How Rico Yan changed my life

Long before Rico Yan came in entertainment world, I didn’t know who I was today. Despite my disability being having with Down syndrome was not a hindrance to me anymore. But to tell you the truth, I have many troubles came when I was a kid.

 

1981 was a year when I came in. Pope John Paul II was having giving a mass in Quezon Memorial Circle when the time I was born already. But my parents gave me a nickname through Pope John Paul II and my real name came from my grandfather’s name and also from my father’s name also. To decide what was given to my life, I was also given to change the world in times of needed and supported. So I was given to be born here in the world to make it happen bigger.

 

And bigger opportunities when Rico Yan came around in 1994. I’ve remembered when he came in Master Eskinol commercial, his own very first commercial have ever been made. The longer it waited the opportunities, he also landed on his three film projects and two television appearances in 1996. That was his achievements. But my achievements wasn’t change the year of 1994.

 

It was the year 1994 that I turned a teenager. And when Rico smiled every angle at his commercial, I also smiled back on the mirror changing my opportunities if I could be also a model. Or if the time will come for me to grab an opportunity. It set my goals.

 

My dreams before was to become a photographer when I was still in elementary graduation. “If I become a photographer someday, I would get a glimpse to picture the scene of Mt. Mayon in Bicol where I love the area. It gives a beauty scenario,” that was at the back of my head when I said to myself.

 

Across at the back of my head, my high school dreams has changed through times of desperation what really my dreams were telling me about. Then I decided to tell my school mates, my classmates and my teachers that I will enter entertainment industry someday to become an actor. It was my biggest dreams that set in my mind way back before. It was all because I owe from Rico Yan who really me inspired so much in spite that I have disability. But a disability that I have before was a hindrance. My parents told me several times that I couldn’t entered in universities like University of the Philippines, University of Santo Tomas or in De La Salle University in Taft Avenue. But the dreams shattered to me when my parents told me that I won’t lasted graduating in my course I really liked was music in UST, theatre arts in UP or any courses in DLSU.

 

People have changed through times. And I didn’t know what to do. So I always gave doubts and fears inside at the back of my head thinking I wasn’t able coping my own problems. Because that time I was having a hard time on myself in denial stage before.

 

When I entered college in the year of 2000, my course was culinary arts and I studied in Center for Culinary Arts or CCA. It was a pioneering school who caters students studying in the field of baking or culinary. And at that time, I’ve had a few classmates who was also been a celebrities naming Danica Sotto and Diego Castro. They were my batch mates before. Diego was a son of late anchor man of ABS-CBN, Angelo Castro Jr. and cousin to Rico Yan.

 

Aside from them, I also have friends with cousin of Agot Isidro, Aljur Abrenica, Heart Evangelista and Rico Yan‘s female cousin. What else that I came in a reality? These cousins of celebrities, I was been blessed to have with them. Although I don’t want to name their names here in an article I am writing, it is about a privacy. Somehow I look myself in the mirror thinking at the back of my head if I could enter in entertainment industry someday and the question is, “when if the time comes?”

 

So I gave up my dreaming my goals to become an actor, a singer and a dancer. I was frustrated and depressed because of a hindrance that I have a disability. Knowing Rico Yan was not here anymore because when I heard the news that he died peacefully in his sleep in 29th of March, 2002. The news came viral everywhere around the nation. And so the followers and fans of Rico Yan have been giving their love for Rico. But my sides remained calm and peacefully.

 

Nine years later, it was already 2011. I’ve had a dreams recurring every night thinking at the back of my head because of him. Then one day when I posted some important to do was to set important details each and every day I have. The bad news came when I felt something strange inside of me. But the intentions were not in bad shape. Instead, my cousin invited me in networking in UNO. Literally I joined with her. I’ve lasted five months in multi-level marketing or networking in UNO from June to October 2011. But the acceptance was been made during I was working. So I thought myself having to know that I could do this on my own independent ways of earning.

 

Out of frustrations and depressions, I broke the chain and accepted who I was to be because of my disability. That kind of work of networking gave me a chills to my bones and my flesh. It was the time I’ve accepted my disability during July of 2011. Then later when I only lasted in October. I’ve joined and searched my genealogy roots both sides of my father and my mother’s sides. Knowing my side of my father, I was surprised when I was related to Pilar Pilapil, Dingdong Avanzado and Mark Bautista because they were all descendants of Veloso. Because I was also a descendant of Veloso clan. Wow, that was unimaginable thoughts inside at the back of my head.

 

Then at first, my dreams were coming back to me. So I’ve decided to bring my dreams again this time when I will enter the limelight of entertainment industry. With the likes of Danica Sotto, Diego Castro, Pilar Pilapil, Dingdong Avanzado and Mark Bautista, when will I become one of them at the back of my head?

 

At the end at the back of my head, I’ve remembered that I also have relatives who entered in entertainment industry. My two uncles Danny Javier and Dyords Javier were in entertainment industry. Danny Javier retired from the entertainment industry already, but his sibling Dyords Javier was still in the entertainment industry. So I make a classic move that I will become one of them, but on my definition to make my own name instead.

 

One year ago I joined with Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines, or DSAPI, on January 2012. Then I also joined in their annual walk event of the year, the 20th Happy Walk, in The Block, SM North EDSA on 19th of February, 2012, the day of my birthday. I was enjoying walking with someone that I also have a disability being having with Down syndrome. Having with a disability was not a hindrance to me anymore. Instead, all I want to become is to make my own name whether the dreams is still leading me in the right choice or decisions that I have.

 

Then I became a member last December 2012 where I got my first membership identification card. And to top of that, I also have experiences to speak in the audience who invited to come over in University of Santo Tomas to speak a short inspirational talk about me. The students, the school organizations and the teachers were applauded at my first short inspirational talk. But I was nervous that time. Maybe I have to speak again in the future.

 

But the blessings didn’t stop pouring down this year of 2013. I got my passport on my own applying in Megamall in January 2013. That was also the month I got my NBI clearance and my police clearance as well. So to decide what I was going to do – was to apply again in the next few months. But the 24th Angels Walk came when I joined and supported the autism awareness month last January 2013. It was my first support with the organization I joined. I saw one of UST who invited me last November 2012. And then at the back of my head, I’ve realized it was important for me already attending those events every year.

 

Then the 21st Happy Walk also came in last February 2013. It was my second Happy Walk I’ve joined. To added, there was one parent who came over to me and said, “I read your blog and I am one of your follower reading one of your article posts. Good job! Continue to inspire us.” At the back of my head, it was barely one year old of my studio site already. My studio debuted on 16th of March, 2012 where I posted my two articles at that time. Then a facebook page came later on 4th of July, 2012. I guessed that I put the dates on historical dates.

 

It came upon across at the back of my head when I also applied my first PWD identification card last 19th of March, 2013. I also knew why I chose the date because I loved to remember the dates I was putting in historical dates. But then at the height of my depression again during of April 2013, I was hesitated to go out and not looked for another job. Because despite I already completed the requirements including my medical certification. This was already the time if I want to have a girlfriend or not. So the dreams might occurred that I wasn’t able coping it one of my problems.

 

Then it came the month of May 2013. When my parents traveled to Europe for their vacation, that was the time I’ve had a girlfriend. But then, it was someone who also liked Rico Yan. From her, I didn’t know how to figure out what went wrong from me and from her. I’ve ended up a guy accepting a relationship with my girlfriend. And she was the one asking my hand to have relationship with her. Then I said, “yes.” Soon when it lasted only eight days of our relationship on the day of 16th of May. Our relationship ended eight days of relationship from 8th to 16th of May. Then I was not glad it was not over yet.

 

When I saw Nick Vujicic for the first time in Music Hall, Mall of Asia, I was surprised what Nick looked like. Because after all, he had no limbs of pairs of legs and arms. And to my surprise, that involved my life I also have a disability. And being having a disability was not a hindrance to me anymore. That was when 20th of May, 2013 happened.

 

A the height of desperation of cooling our relationship with my ex-girlfriend, all I wanted was to go back with her someday. So I walked in a job of the school on the day of 21st of May. On the seventh day of going back, I was hired already. Knowing myself in a different pattern, I’ve landed on my fourth job with a different job description – as an assistant teacher.

 

Fast-forwarded to this present day, I’ve accepted a chance to look forward getting to know what it will become for me in the year of 2014. Today is a final day of 2013 and tomorrow is a new day of 2014. I’ve so much to tell looking forward of 2014. What if I walk-in again in different job description? Will it become my job? To tell you the truth, this job of being as an assistant teacher I never chose about of this job. Instead the job looked for me surprisingly. So the words were not scripted but it was a fate for me when I followed my grandmother’s footsteps to become as an assistant teacher.

 

My lessons I have learned for this year of 2013 was honoring my job so beautifully, getting to know what the surroundings would like to know me better and the world had a place for me to look forward. No matter how small dreams can be, sometimes it can be a bigger opportunity would like to be. When you know how small dreams can act, it can also set bigger dreams in exchange of your place. This was how Rico Yan changed me from time I was depressed and frustrated to have a better job, positive outlook in life, happiness and optimistic when looking forward to future with positive thoughts.

 

What about you? How Rico Yan would change your life?

 

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Year-End Special: Story about success, love life and work 3

It was a great year for me for this year. I got a new job. I’ve had experience to have a girlfriend. I have to get know what is work relationship. I’ve managed to go to the events. Knowing me, I could do any greater expectations for me. The Year of Water Snake was been giving a new blessings. But on the other side what you are doing the most good deeds in your life have been expecting from you the most.

 

Success

 

The success beyond from my story has been telling you the wildest dreams that I’ve ever did. Getting a new passport on my own was a success. Having my own PWD or Person With Disability identification card was a small step to create new independence. And beyond that, I’ve had experience to get date with someone else for a third time. It was not a date who you want to get date with your favorite special occasion. But it was a great experience to have a date someone who understand you much from her heart. And I guess this has been a blessing for me all the while.

 

When my doubts and fears came for me again around May, that was almost eating my pride again. That was why I didn’t know from the start that God gave a test to me when I’ve had an experience to have a girlfriend for the first time. Knowing from experiences, it had been exploring my world to have a girlfriend. But at the end of a day, she was the one who pushed me this far to get back on track to have a job.

 

Why? When a person needed a job, it was a need all the while in your life. Without a job, you would’ve have known that you couldn’t done for it for your life. You realized how work was really important for you and moved on your expectations.

 

Love life

 

God always gave plans to give me tests when He knew that I’ve to give up. But He didn’t hurt my plans although He gave my way to have a girlfriend to a test. I’ve been hitting too much on the wall why I’ve had a girlfriend on the first place. And aside from being to have a girlfriend, it was a good experience to have been a good relationship between your life, your work expectations and your world.

 

In a job, where I always got new inspiration was from our special education teacher. She was the one who pushed me to level up my responsibilities. She was always making up expectations for making waking up every morning just to see her smiling face. And she was the one who always gave smiling for every student in morning and in afternoon. Maybe she was the one I was been looking for. But I didn’t give up a chance to have a girlfriend in the first place. I gave up for two reasons: commitment and response to a negative thoughts.

 

Why? I was always thought knowing myself in the mirror and tell myself that I couldn’t do it. It was at the back of my head telling that I could do much better next year of 2014.

 

Work

 

I have been recording my status from 2005 to 2013 when I’ve had been unemployed for a long time. It was seven years and seven months that I’ve had been unemployed. To the break the chain, there was always a doubts and fears to realize what good deeds have been made and what bad deeds have not been to be made. I’ve realized in a long term already that I would retire at my earlier age. But happily, when the career chose me to be professionally being as an assistant teacher was an honor already.

 

Teacher is a best profession in the world where you get to teach new lessons everyday in your every challenges you have. And yet, you gave the best all the way you can do to have good services.

 

In the nutshell

 

The Year-End Special: Story about success, love life and work has been giving new good results for me this year of 2013. The good success comes from you, the love life has been teaching you a good role model and the work gives you the chance growing up to be responsibility person. Without them, I’ve would known been better person today. And I was been blessed from heaven that I’ve been giving a new opportunity to get new rewards. All good news will come in and the bad news will dissolve the way you handle your own problems on time it will give your answers.

 

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What I know about Taylor Swift

Taylor Alison Swift was her real name. But in fact, we all know her known as Taylor Swift. Taylor Swift was born on 13th of December, 1989. She was raised in Pennsylvania but moved to Nashville, Tennessee. That was the hometown of home-grown talented artists in the area.

 

Taylor Swift

 

Little I knew about her when I heard her song of Love Story. Her upbeat song Love Story was a mighty heart that drives me away. I couldn’t explained how she raised from her fame. Her beauty is gaining all teenagers to listen to her music as well. But the Love Story single came from her second album Fearless. Her first self-titled album Taylor Swift debuted in 2006, but her second album Fearless came around late of 2008. It was a hit album, probably most of her age was a phenomenon female singer with a compassion writing on her own songs as well. Then her most requested songs White Horse, You Belong With Me and Fearless grew phenomenon as well here in the Philippines.

 

Her third studio album Speak Now came around in late of 2010. Her best songs I’ve heard her from her was Back to December, The Story of Us and Ours. And the rest of her third studio album I’ve didn’t chance to listen the whole studio album. And the fourth studio album Red also came in late of 2012. The hits I’ve listened from the radio, television or airwaves was We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together and Red.

 

Taylor Swift was a sweet soul female singer I’ve listen mostly from her heart. And I guarantee that this female singer would be last through generation to generation. Hope me if I am correct or wrong. And Taylor was been dated by some of the famous celebrities who Joe Jonas, Taylor Lautner, John Mayer, Jake Gyllenhaal and from One Direction singer, Harry Styles. And she already landed some of the movies I’ve watched already were Hannah Montana: The Movie in 2009 and Lorax in 2012 who gave the voice of Audrey.

 

She bagged numerous awards already everywhere in the music industry and almost saved the music industry. Taylor Swift is one of the songwriters I’ve listened from her. And you dig her own style of singing songs in her generation today.

 

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Year-End Special: Story about success, love life and work 2

June-July 2013:

New job description, making new friends in my work, nutrition month

 

After passing the interview evaluation, my two bosses accepted me as well as their sped assistant teacher knowingly that I can do much better than the previous assistants. But I didn’t want to bring some issues that I could do better. Which that I could not comparing to other assistants as well. But the fact I admitted to my fourth job. It broke the chain when I finally have had a job because I was been not doing very well in the past 7 years and 7 months which I didn’t have a job.

 

I was underestimated by those who can underestimated me at the start. The work was introduced me in parents and teachers orientation before the school year was started. As long as I was working part-time in livelihood project, my two bosses were kindly to say to me that I also can run my loading business which I have had been working my hiatus in money cellphone loading business for 7 years and 6 months already as of to date today.

 

Assuming that I was working progressively participating in the school and in the therapy center during Saturdays. The parents before was looking something to change me as well. But the fact I entered in a new job description – as an assistant teacher. I was in the slow progress. I couldn’t move when there was nothing to do. My dull days became longer hours during my stay in a livelihood project.

 

But the nutrition month came in the month of July. The interns were working harder to look for their children. In the afternoon, I worked so hard for taking care of special children. I knew some few students in the morning because I wasn’t working in the morning classes. My work was in the livelihood project in the morning and also in the afternoon was taking care of special children being as an sped assistant teacher. The face I’ve had enjoying myself in the field of being as an assistant teacher, my work was being issued by several parents for lack of communication. I was almost destroying my work environment when I was been terrified.

 

One of the two bosses was almost fired me as well. But the fact I couldn’t find another work was there was no room for me in the world working. When the employer was criticizing and discriminating because of my special condition, somehow I survived because of my work.

 

August 2013:

Moving to a new school relocation, love life, work relationship

 

Even I was not in the mood around the month of August. It was the last days of my work as a livelihood chef in a livelihood project. My work relationship with a preschool teacher and a special education teacher which they were both female teachers. The preschool teacher was too cute for me but the personality didn’t fit me as well. But the fact was why I joined along with a special education teacher, she was nice, bubbly and smiling teacher. And I began to like her the fact I joined with her the last two months.

 

The special education teacher didn’t recognize me somehow. But the issues from them against me sometimes misunderstood the situation as well. The school setting was small, the classroom was small but the love life began wider and wider to me as well. I couldn’t helped it when I was thinking about her all the time. But too cute teacher was also having an issues against me as well.

 

But the work relationship was getting bumper and bumper because of my moody hours. I began scrutinizing one of the employees in the convenience store when they were not selling sandwiches anymore and one of the staff in the school saw what I did in the convenience store. So I didn’t know what it will happen at the end of my work relationship in the school.

 

My boss called me several times already because of two warnings I did already. But the work was been spread like a viral. I didn’t know where I have had to search for another job. My job was to protect my name, my work and the children also. And my life would be the end where there was no one accepting me in another job hunting season again. I’ve been unemployed for 7 years and 7 months, but my business ran for a life-time already since I’ve had from June 2006 (7 years and 2 months already).

 

Then we went to another school relocation inside the village of Cainta Greenpark Village that we must focused to have working in the field. Another school setting, big campus, big classrooms and a convenient school setting as we were looking toward at the end of two weeks remaining in the school. But the storm curled down one week. We didn’t have much school days when the storm came in by the time we relocated the school already. Then we were cleaning the school as we were working hard for the school team as well.

 

September 2013

Cooling off vacation in Toronto

 

The interns was been getting riding from our necks. They were too busy for their names and their future jobs as well as an optometrists. Were they really working hard for their jobs? Or were they wrong for their job internship in our school? I didn’t knew that my hardworking days were over already. But I’ve been hating myself why I didn’t let my emotions eating me again. As the vacation in Toronto came closer and closer, the school, the teachers, the students and my two bosses were at the back of my head thinking I shouldn’t taking a vacation after all. I didn’t know what to do when I came back.

 

Then the vacation came over on 14th day of September in Toronto, the coldest night we’ve had arrived was 8 degrees in celsius. And I’ve had been getting chilling out in one of the coldest province in Canada. Was I the one who didn’t like the weather of Toronto? Maybe I thought about that. One week preparation for my sister’s wedding, I was been thinking my work in the Philippines. I couldn’t helped thinking what they were working so hard. Because of the test exams were in the week when I was in Toronto already.

 

The fact I’ve had enjoying from my work, I was almost getting in highest emotions of my time – being as a happiest assistant teacher. I loved my work so much and I couldn’t help thinking about it. But it broke the record because I’ve had surpassed my employment. In my three previous jobs before only lasted for two-three months, but in September, it was almost four months already. So I thought if I come back, my job will be over if they weren’t allowing me going back to work.

 

I was enjoying my vacation instead not to think about working in the school. I went in various locations in Toronto. But the place I didn’t like it was the CN Tower. I didn’t want to step in a glass floor because I almost died seeing down so far away that I was almost died seeing about it. In short, I have fear on heights. When I first rode in the airplane going to Toronto, I couldn’t slept the whole trip going to Toronto. Instead, I watched a numerous movies, listened to the music and played the computer games in a first-class business airplane.

 

We went to a zoo, apple-picking farm, shopping in groceries and do a lot of buying gifts for all the parents and the workers in a school as well. By the time, I went home in the Philippines after attending to my sister’s wedding and also taking a vacation as well. I went back to the school working again in 30th day of September.

 

October 2013

Assistant teacher, halloween party

 

After I’ve found out that the preschool teacher was been fired by the employer’s reasons, because the preschool teacher I knew. She had a difficulty mind not being as a committed teacher as well in the school. She did a big time almost destroying the work relationship we have had in time. But the good news came in because my two bosses have said to me that I can do as an assistant teacher from morning to afternoon classes.

 

I did all my tasks as well in the morning to afternoon. I was cleaning in the waiting area, completing the tables and chairs in accordingly and maintaining the cleanliness around the school. My heart to students was already in another level – teaching someday to them. Being as a teaching profession wasn’t in my heart before. I don’t have passion in teaching. The fact the field as a teacher is a high profession in the country. So you must have a big feet to fill passionately for the students and for the parents as well.

 

The Halloween party was around in the third week already. We’ve had an overnight days when the special education teacher, the third occupational therapist and I did a lot of hardworking days for a field working in halloween party. And the days were over when the halloween party came in. The success was proven good. And oh, I forgot the event of language of the month (or buwan ng wika) that was held last month of September instead of August. It was because the storm came in Manila and suspended a week in classes. That was why the language of the month came in first week of September as well.

 

The halloween party, third event of the school year calendar, was ended successfully. But the love life I have with a special education teacher even grew stronger and stronger. Because I was finally realized I couldn’t helped thinking about her. But I didn’t know how to invite a relationship between her and me.

 

November-December 2013

Love life again, new special education teacher, Christmas party

 

The moment every time I came in a school every day, each time I saw her. I watched her glimpse teaching special kids for her heart. Her smile was melting the special children sadness away, and was I also been melting her heart to me. But she didn’t know that I was helplessly thinking her every night and then.

 

Then a Christmas party had to come and wait for 6 weeks preparation. A new friend of my special education teacher came in for an interview with two bosses we’ve had. She passed. But she had been something hiding from ourselves. I couldn’t helped thinking it at the back of my head also. The thoughts crossed over. Then again, the Christmas was already three weeks preparation again.

 

The special education teacher has to leave around the month of December. But she extended her work as long as she taught the special children and the regular children. I didn’t know what to do when she was gone already. But I was already going to give her my first present last nutrition month. Then again, I’ve had something to send her again some important gift.

 

My boss told me if I have had a crush on her when she entered the room again, then I said it was a yes. She was blushed when she knew I had a crush on her. Eventually I didn’t want our friendship ended miserably. So I extended my smiles to her everyday I saw her in a school. The house before was my special education teacher’s home. But now, she gave her home that was been empty for four years giving us to have a new school setting – a big school campus instead.

 

Then the Christmas party came in. She was even getting beautiful in a day of Christmas party. I didn’t know how to invite a relationship again between two of us. But I knew I couldn’t take a risk. Instead I gave a words as “friends forever instead a relationship wrecker.“

 

The illusions of love life was over. I didn’t like a word of relationship. I was focusing more on my work for my commitment long-term for my work. And I was surprised that I was already a regular assistant teacher in a school already. To tell a truth, this isn’t the last Year-End Special: Story about success, love life and work. This is just a new beginning to set new goals of achievement of the year of 2014, year of green wood horse.

 

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Living being as Down syndrome VIII: Year of Green Wood Horse

Part VIII

The Chinese new year of 2014 is a Year of Green Wood Horse. It embodies a career promotion or a new career will hold a great beginning for you this 2014.

 

 

Year of Green Wood Horse

 

What is your luck for Year of Horse? Does you have a career a better promotion? Or do you have a take what it takes you to become better human? This year of 2013 will end so soon in the 31st of December. But the real Chinese new year is still around February 2014.

 

My ancestors in my mother’s side is Chinese. That means I don’t troubles finding my own terms or definitions in Chinese translation. But I guess that I should study more in Chinese language soon. Because even I love my Chinese traditions, then I should continue what I really love for my life instead.

 

Did you know the year of Rooster? The Year of Rooster will come on the year of 2017. That means you have to prepare for another three more years. If you are born on the year of other animals, then you must wait. But you can’t rely on the bad lucks or good lucks. Because no matter what you are today, you are still a human. And sometimes a human believes in Chinese traditions around the world. The China today is already in billion in population today. But as of 2013 is nearly ending, you must prepare for your good will as well.

 

Quote #1:

“Don’t believe in other people, instead make a believe in your will and your wishes instead.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

When you believe in other people’s wishes, then you are working in a different pattern of life. This means you are in trouble already. And trouble means something will get you trouble later in second half of a year. But it doesn’t mean you have to believe to me. You must be aware and be careful for you and for your loved ones as well.

 

I don’t believe in my wills before. But when I exceed my limitations, my skills are getting done impressively. And the skills I have today is getting used to it already. When I do something good in your life, then you are doing in a good track in your life.

 

Quote #2:

“Work stresses you out from a longer hours, and not for your home stress.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

I work for a longer hours. But I don’t stress my mind out in a longer hours. Sometimes a word of a stress is not my definition in my own dictionary body. When somebody needs an attention in work space, they are seems lack of attention, lack of understanding and lack of commitment. The preschool teacher we’ve used to have in our school. She had a lack of vision working to our school, lack of commitment and lack of attention to mostly to our students. Instead, she focused to her commitment getting married.

 

Her partner was a basketball player. But it doesn’t mean that her husband-to-be-soon was dating someone else. Then she must have to worry so soon to her child because she was pregnant already. Then again, it was one of my speculations and not from anywhere.

 

Quote #3:

“Love doesn’t take easily in higher commitments, instead it works progressively in a longer friendship.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

I’ve had been a two dozens of crush from the past until now. But none of them became my type material to become my girlfriend. But I’ve had a girlfriend already before. The problem was between my girlfriend and I was a friendship level. All she wanted was getting married so soon with me as well. But none from at the back of my head thoughts became not thinking clearly to have marriage contract with her. My dreams will be shattered if I have continuing my commitment with her.

 

The troubles came in last summer. But the good news came when I was been hired from my fourth job as an assistant teacher. I did all my best to become as an assistant teacher. And the best sometimes couldn’t reached as a full potential teacher. Because it has more roads to fill to become a teacher someday. But I must to study in a educational course in university instead. And also being a teacher is one of the highest professions around the nation and the world of course. Knowingly love can wait and the commitment also. You must focus to your work relationship with your bosses, your co-workers and commit with your friends to have a longer friendship in your other circle of friends also.

 

Quote #4:

“Take responsibility to have being responsible person. Meaning that you are not fitted to become one, but you have to fill in to become responsibility.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

I always have to cautious to become responsible special adult someday. Because I have many ways to become filling to become responsible special adult. I have Down syndrome. And it doesn’t mean that I have a hindrance against it. Instead, one of these days that I have to maintain my work relationship in my work environment, my emotions, my friendship levels with other people and to become also committed in church activities as well in the future.

 

My boss has been started inviting me of his church activities every Sunday. And every Sunday means a lot to him also. He has been not himself lately. Rather, I joined with him last Sunday. With him last Sunday, I was enjoying praising with God and singing christian songs as well. Well today wasn’t lucky, because I woke up late this late afternoon around 12:30 already. The time I was already been time-out. This means that I was irresponsible waking up late in the afternoon. See what I mean? I was irresponsible. To tell a truth, nobody is perfect in the eyes of God. Because you have to do it everyday as a responsible adult and act one as a responsible special adult like I do.

 

Quote #5:

“Your personality describes the most good traits to everybody’s eyes. But none of other everybody’s good eyes has good traits, so better watch out.” ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

Nobody is perfect in the eyes of God when I said in an earlier quote and I explained it already. But none of the personalities I didn’t like it was all about telling a lie. Somehow you must lie to confront one of your sins. And sins confront from demon’s likes they want from you. Tell yourself that you don’t like it. Because none of your friends will like you more better. Instead make a room for yourself cleaning your personality.

 

Take a church activities every Sunday and go out with your friends. And friends around you will treat you even better. Better personalities like one of the good apostles from God will treat you even more better. When I hear some of those quotes, I begin like to write one of a good deals writing my own version of building good stories. Like one of these good quotes turn to a good stories here in Living being as Down syndrome. It feels like that I’ve been writing for three months already. And I’ve been writing eight versions of each category. Somehow I feel what personality tells me about to write, but it tells you what is going on inside of you.

 

Your personality is a best defense to make ruling out making a new friends. And my field to become one, I’ve to build new life role in one – to become motivational speaker one day. To become motivational speaker someday, I might be one of successful special adult to become reaching out many stories in the future. And the question is, “what if?” Telling you a good stories will grow your personality even more better.

 

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The doors within heaven and hell

There are lot of people asking if the doors within heaven and hell are true. Maybe if you can’t imagine how painful it was in the doors of hell. But the doors of heaven sometimes awaits you to be a good example for everyone to see. Everyone in the world is seeking second life – beyond the doors of heaven.

 

But let me give you my story when I’ve had a encounter between those doors of heaven and hell. You won’t imagine how the doors of heaven and hell will look like, but the images inside won’t capture you because you are in your subconscious mind telling at the back of your head it is true or not. People will still asking you why, where, when, what and how. Those five questions will keep giving you more questionable in some many ways and few ways.

 

The doors within heaven and hell

 

Why did I bring up an article about The doors within heaven and hell?

 

Normally others say it isn’t their job to post this article. But other says it won’t benefit to others as well. And the 50-50 has believers who believes in the doors of heaven and hell. Angels and demons do exist in some our subconscious minds. But in reality, when we are born in this world, normally babies who are born as early in their age. They are the ones who can see angels and some unexplained things they have seen.

 

Like me, when I was born before at the certain age of a baby. I was afraid to take any chances when the demons will strike anytime in a day or night time. When the baby turns old around 5 to 12 years old, normally the child will grow inheriting whether he or she is doing and participating some good lessons in life. When it turns bad habits, the child will inherit to learn what their parents tell them what is right from wrong. As a child grows, the child turns to a beautiful human being to adolescence stage. Teenagers as we may call them. Teenagers are often to see their parents whether it is a fight or an adults’ talk. But instead, some cases are said that the teenagers will grow normally what their parents do in a reality day-to-day basis everyday.

 

Where are The doors within heaven and hell?

 

We can’t see in daylight or night light. The sun varies sunshine image in our planet. It tells how the beautiful planet we have is when we use them for a beautiful purpose – to live peacefully. But everything will come disaster in demons’ hand when you are about to change your attitude and your life perspectively in reality world. I’ve met many people already from time I’ve had graduating from college. They were too speculations from right to left and right from wrong. Could you tell the spot of a difference? Maybe not. It is too obvious to tell in many ways.

 

The doors within heaven may come in your subconscious mind when times you’ve been harder than you thought at the back of your mind. It tells your mind that you are heaven but you are not. You are given to go back to the planet of earth and do it purposely what is right from wrong. There are some eternity to rest and that’s beyond the doors of heaven.

 

But The doors of hell may also come from your subconscious mind telling that your attitude changes and the demon lurks already in your mind. Talk about the experts and the paranormal will say it is inhibiting your mind that is manifesting your mind from day or night when the time is not correct.

 

When it can imagine?

 

It varies from any various occasions – location, time, altitude and numbers. It forms any occasion in our daily lives. Later I will explain to you why I write this article in the first place.

 

What it becomes your mind that there are some angels and demons beyond the doors of heaven and hell?

 

Angels and demons really exist in many occasion ways when we are doing in our subconscious mind. Maybe it comes also to many places when we die or we live longer enough in our day-to-day daily basis. To tell the truth, I’ve already encountered nearly entering the doors of heaven and hell. This will also explain later why I write this article.

 

Demons sometimes live in a darker places or darker minds of some people have behavioral problems. It can explain from paranormal experts, doctors, or some other professional services like priests and servants from God. In a bible, angels and demons are said in a bible. But I don’t know which bible verses will come out which one it is.

 

How it happens to all of us?

 

You may encounter by now, or in the past already. Or by doing in our subconscious mind, people says it is a reckless to do at the back of our head telling it may be sounds seriously or doing it by a purpose. Angels are always there everywhere in our places to go. They are telling us to pray the Guardian Angels creed all the time so they can protect you from any dangers. But don’t tell some who knows you already that you can possess demonic voices like I do.

 

Demonic voices may alter in our day activities such as getting lazy around in your body or somewhere else that you are already a lazy to somebody as well also. Who can do that anyway? Anyone who can do that.

 

My story in the past telling about the doors of heaven and hell:

 

When I was a kid, normally I was enjoying do some kid stuff to do. Making some noisy annoying sounds, dillydallying some duties you can’t trust you can do or doing some unfinished jobs to do in your room such as not cleaning your room properly.

 

Before I was going to school the time before 3rd grade. We were doing some family activities one time in the park of Quezon Memorial Circle in Quezon City doing some riding some tricycles and bicycles. But I wasn’t the one who can practice bicycle because I’ve had still more catch up to do some learning how to bicycle. But at the end of the day when we got home, the house was black-out. There was no electricity around the neighborhood. As I grabbed the florescent lamp to open but the lamp won’t work properly. I didn’t know at first when there was no light. So I’ve grabbed the end of the wire and put in a socket. The electricity hurriedly open up the lights when I put in on the socket. Too late when I was already doing it and I was been electrocuted. Later on, I was rush to a nearest hospital in Capitol Medical Center. But it was an overnight sleep, I think. But I didn’t remember properly because of my parents told my incident at my past. That was my first incident it happened to me. But the doors of heaven didn’t have a chance to me open my eyes because it was too bright to see and I can’t remember it all.

 

I went back again in another incident before graduating in 6th grade. So the story told me in my past when a jeepney (transportation vehicle in Philippines) almost crossed me but bumped me a little on my shoulder break. Then it was a long white bright side of doors of heavens. I saw thousands of angels singing, saints talking in our language and some loved ones almost I’ve seen it all already. But it was already if I was dead already. But one angel said to me, “it was not your time yet to die, go back and find your purpose in your life what you really love to do mostly in your life.“

 

So my life returned to one place when I woke up. But I ended in a hospital again in Capitol Medical Center. So my head really hurts and I can’t move a muscle because of my shoulder bone not badly broken but a slight injured my shoulder. Few days before my graduation, I’ve already practiced with anybody else with my classmates. Then a summer came when I didn’t get to high school when new school year have to come. And I’ve entered 7th grade. That was my story about angels beyond the doors of heaven.

 

But the doors of hell when I tell you, don’t scream, don’t believe when you are not supposed to believe me and don’t expect any further questions. Because a long time ago when I was a kid, I’ve watched a horror movies such as Child’s Play, Friday the 13th and many local horror movies as well. But those movies that time scared to my bones easily. But when I watched them again at my certain age, those horror movies were only a story tales that have been told, created or told by the legend folklore.

 

I was in depression and frustration mood when I didn’t get a chance to have entering my mood that time. It was during after my graduation already in college and somewhat in my age of 24, 25 or 26. I didn’t know when it happened to me differently from any other stories. The demon spoke to me and when I’ve encountered with him, I spoke in a different language which it was spanish or portuguese language. I didn’t know which one language told me so to tell. But my father prayed on my head carefully to wash away all the demonic from any other ways. And my parents have said that demons were real. They were the ones who told us that demons also stayed with us in this cold planet of earth. They are speculations but it is real ones. They have to crucify the demons away from the person who can inhibit the demonic soul.

 

LIke one you can watch any horrifying movies, you can’t watch by yourself in a movie house, but rather you watch with somebody else and scream out from the bottom of your lungs. Expect the merciful scream when you watch horrifying movies.

 

The lessons:

“Don’t possess two souls inside of you. Instead, learn to control your attitude, your temper and your emotions. So that the angels will guide you and not the demons will guide you.“

 

“Choose one of the daily activities that might help you to ease demon’s activities such as getting lazy, envy some others and other 6 habit forms of sins.“

 

“Forget about the past, do it now and start moving forward and pay it forward.“

 

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Year-End Special: Story about success, love life and work

“If there was no success, there was no overnight of dreaming for success.“

 

This is a year-end special article all about me from the beginning of 2013 until this month of December. What can you do for success if you can do for your hardworking? Yes, then you have to believe in yourself and not anybody could replace but your story as well is deserving more.

 

Let me rewind you to the past of January 2013 where I tell my story:

 

Starting from January 2013:

Applying requirements, joining advocacy in special education

 

This month was my success getting my second NBI clearance for my future employment. But I was planning to think which job would prefer to get me on the first place. Should I continue get a career ahead for call center career? Or should I continue where I start in my culinary career? My place for a job seeking opportunities was ahead for me already. But to think of it at the back of my head, I should scratch for all job descriptions: animator, writer, chef / cook, call center or entertainment industry. There were all my opportunities which one I should prefer.

 

After two weeks of January, my parents forced to apply for my passport alone. And so I did applying for passport applications. But the requirements narrowed down to my plans: NBI clearance, police clearance and passport. All of my validation identifications were been shown off for my next plan: get a job ahead before going to Toronto in September.

 

I did all my requirements doing my job applications. But the questionable was getting where I should start. So I joined supporting Angels Walk 2013, where I also joined the side of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI, where a thousand of autism groups and various schools also have joined the said event in Mall of Asia, Music Hall in Pasay City. This was the 24th Angels Walk for ASP or Autism Society of the Philippines who parents, educators, students and thousand of autism angels were there for the said event. And I was happy supporting for their group.

 

All of my happiness poured down my promising career: writing while getting a job or writing when I’m already in success.

 

February 2013:

2nd Happy Walk, celebrating month, Philippines’ Down syndrome awareness

 

This month was also my big celebration and my promising birthdays to come in many years. So to said, but it was also an excitement for every words I will write. But the success wasn’t over. So I joined the 21st Happy Walk in The Block, SM North EDSA in Quezon City of Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines or DSAPI awareness event.

 

My blessings poured down to my birthday month, my birth month of February. I still clearly remembered when Pope John Paul II came to Manila for the first time 32 years ago. I was born on 19th of February, the day when Pope John Paul II was having a mass in Quezon Memorial Center, Quezon City. So the history said it was from February 17-21 when Pope John Paul II’s visit in Manila. So that explained how the world was looking for Pope John Paul II for his papal sainthood.

 

And it was also for Philippines’ Down syndrome awareness event for the whole nation. My dad first joined with me last year in 20th Happy Walk on the day of my birthday, 19th of February which it was introduced me to a few parents. And I met the couple, the children and their son with Down syndrome which it was the Lapena family. It was my first experience meeting with someone like me like Jeremy was, And I was happy that I joined the DSAPI family.

 

March 2013:

Applying for 1st PWD identification card, 3rd prom, meeting the showman of GMA channel

 

This was also the third month of my success. March has explained my various blessings I’ve done so far for this year of 2013. Because this was my first official that I’ve had my first PWD identification card or Persons With Disability. But that was when I’ve applied on 19th of March, a month after of my birthday. I chose the date because it was my first time applying for my PWD id.

 

Then it came before the application of PWD identification card was my third experience of prom date. And it was my first experience for having date with someone else and not from my relatives whom I really have had a good time. Guess what whom I dated with? It was Antonio and Juan Luna’s great granddaughter whom I dated with. And I was lucky to have date the famous Luna in the Philippines history. What I have to tell that I need to say? It was the best experience of prom date in my life.

 

And the first celebrity that I saw this year was none other of a famous showman in GMA channel, German Moreno. Kuya Germs when they said a name to him. And it was my pleasure to meet a person from a different channel. Because I was glued watching all ABS-CBN shows from morning to evening. But I didn’t notice that I can do it. And so my experience having a picture with him was a pleasure for me.

 

April-May 2013:

Depression looking for a job, first relationship, watched Nick Vujicic, looking for a job

 

This months of April and May of 2013 was a depression months for me. All I thought at the back of my head was either looking for a girlfriend or a job description unable to look for. But the words scripted from at the back of my head has said to me, “when can I start working so soon, so I could have a relationship with somebody else I really want to date with?” It was my first thoughts that crossed at the back of my head and without even noticing it, I looked depressed for a whole month.

 

After a month, I came to visit Rico Yan for a fourth time last 5th of May. Then it came upon that I met my first fling relationship with someone else. Two girls that I met. One of them was a former special education teacher and one of them was a housemaid who was working for taking care of a child and look taking care of the house. It crossed at the back of my head that I was first to say I’ve accepted her for having relationship with someone else. And she was the first person who asked my hand to have relationship with her. It is normally for a guy who is asking for a relationship to a girl. But the opposite came upon the two worlds between of us.

 

My ex-girlfriend and I were only lasted eight (8) days of relationship. And I was formerly taking off my relationship with her. But my heart felt for her so sorry. But at the end of the day, on the 20th of May, I watched Nick Vujicic’s concert also in Mall of Asia, Music Hall in Pasay City. It was my pleasure to have experience watching someone who was also have a disability. Nick Vujicic was born without limbs of arms and legs. And I have had my third inspiration coming from him.

 

Then after a day that my ex-girlfriend was formally underestimated in our relationship, I went anywhere near our village looking for a job. So I went for my first walk-in job inside of Cainta Greenpark Village that was also near my home in Cainta. And the interview wasn’t my first. But I did passing my first application resume to the employer. But my intentions came crossing thrice at the back of my head. I should also applied to other opportunities: writer in newspaper, call center job and entertainment industry job where I went to Megamall on 23rd of May. I sent many job applications to various employers from newspaper jobs, call center jobs and entertainment industry jobs as well.

 

Fews day after on 27th of May, the call was unexpected I’ve answered from my cellphone around 11 in the morning. The secretary have said that I have to come around 1 in the afternoon. So I changed myself in a better suit of applying a job. When I met two of my bosses before, I was nervous and feeling annoying on my first interview of the year. Then around after 15 to 20 minutes of waiting, one of two bosses interviewed me and I passed the interview evaluation.

 

For continuation of Year-End Special: Story about success, love life and work in a next article, there will be a set of month stories to unfold for a second part of Year-End Special: Story about success, love life and work.

 

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Year-End: Celebrities that I saw this 2013

They were unknown celebrities everywhere I go. Once I step on the entertainment industry, it must be my calling for me to get in. Maybe that was why I’ve had several pictures I saw from them.

 

One from GMA channel I saw, before when my grandparents’ had celebrating their 65th anniversary last March 30, 2013, was none other than German Moreno. German Moreno I knew in my life. I’ve watched his That’s Entertainment television show before. I was glued watching too many shows when I was a kid.

 

Celebrities of 2013

 

The only celebrities I’ve remembered from That’s Entertainment was from Monday group: Francis Magalona, Lotlot de Leon, Isabel Granada, Ruffa Gutierrez, Aiko Melendez, Carmina Villaroel, Ian Veneracion, Isko Moreno and Assunta de Rossi; from Tuesday group: Rita Avila, Billy Joe Crawford, Donna Cruz, Jean Garcia, Maricar de Mesa, Ara Mina, Dingdong Avanzado, Jessa Zaragoza, Janno Gibbs, Manilyn Reynes, Ana Roces, Judy Ann Santos and Gladys Reyes; from Wednesday group: Rachel Alejandro, Jojo Alejar, Sharmaine Arnaiz, Sheryl Cruz, Sunshine Cruz, Karla Estrada, Jennifer Mendoza and Romnick Sarmienta; from Thursday group: Harlene Bautista (sister of Herbert Bautista), Keempee de Leon, Vina Morales, Lea Salonga, Smokey Manoloto and Jennifer Sevilla; and from Friday group: Sunshine Dizon, Kier Legaspi, Glydel Mercado, Kristine Paner, Donita Rose and Cris Villanueva. They were only 42 celebrities I knew from That’s Entertainment and the rest of the cast of That’s Entertainment. I didn’t know much of some their fame in the entertainment industry.

 

Only the remaining names I knew in the entertainment industry were Francis Magalona who died from Leukemia in March 6, 2009, Ruffa Gutierrez, Carmina Villaroel, Assunta de Rossi, Billy Crawford, Ara Mina, Janno Gibbs, Judy Ann Santos, Gladys Reyes, Karla Estrada, Vina Morales and Donita Rose. They were those celebrities I knew that was still in the entertainment industry. If you are correct and I am wrong, just state the reason why I should put their name here that is still active in the entertainment industry.

 

Also Leo Martinez I also saw from my glimpse. It was one early morning around 6:30 am. Leo dropped and parked his car near the tricycle terminal in Cainta Greenpark Village where I was cleaning the school premises.

 

And other celebrities like Angel Aquino, Xyriel Manabat, Sofia Millares and Ina Feleo I had seen in this year of 2013.

 

I saw Angel Aquino twice already but I didn’t have a chance to get glimpse picturing with her. It was long time ago when I first saw her in Southwoods hosting some of an event. Sofia and Xyriel visited the Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines for their guest appearances that DSAPI invited them to come for their numbers. But I got a chance to have picture with them also.

 

The only celebrities that I didn’t have pictures were Angel Aquino and Ina Feleo. Once in a blue moon, those celebrities came into my eyes. And I said to myself, “they were too many celebrities I saw this year of 2013. But sometimes it is a calling for me when will I enter the entertainment industry.“

 

Then again, I’ve ask myself again, “when will the light of entertainment industry will come to me? Is this a calling to me?” I’ve asked too many questions every day at the front of the mirror. Setting aside from photographer, an artist, a writer, a dancer and an entrepreneur from my everyday I always do, there are many chances that I will get to enter the entertainment industry. And one question is when?

 

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Assistant’s desk: Last Christmas party

I’ve never seen my heart so happy when I feel my heart seems to be single all the time. But to tell you the truth, this won’t be the last page of Assistant’s desk. There are more pages to come to tell in the future. As long I’ve been working as an assistant teacher, I’m still who I am and what I tell about my life inside the classroom, inside the school and outside the school also. The sped teacher have been reinforce telling me that I only want to seek with her as a friends after all.

 

Yes, I’m not ready for commitment with who any girls out there. But to tell you the truth, on this coming day of Christmas day, it will be another Christmas year for me again. It’s about who I will celebrate with. And it’s my family. My two sisters are in abroad. And my family still lives here in the Philippines. What can I do to live normally alone with my family? Is there any chances to become in relationship with someone else?

 

No matter how I am single looks like, I am still looking at my heart whenever I feel anxious about with. The person should understand about that. And last Christmas party, the event in the school was great. The parents, the kids, the helpers, the co-workers and my two bosses were also enjoying Christmas event for the year. It was not only for our Christmas. But to tell you the truth, it will become Jesus’ birthday. People have seen the Christmas even happier.

 

But unluckily for those who won’t celebrate Christmas, it will still touch many in the society the presence of Christmas spirit. Christmas spirit from the past, present and future will tell you how you feel about Christmas. And Christmas is all about exchanging gifts and celebrating family reunion. A big family reunion is also about forgiving people who greatly don’t have enough heart to celebrate. And it’s time for a big celebration.

 

And last Friday was also been celebrating great. The staff in the school was stunning to enjoy the lent of Christmas spirit. What if the things turn around? Is there any chances that the sped teacher and I will become part ways? But I’m not sure. Thing has to be done surely and occasionally the deadline also has to beat the date.

 

I was surprised when one of my two bosses celebrated today because of his birthday. I’ve had enjoying the Christmas spirit. The essence of Christmas spirit is also been a heartwarming for everybody. And what about? When I heard about the book of A Christmas Carol written by Charles Dickens, I almost didn’t how the Christmas looks like if there was no Christmas. But the story will tell you the great lessons of being forgiving for those who needs the essence of happiness, the excitement and the eagerness of celebrating Christmas. A Christmas Carol is about Ebenezer Scrooge who a man didn’t believe Christmas and all he wants is his fortunate rich. But at the end of the story, Scrooge gives bonus for his employee. And he also gives the money for those who needs the most. And one day, he will be recognize to anyone who wants need help from him. It’s a great lesson indeed.

 

But in reality, there are many kind of greediness rich people who won’t giving their wealth to share their success with someone who really needs the most. It’s for the unfortunate people who don’t have money. Power, money and all about fame are somehow source of not giving when the Christmas comes around. Politicians here in the Philippines are somehow not kind of someone that I know. But I won’t name of some names here in the article I’m writing about.

 

The essence of Christmas spirit is something you have to celebrate about yourself, share your success story and give some value who wants to hear from you. And it’s not all about that. It is also time for those who have been not believing Christmas.

 

My end of my point of view is that it’s okay to be stay single, enjoy yourself having free time with someone you’ve enjoy with your family time and your loved ones. The relationship between the sped teacher and me has been stay for friendship forever. I don’t want to go down deeper for relationship as long as she deserves someone, the she goes for her commitment that the time will come. The lesson between of two of us has no commitments, but to stay in friendship level.

 

Previous Assistant’s Desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/assistants-desk-moving-forward/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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Love relationship or being single

There are two possible things in life will change in my status – relationship or stay being as a single. There are no other choices in the world. Somehow along the way in my path, this year I should say it’s a blessing for me and for my wonderful life I have to give. What can you deserve to know better?

 

In my side, people would it say that I have to get it married. Soon? I guess it will be possible. But in ordinary days, I would give it a 60 or 80% percent to have a relationship with someone else that I would give my heart to. In our family clan, I am an eldest son in all cousins we have in a clan that I carry my surname with. Hmm…now that’s a stress for me already. Now that I know, I will stay single as long that I am happy although there are many speculations that I will have a girlfriend in the future. If the astrology says so, then I will have a girlfriend.

 

Love relationship? Or is it a marriage that follows after love relationship? What if someday I will be married to someone I’m really deserving to get married? There are a lot of questions still asked at the back of my head. If God persists giving me one, then I would allow to take care of my girlfriend and until then, we will getting married. Commitment is a long-term situation when you allow yourself to commit in a relationship. But a commitment sometimes allows itself to have a longer story first before getting into a marriage or relationship.

 

Being staying as a single is an easy task. When you are born in this world, you will start as a child. It’s a normal already for a child to have crushes to other boys or girls. When a child grows to be a teenager, then a teenager will become loving itself first then love to find a partner. Because all of us are getting to get married when we are getting old. But some singles stay forever. It doesn’t say that you have to stay but you have to decided for yourself.

 

Love relationship or being single is either way forms at the back of your head, a way of giving yourself in a commitment world. Or last to say, it would stay as a single or get a relationship.

 

Today is a Christmas, everyone. Happy holidays and enjoy reading other of my articles to read.

 

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What I know about Lorna Tolentino

Victoria Lorna Aluquin-Fernandez is her real name. But we always call her mostly known as Lorna Tolentino. Lorna Tolentino or L.T. for her abbreviation, was born on December 23, 1961. She turned 52 years old today.

 

We saw Lorna Tolentino growing up as a child actress, then turned up a good actress, a host, an executive producer and a widow of Rudy Fernandez. She gave birth to two wonderful sons, Ralph and Renz Fernandez. But she was also a stepmother to Mark Anthony Fernandez who Rudy Fernandez had a child to another woman. But that is another story from Rudy Fernandez.

 

Lorna had numerous movies in her belt already and also grabbed many awards in the past. From her latest television series Genesis will end soon on Friday which it is slated in evening series. Lorna has worked many projects from RPN channel, GMA Network, ABS-CBN and TV5. One television series I’ve remembered that I watched was Minsan Lang Kita Iibigin (One Great Love) where she portrayed as Alondra Sebastiano-Del Tierro. And she also worked together with Coco Martin, Maja Salvador, Andi Eigenmann, Martin del Rosario and John Estrada. Amy Austria-Ventura, Tonton Gutierrez, Boots Anson-Roa, Ronaldo Valdez and Dante Rivero was also there for supporting cast.

 

She did 34 television cameos and 75 movie appearances in various film projects. And Lorna did as an executive producer with 7 projects under her belt. With 19 awards to her name, Lorna has also 40 nominations today.

 

I didn’t know all about Lorna Tolentino. But I guess I just want to write to her fame from her numerous projects already. If I have a project, maybe I will include her in the future. Or maybe that I am willing to take a risk to gain my own name. Soon, but not later, and it will come to me some time in the future for me.

 

One of the old movies Lorna did in 1990’s was Patayin Sa Sindak Si Barbara (Kill Barbara in Shock). She shared the film with Antoinette Taus, my ultimate crush before. But now, Antoinette resides in California in present times. And Lorna also did twice in Mano Po series in Mano Po 5: Gua Ai Di that was last shown in 2006 and Mano Po 2: My Home in 2003. Lorna joined with Jiro Manio in Magnifico last shown in 2003. But the last she was seen in television series of Genesis where Lorna did portraying as a president of the Philippines leaving the planet going to the spaceship with someone she really shared to love with. But somehow at the end of the series won’t be in top of my list. Because I haven’t watch Genesis yet. Sorry to bother you.

 

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Living being as Down syndrome VII: Being as a single

Part VII: Being single

Being single becomes part an embody of a person’s single hood and deserves to enjoy.

 

What is it all about single? Becoming a single member in a family becomes a part life in a short term and long term of being single all the time. Me? I have relationship with a girlfriend before. But it was my parents who decided not to have with me relating to someone I really love and to have belong with. In this part of article, being as a single doesn’t mean you won’t marrying someone anymore. There are many in the society who remains single. Not that you think about the priests and the nuns. It’s all about you take the meaning of being as a single.

 

What is the essence of becoming a single? Becoming a single in a first place is not a risk. It’s a first step in your life you will able to enjoy the long-term of becoming single or in a short-term if you want to get married soon. Because for me, it’s not a time for me to get married so fast. When you have relationship with someone you really love for and fight for your love to remain with you, it’s not that easy. Sometimes you’ve to get closer with God. With God alone, the person who seeks love will love itself in a longest time.

 

I was getting in denial stage before and yet, there were many trials and challenges for me along the path that I can’t choose for a career. I’ve been shaking in my life trying to get fix all my problems alone. But I was also trying to make relationship with God also. Because it was me who have been greatly troubled and yet in the end, it was you that God has plans to prosper not to hurt you but has plans to get you fix in your troubled mind. I was having trouble seeking myself in the past. And also part of my life of my hindrance before was my condition being having with Down syndrome. I didn’t know how to fix at the end of the day. But it was me all along that will fix in a long-term life. This life we have is our borrowed soul and a soul that we must achieve something great plans He gives to us.

 

And why God is the center for me being as a single? Because I’m almost enjoying my life each and every puzzle of troubles, trials and challenges that awaits for me. For those who seeks more troubles, trials and challenges sometimes have deeper mind at the back of their mind. It tells me for a purpose – to achieve your goal from time to time. And yet you are the center in life that you’ve a purpose. Here are my five quotes and quote stories will help you to understand the meaning of being single:

 

Quote #1:

“I hate to excuse for myself that I don’t have a partner for a longest time.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

You always have alibi all the time. And yet you also encounter many times for your hindrances in your life. What can you do is to love yourself first before you love someone you really love. It’s a first step to have a commitment you really have.

 

On my part, I’ve been also experienced the same way. I’ve loved so much for my girlfriend and I gave the price of being in love for her. But yet, there was an excuse. I’ve never been loved myself first. Instead, I seek deeper with God and find a good job that suit for my happiness. It is not about finding a partner. It’s all about you if you’re ready for a commitment for your partner.

 

Quote #2:

“There’s no one else in this world who really loves me the most of the time.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

This is also an issue for every each person around the world. Have you been heard about me? I’m not ordinary. But I am a special adult who has a special case being having a condition with Down syndrome. I’ve also been encountering there was no one else who loves me the most. My family loves me. My friends also loves me. My relatives also loves me. What else you cannot love for? Love yourself first before you love someone else. And enjoy your life being as a single.

 

Quote #3:

“I want to get married as a young person and have to get have more children.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

This is also an issue here in the Philippines. I have friends who wants to get married in a certain young age. And a younger age sometimes is already an issue for a population for this country of Philippines. Why? There are many cases but I won’t name some names about it.

 

My case about me, I will stay longer as a single as long I’m happy. And when the time comes and someone who deserves me most, the single status will become married status when the time comes.

 

Quote #4:

“Love thy will be done, love who most needs you the most and love thy not seeking for another partner.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

This is a serious cases around the world. And it’s already a sin says the bible. It’s a case of adultery and seeking more partners. In moslem bible, you can have more than three wives. But I won’t give any more details because it’s already a serious case. It might get hurt from you when I am writing about this quote and the quote story as well.

 

Quote #5:

“Seek who you love, seek a thousand notes and sometimes there’s only one you’ve really need the most in your life.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

And this quote tells a different story than the rest of four quotes above. This is all about the Shakespeare that I’m reading about. And I love the sonnets and stories that William Shakespeare tells about his stories. But sometimes he also encounter the troubled mind he had with his wife, Anne Hathaway. This is a real story about William Shakespeare and Anne Hathaway in their real lives before. But now you’ve seen the fake Anne Hathaway in movies who have many cameo roles in different stories, I’m ashamed that someone takes the name of Anne Hathaway.

 

But the quote says, “there’s only one you’ve really need the most in your life” at the end of quote line. It breaks my heart when the commitment comes around first. Because I’ve encountered first with my first fling girlfriend that broke my heart so easily. Then at the back of my head telling me it was not my life telling you about. It’s all about if you’re ready for a commitment. I guessed it was wrong decision for me after all. And it was also a great lesson that I need to learn about.

 

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Song tells a life-breathtaking story

Troubled Mind (Sacred song)

 

Feel about time and

phase out the stress,

feel about sorrow

and phase out your sadness,

tell me what’s wrong

in your troubled mind.

 

I get lost and weary

and I get depressed,

I get surprised and anxious

and I get frustrated,

I get in love and busted

when I feel about you,

there’s no time between us,

there’s no time between

the longest time we ever have.

 

In this quite journey for me

I long to tell you

that I’ve my condition,

in this quite journey for you

you long to forget

that you must pray and tell.

 

Feel about time and

phase out the stress,

feel about sorrow

and phase out your sadness,

tell me what’s wrong

in your troubled mind.

 

Oh, I am lost (I am still lost)

oh, I’ve been forsake (I am still forsaken)

oh, there are no miracles

oh, there are many doubts

oh, there are many fears

when I seek out at the end of the day

I almost get out of my troubled mind

that I almost forget about

is Him above, the sacred king.

 

He who will never give

forsake about you,

He who will give

miracles for you everyday,

He who will never give

fears and doubts

and I surrender my soul to Him above.

 

The story:

What is Troubled Mind (Sacred song)?

 

This was all about me who have been troubled mind in a longest time period in 14 years. And there was a time that I’ve had been in denial stage for a long time. And yet for about 7 years and 7 months, it broke for my emotions. It was all because that I’ve never stayed for a work that I all wanted. Being as an assistant teacher or as a teacher didn’t choose me. But it is a fate that chooses me. There were many hindrances in my life before. I’ve never thought or crossed at the back of my head becoming as an assistant teacher. I’ve never helped myself. I almost tripped out of all my problems, my trials and my challenges that awaits for me. What else can you become if you have a part of being having with Down syndrome in your case? It’s really hard for me. My parents didn’t tell me. My sisters didn’t tell me either. Or my relatives or my friends had never been telling me each time I’ve faced my troubles.

 

I am surely that I am matured already becoming to face what’s reality or not. I guess there are many trials and challenges that await for me to handle. And late last year or this year when 2013 came, my sister told me that I have a brother who has ADHD. At first, I don’t know what to do. But at the end of the day, I always ask God what plans he would rather chooses me the best. I came from a place where people celebrated from a church who listened to the word of God. Then I give myself a better chance to change my life.

 

When I visited for a fourth time in Rico Yan’s place, I’ve met someone who really loved me the most. In a span of 8 days, we enjoyed ourselves becoming my first relationship with her. She was the one who speaks to have handling relationship with me and I said yes. But suddenly with a range of disillusions, we partly changed ways and I broke her heart momentarily. Because my parents said it was not a time yet for me to marry her. This was all about doubts and fears that surrounded my thoughts before. There were no what-ifs that time and there were no second chances backing out. We were talking about marriage the way she said it to me. All she wanted to have a marriage to someone she really loved so much. What can you do all about the troubled mind? I guessed it was already the song chooses me after all.

 

Troubled Mind (Sacred song) is a song of life-breathtaking story about me. This is my second chance to fall in love and commit with God alone to focus what plans has been made and set it for me. And I declare my words to tell you that I”m ready to face another chapter year for the year of 2014.

 

Troubled Mind (Sacred song) is another one of my composition songs that I made it for today’s literature. And I guess if the time has come, it will be a big celebration if there will be a time someone who deserves me the most because I choose the right girl for me. When will it come? Sooner I think at the back of my head.

 

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Assistant’s desk: Moving forward

I have no ideas where I will get new inspirations when my special education teacher is leaving so soon. The replacement has already working with us already. And there’s another new teacher inside the school. What if our friend has not to go in America? What if she doesn’t want to finish her work with us until March? What if the chain hasn’t stop us to change the good settings inside the school? All of these questions are too much to ask at the back of my head.

 

Then at the this point, our special education teacher has already settling leaving few days to go now. And the replacement of special education teacher is somewhat I’m not enjoying her company. Boy, time really goes by and fly by itself. The months are already been off in the calendar. And it’s almost finish for the rest of the year 2013. And the incoming 2014 is getting under way on its new level.

 

And we also have another new teacher which it’s preschool teacher. They are good teachers. But sometimes I miss the point missing two teachers have already pass at the time of height exchanging new teachers as well. But I don’t what to say to the two teachers.

 

I don’t want to name some names or putting their revealing the names inside at my article I’m writing about. To tell you the truth. What if time will not buy moving forward? What if time has to stop so I can have chatting with her a longer time? All of these questions are also made to have setting new answers. But sometimes at the back of my head, what can I do to stop her not to leave? I may forsake not to leave her alone with my side. And maybe I don’t know.

 

Sometimes, without knowing it, fearing it or doubting it, I will always ask questions inside at the back of my head thinking what moves should I do. To tell you the truth, the two teachers have no inside qualities to me after all. But this girl proves me providing with her knowledge for these kids also. I also love these kids. But in my heart alone, without this girl I know. There’s nobody I can share my inspiration with her inside at the back of my head.

 

What if she doesn’t need to leave and have to leave so soon? I can do something not losing hope with her. But I can do something with my little skills that I spare with my talents. At the end of the day, without losing hope is sometimes have to moving forward.

 

Moving forward is also hard to move on. But sometimes, there’s also an acceptance stage you have to carry out with your life. What if I really fall for her? Is there a chance loving me inside for her? Maybe these questions won’t bother this in the future.

 

At the end of this article, this 10th Assistant’s desk has already peak to its prime-time numbers. With 10 articles, somehow I already have to not write anymore if she don’t come back and work with us again. Hopefully if she reads this article I write for her. I really love you much even if I don’t know what to say really about for her.

 

Previous Assistant’s Desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/12/01/assistants-desk-regular-employee/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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Small step turns into bigger dreams: 15 years now

Things are not easy or difficult today. After delivering 1,000 sets of poems, sonnets, songs, poem stories and even quotes, they were already infinite numbers already that I made into this date.

 

What’s 15 years now?

 

15 years now is my anniversary today. And December 10, 1998 was the day that set me into a bigger dreams today and have had bigger responsibility to make a studio name.

 

What’s the original name before?

 

The original name were Cobalt 27 and Excess 48. But I’ve made my studio name before in blogspot.com before moving into another new platform, wordpress.com.

 

WordPress.com is my new home today and has different pattern levels from blogspot.com. But I’ve managed to write few articles before in blogspot. Then after, I’ve shut it down and let it cool for 9 years. Then last year March 16, 2012 was my first month of writing down the articles. And I was still remembered what I wrote for my first article called, Expecting the unreal world. The article was shown related to the introduction thus I also released World of employment for the second article I’ve also made for the day.

 

What’s a small step turns into bigger dreams?

 

A small step to my dreams before was making airwaves to have getting into entertainment industry in the Philippines. But my small step now turns now into bigger dreams. And the bigger news is that I’m also aiming worldwide if I make to be on top of publishing house and create my own version of writing a set of stories, quotes and literature poems, sonnets and also making into songs.

 

Other my bigger dreams are helping the Down syndrome awareness around the world, making the disability to have work into their lives and helping hands with other countries which they don’t have sufficient food in their country. What’s a goal? The goal is getting to be an ambassador. That’s a bigger idea and a dream already.

 

What’s next blessing will come?

 

I don’t know which blessing will come, but I have to wait. It’s worth to wait and wait but not getting to jump into conclusions that I know already what will it come. So I decide to wait instead.

 

In the nutshell:

 

Itsmikki Studio celebrates every January 1. But the anniversary date is on December 10. The facebook page said it was on July 4, 2012. And so the history will remain continue making new pages and new chapters.

 

ItsMikkiStudio Literature also sets on December 10 when the day sets opening new stories, new pages and new literary works where it begins a new chapters and it is also opening a new books. Itsmikki Studio: First book is already done. But the Itsmikki Studio: Second book is still ongoing.

 

What’s new?

 

I’ll release the new sets of literary quotes soon next year. And I hope you will wait for me to read more of my quote stories and also the quote poems.

 

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Who inspires about me the most

Sunset on the East

Untitled Love Song

 

I am not the person

who would like you

the most in your life

I am not the person

who would you care

in span of years

and I am not the person

if I lose my ground

just to be with you

all the time.

 

I can’t break in,

I can’t choose one,

I can’t take it

but I’m willing to

sacrifice if I want to

fall in love again

but at the time I make

myself smiling again

then I would be

the happiest just to

be with you in my life.

 

Then I will be a chance

that I’m a guy for you,

it’s for you that I’m ready

it’s a miracle in life when

I finally recognize myself

deserves you the most,

then it would be a day

I would be ready…

then again…

to love you more easy

to this day.

 

I am not the person

who would come in

your doors and knocking

I am not the person

who would serenade you

and sing my song for you

and I am not the person

if I lose my ground

just giving flowers and

chocolates then

you turn me down.

 

I can’t break in,

I can’t choose one,

I can’t take it

but I’m willing to

sacrifice if I want to

myself smiling again

then I would be

the happiest just to

be with you in my life.

 

Then I will be a chance

that I’m a guy for you,

it’s for you that I’m ready

it’s a miracle in life when

I finally recognize myself

deserves you the most,

then it would be a day

I would be ready…

then again…

to love you more easy

to this day.

 

I fight my life

just to live with you

I fight my own path

just to continue my dreams

but I can’t fall for you again

if you’re not ready with me

then I will be a wasted

just to try falling for you

I would be ready if

you’re doing for deserving

me the most in your life

then it will be a day

for us to get walk

back one more chance…

soon to get in touch with you.

 

NOTES: 

 

I write this medley love song just today. I don’t know when I will get a chance to get married. The pressure in our family roots is trying me to get falling in love again. Is there any chances that I would falling in love again? Maybe it’s not a time just to say to the girl that I will marry her instantly. That’s already a fairy tale to me. And it’s not a story who would two persons are ready to fall in love just to get married in one, two or maybe in four years ready to get married. That would be an awful one experience.

 

And it’s Untitled Love Song. But the main concern in my life, who would inspires me the most?

 

People will ask me when I will be getting married. My friends say to me it would take time to reveal who would take me to get married with me? And some others say, what are your plans if you’re married already? These are the chances to get ask in questions. And there’s always a doubts and fears whether I like to get married or not. And things are not the same before.

 

I have relationship with a girl who broke my heart. And after that, I don’t know if I may find another girl who really deserves me the most. But she is younger than me. At the same age, sometimes I find myself lacking one trait in my life – trust. Of course, every girl wants a trust from a guy they really want to get married. But at the end of the day, is there any chances to think at the back of their mind if they are backing out in their marriage? Infidelity is the worst. Even the unfaithful is also worse. But the bad thing is when you will get to say to your partner if you’re not ready – to have commitment with you.

 

They are prettiest faces I would see every day in facebook. They inspire me the most. And I drive myself to get inspired again from them. What if I turn down? Or what if I will get married? Who would love to get inspired about me? No one girl seems want to get close with me. And I don’t want myself to get relationship with another girl who would break me easily again. My last relationship should be the one who deserves the most. And I want to be her with my life to have commitment, relates to someone with my own story and who will deserves me the most.

 

There are numerous names at the back of my head if I have a given chance to get a date from each of them. But if I’m lucky, then she would be the one for me and not hurting me again. I just don’t love from their kindness, but I’m looking who will deserve me the most of who I am today. And I’m giving a chance for her to get know about me and to get respect about me.

 

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Living being as Down syndrome VI

There are numerous cases that the scientists bring more sensitive cases like Down syndrome who is willing to abort the disability. Their ability to know has to get it off. My opinion about for the doctors, don’t let it abort. Let the disability of Down syndrome approves in life to live longer, doing their lives independently and learn their self-care around the house. People with Down syndrome has prove that everyone is going to give more love, care, understanding and teach with them with full of unconditional love.

 

On my experience today as I am an assistant teacher in the school, I also have Down syndrome. Mosaic Down syndrome. And I’ve realize how I am important to my family as well. There are many discrimination cases around the nation of Philippines. Whether if a person has a disability or not, they should know how to respect and to honor like them. Now that I am aiming for a better world, somehow I feel the cases around the nation as well.

 

I have few friends with a disability. But to tell you the truth, with them I feel secure to tell them my life. And my life somehow shares my thoughts to be tell them what the world looks like when you are stepping inside the real world. But I feel for others too. The world has already in four billion population around the world. And there is no stopping to have be born around the world without a disability. Even in a bible says that even before has also disabilities. Well I thought it wasn’t real, now I was even more careful what I’ve had to say to other people, too.

 

Sadly these people has to create more illness words for us. And discrimination is also the main concern about the world’s thoughts. Can you say how you really acknowledge us without hurting a single word for us? Or even if this says it’s right, then I guess there’s no problem anymore. But sometimes, I feel the same way too at the back of my head thinking it’s not real. I guess there are more unimaginable people around the world without thinking the word of a disability.

 

Like ADHD for example, there are many kinds around from the field of ADHD. When I found out that my brother has ADHD, my lips are sealed already. I don’t want to bring an issue inside the house. I learned from my work even the ASD or anti-social disorder has the field of explanation. Whether is good or not, I feel for others as well.

 

Quote #1:

“There are many reasons why the disability can’t be closed around the world. Without a disability, we can’t change without them.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

I have seen a lot of parents change their child from wrong to right. And I also met new parents when I entered in the school for my new job description in my resume. It only began changing my world with the kids in the school. I also have a heart for autism also. But I don’t have favoritism from all of them. Each of them has own personalities. One kid from a school change my life when I see them having difficult to understand us. But somehow being as a disability has a big heart.

 

Whether it’s Down syndrome, ADHD or autism, there are all alike each other. Because one of them has own unique talent and characteristic trait also. One of them I met through the school where I was working. It’s about time to change the reality full of doubts and fears into full of surprises and full of positivity sides. Each of disability also has love of their own lives.

 

Quote #2:

“One has to be hated and one has to set side because he or she has an attitude. What’s the matter being as a disability? People with disability can change you half of your life. And they are living sacrifices before us.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

Attitude is not a problem for a kid or an adult with disability. But with an attitude in real life consists having no heart for people like us. People with a disability has own character. And I also have own character. But sometimes I don’t like my attitude as well when I feel different to others. It’s all because I also have a behavior problem in my life. We all have behavior problem. But the main concern there, it’s about who you really are. And I feel belong with disability rights as well. And I can’t figure out what I really like the most.

 

Being sensitive is also my concern. But sometimes even with a sensitive mind in my life can’t change that well, but I learn in many different ways to achieve some important lesson in our achievements in our lives.

 

Quote #3:

“I hate people who are crowded to say that you’re not belong here anymore. Being despite that I have Down syndrome, people convince me to register them in good manners.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

What I really do the most in my life is to write something good from bad experiences in my life. Instead of making good and positive articles, sometimes I have to put some few negative derogatory articles also. Well, sometimes I don’t my attitude as well. What I really mean to say is, what you are doing good to your life, it will reward for you in the possible time.

 

I can do something every little in lives when you’re really a deserving person. In my case, I don’t have one. People who discriminate to other people often tells how we can drive them in good manners. And I also don’t know a word how to describe them either. It’s either how you can communicate in a good way and not in a bad way.

 

Quote #4:

“The main ingredient in our lives is unconditional communication. But some others don’t call unconditional communication but concerns us even more.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

Communication is a better tool to appreciate people with disability. Whether it’s ADHD, Down syndrome, Autism or other abnormalities as well is the main ingredient in our lives. Because each of them has own to understand them very well. But the condition sometimes grows the concern in our lives. How can we teach them properly? Sometimes, I call it an unconditional communication. Unconditional communication is something I’ve discover recently when I am learning some new ideas as an assistant teacher. And being as an assistant teacher, there’s a great teacher. And a great teacher is very noble profession in any countries as well.

 

Unconditional communication brings more concerns to every new parents and every new family when someone in your family has a disability. One parent to another parent is sometimes arguing to a heated conversation. When a heated conversation opens up, the unconditional communication opens up in a shorter way or a longer way to explain between two parties as well. You don’t have to be angry each time you open up in a conversation. But you have to be calm every time and have to be patience as well. When you have a patience in your life, you will discover in your life that you have a self-patience in your life. And you have to start today, not tomorrow but today. Change is sometimes a motive to motivate your life with full of positive notes and being as an optimistic also.

 

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Begin a new life, open a new discovery

I appreciate my life today whole-heartedly as well. But consuming my time writing down of an article sometimes I often thinking at the back of my head, what will happen for me incoming new year of 2014? Is it possible to do your dreams when you are in the right track? What can I do next? My life today is being as an assistant teacher. And there’s a new special education teacher as well in the class. But I am going to say that there are more people who are willing to teach us in a real world also.

 

With my loading cellphone business on my back, my other option for opening business as well is also my concern regarding to my work. I don’t know if it will conflict my schedule next year. But I have to know and work it well starting in January 2014.

 

The plans are starting to open so soon. My greater opportunities are starting to pay me well next year. And that will be opening a new job details in my job position as well. I’m putting to make a banner for Angels Walk 2014 and Happy Walk 2014 in January and February respectively.

 

A new book sometimes opens for a new possibilities in life. When you say a new book, begin a new life and open a new discovery early next year.

 

Angels Walk 2014 will begin in SM Mall of Asia music hall on January 19, 2014, Sunday morning. The Angels Walk only participates in the morning from 8 am to 12 pm. And I am sure there are more to come years that I will support the Angels Walk. Because when a person starts to invite me, my opportunity will grab instantly to support and to share the secret story in life also. And why is it called an Angels Walk? It’s because you have to ‘Be An Angel for Autism.‘

 

Happy Walk 2014 will also begin next year on February 23, 2014, also on Sunday morning to afternoon that sets a schedule in a daytime program set by the organizers. Happy Walk is a walk for those who has Down syndrome. And why is it called a Happy Walk? It’s because you have to ‘Step Up For Down.‘

 

Both Angels Walk and Happy Walk does to do it every year. Angels Walk is from Autism Society Philippines who celebrates 25 years already in the Philippines history. And Happy Walk is from Down Syndrome Association of the Philippines who celebrates 22 years already. DSAPI started way back on 1992 but the ASP started earlier on 1989.

 

I have no motto already today, because there are numerous times already that I posted a lot of quotes for being having posting a motto in quotes. Mottos are also being written in quotes. Whatever I do, I begin a new life and open a new discovery.

 

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My other friends misjudge me for having Down syndrome

When I published my stories of How I overcome Down syndrome, Why Down syndrome and What’s wrong to have Down syndrome that posted in my studio journal diaries.

 

After three successful different pattern stories, this time I will tell you how I feel from my friends. When I asked my new friends in a new place that I met them, what would you have feel if you have a friend with Down syndrome?” My instance at the back of my head if I could give them a right answer. But at the end of the day, they asked me again. And I’ve accepted whole-heartedly being having with my condition of Down syndrome.

 

Melissa Riggio who also has Down syndrome just like me. But I’ve managed to overcome my mind about having my condition throughout my life. And I know how I will explain what the world Down syndrome is meaning all about.

 

I have mosaic Down syndrome. And being as a mosaic Down syndrome, two pairs of chromosomes are normal but another extra chromosome which it contains 47 chromosomes and why it has an extra chromosome in the first place. Which it is only mean that I really I have Down syndrome.

 

Then I’ve asked myself again when I got my first PWD card (person with disability), I saw upon myself what the term of chronic illness is.

 

Chronic illness is the long-life disability in your case to case scenario. Which it means it can’t be off with me. It only means that I still have chronic illness is. But at first, when I heard about chronic illness, I’ve started giving myself having with a strict diet. I’ve been doing since 1st of April without eating a rice. And I’ve been practicing before with three times already. They were successfully. But at my fourth time I’ve given myself a strict diet, I’ve begin to have giving myself being also a vegetarian. I’ve never done that before. Salad is always my favorite meal every time I eat and also goes to vegetables.

 

But to tell you the truth, chronic illness to me has gone to my mind. I only remind myself that I have to put myself enjoying my life. I don’t have other illnesses.

 

To date today, I have a work and I work as a hard worker. And I work consistently. I also have passion to the children which it’s my duty serving, assisting and helping regular and special children in the school. Here in my work, I am happier than my three previous jobs. And I love my new community as well – to parents, to my bosses and to my co-workers as well.

 

Those who also have same disability like me

 

Now that I’ve accepted myself with being having as a mosaic Down syndrome, I’ve overwhelmed when I speak my success story to new parents I meet along the way in my road. What’s the meaning to have condition like me?

 

It’s just to be like you as normal as everybody does. I love drawing, singing mostly, dancing mostly, writing and directing some animated short films. Or maybe I also want to try some other options as well – to become as an ambassador to Special Olympics or in the country also.

 

Work environment

 

My work place is different setting, different job description and different passion. My other three job descriptions were in the field of culinary. But I’ve never enjoyed inside the kitchen. So, what’s your passion? I’ve also been thinking someday if I can cook again. To tell the truth honestly, I miss cooking in the kitchen and practicing with my knife skills and culinary-minded also.

 

I also landed to get a certificate in contact center agent in training program. And I’ve successfully got it within 13 days. My attendance was perfect. And I didn’t know my english will getting improving. At the back of my head, I’ve been practiced trying to complete sentence to perfect sentence throughout my life. I am not a good writer to tell you a truth. But it seems I’m telling a story already.

 

Dream job: Dancer / Artist / Songwriter / Photographer

 

I’ve been dreaming to get in entertainment industry in a long-run dreams already. And I think it’s my long-term dreams to get attaining my dreams. I really love to dance and follow all songs I love to hear. What’s my passion? I also love to write poetry. Poetry means a lot to me since December 1998. And I’ve made a hundreds of poems, sonnets, songs and stories to date itself already. To added, I’ve also beginning to like writing quotes and making picture quotes as well.

 

One day in my life today, what will my world looks like in the future? Would I still continue to dream as a dancer, artist making animation short films and at the same time, photography? There a lots to me doing actively in my life today. And I’ve earn buying my first cellphone in my life – android phone. It was my first hardworking money.

 

You see yourself but what about me?

 

I see around myself everywhere in the world already. But I want you to know that you don’t have a right to look at me having with a disability. Look at me as a normal person. I am always happy to get around with my friends, my family, my relatives and looking for a girlfriend today.

 

Don’t look at me. Look at me as your friend. And I’ve always want you to respect me. Having a condition with intellectual disability doesn’t mean stopping you to be friends with me. Think and hold your thoughts.

 

What is Down syndrome?

 

Down syndrome is an intellectual disability in the Philippines. Around 500 to 1,000 babies in the Philippines are born each year. A person with Down syndrome has 47 chromosomes. A normal can only have 46 chromosomes. Extra chromosome is an extra care, full patience, capacity of understanding and a lot of love. Physical characteristics of a Down syndrome has similar structure in ears, slant face, tongue, slant body and other characteristics as well. Down syndrome has a nature of being as down-to-earth attitude and can manage to give you a long happiness in a day. Those who are similar with Down syndrome have unique characteristics and unique intelligence.

 

In the nutshell

 

If I leave this world behind me, I want everyone has to focus not only being as a disability, but I want the whole world to look me as a normal friend who can chat with you all day, have a long walk and have enjoying your life. Being having with Down syndrome in my life is not my weakness anymore, but my strength is to give everyone to understand what it feels to have disability in the first place. I want to live longer if I can. Each of us with Down syndrome live long-life individually. It’s not a comprehension whether you have a short life span or a long life span. It’s about a legend who gives a true meaning of Down syndrome – being having with an awesome syndrome.

 

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Living being as Down syndrome V: Positive attitude

PART V-1: Positive

Positive reinforces new outlook in life whether thinking is good and not bad.

 

I’ve always take good chances when life borrows us. Life is good and live to the fullest. That is the term I’ve always using at the back of my head when my world needs to know educating people who have low self-esteem in their life. I’ve never been thinking at the back of my head what is going really in my head. And to swallow my pride sometimes takes new opportunity to make a change – to be better person. My bad habits are changing well so soon enough. And it will replace the good reinforcements in the little mind of my brain department – to be also good mood.

 

I am never setting myself bad always when I am entering in the school where I am going to work. The parents love to see my smile every day. And the children are the happiest in the planet. Many others want to argue and to complain, but sometimes you need to take a rest. And you have to get setting aside from your bad mood to good mood. What explains you the most?

 

I’ve explain you later my quote stories below. My life was in denial stage before. Thus it became a negative reinforcement inside at the back of my head. Every day and night, I think at the back of my head clinging some bad motives in my life. Whether I challenged myself everyday not to think about good mood. I’ve hated the good mood before. But at home, I was always happy. Because I did almost everyday watching television shows, playing computer games, drawing some of my unique dreams and chatting all day inside at the back of my head. What did I do? Nothing.

 

It was unbelievable for me to change from negative to positive reinforcements in my life. I’ve been changing positive mood everyday from negative mood in the past. In this date, I’ve been challenging new problems, new blocks inside at the back of my head and new pain that causes me everyday. But to tell you the truth, I’ve never been feeling good today.

 

Quote #1:

“I hate myself doing nothing. And I don’t want to be exempted in one place, but to be exceptional is not also an excuse.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

Half of my life did the best all I do in the world. My achievements were to able graduating both in high school and college. Because not everyone can attain that highest level. Everyone has to leave and find a work in exchange to help their family needs. Well, for me, it’s different. I know it’s hard. But you have to be example for everyone in the world. People will exclaiming the excitement in their faces and telling you that you are doing the best what you can do to them.

 

And for the part of exceptional is not also an excuse. I’m also setting a good example aside from my newest inspirational hero – Nick Vujicic. Nick don’t have limbs, a pair of legs and arms. He has different story and so am I. We also value the word of disability. But being as a disability doesn’t make exceptions. The only word you’ve really hate to hear is an attitude. I will also tackling about the attitude problem later in this part of an article.

 

Quote #2:

“I’m not good in the field of my subject, but other of my subjects are excellent. I’ll never able to top in the class.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

This is always an issue from every student in the world having a problem in their subject. I was also having problem when I was a teenager before. But my grades in elementary were poor performance. But in high school or the middle school have set new scores in my life. I was only excelling in science, arts and music when I’ve entered freshman year and sophomore year in high school. Later on, I found myself in the corner adding new favorite subject – literature that entered in my junior year in high school. And added for the best subject that challenged me was economics. Economics was a best grade I’ve ever had in my graduating year in high school. I’ve never felt that I became good in that field. People found economics so hard to study. But with all my help back tracking of my history mind, I became part of memorizing some part of historical dates.

 

Kids and teenagers set new problems in this generation – a digital age. People find it hard too. Because of this technology, you have to set schedules between your play time in computer, leisure time in computer and study time also in computer. How will you know if your kid is doing performing very well? Set a new rules inside of your house rules. And I am telling you that this digital age shall never experiencing this kids with this kind of technology for their leisure time and play time. Set your mind with study time and research time.

 

PART V-2: Attitude

Attitude is the problem focusing the behavior of a human.

 

Quote #3:

“You encounter so many big deals in your life but because of that, you hate being as a sarcastic mind.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

I have a bad behavioral before. But to tell you the truth, I’ve already overcome and change my values setting aside from my attitude being as a responsible person. And I have no idea in my entire life that I really do the best that I can. My family believe me as of now. What if the world is looking and reading my point of my views?

 

I have mosaic Down syndrome. Mosaic is a “copy of pair of chromosomes are normal and the third copy is an extra pair of chromosome.” Sometimes I also have sarcastic mind dealing some bad behavior at the back of my head. But I’ve never been setting my new goal in a different path. And I am so blessed that I’m really changing my whole life now.

 

Quote #4:

“The only disability in life is an attitude.“

 

I have seen normal people arguing and discriminating against the human rights. And human rights are sometimes to be called people with disability. I’ve heard some community about this quote a few months ago. And I will explain the term of being as an attitude.

 

Attitude or behavioral problem in human is discussing about the physical, mentally and spiritually about the person’s behavior. Sometimes I make myself wrong also in my past years. But now I am changing my values to set new attitudes in life – to help others individually.

 

But normally, other people are exclaiming the discrimination from our side of being disability. Their problem is their attitude. They never change and sometimes they feel that they are leaving behind the circle of a community inside of their barriers. And I let go of other people being having with sensitive issues. I’ve never done that before.

 

Quote #5:

“Don’t make yourself to excuse in the real world making you really don’t like about people with disability or not.”  ~quoted from IMS Ltre. (ItsMikkiStudio Literature)

 

People are always people. And humans are always humans. But it never gone too far from animal to human. It can’t be like that anymore. The human evolution is already change from the past to the present times. Others feel about their attitude whether you have disability or not. People may dismay about your feelings. But I also feel that way too. Before I am not sensitive in some other cases. But now, I am challenging people with their attitude problem to make a change to positive reinforcements.

 

There are some issues before regarding the word of “a,” “r” and “s.” But I don’t want bringing up this words inside the article post. Because I’m getting fuming really. But I am as a friendly person who can welcome you instead. But these are the words I don’t want to hear from them. Because they have bad mouths. And bad mouths are somewhat boasting their lives exposing in the real world that at the end of the day, you are left alone already. Once you gone out, you won’t come back anymore.

 

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Assistant’s desk: Regular employee

It’s finally reached at the highest mark of my job description and changed my entire resume. My outline today is regular employee. I’ve been dreaming about getting a regular job someday. And I did it on my best where I didn’t get easy jobs before.

 

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Even my favorite huggable student has left from the school when the classes were over. But the classes are not over when she leave the school. I’ve been promising myself to visit her again but this time, in her home in the future. I’ve been crying last night and today also. I’ve been wondering what my tears say all about for me. But the good news don’t get me wrong.

 

I’ve been staying, enjoying and disputing my excitement everywhere here in my status: regular employee. But I must say no matter what my salary says in my resume doesn’t matter to me. All I want is a regular job. And I prove it in by making a history. It all tells the matter where I can stay and work for choosing a job before. It brought me back before when I was applying other than my three previous jobs before. I even didn’t get finish my second course – digital course. It made no sense before. But now it broke my tears today.

 

I’ve been sharing all my life with my success growth. But all I can say is growing up to be responsible person in each and every way in my life. New parent always asks me where I can get all my happiness. My answer is that I am getting my happiness from your child. Because the child is the one who carries more happiness than anyone else. But seemingly I don’t want to get assuming this so far.

 

New students as well, there are more students gaining in our school premises today. Even though we’re not look alike. I have mosaic Down syndrome. Each one of my characteristics still stay in my feature – my ears, my tongue, my hips and my legs. But my face isn’t normal with other similar conditions.

 

People says that I don’t have Down syndrome. But each time I said to them, I still have few characteristics of being Down syndrome. Then later on, they realized already about my features. People may deserve to know what I am doing today. But now I am proud to have a regular job. Today’s a wonderful day. And each wonderful day teaches me how to stand independently on my own. And I carry all my life to be the best.

 

Is that all makes sense? If you are correct, then let me now. If I am wrong, then also let me know. There are difference about correct and wrong. Sometimes I make perspectives wrong about myself. My two bosses are my friends now. Each time I laugh, they also laugh. Each time I make some funny comments, they laugh. Each time I bring my happiness inside the school, all the parents, co-workers and of course, the children come inside. I also bring some happiness to everyone. This is one who makes my day so far.

 

It’s the best job I’ve acquire in my job description today. Someday I also want to follow my grandmother’s footsteps – to become teacher as well teaching my subjects to them. But it seems that I’m relying on my weakness subjects. My strength subjects are science, arts, english and elementary math. But somehow the history also makes prove the best for me. All three subjects are normally my poor grades before and now it become my favorite subjects. But I seem relying too much from my perspective mind at the back of my head. And each time I’ve encountered is a little fortunate to my little ideas at the back of my head.

 

What it feels to be like a teacher when you’re not expecting? It feels good to be happy all the time.

 

And how it feels to be around inside the classroom? Excellent.

 

Being as an assistant teacher and being having with a condition of Down syndrome is the greatest gift in my life. It considers me making a new history in the map of Philippines and the same way goes to my life also. People will discover how the greatness becomes happiness of all time. What do I get? It is to become optimistic and limitless person. That’s why.

 

Previous Assistant’s Desk article posts:

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/29/assistants-desk-revealing-new-dreams/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/17/assistants-desk-smallest-dream-achieved/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/11/03/assistants-desk-five-months/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/16/assistants-desk-page-5/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/10/assistants-desk-page-4/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/09/assistants-desk-page-3/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/08/assistants-desk-page-2/

https://itsmikki.wordpress.com/2013/08/03/assistants-desk/

 

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