Green shirt front

Green shirt back

Green shirt back

 

No matter what problems are going for you, you have to knock it from your heart and change it for a good. I may be a special adult, but labeling me as Down syndrome is not my fear anymore or doubts. I will always surprising you in many ways, but to tell you at the back of my head that I have more greater ideas to create in the future. Waiting is not good, but to act from my heart will surprise you.

 

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The day swiftly made my debut running to my old form and it was my first time I joined in the fun run led by Ateneo’s No Speed Limit. For the first time of my life, I spent myself not indulging in computers but to health and fitness day. And I was satisfied. To tell the truth, I always spent my adulthood in computers. And as if there was no tomorrow for me, I’ve always asked myself if I can do it in my running shoes.

 

Front jersey: 3k

Front jersey: 3k

Back jersey: 3k

Back jersey: 3k

 

When I firstly knew about the Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines two years ago, then it was my fate to change my fitness for a good change. I didn’t know what I looked like if I go back to my old form when I was in younger age. But I did. The fact I minimized my body 34 pounds now, it was a difficult to turn the table back to a form age. I barely could not reach on this. Although my numbers for this year might be slow my pace back to my weight.

 

Last year I trimmed down my weight from 180 pounds above to cut it 31 pounds. And I made it to make my body fitted in my coat and tie in my sister’s wedding in Toronto. And all of my relatives was shocking to see that I was cutting my image from my body before. My role has becoming more wider and wider as I am going to change my world to look fitness more.

 

When I joined Special Olympics team last month, I met Ms. Kaye through facebook social network. It was a fate when I firstly knew DSAPI also two years ago, the same time I knew also in facebook platform. Well, I was merely shy back then. But when first things first came out at the back of my head thinking if I was shy right now, I knew some names in the Special Olympics team. And so my shyness becomes no worries for me no more.

 

I firstly thought I could be a shy. But at the back of my head simply is not resisting me at all. I saw thousand of dreams I could catch from my subconscious mind telling me if I could still follow my greatest or wildest dream to get in the entertainment world. But the real world has changing me now, for real. I was not intimidating myself anymore. In fact, I even more challenge myself into greatest roles – to become a role model instead going to the entertainment world.

 

If I know more dream I could reach is to believe myself within myself also. Whether you have impossible things you could ever imagine will turn into possible things. You realize how important your vital role is. Or how you could put yourself into a good position. If I do that, I would not imagine myself changing myself in the future.

 

The first run to 3 kilometers I ran up to this day made me to realize that I could still catch for my fitness. And yesterday was a good deal. I only ate two meals yesterday which it was oatmeal in the morning and chicken at the end of the day serving me as my dinner. And up to now, my diet was changing to a pace. I am more beginning to strict myself not to eat in six days about more than a meat in six days. Chicken, of course, is also considering a meat. Because it is poultry meat, the fourth cholesterol in a food pyramid which it consists chicken skin as a fat.

 

As I always made my mind changing my views from my culinary days, it was beginning for almost one year having myself in a diet period. My diet has started last the first day of April 2013. And up to now, I almost gave up my eating habits not to eat meat but it is also hard not to eat meat. I only now eat meat thrice a week. All of my days are changing as my habit turning into a vegetarian mode. Once the month of March will start occasionally of Ash Wednesday, the vegetarian mode will be turning soon.

 

The lessons here are simple. Eat a right amount in your body not too many in a day but to eat moderate in right time of the day. Eat breakfast, the important meal of the day. Once you put in your diet at the end of the dinner time, you could eat less in the evening. The hard it will digest you will be hard for you to make up to minimize your weight is. Don’t get frustrated on your diet. Take a time to spend looking yourself in the weight loss program. Always be conscious by looking your weight in a weight tool. And remind yourself so you could discipline your diet is.

 

Right now, my ultimate goal is a STEWARD. What is STEWARD? S is for Sunshine, TE is for Tiring Exercise, W is for Water, A is for Air, R is for Rest and D is for Diet. The more you discipline yourself in weight is the more you could minimize your weight down and helps you to realize how value your life is. And also put the number one vitamin in your body is a happiness.

 

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I was bad writing my sentences when I was young as a child. I had always pretending to be as a writer when I was a kid. In the past when I was younger from range of five years old to seven years old, I began writing. But my words were longer to cut in phrases, sometimes in difficult writing when I was a kid. My speech was also poor and it was delayed. But being having with Down syndrome wasn’t difficult for me because I knew in my heart time will come, heal and to accept my condition. And so I did.

 

Whenever I always saw comics, I always thought also to become a comic artist. And I always wanted to become an artist when I was a kid. But things were different when I was a kid and when I was a teenager back then. But I didn’t know how difficult I triumphantly did what I can do for this years. When two years ago, my writing began calling to write it again. And somehow I did. The last twelve years ago, I also began to write in different social platform, blogger.com. But the site wasn’t improved during that time and so my writing also.

 

I never thought I can do this to write and to write until I always practice everyday just to memorize how small details can make bigger picture creating more structure sentences. But the picture there when I was a teenager when I started to write poetry, my classmate who was always have been topped in the school. She always had been intelligent in our class. But I’ve had to say that she was better than me writing those sentences good and structured. I didn’t want to make arguments. But sad to say, I lost my many entries to be included in the school paper. But she was the head of the school paper during that time.

 

Our valedictorian was always being as a top class in our school. But he was near in top 3 in the class when other of my high school classmates were my formerly school mates before. I was alone in seventh grade but somehow I never thought I can have chance writing was all of my accomplishments.

 

My motivation to my writing is continuously improving but somehow it’s not always have to be perfect hundred percent. It is always been 8 out of 10 rate. Because there are more rooms to improve my writing skills. But my proficiency in filipino somehow also have been in 7 out of 10 rate. I always have to compete my writing to my past days. And what I always see around is my inspiration in my bank at the back of my head. I didn’t know much of english writing when I was young. And I didn’t see much of myself in the past. From now what I am writing.

 

My motivation is always everywhere. I’ve been getting a lot to inspire me. I’ve always watch some english movies, english television shows and some english books to improve my writing. But I’ve never thought that this writing is how I motivate myself.

 

When the times are not right, somehow I skid myself in a piece of paper and start to write in an empty paper with a pen or a pencil. And I thought at the back of my head would be making easier, but it was also difficult to structure the sentence. What I did the last two years, I’ve attended again in call center training which my english would become improved. I did completing the 100 hours of call center training and gained the certificate of call center training instead going in call center career.

 

It was supposed for me going in call center because of my certificate. But I said to our english instructor that this training would benefited me for my english to become better. And so I did. After few days, that was why I decided to put back my studio to name it after my game online character name, Mikki and also after my youtube account, itsmikki. It was decided to put the name of Itsmikki Studio in the social platform, wordpress.com, because someone was recommended me to use the platform. And so I did. And later that year, I also put up my facebook page and name it the same, Itsmikki Studio.

 

There are many reasons I motivate myself to write. One was when my first love I sent my letter before sending to Illinois, the state of United States of America. And then I began also been in love writing when I entered in high school writing in poetry first. And I never thought that I can also have been in love writing in songs, stories and at the end, practicing to write in quotes also. What is my motivation? My motivation is how I write to my life and this is my testimony.

 

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The key of success life is to live peaceful, harmoniously, optimistic and free to open your mind to one of happiness times. I always think free flow at the back of my head never believe to sadness, sorrowful, hurtful or believing to negative thoughts. Seeing my future to unfold will realize how important trials or problems will test me. No matter what makes depressed me, I will stand way out that being having with Down syndrome will be no longer as my label but to act as normal. I am who I am. And I believe in happiness no matter troubles will bring me in.”

~Status message in facebook, January 27, 2014, Tuesday, 8:28 p.m.

 

It changes my life from the past to what I am standing right now. When I encountered more of my problems before stating I was in depression and frustration times, I was always looking myself down to the mirror before the typhoon in Manila hit last September 26, 2009, Saturday morning. It was then I looked always how I was unchanged looking myself in the mirror. I was thinking at the back of my head I was locking in the cave no wondering that I would ever come back to see the light.

 

When I saw a light at the end of cave, I always thought that something was missing about myself. It is a matter of acceptance giving myself to change more about myself and to the people who really loves me much. Giving a chance that I have Down syndrome, mosaic Down syndrome that indicates two copies of chromosomes are normal while another extra copy of chromosome has trisomy 21 Down syndrome.

 

Normally I always not study on my own how to base what is really have to have Down syndrome. When I joined Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines two years ago, the 20th Happy Walk on February 19, 2012. That was Sunday. One rare gift could send to me. And it was a real gift blessing I received from one of my angels I really believed. Angels are my beliefs. And somehow it changes me when they are seeing whether I am doing wrong or I am doing right. I am not perfect who I am used to before or even until now. But I am also a gift from God that He send me to see my visualize my purpose in my life.

 

I read Purpose Driven Life book before. It was then I realized that book was important to me. But the typhoon washed all the books I loved to read. And one of them is Purpose Driven Life.

 

My purpose in my life has beginning to change my visions. When I was not able to finish my second choice to digital course in 2006 and until now, I was somehow changed my mindset if I can study again. My third choice today is looking forward to study in special education if I can budget all my savings and turn it all good choice to able looking forward to have a four year course. But on the other side, I will still have my own business creating my unique line – creating more greeting cards in different sizes, pocket books, novels, quotes book and many freshest ideas to make more. And that is how the name of Itsmikki Studio change me as well. But the connection to my wildest dreams if someday will achieve. I will be able to make a movie somehow, or a television show, or something that creates my vision. So I can let other disabilities to work with me as well as the label says that there is no label of being disability allows here on earth.

 

God always says to me that Jesus Christ will be always our savior to change us, He will be remain to rescue us from the sins we make from him. But we always do what we can do to change us. But it will be my faith to remain as catholic no matter what. I am looking always no matter what you have religion you believe into, the relationship with God is most important.

 

Seeing no labels as Down syndrome will no longer be part of my life. But I always believe what I can do no matter trials or problems will come after me. The secrets will always open to the truth. And the truth will set you free no matter you have today. And you will see the light at the end of the cave.

 

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There is always a new height of new achievement. But sometimes there is always a pending dream still on your way to achieve. Looking forward to a pending dream somehow stop me for a while. I know it’s kind of hard. All the hardest part you always work for sometimes it falls to your knees. Well it somehow gets on a wrong turn.

 

I see a lot of positive sides of this year of 2014. I got my new barangay clearance and a cedula. And I am still way waiting for my renewed NBI clearance to get it on a few days left. It is somehow getting me stuck on my work. This work as an assistant teacher is really below the minimum salary I could get. But the experience gets me a roller coaster. Somehow I can’t imagine how things should not be lighter or heavier. It never breaks in the bank at the back of my head although it says to my mind that I should get another business, or an extra income, or to get another job perhaps.

 

2014 is always a new door for me. And I was starting to get on try-out practice last three weeks ago in bowling and cricket training. The first sport I’ve had trying on bowling was okay. But the bowling for me costed me highly not anticipating on my wallet. It really costed me that much aside from the golf I’ve always want to go back also. Because on my age, I should be now practicing my diet into maximizing exercise where I can get physical practice. But on the other side, cricket training was one tough ball-and-bat game like one in baseball or softball games.

 

Then another came to my place. It was one my closest to my dreams I should save more money for my own business in the future. Getting to open a new bank account as soon my financial basis is above 30 minimum or to 50, maximum already. Sooner or later, I should make more photo messages, create more greeting cards, quote books, make more a lot money from my freshest ideas. No one should get to my imagination but I am. Because on the way to my wildest dreams is getting on entertainment industry.

 

Entertainment industry is closer one of my goals as to film-making, animating, getting a new line of business or to create more stories as well for either television series, movies or in animation too. But so far, this is one I’ve been looking for a new heights.

 

And I can’t imagine how closer I am to, or maybe I am too curious what I am doing right now assisting children at the school where I am enjoying to my status to my work. But the problems are getting bigger. The financial problems are still on my shoulders. The expenses are also there. Maximize my potential skills are somehow exercising me as well. Maybe I should start to get on my own capital from my cellphone loading business to create another capital. But it seems reckless to me. Should I get to take a risk? Or should I not to get a risk? Somehow I always tell myself that my birthday is getting nearer and nearer. And I’m also getting old.

 

I’ve been locked to my wildest dreams up to now whether I like to go in or go out chasing another unexpected dream to create more financial basis. Hmm…it’s really hard to expect from me or to anybody else. And also speaking for entertainment industry, I should be saving also to build my own house in the future. I might want to hold on my wildest dreams just to enjoy what I am doing right now at the school where I am working.

 

Right now, I am planning to retire at least the age of 55. And I am starting to plan make business as late or make it worse it can happen in scenario. But the hindrance being having with Down syndrome is not labeling me anymore. I should be act like a normal person looking forward to a new heights.

 

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Age doesn’t matter what you are looking for a right job, right decisions to make, for the fitness you like and right attitude towards to your life. I can’t imagine how painful I’m in my fitness and my mental age. Many from my problems measures in many ways of life. But I redeem all of my problems lighter. Thinking at the back of my head just seems not awaking for me. Doubts can also fear what you are doing. But happiness is all of my success in my life. Reducing or minimizing my mood situations can take in different stages. But the matter of fact, last year was full of blessings. And I come knocking again for this year’s blessings. I never stop knocking and do all the stuff I’m enjoying my days. My number one resolution last year was minimizing my weight. And I did. And the last unquestionable resolution also came to me last year. And so I did have a work today. My goals have changed. My dreams never stop me dreaming. The last thing I’ve received two years ago when I’ve joined in DSAPI. The Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines was a gift that I’ve received. Things have changed me. Those days of my depressions and frustration was over.

~Status message in facebook, January 22, 2014, Thursday, 8:12 p.m.

 

I am crossing my fingers to this Year of the Wood Horse. But I never believe in chinese traditions although my lineage to my mother’s side has chinese. And I’m also have part chinese in my blood. But the things have changed today.

 

When I see the whole point of changing attitude sometimes can change you for good. Whether what you are doing right now is bad, sometimes it may sounds bit of misunderstanding. Otherwise, you may sound awful what you are doing unmeasurable. I always count myself one to thousand. If I lose one number, I go back to that number and recite it all over again. But I always say to me that if ever I may encounter in this scenario, I always know what to do in right or wrong decisions.

 

Giant footstep

Giant footstep

 

The story of Growth success: Two years

 

I was disoriented in my life if I’ve had really have with a condition of Down syndrome. To think of it, I never knew in my life when I was a kid having with this kind of condition. I’ve entered high school and found out that I really have had Down syndrome. But I never asked my high school teacher which one really I’ve had in my life before. Later in 15 years for now, 2012 was the success changing my direction in my life. I started to join Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines 20th Happy Walk last February 19, 2012 in SM North EDSA skydome arena where I’ve celebrated my birthday the day of 20th Happy Walk. On this marking event of this 22nd Happy Walk coming this February 23, 2014, Sunday will be my 3rd Happy Walk. My parents finally confirm that they are going with me. And I guess time will come too if ever my siblings in Canada will join too in this event in next years hopefully.

 

I have two more siblings where I am a third child in five siblings. I am an elder brother to my younger sister and my younger brother. Time heals if time permits. All of the conditions before are now changing this past year and this year also. I’ve been doing all the good deeds. But sometimes I also have the few bad deeds unchanged until now. I admitted it that I was wrong. Time heals from the scorned mind at the back of my head. When I joined the 20th Happy Walk, it was not all about me. But it was also for changing who I am today. The acceptance was there when finally in my life came changing to me. Back to those days were depressed and frustrated. I’ve asked my colleagues, my bosses and my friends in my workplace to look after me. If someone got wrong to me again from anyone who can discriminate me, they will rescue me in the first place. I didn’t choose this condition. But God chooses to give me this condition and I’ve to accept in reality and change the heart in the society.

 

Being having with mosaic Down syndrome I’ve had in my life that my mom told me. That was because when I’ve finally attended the early intervention seminar thrice just to understand the situation I’ve had today. Because two copies of chromosomes are normal but the third copy of chromosome is an extra chromosome, which it is explained that I’ve mosaic Down syndrome.

 

New parents or new friends in Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines keep me asking what are my success in my life today. Just don’t be afraid of chances of your special child. Believe in whole-heartedly. I’ve ask myself to be better this time. Fears of rejection was one of my fears before. But now, I’ve now changed. Instead of fears of rejection moves closer to me, it begin with a belief in acceptance. Accept the special child has changing you. And the special child sometimes can find your emotions changing also. From fear of rejection, accept the reality and move on. I also have had encounters in my life before alone to my problems. But just that I live with my parents doesn’t mean that I’ve to stop. I also have to learn how to work independently, share my little story blessings and change emotions to happiness state in my life.

 

When asking too much from God, I’ve always ask myself too. Change yourself to a better person inside and out. I never work to myself alone. And God also works to my promises also. But I am helping myself in what some ways I can work independently. When asking too much supervision from my parents, sometimes I, alone, can’t work performing very well. Because they are always have the word of wisdoms saving to say it to me. When asking some words I can’t understand, that is the way I could ask from my parents. But not from financial basis, I work for my own. I also don’t ask money from them. But I could supervise myself with my money through my loading business whenever I could go to. Now that I’ve a work as an assistant teacher. Money is not an issue to me anymore, but an experience is already demand in my life today. Because if I rush to some thing, it would be helpless to me.

 

No money involves in networking companies where I am not working with them anymore. I already have fear from them changing their attitudes to a rightful way of thinking at the back of their heads. Their attitude sometimes when calling themselves as an abnormal, because they are talking about the money, their rich. That’s what the abnormal talks about in their head. And I am already sensitive in that word since I dissipate that word at the back of my head.

 

Since encountering with the networking or multi-level marketing companies for the last two companies I joined in the past, I already moved on and have to learn not to go back from them ever again. It was because this was the lessons I’ve learned. But I discovered Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines through one volunteer from my distant relative in Davao. I want to thank her and want to see her in real person. If I ever have a chance in my life to be wish granted, I just want to see her and that’s all I’ve in my life today.

 

This is my growth success in two years already. And this marks two years when I met one person in Clinica Manila, Megamall last February 15, 2012 and that was Agnes Lapena.

 

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I suddenly felt nothing was changing me so far. But at least I felt being like a friend that I treated her. On this article will be the last article for the span of 5 months. But there will be more other addition of this continuation of articles in the future.

 

I’ve been promising to myself that I won’t be committing to have a girlfriend as long as I am working in the school. If I’ve even to have, then I would be able deep in trouble between my work and my status also. I won’t be able to stand of my business, my work and my life also. I don’t know why I am doing this to myself for the past year and this month of January. But this January, it’s rocking my month because on the next month, I’ll be celebrating my birthday soon. What else will be the same if nothing can change to my limits instead? But the limitless mind I have at the back of my head always remind me that I have to continue my life.

 

I’ll be forever been blessed for the past two years already. Because since I’ve had joining in Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines 20th Happy Walk the last two years ago, it was beginning to have pouring down of my blessings. On this day, it was incredible. I’ve received two blessings. But that is another story to be written on the next article. Wish I can fly above the clouds right now as if I am a superman wondering the skies to help someone to the rescue. But at the end of the day, I seem so happy right now. Because the past five days, I’ve been thinking too much. Now my migraine starts to settle too soon so I will be able to write article after article. I love writing, what can I do?

 

To cut the story short, I’ve been blessed that I was been a friend to my wonderful special education teacher who was nice, bubbly and the best teacher we’ve had in our school where I was working. Not because of that, I was also starting to see her personality on the first day I saw her on my work in the school. Her personality rocked my world. And she also smiled all day long just for her students and also for me. Because it reminded me to her traits. My traits was also like her. I am also a bubbly personality person. I love to smile. I love to joke. I love to have friends all day long with me. And I love to talk to anyone I could talk to. The one thing I love in my life is drawing, writing and dancing. But in the future, I know what it waits for my dreams so far. I cannot wait although I don’t know what it is. It’s reminding me that I have to continue what I am doing so good to myself.

 

And to cut the story long, when I saw her before, it always reminded me what I’ve been looking for a girl to know me better or to have a girlfriend. But whenever I asked to myself, “should I continue to date with her?” But at the back of my head was telling that I couldn’t continue because I’ve had a poor financial and accountability working status also. Right now for what I am offering to myself are to have a good life long-life working with the school, get a good record of doing good deeds, passing to achieve my achievements in my life and to have enjoying my life even to the end of my life. Because it is nothing claims for me but for the lord bringing me here down to the earth. And I’ve been a wonderful special adult.

 

I’ve been doing a lot of good deeds the past year. And this year would be opening soon the new achievements in my life today. And that’s another story will be opening to a new book also. I’ve been publishing every page of my new chapter. But on my second anniversary of my studio site on March 16, there will be a wonderful achievement to come along the way in my life today. What I’ve been doing right now is taking myself to another level – joining the Special Olympics. If I can search from my heart where I really love to do a right sport for me, it would be my determining for me and it will be more diligence working hard for me also.

 

My special education teacher and I’ve been doing a lot for the school today. And soon if the time comes she is leaving, I will give something another friendship gift to her. The gift I gave it to her two days before was a friendship flowers which were my token of my friendship with her. Because if I continue to date with her, we will be dealing some issues. And besides she will be working also in California. If time permits, then I would be definitely seeing her again in the future. Right now what I’ve been doing is being a friend to her. With my sport attitude, I should realize that a friend is in need then I will be on her side even if she has problem or an issue. There will be someone waiting for me at the end of my heart if someone is willing to take my offer to her becoming my girlfriend. Right now, the number one rule is being friends forever.

 

Previous Assistant’s Desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/25/assistants-desk-last-christmas-party/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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Page Seven

From bitterness to brightness, better life without a relationship

 

From bitterness to brightness

 

I’ve been in denial stage before. But now I overcome my bitterness days that is becoming to brightness today.

 

What is bitterness days you’ve?

 

I have bitterness days before. It was complicated. And I couldn’t tell what I should start from the beginning. It has something that I can’t change for what I am today.

 

Tell me about yourself in your present times. What is your work? What do you do the most for 2014?

 

I am working as an assistant teacher. And I almost love my work because I am committed to work with my bosses. My children are my life. They are the ones who bring me happiness the most of my centered life today. And for 2014, I want to do something bigger opportunities ahead of me. And I wish something bigger opportunities would come and I will grab it.

 

Better life without a relationship

 

If you can imagine yourself having with someone you really want to love for, it is something you can exchange back with your decision and what leaves you behind.

 

What is your better life without a relationship?

 

I have better life today. Now because I don’t have a girlfriend. But I am committed to my work as an assistant teacher and helping out the school needs even I don’t have a girlfriend today.

 

Would you have a girlfriend today?

 

No, I would not dare to excuse myself to have a girlfriend today.

 

Tell me about yourself what happened between you and your girlfriend. And what do you need the girls to know about you?

 

I have my girlfriend before. My first girlfriend. And I thought it was only a fling to me. My girlfriend and I’ve had similarities. But over some things, we could argue about only her. She couldn’t change herself much when the times needed. To overreact those small things, she would rather rule out what is good and what is bad. To tell you the truth honestly, I almost didn’t tell her that I still love her until today. But she has a boyfriend already. She can exchange me totally from anybody else. We were in the same age. But somehow, I almost lost count how many times I fell for her. And the girls have to know what is all about me. They have to know about me personally inside and out. I don’t care what their looks are as long they have beautiful soul inside and out. And the only thing I like from the girls are being simple, be open-minded, always speak out from her emotions, carries her emotion to open-minded and has not to be a liar. I could tell a girl if she is lying to me. Because I have intentionally feel something strange from a girl.

 

If you are ready to commit have a girlfriend today, would you marry her? Explain and why.

 

Yes, I would marry her. I am right condition to marry her even both parties from her side and my side would say yes. Then we would continue marrying to a fruitful life of relationship.

 

Have you dating someone else?

 

No.

 

One last question. If there is some you really love yourself, you really decide what you love the most. But the regret is that you don’t achieve that first, because you almost wreck your limitations. But you already fall in love. Would you still regretting the matter even if you fall in love to somebody else? And why?

 

Maybe if I am regretting the matters because I already have to decide what leaves me the most. I would rather not to give my love life for something I am falling for. But in return, my relationship with her would do something to exchange to a better team. Better team means that I should build my relationship level with her, build my own family and live the utmost life we have. And I almost not to decide because the regrets would not matter to me anymore. Because she is all that it is important to me now.

 

How sweet you are. This man with Down syndrome is still single. And I hope you find some girl out there exclaiming how gentle and how sweet words you will explain. In this article of Fruitful of Happiness, I’m your host for the day and have a nice wonderful day to all of you and see you in a next article.

 

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Page Six

Maturity level

I’ve had never encounter with my dilemmas before that I’ve been so insecure. To tell you the truth, in the past articles I wrote, there were several cases in my life before. It was also that I’ve been experienced getting what was not mine, nabbing some thing I liked and getting an attention from my parents. But that was my past. It was because I’ve never noticed myself before that I’ve really had with special condition – Down syndrome.

Did you know it is never crossed in my life that I’ve achieve and move in my life before until now? Maybe it is time to speak up some of my fulfillment. But it never make my life understood about what is going on and what is wrong from right. I’ve asked myself too many questions and I’ve never answered directly from my own perspective point of views. But I was able to speak and cope up with my problems. But now that I know, I made clearly my decision that I have to learn.

Half of my life I knew myself from the beginning I’ve had my thinking at the back of my head when I was in sixth grade. Before sixth grade to my childhood days, those pages were empty. The pages written there was gone. It was because I didn’t know. Little do I know is that I have to speak with my parents and ask them what is really feels like to be a child again. I am born with immaturity age before. But I never speak in cases in this article before. I’m afraid to open up with this topic. But it’s never too late when you say it. I’m also afraid what it feels like to open-minded today. But I am willing to share with my success story.

I’m also obsessed with too many attachments in my life including the book collection, music tape collection and magazine collection. But I never get what I want today. I start being to become a matured person. I’ve never feel this way before, but it seems feeling right and doing some good actions. Whenever I get advices from my two bosses, my co-workers and from the parents also.

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Productivity to 2014

There are many reasons why I should celebrate this year of 2014. But before that, may I include here in the article that may varies any post will posting soon here in studio I am making. Way back before I made a big comeback for my writing, it was dull, devastated and frustrated. There was a big adjustments. But that was before. Now I am making a chances to make grow the opportunities that I have for now:

 

1. Make healthy living for 2014.

Either I go as a vegetarian or not, there will be a slight adjustments because I won’t be able to eat meat this year. The main reason why I am doing this to make myself healthier rather go wasted when I am rush going to the hospital. Plus an advantage of making yourself a healthy living is to make yourself first to have regular exercise, and make a habit checking up yourself to a doctor or to a nutritionist instead.

 

2. Make yourself an active life.

I make sure of myself that I have to be active all throughout this beginning of this year 2014 until it will end at the end of this year. Put yourself a whole activities in your calendar to make sure you won’t miss the occasions on your saved dates.

 

3. Get out and make a living life.

I was jobless in the past seven years and seven months from 2005 until May 2013. But narrowing down for my unchosen paths, the teaching profession has chosen me instead choosing the right moderate jobs that I know – chef, artist, photography or writing instead. But I give my life today to be as an assistant teacher so I will myself a living life.

 

4. Mark your calendar which you do want to go as your vacation spot.

My summer has been mark already as my active months because the students will surely coming back to the school for their summer activities. And I am sure they will love their summer vacation instead going back to school. The school program may varies to activities such as arts and crafts, music, swimming or too many to mention some summer program activities in our program.

 

5. Make my book active more to write.

The new book chapters will coming out soon here in my studio site. As you will see, the articles of What I Know About will surely missing your articles to read of. Starting from Lorna Tolentino and Taylor Swift last month, you will be reading more about celebrities successful stories. And the Inspirational Quotes and art of literary quotes book will be issuing to be publish. This is my first book project to be release this year. And I hope it will get publish some time in the middle of the year or before the Christmas will come. Because some of my novel books are sometimes hard to finish those stories that has no ending to come. Hopefully it will come.

 

6. Activate your life with more organization meetings.

If you have join in one or two organizations already, then this is your chance to be part of them and grow your talents with them. In that case, I should do my active life as well joining and participating in more events as well.

 

7. Make a Christmas gift list before the month of December.

Oh, the rush of Christmas gifts of sharing is more to come to wait for this year. Make sure you top some of the gift items in supermarkets, malls, or anywhere you go, just buy in advance and make it sure that you store it properly then you wrap it in a gift that you’ll give it to your loved ones.

 

8. Make a habit of yourself celebrating your birthday of your month is.

When my family and I went for Thailand before, the big celebration was upon the three of us. My mom, my youngest brother and I have to celebrate in one week. Because my brother and I share the birthday dates. Plus my mom’s birthday is three days earlier ahead of us. That made the three of us having big celebrations in Thailand and in Singapore. But the theme was a birthday week-long. And I change it to a birthday month-long because you’ve to celebrate your birthday the whole month. What if you have more than three birthdays in one month? That would be great. But to make it short, make it sure you prepare for this financial bogus to make it your birthday month to spend your holidays.

 

9 but at the least. Make a habit creating more than just your ordinary hobbies.

Try making some have to learn some cook in the kitchen. If you discover your passion in the kitchen, that would be your new hobby. But what if your new hobby makes an active lifestyle the whole year, it will grow the opportunities to sell some of your products such as home-grown pies, knitted clothes or any kind of ordinary hobbies.

 

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When I bought my first android phone, I thought at the back of my head thinking what I should do with my android phone. It was my first phone that I bought. I’ve had four phones already in the past. There were Nokia 6110, Nokia 3530, Nokia 3120 Classic, Myphone Dual Sim and the last was the Cherry Mobile Burst. But I am planning to buy another new phone in the future preferably iPhone I want to buy.

 

What was my newest hobby that I was always do? When I’ve downloaded the photogrid from the playstore.com in my android phone, it became a popular for me although I was a lover making some stuff in Adobe Photoshop. When you said something you really loved, you really adored at your side. Then at the back of my head, I was thinking more creating photo messages. Because I never made it before when I was doing something in Photoshop before.

 

My first photo message I’ve created was this:

 

Photo message 1

Photo message 1

 

Down syndrome is not a disease, it’s Awesome!” At first when I created the first photo message, the views from my facebook page became a hit. It was then something I knew from my heart I should for my life. Then at the back of my head, I was thinking creating more of this to become a book in the future. When I thought of this, it will become something you really like for your book what it is best all about.

 

The second photo message:

 

Photo message 2

Photo message 2

 

You are not alone, because I’m like you…and today is Down syndrome awareness month.” But this photo message wasn’t used for my facebook page. I have to use for the Philippines’ Down syndrome awareness month this coming February 2014.

 

The third photo message:

 

Photo message 3

Photo message 3

 

“Life borrows us, and it’s worth to be happy. Smile everyday!” The figure from my face was showing how I was happy for my life was. Being having with Down syndrome for me was not a hindrance to me anymore. And at first, my point of views came at the right direction already. The world is giving me freely thinking of this at the back of my head. And I’ve been wondered how God was grateful to me after all.

 

The fourth photo message:

 

Photo message 4

Photo message 4

 

Each day I smile, each time I am happy, I’m always there by your side, I’m always have to smile for you.” This photo message delivered the happiness quote a big time. Why I posted of this photo message? It simply gives me a wonderful message everyday at the moment I have in my life.

 

This four photo messages delivered nailing from at the back of my head when I suggested myself what I could do for my facebook page. And to think of it, it never crossed at the back of my head that it will help easing out of my problems here. But to tell you the truth, I am even more happy because of this year of 2014 will come knocking at my doors what I should do to have opening a new book soon. Hopefully I can do manage something that I have to create more photo messages.

 

And the other four photo messages I’ve created:

 

Photo message 5

Photo message 5

 

Life is beautiful, so don’t waste it, because life is good…and the hardest time has difficult to understand…with or without disability, you are still beautiful inside and out.” The fifth photo message was creating a new different diversion for the disabilities who have been using their life without fulfilling their mission. But the reality here in the Philippines, it is one of the common practices that these people should realize how disabilities would allow working in a beautiful work environment. Like I do as an assistant teacher, therefore it won’t do much anything to do if there’s an action some to fulfill in the future.

 

Photo message 6

Photo message 6

 

Chromosomes are extra effort, but it’s extra care, long patience, inevitable laughter, gives you a long smile…and it’s worth to have a special someone…your special heart, a special child with special needs. Smile!” Oh, yes! This sixth photo message delivered a beautiful message. Although I’m not familiar to other abnormalities yet, but in the future if God permits me to study more, then I would study more about other abnormalities. Nick Vujicic has said, “if your disability is a hindrance, why would you live normally as any other else. It won’t matter if you act on your own and be an optimistic thinker.” He would say a thousand stories in his concert although I haven’t some of the words from his motivational conferences. Maybe I should do the right thing at the back of my head also.

 

Photo message 7

Photo message 7

 

My life without you…even in a darkest corners can change into brightest. I can’t help it thinking about you. I can manage, but there’s a possibility to change of what I am and to be frankly, I am stronger today that I am happier throughout with or without single love.@Single_quotes After breaking smoothly with my ex-girlfriend last 16th of May, I’ve decided if I still have time, then I would do this even without her already at the back of my head anymore. She was the one who pushed me for having a great and wonderful job I have today. To think of it, my ex-girlfriend and I became closer naturally because we have one common thought, it was Rico Yan that was at the back of our heads. And I’ve been normally doing what I love the most I can do for my life.

 

Photo message 8

Photo message 8

 

Down syndrome is not only as a genetically disorder, but they are positive and optimistic thinkers. They live fullest with wide smiles and live individual long life.” This was my eighth photo message I’ve created so far. And the message shows how people with Down syndrome creates more happiness. But sometimes like I do, I don’t think the word of stress or negative thoughts. It was a taboo already in our definition or in our dictionary terms. I don’t know of this but lately I’ve been thinking at the back of my head that I should do this each and every day.

 

And the last photo message I’ve created was for myself:

 

The Author 3 copy

The Author 3 copy

 

I don’t know much of myself in the past childhood memories. The only I’ve remembered when asking from my elementary friends, they were the ones who kept telling stories what I really did some naughty events in my life back then. But I admitted that I am really a happiest person. Because of them, I won’t be here today. And besides who would thought thinking at the back of my head that I would be successful today. All the while of this years, it is constantly changing my nature from bad things to good things. And the good intentions are creating more happiness memories and it will give exciting for me in the coming years to come. The public should know that I am aware what is happening to our society but not such said in religion or to any cases, it would be one goal I have: change the world in a good place where disability should act to do happiness in your life. It has something to do with our lives today.

 

One book I should create about: Inspirational quotes and art of literary quotes. You should be follow me here in my studio articles. And read among the articles I’ve create even each now and then. I should carry my own feet what life is telling me about that this life is beautiful even I have a disability. And in spite of that, I should know what is good from bad.

 

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Long before Rico Yan came in entertainment world, I didn’t know who I was today. Despite my disability being having with Down syndrome was not a hindrance to me anymore. But to tell you the truth, I have many troubles came when I was a kid.

 

1981 was a year when I came in. Pope John Paul II was having giving a mass in Quezon Memorial Circle when the time I was born already. But my parents gave me a nickname through Pope John Paul II and my real name came from my grandfather’s name and also from my father’s name also. To decide what was given to my life, I was also given to change the world in times of needed and supported. So I was given to be born here in the world to make it happen bigger.

 

And bigger opportunities when Rico Yan came around in 1994. I’ve remembered when he came in Master Eskinol commercial, his own very first commercial have ever been made. The longer it waited the opportunities, he also landed on his three film projects and two television appearances in 1996. That was his achievements. But my achievements wasn’t change the year of 1994.

 

It was the year 1994 that I turned a teenager. And when Rico smiled every angle at his commercial, I also smiled back on the mirror changing my opportunities if I could be also a model. Or if the time will come for me to grab an opportunity. It set my goals.

 

My dreams before was to become a photographer when I was still in elementary graduation. “If I become a photographer someday, I would get a glimpse to picture the scene of Mt. Mayon in Bicol where I love the area. It gives a beauty scenario,” that was at the back of my head when I said to myself.

 

Across at the back of my head, my high school dreams has changed through times of desperation what really my dreams were telling me about. Then I decided to tell my school mates, my classmates and my teachers that I will enter entertainment industry someday to become an actor. It was my biggest dreams that set in my mind way back before. It was all because I owe from Rico Yan who really me inspired so much in spite that I have disability. But a disability that I have before was a hindrance. My parents told me several times that I couldn’t entered in universities like University of the Philippines, University of Santo Tomas or in De La Salle University in Taft Avenue. But the dreams shattered to me when my parents told me that I won’t lasted graduating in my course I really liked was music in UST, theatre arts in UP or any courses in DLSU.

 

People have changed through times. And I didn’t know what to do. So I always gave doubts and fears inside at the back of my head thinking I wasn’t able coping my own problems. Because that time I was having a hard time on myself in denial stage before.

 

When I entered college in the year of 2000, my course was culinary arts and I studied in Center for Culinary Arts or CCA. It was a pioneering school who caters students studying in the field of baking or culinary. And at that time, I’ve had a few classmates who was also been a celebrities naming Danica Sotto and Diego Castro. They were my batch mates before. Diego was a son of late anchor man of ABS-CBN, Angelo Castro Jr. and cousin to Rico Yan.

 

Aside from them, I also have friends with cousin of Agot Isidro, Aljur Abrenica, Heart Evangelista and Rico Yan‘s female cousin. What else that I came in a reality? These cousins of celebrities, I was been blessed to have with them. Although I don’t want to name their names here in an article I am writing, it is about a privacy. Somehow I look myself in the mirror thinking at the back of my head if I could enter in entertainment industry someday and the question is, “when if the time comes?”

 

So I gave up my dreaming my goals to become an actor, a singer and a dancer. I was frustrated and depressed because of a hindrance that I have a disability. Knowing Rico Yan was not here anymore because when I heard the news that he died peacefully in his sleep in 29th of March, 2002. The news came viral everywhere around the nation. And so the followers and fans of Rico Yan have been giving their love for Rico. But my sides remained calm and peacefully.

 

Nine years later, it was already 2011. I’ve had a dreams recurring every night thinking at the back of my head because of him. Then one day when I posted some important to do was to set important details each and every day I have. The bad news came when I felt something strange inside of me. But the intentions were not in bad shape. Instead, my cousin invited me in networking in UNO. Literally I joined with her. I’ve lasted five months in multi-level marketing or networking in UNO from June to October 2011. But the acceptance was been made during I was working. So I thought myself having to know that I could do this on my own independent ways of earning.

 

Out of frustrations and depressions, I broke the chain and accepted who I was to be because of my disability. That kind of work of networking gave me a chills to my bones and my flesh. It was the time I’ve accepted my disability during July of 2011. Then later when I only lasted in October. I’ve joined and searched my genealogy roots both sides of my father and my mother’s sides. Knowing my side of my father, I was surprised when I was related to Pilar Pilapil, Dingdong Avanzado and Mark Bautista because they were all descendants of Veloso. Because I was also a descendant of Veloso clan. Wow, that was unimaginable thoughts inside at the back of my head.

 

Then at first, my dreams were coming back to me. So I’ve decided to bring my dreams again this time when I will enter the limelight of entertainment industry. With the likes of Danica Sotto, Diego Castro, Pilar Pilapil, Dingdong Avanzado and Mark Bautista, when will I become one of them at the back of my head?

 

At the end at the back of my head, I’ve remembered that I also have relatives who entered in entertainment industry. My two uncles Danny Javier and Dyords Javier were in entertainment industry. Danny Javier retired from the entertainment industry already, but his sibling Dyords Javier was still in the entertainment industry. So I make a classic move that I will become one of them, but on my definition to make my own name instead.

 

One year ago I joined with Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines, or DSAPI, on January 2012. Then I also joined in their annual walk event of the year, the 20th Happy Walk, in The Block, SM North EDSA on 19th of February, 2012, the day of my birthday. I was enjoying walking with someone that I also have a disability being having with Down syndrome. Having with a disability was not a hindrance to me anymore. Instead, all I want to become is to make my own name whether the dreams is still leading me in the right choice or decisions that I have.

 

Then I became a member last December 2012 where I got my first membership identification card. And to top of that, I also have experiences to speak in the audience who invited to come over in University of Santo Tomas to speak a short inspirational talk about me. The students, the school organizations and the teachers were applauded at my first short inspirational talk. But I was nervous that time. Maybe I have to speak again in the future.

 

But the blessings didn’t stop pouring down this year of 2013. I got my passport on my own applying in Megamall in January 2013. That was also the month I got my NBI clearance and my police clearance as well. So to decide what I was going to do – was to apply again in the next few months. But the 24th Angels Walk came when I joined and supported the autism awareness month last January 2013. It was my first support with the organization I joined. I saw one of UST who invited me last November 2012. And then at the back of my head, I’ve realized it was important for me already attending those events every year.

 

Then the 21st Happy Walk also came in last February 2013. It was my second Happy Walk I’ve joined. To added, there was one parent who came over to me and said, “I read your blog and I am one of your follower reading one of your article posts. Good job! Continue to inspire us.” At the back of my head, it was barely one year old of my studio site already. My studio debuted on 16th of March, 2012 where I posted my two articles at that time. Then a facebook page came later on 4th of July, 2012. I guessed that I put the dates on historical dates.

 

It came upon across at the back of my head when I also applied my first PWD identification card last 19th of March, 2013. I also knew why I chose the date because I loved to remember the dates I was putting in historical dates. But then at the height of my depression again during of April 2013, I was hesitated to go out and not looked for another job. Because despite I already completed the requirements including my medical certification. This was already the time if I want to have a girlfriend or not. So the dreams might occurred that I wasn’t able coping it one of my problems.

 

Then it came the month of May 2013. When my parents traveled to Europe for their vacation, that was the time I’ve had a girlfriend. But then, it was someone who also liked Rico Yan. From her, I didn’t know how to figure out what went wrong from me and from her. I’ve ended up a guy accepting a relationship with my girlfriend. And she was the one asking my hand to have relationship with her. Then I said, “yes.” Soon when it lasted only eight days of our relationship on the day of 16th of May. Our relationship ended eight days of relationship from 8th to 16th of May. Then I was not glad it was not over yet.

 

When I saw Nick Vujicic for the first time in Music Hall, Mall of Asia, I was surprised what Nick looked like. Because after all, he had no limbs of pairs of legs and arms. And to my surprise, that involved my life I also have a disability. And being having a disability was not a hindrance to me anymore. That was when 20th of May, 2013 happened.

 

A the height of desperation of cooling our relationship with my ex-girlfriend, all I wanted was to go back with her someday. So I walked in a job of the school on the day of 21st of May. On the seventh day of going back, I was hired already. Knowing myself in a different pattern, I’ve landed on my fourth job with a different job description – as an assistant teacher.

 

Fast-forwarded to this present day, I’ve accepted a chance to look forward getting to know what it will become for me in the year of 2014. Today is a final day of 2013 and tomorrow is a new day of 2014. I’ve so much to tell looking forward of 2014. What if I walk-in again in different job description? Will it become my job? To tell you the truth, this job of being as an assistant teacher I never chose about of this job. Instead the job looked for me surprisingly. So the words were not scripted but it was a fate for me when I followed my grandmother’s footsteps to become as an assistant teacher.

 

My lessons I have learned for this year of 2013 was honoring my job so beautifully, getting to know what the surroundings would like to know me better and the world had a place for me to look forward. No matter how small dreams can be, sometimes it can be a bigger opportunity would like to be. When you know how small dreams can act, it can also set bigger dreams in exchange of your place. This was how Rico Yan changed me from time I was depressed and frustrated to have a better job, positive outlook in life, happiness and optimistic when looking forward to future with positive thoughts.

 

What about you? How Rico Yan would change your life?

 

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